Da Deyun

The young master squatted beside the bed, neither flustered nor sad, just staring at Tao Yang motionlessly.

It's been a while.

Tao Yang looked at the orange light and shadow outside the window, it was almost dusk, so time passed so fast.She lowered her head to look at the young master, her eye circles were red and bloodshot, she just looked at him without saying a word.

Tao Yang smiled, raised his hand to grab his earlobe, and said, "I'm going to cry again."

The young master pulled his hand down and held it in his palm, feeling the coolness of his fingertips.

Tao Yang took his hand, without looking angry with him at all, and said, "It's cold on the ground."

The young master closed his eyes and suppressed his emotions, then got up and sat on the side of the bed, helped Tao Yang's shoulders to lean against his chest, and wrapped the quilt tightly around him.

"Tao." He called out.Her throat trembled a little, but she couldn't speak anymore.

Tao Yang moved his body, found a comfortable position to lean against, and said calmly and without emotion: "You have your own way, your responsibility, what you should do..."

As he spoke, his eye circles turned red, and his voice trembled when he spoke; the young master was behind him, he couldn't see his expression, he just increased the strength of his arm.

"You are my destiny." If he doesn't listen to what Tao Yang said, he understands all the truths, but understanding and being able to do it are two different things.

It is very important for a person to live in the world to take responsibility; but compared to you, even being alive is not important.

Tao Yang smiled. .Somewhat bitter but full of relief.Sitting up straight, he turned around and looked at the young master, watching his teardrops slipping into his collar without knowing when.

Tao Yang grabbed his cuff and wiped it for him, the young master still pulled his hand down and held it in his palm, and said one by one: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

At that time in Jialing Pass, if he understood his painstaking efforts, if he knew his helplessness, if he understood his thoughts, how could he return to Shengjing disheartened and obey his mother's order to get married.

He is blaming himself.

Without all these, he still has a chance, and courage, and can be desperate.

"From then on, you must miss me like this." Tao Yang held his face up, and the two looked at each other, one full of bitterness and the other gentle and calm. .Said: "You are accompanied by a lover, and you will have both children and grandchildren, and this is... all done by me."

At first, I wanted to calm down, calm down and give him a smile, at least not to cry while watching the silence; but when it came to the last sentence, Tao Yang himself began to cry; what a good-for-nothing, the good-for-nothing young man Woolen cloth.

"Don't..." Tao Yang's words were like the last grass that broke the camel's back, defeating the young master's remaining rationality and uncontrollable sadness.

The young master leaned down and buried his face in Tao Yang's neck, the strength of the embrace seemed to want to rub him into his body, shouting over and over again: "A Tao..."

This name was the master of his life for the first 20 years, and it became his biggest regret for the rest of his life.Just two words can make him cry.

Tao Yang patted him on the back, coaxing him but he couldn't say any words of comfort; in fact, you don't have to blame yourself, no matter there is the experience of Jialing Pass or not, the result is the same.

"I'm here, don't cry." Tao Yang pushed him, jokingly said: "I haven't eaten the chestnut cake yet."

It was already dark outside, and the shadows of the two were printed on the screen, warm and bitter.

The young master pressed against Tao Yang's forehead, and the eyelashes of the two of them intertwined again, and the snorting felt fluffy and warm on the face, and he said in a thick voice, "I will buy it for you every day from now on."

Tao Yang frowned inconspicuously, with a dazed expression, and said, "I also want to eat it every day..."

The sunset was so fast, it was dark in one fell swoop; the bedding was still warm, and the sun rose again.A meal is ready in one go, a bowl of soup is cooked in a while, and the illness is getting better little by little, and all the excuses can’t be found, it’s like it’s getting dark, and I can only light a candle to pretend Sunlight.

Three days are as fast as three hours, and I feel that when I close my eyes, it's time to leave.

Tao Yang didn't dare to think about it, didn't dare to feel sad.Seize the last moment of time to look at this silly young master.Sleep on the same couch with him and listen to him talk; get up early with him and eat together; cough and watch him worry; mutter something about wanting to eat and watch him busy.

The last half day is slowly passing by, he should leave the city at dawn, the carriage at the outer gate of the mansion will be ready at midnight, and there is a small group of people left by the second master to help him at the Shiliting outside the city, all As before, he should go again, quietly.

In the past, I was afraid that this silly young master would make a fuss, that he would be sad, and that I would not be able to leave; but now if I don't leave, it will really ruin his life, quietly, without knowing, without saying goodbye, so I can pretend not to be sad.

The young master fell into a deep sleep. .An incense burner was lit beside the bed, but Tao Yang didn't know why even the incense couldn't make him relax his brows.

"Young master." Tao Yang's fingertips slid across the young master's eyebrows, eyelashes, and nose, as if he couldn't get enough of it: "Don't cry all the time, you're an adult now."

His nose was sore, Tao Yang lowered his head, and the tears hit the corner of the young master's lips. If his heart was so numb, he wouldn't feel the pain anymore; Leave the moisture to yourself.

When it was dawn, the Anshen incense was almost burned out, and some sparse morning light came in through the cut-out window, leaving some marks on the screen.

Tao Yang got up to change his clothes, and stood in the room after tidying up. .After looking and looking, he couldn't get out; he obviously didn't come with a suitcase, but he even wanted to take a leaf from this yard with him.

Wrapped in a cloak is still a little cool.

Tao Yang walked to the side of the bed and saw that the person in front of him was still bowed, with his hands wrapped around the quilt, and he was still in the same hugging position as when he was sleeping.

Tao Yang took a deep breath, his face was so pale that there was no trace of blood. In the end, he just took away the chestnut cakes that the young master asked people to prepare every day, turned around and walked out of the yard; he didn't dare to look back, every step was frosty.

"From now on, you will be without me every day."

Some people are like this, they see each other for the last time without even saying goodbye.

In fact, thinking about it, it was also because of fear. After saying goodbye, I was reluctant to leave.

The young master also frowned in his sleep, as if he had a nightmare, struggling and finally compromised.

When he opened his eyes, the sky was already broad daylight; the warm sun from the cut-out window cast a fluffy light and shadow on the whole room, and the snow outside had melted, so it must be a good day today.

The young master didn't get up immediately, he stared blankly at the empty bed beside him, there was no residual warmth on it, only himself.

My heart was a little flustered, but I still suppressed my breathing.

The young master sat up and looked around. Nothing had changed, but everything had changed.I got out of bed and didn't even wear shoes and socks, and walked on the cold bluestone surface, feeling my breathing getting heavier a little bit, bypassing the screen, and on the round wooden table in the hall, a piece of letter paper was lonely and cold...

His hands began to tremble, and he opened his mouth but could not make a sound, as if he was out of breath in pain, he could only breathe hard to comfort the wound, but his hands stopped at the edge of the table, he finally didn't have the courage to go look…

Turned around and opened the door and ran out...

There are more than a dozen young men waiting in the yard early.Block the courtyard door tightly.

He didn't hesitate at all, and he didn't care about the pain, he just rushed out. From the beginning to the end, he couldn't stop it, so he had to suppress it; With red eyes like an angry wolf and a dying fish.

Hurry up, there seems to be the sound of carriages and horses outside...

Hurry up, today's chestnut cakes haven't been brought to him yet...

Hurry up, A Tao is waiting for him...

The white pajamas were stained with dust. .Blood was spilling from the corner of his mouth, and he was pressed against the courtyard door by a few servants, but he still hadn't given up his resistance; until Xiaozhen hurried over, stood in front of him, raised her hand to wipe the blood from the corner of his mouth, and said :"he's gone."

I thought he would be more excited to resist, but the servants locked his arms tightly, leaving no room for resistance; he knelt down powerlessly, slipped to the ground, tears came out of his eyes, crying like a child, helpless and heartbroken .

"what--"

I can fight against the whole world for you, why are you still willing to leave me.

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The wall is deep, and the letter paper is cold.

"I'm here."

The sound of horseshoes is getting farther and farther away.

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Mr. Big didn't come here until after dark. .See what has become of the son I have always placed high hopes on.

Until he saw the child sitting in the corner with a letter in his hand, he closed his eyes and suppressed the soreness in his eyes.

The young master was still wearing the pajamas he got up early, his hair was slightly messed up, his whole body was unbelievably emaciated, and he looked like a puppet who had lost his soul.

Originally wanted to say something, but looking at him like this, he couldn't say anything; Mr. Da turned to leave, but stopped at the threshold, and said: "Don't let him down."

Walking out of the room, the walking corpse inside let out a hysterical cry:

"I don't need to be fulfilled, as long as he is!"

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He made you lose your soul, and he made you crazy. ~.