Da Deyun

It was already February when Er Ye and Yang Jiu rushed back to Shengjing, so it was still too late to hurry.

When Yang Jiu went to the rose garden, he asked his wife to greet her first, and sent them the souvenirs brought back from Tianjin along the way; I also know that the nearest master and wife must be exhausted physically and mentally. I can only do a little bit of filial piety.

It was almost dark when we returned to the house, and the second master just packed up and went to the backyard to see our young master; I don't know if he was crying or drunk, it's not good after all.

The young man led the second master to the guest courtyard, saying that the young master has been living there these days.The second master frowned, for a moment he didn't understand; didn't Tao Yang always live with Da Lin at home in the past?It's the same this time.When passing by Hehui Hall, the second master raised his eyes and heaved a sigh of relief; yes, today is different from the past.This time Tao Yang can only live in the guest courtyard.

When he arrived at the guest courtyard, the second master opened the door and entered, walked into the inner bedroom, bypassed the screen, and stood still beside the bed.

He was not crying, not drunk, nor was he as dead-hearted as before; he sat quietly, with a haggard face, without saying a word.If he didn't know about Tao Yang, the second master would have thought he was just sitting by the bed in a daze.

The second master sat down beside him, and looked down to see a piece of slightly crumpled beige letter paper. The elegant and elegant words on it penetrated three points of the paper. Maybe he would usually praise the vigor and strength when he read such words, but Looking at it now, I can only feel the bitterness in this word.

There are no redundant words. .Only two words.

"I'm here."

When he said this before, he was really there; but now the meaning seems to be farewell. ——No matter where you are, just remember that I am here.

The second master pursed his lips, not knowing how to comfort him; now, our young master doesn't even bother to pretend to be so gentle.

"Dalin..."

I tried to call him a word, but it was as expected, as if I hadn't heard it.

"Don't do this." The second master sighed, holding the young master's arm, trying to make him listen to what he said, and said: "It will pass, think about your mother, she is worried about you recently, can't eat or sleep The good ones lost weight."

The young master was still sitting without any reaction, as if he was the only one left in this world.

"In a few months...you're going to be a father." The second master lowered his eyes and said in a warm voice; I don't know if it was to stimulate him to see the reality clearly, or to remind him of the responsibilities that he couldn't let go.

silence.

The second master hates iron for being weak, but it is more of a kind of distress as an uncle and a brother; after talking for a long time, he just didn't respond at all, as if he didn't notice anyone, not even eyelids blink.

The second master couldn't face such a silly young master, couldn't see his lost soul and heart; he pulled his shoulders and shook him hard, trying to make him get out of his emotions Li woke up and shouted: "Wake up, please! Tao Yang is gone, gone!"

He's gone, really gone.

The young master's expression as stiff as a puppet loosened a little, and before he could frown, his eyes turned red, and the mist thickened immediately.

The second master was both distressed and angry, he frowned and took a few deep breaths, not knowing how to coax him; talking about Tao Yang was poking the wound in his heart; without mentioning Tao Yang, he would have no heart or soul, like a corpse.

"Da Lin, Tao Yang hopes you will be well, do you understand?" Er Ye said; Tao Yang left again and again, and fulfilled again and again, all because of him.

None of the sacrifices were made to make him like this.

"You still have me, parents, and wife." The second master said slowly, the curse-like words poured into the young master's ears, turning into a soreness that permeated the entire chest.

The young master finally relaxed, and slowly turned his head to look at the second master, innocent and innocent like he was when he was a child, and asked him stupidly.

Originally, the second master thought he had listened.

The young master said: "Old uncle... What should I do if A Tao is crying?"

This question made the second master's eyes turn red instantly; he just looked at his old uncle with tears in his eyes, and asked the most painful words in the calmest tone.

Every word he said hit his heart like a knife, cutting blood dripping with blood. ——Yeah, everyone coaxed me, for fear that I would do something stupid, so what about A Tao?Have you coaxed him...

He said: "Uncle, I dreamed that he was crying..."

He said: "I'm not with him. Who is with him..."

He said: "No matter what, I can't hold him..."

He said: "Every time he leaves, he is outside alone, what should I do if he is sick again..."

He looked at Second Master, tears couldn't stop falling down, he asked word by word, his throat trembled more and more uncontrollably, and he could hardly articulate a complete sentence.

"Do you know, on the night of Lantern Festival, I saw how happy he was when he stood on the bridge..." The young master leaned back weakly again, his eyes were hurt but bright, empty and dazzling.Recalling: "I didn't dare to go up and talk to him, because I was afraid that he would turn around and leave without even seeing his back."

"Dalin..."

"But just for a moment, he fell into the water!" His tone suddenly became urgent and sad, as if the scene of that night appeared before him, and he was at a loss: "Just fell like that!" Go down! It's so cold, he fell into the lake...and he can't swim.. I couldn't see anyone at once! I swam and swam desperately, and I almost couldn't find him..."

"It's all over." The second master pressed his shoulder, trying to calm down his emotions: "It's all over, he's fine!"

"When I landed on the shore, I pressed his chest to save him, but after a long time, he still didn't wake up, just lying there motionless..." He lowered his head, and tears rolled down the bedding. A circle of moisture, broke down in tears and said: "At that time, I just wanted to accompany him to die. I didn't care about any responsibility or responsibility. I didn't want anything; even if I didn't love me, I still wanted to keep him by my side." ..."

But I just realized it, just realized it, and he left again, leaving me alone.

"I can disregard everything, but I can't disregard him..." The young master trembled and said word by word, he didn't know whether he was asking Tao Yang or himself, "Why don't you even have the courage to stand by my side... "

But I obviously gave everything.

The fireworks at Jialing Pass, the heavy snow on New Year's Eve, and the frozen lake during the Lantern Festival. .All my desperation is not enough to give you the courage to stay with me.

"He doesn't want you to be reckless." The second master put his hands on the young master's forehead and rubbed his hair, his eyes were red, and told him: "You are everything to him, he can't destroy you."

Hearing the old uncle's words, the young master raised the corners of his mouth and smiled palely and bitterly, tears streaming down his face: "There is a difference between him leaving and destroying me."

The second master buried his head and didn't know how to respond, he just felt uncomfortable in his chest. ——Really wrong, if I cared more about this silly young master at that time, I could understand his sincerity, I could see that he was not capricious, I could have known earlier that his thoughts were the same as Tao Yang, perhaps these things would not have happened …

"As long as you remember him in your heart, he will be there." Second Master's voice was low.

The young master frowned tightly and closed his eyes. There were two water marks under his eyes, as if he couldn't open his eyes in pain. He just shook his head once and for all, unable to speak.

"He has always stayed in your heart, with you." The second master gently stroked the hair on the back of the young master's head, coaxing him as he did when he was a child, and said: "As long as you are well, he will be at ease."

The young master smiled, eyes full of sadness: "I just want him to be uneasy, and he has to come back to me after he dies."

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I can endure all pain, I can accept all injustice, I can accept all blows; I can't bear it alone, your departure. ~.