a row of egrets

The night before returning to China, Lu Zhan was packing his luggage, his heart was beating for some reason, and he almost knocked over things when he turned around several times, and he looked quite restless.

He didn't know why, he thought it was because he was not in good spirits, so he fell asleep early.

The next day Lu Zhan woke up, had breakfast after washing up, and was about to pack up and go to the airport when Zhou Yue suddenly sent him a link.

His heart skipped a beat for no reason, and he clicked on it, and it was the webpage of City A News, and what caught his eye was the biggest and most conspicuous headline: Our city's medical team to Africa was hit by bullets during the rescue. Attack, all killed.

Lu Zhan froze in place, his mind went blank suddenly, as if he had stepped off a high step, his whole body fell suddenly, and his heartbeat stopped.

Zhou Yue called him immediately, and Lu Zhan mechanically pressed the connect button.

"Lu Zhan..." Zhou Yue's voice was also trembling, "Dr. Xiao... the whole car is gone... not even the body is complete..."

Lu Zhan could barely hear what he was saying, he just felt like he lost his voice, his mouth was open but he couldn't breathe, his head was full of inexplicable noises, and the muscles in his whole body seemed to be shrinking inwardly. , The whole person is trembling.

"Lu Zhan? Lu Zhan! Lu Zhan, talk! Lu Zhan!" Zhou Yue realized that something was wrong with him, and shouted desperately.

When the phone fell on the ground, Lu Zhan felt a convulsion in his stomach. He stumbled to the bathroom, knelt by the toilet and vomited.

He didn't raise his head until he vomited out his breakfast. Both eyes were blood-red. He sat by the wall in a daze, feeling extremely vain, as if his heart was being ripped out. The pain came and went, so painful that he was about to suffocate.

Xiao Yibai died.

Lu Zhan couldn't think of too much information in his blank brain, he only realized the most fatal point.

He felt his eyes hurting, a soreness rushed up, his chest twitched tightly for a long time, he finally hugged his head, let out a painful cry from his throat, and then his whole body trembled and weeping continuously tears.

That young man with cold brows and indifferent expression disappeared from this world.

My star, extinguished.

Qiu Tong agreed with Lu Zhan yesterday to take him to the airport today and say goodbye to him.

He drove to Lu Zhan's house early and knocked on the door for a long time, but no one came to answer the door.

He thought that Lu Zhan was still awake, so he went to the building next door and got the key from Lu Zhan's nanny.

Qiu Tong opened the door, and there was a suitcase in the living room, but Lu Zhan was nowhere to be seen.

"Lu Zhan? Lu Zhan?" Qiu Tong called a few times.

No one answered, Qiu Tong went upstairs and heard a faint voice coming from the bathroom.

It seemed to be crying.

But Qiu Tong couldn't describe that sound, it was as if someone was strangled by the neck and forced a little sound from his throat, extremely suppressed and worried.

He quickly went up the stairs and ran to the bathroom door.

He saw Lu Zhan sitting on the ground, holding his head, shaking his body, the sound was made by him.

Qiu Tong half-kneeled in front of Lu Zhan, grabbing his shoulders: "Lu Zhan? What's wrong with you? What happened? What's wrong with you?"

He asked several times, but Lu Zhan didn't seem to hear, he refused to raise his head, the indescribable voice was still in his throat.

Qiu Tong was afraid that something might happen to Lu Zhan, so he lifted Lu Zhan's head up almost abruptly.

He had never seen such a painful expression before. Lu Zhan's eyes were blood red, his brows were tightly frowned, tears were rolling down his eyes, his mouth opened and closed, and his palate was trembling violently.

"What's wrong?! Tell me!" Qiu Tong grabbed Lu Zhan's neck, "Speak!"

"He...he..." Lu Zhan breathed out a syllable.

"Who? What happened to him?"

"Xiao... Xiao... Xiao Yibai..." Lu Zhan said these words intermittently.

He seemed to be awakened by this name suddenly, and was taken aback for a moment, and then the painful cry finally broke through his throat completely, and rang out at the top of his lungs.

"He's dead..." Lu Zhan cried, "He's dead..."

Qiu Tong was stunned, and asked after a long time: "You said your boyfriend... died?"

Lu Zhan covered his face with his hands, countless tears flowed down his fingers, his voice was trembling and hoarse: "Xiao Yibai..."

Lu Zhan forgot how he got to the airport and how he got on the plane. He only remembered that Qiu Tong hugged him before leaving and told him to go home properly.Lu Yu and Li Jing called him many times, but he didn't answer any of them. He just sent them a message saying that he was on the plane.

During the journey of more than ten hours, Lu Zhan never closed his eyes, probably because he shed too many tears at the moment when he heard the news. Now he can't cry anymore, but just opened his eyes blankly.

He didn't dare to close his eyes, because when he closed his eyes, his mind was full of Xiao Yibai's image.

The way he smiled, the way he talked, the way he wore a white coat, the way he cooked, the way he drove...so clear, so clear that it seemed to be engraved in Lu Zhan's mind. No fading.

But Lu Zhan never saw him again.

No matter what it looks like, Lu Zhan will never see it again.

In the past three years, Lu Zhan has relied on Xiao Yibai to survive. He has already planned how to start over with Xiao Yibai after returning to China, how to make Lu Yancheng agree with their relationship, and how to turn their life into the dream. The direction continues to go down.

But in an instant, all hopes collapsed, leaving Lu Zhan with only such a cruel and unbelievable news.

The person who was about to reach out and touch, suddenly disappeared, and never appeared again.

I killed him, Lu Zhan thought on the plane.If he hadn't been impulsive that year, he wouldn't have gone abroad, wouldn't have been separated from Xiao Yibai, and Xiao Yibai wouldn't have gone to Somalia, let alone died because of it.

Lu Zhan opened his blood-red eyes, looking at the white clouds outside the cabin, the faint morning light in the sky, like the fire of hell, burning up all the past between Lu Zhan and Xiao Yibai, the lost time, and everything. eternal future.

Someone disappeared in this world again, he is my favorite person, I will never see him again.

Lu Zhan walked out of the airport almost numbly. He didn't know where to go. He just lowered his head and followed the crowd aimlessly, hearing nothing in his ears.

Until he felt someone pulling him, when he raised his head, Lu Yu's panting face appeared in front of him.

"Brother..." Lu Zhan said, his voice hoarse.

Lu Yu almost couldn't recognize Lu Zhan. He knew that Lu Zhan was suffering in a foreign country and it would not be easy, but he didn't expect that Lu Zhan not only lost a lot of weight, after more than ten hours of flying, his eyes were almost full of Red, the whole person exudes a gray lifeless air.

Lu Yu understood Lu Zhan's mood too well at the moment, he couldn't say anything, he just stretched out his arms to hug Lu Zhan, and patted him on the back: "I know you feel uncomfortable."

"It's not uncomfortable, brother." Lu Zhan watched the crowds in the airport with his eyes open, and there was no light in his eyes.

"Let's go home, go home and rest."

"go home?"

Lu Zhan's brain seemed to be stabbed by something, and he remembered the house where he and Xiao Yibai lived, and he hadn't gone back for a long time.

He broke away from Lu Yu's embrace, and his eyes seemed to find the focus: "Can you take me back to Jingli Shuiyue? I lived there before, and I..."

Lu Yu frowned and reached out to hug Lu Zhan's face, looked into his eyes, and said word by word: "No one has lived there for a long time, Lu Zhan."

Lu Zhan was stunned for a moment, his eyes gradually lost his focus: "Then where am I going back..."

"Go back to the compound of the military region, or go to my house, okay?"

"Help me find a hotel, brother." Lu Zhan said softly, "I'm very tired, and I don't want to see anyone."