a row of egrets

Lu Zhan sat quietly by the bed in the hotel, Lu Yu told the waiter to remember to bring dinner later, then he closed the door, pulled a chair and sat opposite Lu Zhan.

Knowing the news of Xiao Yibai's death, both he and Li Jing were very sad. Li Jing was almost trembling and asked him, "What will Lu Zhan do in the future?"

"I don't know." Lu Yu covered his eyes and frowned tightly, "How could this be..."

Lu Yu looked at Lu Zhan's quiet and silent face. From the time he got off the plane to now, Lu Yu has not seen him shed a single tear. Except for a little paleness, he looked very calm.

The calmer it was, the more uneasy Lu Yu felt.

He knows too well what kind of person his younger brother is. From childhood to adulthood, all Lu Zhan's emotions are written on his face. He smiles when he is happy, and tears when he is sad. Just sat there almost numbly.

Lu Yu said softly: "Lu Zhan, don't hold back, okay? I know you're sad, if you want to cry, just cry, since you're back, I'll be with you for whatever you need."

"I want to be alone for a while, brother." Lu Zhan lowered his eyes tiredly, "I'm so tired, I want to take a rest."

Lu Yu couldn't bear to push him anymore, he suppressed the pain in his heart, and patted Lu Zhan's head: "Okay, then you go to sleep for a while, and the kitchen will bring food later, remember to eat a little, and give me anytime if you need anything." I'll call, okay?"

"Ah."

Lu Zhan was lying on the bed, but just looked up with his eyes open.

Lu Yu covered him with the quilt, and looking at Lu Zhan's bloodshot eyes, he probably understood that Lu Zhan must be in the same state on the plane, without any rest at all.

Lu Yu put his hands on Lu Zhan's eyes, and his voice was full of pity: "Close your eyes and sleep for a while, brother, please, you will collapse like this."

Lu Zhan's eyelashes trembled a few times in Lu Yu's palm, and he said slowly: "I see, brother, you can go, I will take a good rest."

Lu Yu turned off the lights, and gently closed the door.

Li Jing, Zhou Yue, Zhang Ran and Mo Ziyi stood in the lobby of the hotel.

"How is Lu Zhan?" Li Jing asked Lu Yu.

"I don't talk much, I don't cry, and I don't close my eyes when lying on the bed." Lu Yu sighed, "It's so quiet, I'm afraid he will be suffocated."

"Doctor Xiao...is it true that he won't come back?" Zhang Ran frowned, his eyes were red, "Is the news true?"

"I have contacted the Somali embassy. The other doctors in the hospital watched the medical car and took them out. When the car was blown up, everyone was in the car." Lu Yu seemed to be unable to continue, he After a pause, "The fragments of their scattered corpses have been collected as much as possible. The situation is urgent. I can't tell who belongs to whom. They can only be cremated together and sent back to City A. The relics will also be sent back together."

"Why did this happen..." Mo Ziyi buried his head deeply, "Dr. Xiao is such an excellent person, yet he is still so young..."

Except for Li Jing and Lu Yu, no one else knew about the relationship between Lu Zhan and Xiao Yibai. They only knew that Lu Zhan cared about Xiao Yibai very much and had a good relationship with Xiao Yibai, so they understood Lu Zhan's feelings. Because everyone is having a hard time.

Lu Zhan didn't fall asleep, he didn't dare to sleep, he was afraid of dreaming about the missing face, and he didn't want to wake up, because whenever he thought of the news that made him unacceptable, he felt pain and tightened in his heart. He was so uncomfortable that he curled up on the bed, panting in pain in the dark, but he couldn't cry.

Xiao Yibai is a fire in Lu Zhan's heart, which has ignited his expectations for the future. After separation, he is the starry sky that Lu Zhan saw when he looked up, illuminating every little thing in Lu Zhan's heart through a long distance. corner of.And from now on, those stars will be extinguished, and the night sky will fall into eternal darkness, leaving only Lu Zhan standing helplessly in the wind, pierced by the howling cold wind to the marrow, unable to live or die.

The waiter brought the dinner, but Lu Zhan didn't move. He opened the suitcase and took out a small can of medicine.

It was sleeping pills. When he first arrived in the United States, he often couldn't fall asleep. Even if he fell asleep, he often woke up suddenly in the middle of the night and could no longer fall asleep. In desperation, he could only rely on sleeping pills to barely maintain sleep.

Lu Zhan sat on the carpet, poured a medicine in his hand, put it in his mouth, swallowed dryly without drinking water.The hard pill passed through his throat, Lu Zhan raised his head slightly, resting his head on the edge of the bed, he half-opened his eyes and looked at the chandelier above his head, with hopelessness falling down in his eyes.

When his consciousness was blurred and he was about to fall asleep, Lu Zhan suddenly thought that it is said that people will recall the most beautiful pictures in their life before they die. I don’t know what Xiao Yibai remembered when he closed his eyes?

Is it Lu Zhan who held the balloon for him when he was young, or the moment they looked at each other in the bar, or the scenes after they were together?

Will the sun in childhood, the balloon on the treetop, the eyes of the crowd, the gaze under the light, the breath in the night, the moon in the night sky, those good times they have experienced together, appear in Xiao Yibai's last In consciousness?

No, none of them, the bomb exploded only in an instant, Xiao Yibai didn't even have time to recall.

God is really cruel, in such an instant, not only took away Lu Zhan's love, but also his life's guilt and the forgiveness he couldn't wait for.

Lu Zhan closed his dry and sore eyes, and finally fell into a deep sleep.

Lu Zhan stayed in the hotel for four days, and he didn't see anyone. Except for Lu Yuhui who came to supervise his meals, no one else dared to bother him.

Every time Lu Yu entered the room, he would see that the curtains were drawn tightly, the lights were not turned on in the room, and Lu Zhan sat huddled in a corner with his head down, making no sound.

He turned on the light on the bedside table, and the soft yellow light shone on Lu Zhan's drooping face. His chin was terribly thin. It was only four days ago, but Lu Yu felt that Lu Zhan had already suffered so much and couldn't continue like this down.

"Lu Zhan." Lu Yu supported his face and raised his head, looked into those dim eyes, and said to him, "You can't do this anymore."

After a while, Lu Zhan spoke hoarsely.

"what?"

"You can't shrink yourself in this corner every day, Lu Zhan." Lu Yu couldn't bear to continue to look into Lu Zhan's eyes, he lowered his eyes slightly, looking at Lu Zhan's fingers on his knees, "You have to continue to live , there is no other way but this.”

Lu Zhan still didn't say a word, as if he didn't hear Lu Yu's words.

"Lu Zhan!" Lu Yu called him in a low voice, ruthlessly trying to wake him up, "Doctor Xiao is dead, no matter how sad you are, he won't come back."

Lu Zhan's eyes finally moved because of the name, Lu Yu hoped that he would cry in the next second, this is the only way to vent.

But Lu Zhan just moved his eyes, his face still expressionless, he said slowly: "I know."

"Tomorrow morning, I'll go to work in the company." Lu Zhan let go of his tangled fingers, and the blood flowed under the skin again, dyeing the whitish fingers into a normal color.

Lu Yu frowned and looked at Lu Zhan. He didn't want this answer. He just hoped that Lu Zhan could cry and make a fuss and vent all his emotions, instead of being so calm and frightening as he is now.

Lu Zhan did what he said, he left the hotel the next day, moved a small amount of luggage into the house that Lu Yu had found for him, and then went to work in the company.

He seemed normal and seemed to have drained all his emotions from those four days in the hotel.

But Lu Yu and the others knew that Lu Zhan like this was the most dangerous. They didn't know when he would break down, or when he would explode completely.

After Lu Zhan came back, he never saw Lu Yancheng. He didn't want to see him, and Lu Yancheng didn't force him to go home. He just told Lu Yu to take good care of Lu Zhan.

Lu Zhan goes to and from get off work on time every day, does his job well, and arranges tasks in an orderly manner, but there is never a smile on his face.Several employees from his former company came to work in the Lu Group. After meeting Lu Zhan, they all said that he had matured a lot, that he no longer had a playful smile on his face, and was serious and serious in his work.

After hearing this, Lu Zhan just said something inexplicably to them: "Because the price is too high."

Before getting off work that day, Lu Zhan stood in Lu Yu's office to discuss a marketing plan with him. He explained it in detail with a focused and serious look on his face, looking cold and calm.

Lu Yu suddenly realized that he seemed to see Xiao Yibai's shadow on Lu Zhan's body.

Don't like to laugh, talk less, have calm eyes, look indifferent and desolate, concentrate on doing things seriously, and hide emotions.

That was Xiao Yibai in his impression.

Always smiling, with clear eyes and high-spirited voice, all the emotions are written on his face, and he always loves to chatter non-stop.

That was Lu Zhan in his impression.

But the former Lu Zhan seemed to have died together with Xiao Yibai, and the calm and reticent person in front of him made Lu Yu dare not confirm whether he was still his younger brother.

After three years in the United States, Lu Zhan's ability to work and the level of handling things have improved to a level that Lu Yu never thought of before.At the same time, Lu Zhan's personality has also become calm and mature. The younger brother who loves to laugh and talk seems to be far away.

"Probably that's it." Lu Zhan didn't go into details at all, and ended the introduction with the key points in place.

"Well." Lu Yu pointed to a certain place on the plan, "For the part of the market research, you can add the latest data after this month has passed to see if there will be any changes in the analysis results. If not, You can pass."

"Okay." Lu Zhan took out another piece of paper from under the document, "Look at this, if there is no problem, sign it, and I will send it to the finance side."

Lu Yu looked down for a while, and then signed. Lu Zhan sorted out a stack of documents, said "Brother, goodbye" and walked out.

"Lu Zhan." Lu Yu called to stop him.

Lu Zhan turned his head with no expression on his face: "What else is there?"

"Take a day off tomorrow." Lu Yu looked at him, and said shyly, "The ashes and relics of the medical team have been brought back, you...you go and see the vice president."

Lu Zhan turned his back, turned his back to Lu Yu, and whispered, "Okay."