[Comprehensive] The heroine brings disaster to the country and the people

When the war almost destroyed everything and then brutally rebuilt the world with hypocritical peace, Katsura Kotaro chose memory, Sakamoto Tatsuma chose symbiosis, Takasugi Shinsuke chose destruction, Sakata Gintoki chose protection, and I The choice is hesitation.

Toshi was the one who rescued Sakata Gintoki. She ignored Shimura Shinpachi's rant about "there is no such thing as a bartender with a sword", and she talked about the tragic story of being abandoned by my boyfriend after the death of my parents. He took out eye drops from the side, dripped them into his eyes openly, and said, "Every time I think about the past, I feel so sad that I shed tears."

"It's clear that you just took eye drops! And can you avoid us first before doing this kind of thing!" Shimura Shinpachi continued to complain.

"It's actually my heart that's crying," I said nonsense with my eyes open. "Mr. Eyedrops just did me a little favor."

"If you don't show an overly bright smile, there is still a trace of credibility in this statement! But you are smiling too grandly now!"

"That smile is just a disguise, the loneliness of life and the sorrow of death, a ten thousand year old boy like you will not understand."

"Hey hey hey! After being exposed by me, it suddenly rose to the level of personal attack! So how do you know!"

"I'm just telling the truth. Because a chu boy is as obvious as I have a D cup and a lipstick mark on a white shirt."

"...What kind of strange metaphor is this!"

"And it's as obvious as Sakata Gintoki is a strange uncle."

"...After hearing your words, I suddenly felt a subtle sense of approval, so that I lost the motivation to complain..."

"Don't give up." I patted Shimura Shinpachi on the shoulder and said, "Your character design is only commendable for making complaints about it and being a boy, if you don't make complaints about it..."

"Please don't say..."

Sakata Gintoki over there finally lost his composure after hearing this, "I said that the first time you two met was too friendly..."

I looked at him, and suddenly smiled, that smile was very similar to the one we used to get along with, a gentle smile like Yamato Nadeko, "Because, I want to confirm how your life has been in the past few years, Yin Yes, so just chat with your friend for a while."

"Wouldn't it be better to ask Ah Yin myself about this kind of thing?" Sakata Yintoki said.

"Are you so eager for me to torture you?" I asked back.

"Yes." He replied.

"Didn't I torture you enough back then?" The smile on my face became more gentle.

"Ah. You mean that." He looked at me, his eyes unchanged, still lazy and sleepy, but I knew what kind of dark emotions had surged in those red pupils, "No matter what What should I say, I did a lot of things wrong."

Sure enough, a lot has changed.

Even Takasugi Shinsuke at the time didn't think it was Sakata Gintoki's fault. Today's Manshiya Ayin can naturally distinguish the various situations back then, and he still said that he did a lot of things wrong.

I looked at him and said nothing.

"So, how did you confirm it? About my living conditions in recent years."

"Still so gentle. Looks like you're having a good time," I said. "That's disappointing." I thought about the years of wandering, fighting, and being lonely, and I let myself sink into those thoughts In the middle, he said coldly, "It seems that you are very relaxed now. I was expecting those souls under your knife to torture you day and night. You who have forgotten everything and have nothing to bear are really too annoying."

After I finished speaking, I turned around and went into the Dunsey Tavern, leaving them behind.

The emotional changes are a bit too big, I thought while standing in front of the window looking at the sky outside.How much is true and how much is false?I just know I'm not all acting.Even though I was the one who blackened him back then, I still feel uncontrollably sad about it.

Really hypocritical.I despise myself like this in my heart.

But if you don't do this, you won't be able to complete the Raiders mission.

After thinking of this, I frowned slightly. I remember that in the previous world, I wanted to pursue freedom, but I don't know when I completely forgot this idea.Did you let it go?Nor is it.Then why... Could it be said that the so-called gods and systems can even manipulate my thoughts?Even though such thoughts arose, I still had no desire to resist.

system.are u there?

【Um. 】

Is what I think true?

[This question is meaningless. 】

I always feel like I'm not me anymore.

[People are always changing. 】

I know.But am I human?

【…】

Are Black Featherthorn and I really the same person in the K world?Did I really go through those things?Then why do I not have any special feelings when I recall Ten Beasts Tara and Zhou Fangzun?Could it be that the real Black Featherthorn has been wiped out, and I just inherited her memory?

[Why do you have such an idea? 】

As a system, why would you ask such a human question?

[I am not a system in the first place. 】

I know.you are human.Your name is Black Featherthorn.

[I... Wow... Wow, Wow...]

system?

【…】

Black Featherthorn?

【…】

No response.

I close my eyes, then open them, then close them again.

What am I living for?

Why is the system still alive?Or could she still be called alive?

I can't answer these questions.

So let's put it another way, why does the black feather thorn live in this world.

She should be deeply attached to Teacher Matsuyo, she should value a few old classmates very much, Takasugi Shinsuke is his first love, Sakata Gintoki is her first man, but she has never really liked Sakata Gintoki, in this regard, she should be the kind of disgusting self-sacrificing Virgin Mary.

It was Teacher Songyang and her friends who prompted her to draw her sword and go to the battlefield.She is not interested in the dawn of Edo, nor does she want to see the new world. In fact, she is a bit like Sakata Gintoki, she just wants to protect the people around her.

Hate Sakata Gintoki?In fact, it is not hate.Leaving aside the consciousness of "I", Hei Yuji probably didn't realize the harm she did to Sakata Gintoki back then, and after Songyang's death, she wouldn't be able to analyze everything as clearly as those powerful teenagers , So she couldn't help but vent her anger on Yinshi.This anger turned into another kind of inexplicable emotion with the passage of time, because when she grew up, she finally realized that she seemed to be gentle all the time, but what kind of bad things did she do to Sakata Gintoki back then? .

It's not so much that she did something wrong as that her very existence is a mistake.

As for Takasugi Shinsuke?Since entering the ghost army, the one dealing with Shinsuke Takasugi is no longer the "gentle" black feather spine in this world, but myself.

For Kamui, if I didn't have those concerns, maybe I would really be with Kamui, even if the so-called "together" is different from what ordinary people understand, but when the sword collides and the blood is noisy under the skin, I know there is For a moment, I had empathy with him.I believe he is the same, otherwise how could he say such things in such a way.

So, why is the black feather thorn alive in this world?

She didn't want revenge, she spurned herself.

She lives only because she has no reason to die.

She came back here to get rid of her inner demons, if she succeeded in getting rid of everything, she would leave with Shenwei, and if she was dragged into Shura Hell by her inner demons, she would be willing, at least she would live in this world for once.

After sorting out my "spiritual journey", I slowly squeezed out my messy thoughts, I thought, I have to be more involved in the drama, otherwise I will be swallowed by the feeling of emptiness and blankness, It was really hard.

After so many worlds, I finally discovered a weakness of mine.

I am afraid of being alone.

I need warmth, I need others to like me, even if this feeling is cheated by me deliberately, even if it is false warmth, I also need it.

I think of Teacher Songyang, his gentle smile like sunshine, and our fights after class. The grass under the tree is always soft in the afternoon, and it feels very pleasant to lie on it and complain to each other.I've known since then that this feeling won't last long, but it's those few short years that probably complete the character building of their entire lives.

The author has something to say: Tucao is the essence of Gintama!

Then I couldn't help but hehehe.

The lipstick print on Chu Nan's white shirt comes from three days and two sleeps.