Three thousand congratulations

For a handicapped person like me, it's really hard to keep a feeling in my heart for a long time, and it's really hard to remember someone. There seems to be a big hourglass in my heart, every minute and every second Those fiery, bright emotions will leak along the narrow gap to another space, where they become cold, pale, and completely become part of the old color. They should have been quietly sleeping in the bottom of my heart, waiting for me to disappear On that day, mixed in my ashes, I can't distinguish the edges, corners and thorns of the past.

But before the upper layer of sand ran out I found the one who could flip the hourglass for me, and yes, only one.

He stretched out his hand, turned it over so lightly, I touched this colorful, real, and fragrant everything again, but in the end he let go.

Without the power to turn it over, even if it is simply placed there, it will be full of dust.

I don't need more things to decorate this world that has let me down. Now I just want to hold on to everything that is inherent and wait for the day when I am exhausted and stop breathing.

However, we are all god's pawns. We are picked up and put down, and the position of each landing is unknown. What will appear in front of our eyes this time, we small human beings have no way of knowing even if we try to look up.

But I am not afraid, because even God can take nothing more from me.

I am a book with pages that have been turned over, pages stained with dust, and writing with no blank spaces. I have no new tricks to offer to the readers of the world.

I already have nothing.

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A very long dream, Songzi is still smiling today, while smiling, he cut off the four hard sides of the toast, but unfortunately he was saying "Let me help you" and then when he walked towards Songzi, Zhensengumi appeared, a The bomb blew the pine nuts away.

"Hey! Don't you know that toast is super delicious when it's sliced!" Gui shouted in his dream while waking up.

When he opened his eyes, he saw a strange ceiling. Gui found himself lying in a strange room, covered with a quilt and with a tape on his head.

"It hurts, it hurts..." Gui touched the wound on his shoulder when he sat up, pressing the wound painfully.

"Where is this place? I remember that I was being chased by the Shinsengumi, and it seemed that I was also attacked by a cannon..." He recalled carefully, "Then...ah, right! Matsuko! It's Ms. Matsuko! "

"Yes! It must be Ms. Songzi who saved me and brought me home!" Gui nodded seriously (so why do I firmly believe that it is Songzi...).

"So this is Ms. Matsuko's room? Oh, I'm so excited, but it's a little different from what I imagined. Ms. Matsuko's room in my imagination should have bookshelves, vases, flowers and kotatsu that I put in by myself. There is nothing here. "..." Gui looked around in a little disappointment, but then he thought again, "What unhealthy thing am I thinking about? How could such a reserved woman like Ms. Songzi arrange me in her room? This must be her room!"

The door was opened with a "wow", and a woman walked in, holding the medicine and said lightly, "Yeah, you're awake."

"Song...huh?!" Gui blinked blankly when he saw the person coming in, and he didn't know what to do until the person put the medicine next to his pillow and said, "Well, may I ask... Ms. You... were you the one who saved me?"

"Yeah." If you compare Songzi with the woman in front of you, then Songzi is really weak, no, no, no, you can't say that about Songzi!But, the lady in front of me is really very beautiful.It’s so beautiful that people can’t move their eyes away, but Songzi is a virtuous and homely type (isn’t it □□), different types can’t be compared at all, right...

It was the first time I had close contact with such a beautiful girl (not a lady...), Gui was a little speechless, but the other party asked generously, "Are you a fugitive?"

"Nani... that one is indeed wanted, but it doesn't seem to count as a fugitive..." Gui argued.

"Anyway, he's the one the Shinsengumi wants to get rid of, right?"

"Uh, so to speak." Gui realizes that if he reveals his identity, it may bring a lot of trouble to the other party, but if he conceals his identity and accepts the other party's help, his identity may be exposed and the other party may feel cheated.

Are you going to confess...

When Gui was thinking about it, the other party was stirring the medicine in the bowl and said nonchalantly: "It doesn't matter whether it's a fugitive murderer or something else. You can rest assured here to recuperate. This place is far away from the Shinsengumi's settlement. , basically won’t come here for inspection. Here, the medicine is almost cold.”

"Ah, thank you." Gui hurriedly took the medicine, "Well, miss, you can take me here, I am really grateful."

"There is no way. I just saw you and felt that I couldn't just ignore your affairs."

"What's the name of that lady, please?"

"Don't call me Miss, just call me Honglian."

"Master Guren. I am Katsura Kotaro, please give me your advice."

"Mr. Gui, I'm really glad to see you." A gentle smile appeared on Hong Lian's face.

Facing such a beautiful smiling face, Gui said silently in his heart: I'm sorry, Songzi.

Gui was finally able to get out of bed and walk around after lying down for a whole day. The house was very quiet. Honglian lived in the room at the end of the corridor. The door of the room seemed to be closed all the time, and she was often away from home, looking down from the window sill. It turned out that this was the second floor of the house, and there was an open-air hot spring in the yard of this house.The surrounding scenery is very unfamiliar. At a glance, you can see many high-end residences with single-family gardens and carved iron fences. They are completely different from the dilapidated houses with a sense of age on both sides of the streets of Edo Kabukicho.

Guren-sama said this is Yuuhicho.Yuuhicho is one of the most high-end residential areas in Edo. It is said that the senior officials who have retired from the shogunate and some rich people who pursue a quiet life live here. No wonder the Shinsengumi will not come here. You can't even lift your head up in a place like this.

No one answered when he knocked on the door, Gui quietly paced up and down the corridor, thinking that Lord Honglian must have gone out to work.Gui felt a little guilty when she thought that she hadn't gone to work for two days to take care of herself.

Although he only knew each other for two days, he could feel Honglian's sincere care and concern for him.Involuntarily, Honglian's calm side face when she brought the medicine and silently looked at the window appeared in front of her eyes. It was so delicate that people couldn't take their eyes off, but in her eyes, you couldn't see a trace of arrogance or arrogance that a beautiful woman should have.She has a lazy temperament, and her eyes are often calm and almost indifferent. Only when she smiles and stares quietly can she feel that she is really beside her and not an overly beautiful doll, but even though she is surrounded by alienation and indifference Even breath can't stop her innate nobility and breathtaking beauty.

When Honglian handed the exquisite and compact card into his hand, she said calmly: "This is where I work, you can come to see me there if you don't mind if you have something to do, although it is a dusty place, but the food is really good. As long as you say you are my friend, they will entertain you." Gui Weiwei was a little surprised, but he still took it.

"redheartqueen", a high-end geisha hall in Mingyuan, is a place where the upper class in Edo can go. Although there are geisha who accompany wine and perform, it is not the troubled times like Yoshihara.

But he still couldn't imagine that such a noble woman would act as a geisha entertaining guests in the clubhouse. You couldn't see a trace of seductiveness in her, on the contrary, you would think that she must be a lady from a wealthy family.Gui raised his head and asked seriously, "Do you have soba noodles?"

"Soba noodles?" Guren was stunned for a moment, "There should be..." Her expression was uncertain, although she restrained her smile, she clearly showed her inner feelings.

"Then I will definitely pay a visit!" Gui promised energetically.

"It seems that Mr. Gui really likes soba noodles." Hong Lian looked at Gui's serious look, with a helpless and doting smile on her face.

"To be honest, in fact, I have formed an indissoluble bond with Soba Noodles since I was very young..." Gui began to talk about the past between him and Soba Noodles.

Honglian looked at Gui quietly with her chin resting on her cheeks, and she danced happily when she heard what he said. She seemed to be serious no matter how strange or boring the person said, and listened to it with relish. The ability to be interesting, or should I say... it's because it's all about him that it's attractive.

Gui is a comfortable and reassuring existence, which makes her want to protect, get close to, and watch.

But it's better not to convey this feeling.

Because I had such a familiar feeling before, it was even stronger.

The bright figure that cannot be seen directly, the only existence in the eyes, the warmth that is gradually approaching after the cold drizzle stops, I thought it would be peaceful until the last harbor...

Everything started from such a subtle attraction. At first, I just chased my eyes curiously, until I bumped into the gentle smile of that person, and gradually I couldn't move my eyes away.To have it all, to give it all, to lose it all in the end...

In the end, I realized that the world I was in was just the coldest and shortest one among the countless dreams of God, and it was just covered with a warm shell, attracting people to touch and indulge.

Just wake up.No matter how rude and cruel it is to wake up.

Just wake up.

Now that you are awake, don't fall asleep again, no matter how tired you are, how comfortable the resting place is.

Absolutely not to fall asleep.

"I'm sorry, I just said so much by accident..." Gui came back to realize that he had gone too far.

"It's okay. It's very interesting to listen to Mr. Gui."

"It's been a long time since anyone said so many interesting things to me."

"Lord Honglian, let me share with you about my time on TV!" After finally finding an audience who would not dislike him and complain about him, Gui's spirit of nonsense was burning.

"I'll be all ears."

I just want to stay a little longer, I won't fall asleep.

After listening to Gui's long speech, Honglian turned around and poured tea for Gui.

Gui calmed down, staring blankly at Honglian's back.I thought silently in my heart: There must have been a lot of things happened to Master Honglian, but her smile and gentle eyes were not flawed at all, you couldn't see what she had gone through.

There is no doubt that there are many mysteries here, but whenever he sees Guren's gentle smiling face, he has no way to get to the bottom of it.Sometimes he really wants to ask, why is he so kind to me, why can he be so gentle, listen carefully to every word I say, pay attention to my small feelings, put me first and think more thoughtfully than myself.But he was afraid that Lord Honglian would be angry after asking. "Because I'm so kind." If she got such an answer, it would be an offense to her.Gui is not the kind of person who would offend a benefactor if he got to the bottom of it.

It's better not to ask, and when you are in good health, just leave the other person's life silently.

But is it really okay to leave like this?I don't know why, Gui has too many things that he wants to continue to share with her.The tenderness that does not know the definite reason but is real makes it weak to say goodbye.

Gui hesitated.

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People are like this. They are obviously worried about history repeating itself, losing determination and vacillating plans because of relaxation and doubts, but they can still turn a blind eye to everything and let all the unease exist.

Sensitive, dull, pessimistic, stubborn, sober, and rational, once there is an intersection, they will stop involuntarily, and they will all become cautious and indecisive.

The reason.

Probably to see the future.

The author has something to say:

Although the heroine is Gui’s savior like Jisong and Gui has similar wavering emotions towards her, but so far the feeling is different from Jisong. At present, Gui just feels that being with the heroine is very relaxed and comfortable. , felt that the heroine was very kind to him, and was a little reluctant to leave.As for Jisong, it was "Master Jisong's wound cannot be deepened, and more importantly, my heart is shaking." Gui is also a person who cannot stand idly by the misfortune he sees... Then there is a saying called Is there no love and hate for no reason in the world...so everything has a reason (Teacher Yu Chuan's famous saying)...