Three thousand congratulations

【1】

I've been troubled by human feelings for a long time,

In short, it means that I am still baffled by the human business.

My own view of happiness has nothing to do with the view of happiness of everyone in the world, but I have already passed the age when I would be restless and insomnia.

Am I unlucky? To be honest, although mentioning my experience will inevitably make people feel painful and make people feel pity, but I don’t think I may be unlucky.

Because I have never shed tears because of recalling those experiences and touching those wounds.

In fact, I have long been numb. I avoid the crowd and close the hole in my heart, just because I don’t want to get sympathy from others, not because I am afraid of human beings.

True sorrow is probably distressed by other people's caring that stems from sympathy.

I can't figure it out anyway.

Obviously no one watched the whole story, but only heard a part of it, so they made some conclusions and put some labels on me without authorization.

I really want to say to them, please stay away from me.

Your kindness will not change anything at all, it will only make me more distressed.

Don't worry, I don't have thoughts of death yet,

But if one day I can't even say the word hate, then no one can stop me from leaving this world.

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【2】

"Little Lian, hasn't anything bad happened these two days?" Sang Baizi, the mother who had just arrived in the store, stepped forward to greet her with concern.

"Well, I rescued a person when I came back from the task that night, and I came to the store when he was much better today," Guren said while sitting in front of the dressing table while putting on makeup, "Is there anything wrong with the store?"

"There's nothing wrong in the store, I'm just worried about you, is that kind of work still going on? Those people you deal with are more troublesome characters than the customers outside..."

"Don't worry, I'll be careful."

"By the way, what is the identity of the person you rescued?" It was hard for Baizi to imagine that Honglian would save another person and take him home to take care of him. A bad idea appeared in her mind.

"Could it be the past..."

"No, don't think too much about it, he won't be a threat to me." Hong Lian combed her hair, put in a hairpin, looked at it in the mirror, and said calmly.

"That's it..." Bai Zi couldn't say anything more, she sighed in her heart, this child is just too awkward, he keeps everything in his heart and refuses to speak out.

"Mother Baizi, Master Mitsui is here and asked if Miss Hongji is here." The maid whispered outside the paper door.

"Tell him I'll be here soon." Honglian stood up, still with a calm expression.

"Xiao Lian, there are some heavenly beings who have dinner with Mitsui today, so be careful."

"Understood, by the way, Baizi's mother, has Master Yuzhijian been here yet?"

"It seems that he has an appointment for tomorrow."

"Is that so, I went to the door to save money."

"Is he the target this time? He is an important minister of the shogunate..."

"Don't worry, I'll do it outside."

The paper door moved up gently.

Baizi sighed, if it wasn't for that incident, no, that person, this child's life would be completely different from what it is now.

【3】

"Mitsui-sama, I've kept you waiting for so long." With a delicate doll-like face and a dignified and impeccable smile, Honghime in a purple kimono saluted and sat down beside Mitsui.

"Miss Hongji, it's great to have you here today." Mitsui smiled with satisfaction. He is an official in charge of foreign affairs in the shogunate. He has been here many times. He especially likes this geisha, not only is she very beautiful. Moreover, his behavior and speech are very generous. With such a decoration, he has a long face when he eats with high-ranking officials.

"I don't know who these are?"

"Oh, these guys are from a distant planet. Let me introduce you, Miss Hongji, she is definitely the most beautiful girl here." Mitsui introduced.

"How are you guys?"

【4】

Obedient and obedient, always with an impeccable smile on his face, what these people around him need is nothing more than a pleasing decoration.And she just needs a job that can cover people's eyes and ears and get close contact with these potential prey.

She has nothing to lose if everyone gets what they want.No need to sell your body, no need to solicit customers.The quality of the guests is very high. They come here only for some shady transactions and entertainment negotiations. They don't care about drinking. They will dismiss the geisha when it comes to the critical moment. There is a rule here that you can't touch the geisha casually. , even if there is a particularly arrogant guest who verbally teases and endures, it will pass.In addition, the proprietress is an old acquaintance, so she can come to work whenever she wants, and it's okay if she doesn't want to say anything.

After all, his main business is a killer.

Thinking of this, Baizi's words came back to his ears: Should the dangerous work continue?

It's not a dangerous problem, I really don't know how to stop it.Since I came here, my life seems to be inseparable from killing.At the beginning, I couldn't refuse, and I was asked by someone I knew very well: "What else can you do besides killing." If I couldn't answer, I had to join.

But after I came to work in the guild hall, I still continued to kill people secretly, because I couldn't stop.It's no longer disgusting or repulsive to murder, it's more appropriate to describe it as numb or handy.

Moreover, she is not a moral or principled killer at all. She has a faint disdain for those colleagues who have made a promise not to kill the old, the weak, women and children. If you follow this path, you don't have to expect to be forgiven. A blood-stained soul will not be cleansed just by killing one less child or woman.Is it the last protection for one's soul to set rules for oneself that one cannot kill?Is it really possible to get peace of mind in this way, can it be called the right way to kill?

She didn't care anymore anyway.

It can only ensure that the prey will not miss no matter how tightly protected it is, and that it will be dealt with cleanly and without leaving any survivors. Of course, the price is also expensive.Anyone who pays the starting price can be easily killed, the ministers of the shogunate, heavenly beings, civilians, and those who threaten the heavenly beings.

She suddenly thought what if one day she was entrusted to kill Gui.

Can you do it?

The answer that was expected to be hesitant suddenly became decisive.

"Of course not."

Why so sure?

"What is Miss Hongji thinking about so preoccupied?"

"Hey, Miss Hongji's thoughts have actually left us! It's too heartbreaking, and I'm going to be punished with alcohol!"

"That's right, it's time to drink!"

"Then I'll punish myself with two glasses." After drinking two glasses of spirits, the scorching heat from her throat made her almost unable to maintain a dignified smile.

Alcohol is not tasty at all. I don't know why so many people are addicted to alcohol, in order to numb themselves and escape from reality?It is indeed sad enough to live on something so bad.

But the feeling of being drunk is really good, the feeling of being delirious, staggering but unable to remember anything, and sometimes I really want to stay in that state for the rest of my life.

"Miss Hongji punished herself with two drinks for such a good drinker! How cunning!"

"Yes! You need to be punished with two cups."

"Then respect is worse than obedience." The snow-white wrist raised the wine glass and drank it down, and the men let out booing laughter.

The world is so noisy and noisy.

【5】

"That... madam..."

"Ah? I'm not some kind of wife. I'm the mother here, Sang Baizi. Just call me Baizi!" Baizi realized that he had been looking at each other for too long, so he quickly put on a smiling face to say hello, and what the hell is his wife?Although I am a bit older, I am not married yet. I have the face of a married woman and I am always called the lady boss. After seeing it, I have to apply a mask carefully, and I need to get two injections of hyaluronic acid.

"Mrs. Baizi, I am a friend of His Royal Highness Honglian..."

"Ah, Xiao Lian did say that a friend will come, brother, come and sit first!"

"It's not brother, it's Gui!"

"Mr. Gui? Anyway, come in first." Baizi led him to Honglian's lounge, wondering why this guy had a strange feeling, as if he had some obsession with his name.

The maid served hot tea, Gui sat down and asked, "Excuse me, Lord Honglian..."

"Xiao Lian is busy, she won't be here in a while, Mr. Gui can tell us anytime if you need anything."

"Thank you so much." Gui thanked Baizi, but found that he was standing there looking at something in a daze.

"That... Madam seems to have been staring at me since just now, what's the matter?"

"Ah, I'm so sorry for being so rude to Mr. Gui!" Baizi who was spotted immediately bowed and apologized, "I just think Mr. Gui looks a bit like an acquaintance." What about the figure, the inner words are completely different... Baizi thought silently in his heart.But for that child, this similarity will become a bond that cannot be ignored.

"Acquaintance? Could it be Madam, your husband?"

"What husband?! I'm not married yet!" Bai Zi yelled a little out of composure. "And what's with that expression on your face where you suddenly realize that you're an older unmarried young woman!!!"

"I'm really sorry, the radar below seems to be interfered..."

"Radar?! Is it a radar that detects married women? That's why you're calling me lady after lady?"

"Where is it, I'm just used to being polite..."

After finally calming down, Baizi suppressed the unhappiness in his heart and asked, "What kind of job does Mr. Gui do?"

"Well, what I'm doing is to usher in the dawn of Edo!"

"Dawn is ushering in? Are you the sunrise detector at the Meteorological Observatory?"

"no···"

"Then you are a watchman?"

"It's not..." Gui put away the pose in embarrassment, and stretched out his hand to meet Chaoyang. He cleared his throat and said, "I'm a man with lofty ideals."

"????!!!!!!" Different from what he imagined, Baizi jumped up from the ground in an instant, stretched out his head and quickly checked under the table, outside the door and every corner of the room.

"Excuse me?"

"The barbarians... My God, 80.00% of the guests here are officials from the shogunate, if you hear me..."

"Oh, I was negligent." Gui said in self-criticism, thinking in his heart that you couldn't figure it out.

"Does Xiaolian know?"

"Master Honglian knows."

"Oh my god, what is she thinking in her head? She has long hair and is a man with lofty ideals. What a nonsense, she is a man who does such a desperate thing!"

"That... It is not a matter of life, although there is a possibility of sacrifice at any time..."

"Is something going to happen? It's definitely going to happen..." Bai Zi fidgeted.It's not that I haven't taken over the commission of the people with lofty ideals. The world is so small, if they are found out and killed the colleagues they knew, wouldn't the [-] o'clock file last night be staged for real?

"Also... what do you mean by what you said just now? I can't help but feel a little concerned when I hear that the long hair is down~ Did Master Honglian know the people who were barbarians before?" Gui asked curiously.

"This..." Accidentally slipped the tongue... You must not answer this question... Baizi became embarrassed.

"It's an ex-boyfriend. Although the nature of what he does is different, it's still a barbarian." The paper door opened, and there was still a calm voice.

I can already say it in such an indifferent tone, so it means that it is no longer something that I can't care about.

I used to be so mindful, not allowing others to say a word, searching hard for the answer, wandering in every corner of the memory, holding it tightly in my hand, and not opening my mouth when I bleed.

But now it can be mentioned so easily.

Sure enough, everything will eventually be diluted by time, so is it not too far to completely forget it?

【6】

"Xiaolian..."

"Master Honglian..."

The atmosphere became awkward.

"Mother Baizi, can I trouble you to prepare some buckwheat noodles for Mr. Gui?"

"Okay, I'll go right away."

There were only the two of them left in the house.

Gui didn't dare to show his air, and lowered his head, while Hong Lian casually sat down opposite him, picked up the cup and took a big sip of tea.

"Master Guren, I didn't intend to inquire about your past..."

"It's okay, I don't mind." His voice was a little hoarse, but the overall tone of his voice was much higher, and it felt different from usual.

Gui looked up at Honglian, her cheeks were slightly flushed, which made her look a little more charming, her eyebrows and eyes were stretched, she didn't seem angry, did she drink alcohol?But speaking and acting seems to be quite normal.

"The buckwheat noodles are here!" Baizi came with the buckwheat noodles himself.

"If Mr. Gui likes it, please eat more!"

"Don't worry, Guren-sama! Then I will start!"

"Little Lian, you've been drinking..." Bai Zi said in a low voice.

"I drank a little, but I'm not drunk yet." In fact, I drank a lot, and now my consciousness is a little fuzzy, but there is no need to say it to worry Baizi, if this guy finds out, he will definitely make a fuss again.

It is not a constitution that is easy to get drunk, and it seems that there is no experience of drinking madness in memory, but no matter how normal it is on the surface, it is impossible to control the feeling in my heart.

The feeling of wanting to spit it all out.

Seeing Gui happily eating soba noodles, Honglian really wanted to tell him: Do you know?who i am and what i really do.

I'm a killer who can take anyone's unclean money and kill him.I am not a nice person.You know, you will stay away from me and hate me, right?

But if you stay away from me, hate me, and never show up again, I will be very sad.But what can I do?I can't be cheeky to ask you to forgive, I can't open my mouth to beg you to stay.I can only hide it.

The brain paralyzed by alcohol and the remaining rationality fiercely competed for the right to use the mouth.

"Mother Baizi, Yuzhi sees that the lord is here..."

"Really...I see." Baizi subconsciously glanced at Honglian.Guren nodded slightly to her.

"I'm sorry to excuse you, Mr. Gui." Hong Lian stood up first.Baizi was stunned for a moment and stood up.

"It's okay Guren-sama, go get busy, I will enjoy this bowl of soba noodles here!"

"That's good."

【7】

The paper door was moved up again.

Guren slowly walked towards the machiya on the other side.

Almost said it all.If you don't leave, you will definitely confess.

It is hoped to be exposed.

Instead of sitting down and explaining face-to-face, it's better to speed up the development of things, and it's refreshing to be discovered directly.

It is better to push it away with your own hands than to worry about losing it all day long.

I can no longer bear the dull pain in my heart when I think of the other person's disappointed eyes, fear or even disgust.

This seemingly peaceful reality might just be a continuation of the nightmarish past.

In the dark place without light, the shadow that lost the existence of the main body is even more impossible to stay.

But is it just a shadow?

He is obviously breathing, has a heartbeat, can laugh, no matter how embarrassing he falls, he can say some stupid things without changing his face, even when he is running away, he can maintain a heart of cold jokes.

Stubborn to the point of stubbornness, natural to the point of acting strangely, looking at an existence that wants to be respected and kept at a distance.Looking closely, he has the persistence and optimism that no one else has. In his eyes, a bowl of soba noodles, a TV show, a baseball game, and a delicious bar are all endowed with different pleasures.

During the time he was by my side, things like meaning seemed to reappear in life... Even if it was a lie, a disguise, even if it was just an illusory scene in my eyes, I really wanted to reach out and grab it...

However, there will still be a day when it disappears.

Then let that day come sooner.

That way, it's easier to forget.

【8】

Yu Zhijian.

very familiar name.

The shogunate is in charge of diplomacy, an official who has a close relationship with heaven and man but has not yet fully expressed his attachment.

It seems that many radicals want to win over people.

But can such a person be relied upon in the end?

Gui shook his head and picked up the chopsticks.

But at least go and see who it is?

The picked chopsticks were put down again.

The paper door was opened and closed again.

【9】

The task this time is not difficult.

Such a well-protected official must also be the target of many people, and he is just getting the moon first.Although the man with the sunglasses looked a bit difficult to deal with, the bulging place under the coat was probably a gun. He had been sitting there without moving since the beginning, staring at him for a long time without turning his head. Are you blind?It seems that I heard about a famous blind mercenary.My acting skills are only good enough to deceive people's eyes, it doesn't matter, if it's really troublesome, let's make some noise this time.

Plans gradually surfaced in my mind.Make some noise to let the bodyguards who are in a hurry to go out first, and then deal with the rest as soon as possible.As for the blind man, let's deal with him first.

But is it too close to that person?If you do it in such a close place, maybe you will be discovered, right?

Wouldn't it be nice to be found out so it would all be over.Another voice in my heart said.

Also, at the risk of being discovered, he exposed his fangs and tore at the prey, maybe the way his mouth was full of blood, sticking out his tongue and licking his lips would be hit right by that man.

There is not even a trace of cover, and the true face that has been spent so much to hide will be seen clearly.

It's exciting to think about it.

【10】

When the weird fire outside the window broke through the window paper and knocked the two warriors down like lightning, everything was slowly developing in the expected direction.

I like the chaotic and tense scene, but I still have to pretend to be terrified and scream a few times.

"There are assassins! Protect your lord!" This sentence is right, this moment is always by your lord's side.However, the direction judgment is still wrong.

Soon the well-trained bodyguards chased half of them out, including the blind shooter. It seemed that I was too worried.

"My lord, let's get out of here immediately!"

"Alright, let's go out through the back door." Yu Zhijian pretended to be calm and put on a look of being able to help me, but the trembling of his hands still betrayed his heart.

Do you think it's safe to leave here?I promised Baizi that I wouldn't make this place too dirty, but I can't guarantee that you'll have a whole body when you're outside.

The samurai surrounded the master and exited the hall.

The geisha who was so frightened and limp in the corner stood up silently, picked up the clear water from the table and poured it on her face.She wiped off the makeup on her face with her sleeves, glanced at the face in the bronze mirror on the table, and made sure that there was no trace of a smile on the face, so she untied her hairpin, took off her kimono jacket, and looked at it from the window. jump out.

【11】

Gui heard the commotion here in the next room, and finally waited until all the warriors ran out before rushing out impatiently.

"Red..." Gui's voice stuck in his throat for an instant.

There was only one man with sunglasses in the room, holding a purple kimono robe under his nose and sniffing carefully.

"Who are you? Why..." Gui frowned and asked.

Realizing Gui's intrusion, the man grinned, and said in a strange way: "I remember this smell, if you want it, it's okay to give it to you." He threw the kimono to Gui and took it out of his coat He took out his gun and jumped out of the window.

Gui stood there, looking at the kimono in his hand, and fell silent.

He realized that he was getting closer to the answer to the question, but he wasn't sure whether to keep getting closer.

Get any closer, and something will be changed forever.

It always feels like something irreversible is about to happen.

【12】

I really expected that the road to find the answer would be difficult, but I didn't expect the answer to be found in my heart early in the morning.

The hard part is going against the answers given.

Isn't it all idling with no results until the next step.

The author has something to say:

So it seems that the nonsense has been concealed for a long time... so the plot should develop faster... (should?) In the next chapter, everyone's silver mulberry will appear~