Three thousand congratulations

【1】

After getting off the taxi, Gui anxiously searched for the familiar voice in the emergency room.

"This way!" Yin Shi beckoned.

"You bastard! What did you do to her!" Outside the operating room, Gui rushed forward as if losing his mind, grabbed Gao Shan's skirt and punched him in the face.

"Please don't make any noise in the hospital!" A passing nurse reminded seriously.Yinshi grabbed Gui and whispered to him, "Hey, don't be too impulsive."

"What? Do you think I did it?" Gao Shan wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth, and laughed to himself, "That guy committed suicide."

"Suicide?" Gui was stunned, "Why?"

"Because I'm finally disappointed with everything," Gao Shan smiled self-deprecatingly, "I won't stay for anyone." Gui's tense body relaxed instantly, and his clenched fist slowly Let go.Looking at the lonely expression on Gao Shan's face, a trace of unbearableness flashed in his eyes.

After that, the three of them stood silently at the door of the operating room.

I don't know how long I waited, and finally a nurse came out and said to him, "Fortunately, he was sent to the hospital in time, and the patient was rescued." Hearing this, Gao Shan sneered again, turned and left.Yinshi looked at his back, hesitated for a moment and called out: "Hey, don't you want to take a look at her?"

Gao Shan waved his hand and said without looking back, "That guy won't want to see me."

Yin Shi sighed, turned his head and saw Gui Ze standing there motionless with his head down, wondering what he was thinking.He said kindly to the nurse, "Can I go in and see her now?"

"The effect of the anesthesia has not subsided yet. If you want to visit, go to the intensive care unit."

"Thank you."

When the nurse was about to return to the operating room, Gui suddenly stepped forward and grabbed the corner of the nurse's clothes, "Excuse me..."

"Ok?"

"Patient, when will you wake up?"

"The anesthesia will wear off after half an hour, but it depends on the patient's physical condition if he really wakes up, tonight at the latest."

"Don't worry, the nurses said it's all right." Yin Shi patted Gui on the shoulder, but Gui still bowed his head in suspense.

In the evening, the nurse said that someone must stay with her for the night, Gui asked Yinshi to go back first, and stayed by herself.In the dead of night in the hospital, he sat on Honglian's bedside, looked at her pale cheeks, and listened to the regular sounds of various instruments in the ward, he found that he was not sleepy at all.

The strange look in her eyes when she raised the knife to point at herself, the tearful look back before she was taken into the helicopter by Gao Shan, her trembling wrist, and her voice when she lay on the bar and cried It came out, ringing loudly in his ears.

He recalled every word she said and every subtle expression at that time, carefully confirming whether there was any deep meaning behind it that he didn't understand, eager to know the emotions she didn't want to tell him.

Before he knew it, it was already dawn, and Gui looked at the ray of sunlight coming in through the cracks in the curtains, and realized that he had spent the night in vain.

After a while, Yinshi walked into the ward.

"You haven't slept all night, have you?" Yin Shi saw the dark circles on his face, and patted his shoulder, "I'll do it for you, go and have a rest."

"No need," Gui shook his head, "I have something to say, I must ask her immediately."

"Will this be too... wait until she recovers?"

"I can't wait."

Yinshi sighed, "Okay, I'm outside, call me if you need to."

【2】

As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw Gui sitting beside the hospital bed looking out the window.

"..." Honglian was taken aback, and wanted to close her eyes quickly, but the creaking sound from the hospital bed had already attracted Gui's attention, and he looked over here, Honglian could only meet his gaze with an expression of resignation .

"Finally woke up." Gui's voice was still very gentle.

She lowered her head in silence, at this moment she only felt extremely embarrassed, it was a big joke that the person who decided to die was rescued.I can't even do a good job of suicide, so I really have no face to live on.And compared to the physical pain, the more torment must be the next one.Heartbroken, well-meaning exhortations, enumerating all the beauty of life, all the folly of the decision to commit suicide.Being guarded by the cautious eyes of the people around me, I am afraid that I will have such bad thoughts again. It seems that I just failed to commit suicide once and become a person who "doesn't know how to live".

"Why give up life casually? If you feel pain and feel that you can't continue, can't you tell your troubles? Let's solve it together and get through the difficulties together."

Sure enough, it was exactly as expected, and Gui began to preach with a heavy tone.Guren smiled inwardly, it's really ridiculous, compared to your question of "why do you want to die", I would rather ask the question of "why do you want to live".But she remained silent on the surface.

Seeing that she didn't speak, Gui subconsciously thought she was thinking, so she said softly and gently: "If you speak, there are many people who are willing to lend a helping hand. Why do you give up like this? ?”

It seems to be thought that he did it because he wanted others to pay attention to his pain.Guren began to reflect, did I commit suicide just to let you guys realize that I was too miserable to live?Or is it because I hope to get your comfort and your careful care?Maybe you will get mercy by pretending that you will seek death if you are abandoned?

I didn't put myself to death just to get you to lend a hand.Thinking of this, she looked up into his eyes and said, "My own life, can't I decide for myself?"

As if she didn't expect her to answer like this, Gui was stunned for a moment and said: "Indeed, this is your own life, but, in the process of living, you have been unknowingly connected with everyone, haven't you? Have you laughed together?" , cried together, ran together, will you forget? Those who have been rescued by you, encouraged by you, and gained strength from you, for them, you have long been an indispensable part. Such rash Leave, have you considered their feelings?"

"For you, Honglian, the feeling of being abandoned without saying a word is very familiar, right? The kind of cherished person who suddenly chooses to leave, and the pain that you can't understand, don't you suffer from it? The helplessness of searching but not finding the answer, the despair of doubting yourself and denying everything in the past, do you have the heart to let the people who care about you suffer from all this like you?" Gui said, a little excited stand up.

"The Guren-sama I know is someone who would rather hurt himself than hurt others."

"Won't hurt others? You should know how many people I have killed, right? Even you, you almost died under my knife?"

"I know that's not your original intention, and I know you won't hurt me." Gui's eyes showed a trace of firmness, "The reason why Lord Honglian suffered so much, and the reasons why you can't continue, I will find out later. Yes, we will solve it together with you. If you are not willing to open your heart now, then I will wait until the day you are willing to hand me your hand. "

"Enough." Guren put down the hand that was holding her forehead, "Why do I have to be saved by someone? Can't I feel hopeless? Can't I be desperate without thinking about the consequences?"

"There is no reason for love, and there is also no reason for disappointment. I just feel tired and can't stop going on. Can I admit defeat?"

"If you look like this, many people will be disappointed. Avoid troubles, cry when you encounter pain, refuse to stand up once you fall down, and reject everything else after losing one thing for a long time. It's too extreme." Looking at her Gui's eyes showed pain as he gave up on himself.

"The way I am liked by others, I can't do it anyway, right? No matter how hard I try, it's just a failure. Then why should I live for the way others see me?"

"Even if you become a loser in the eyes of the world, don't you mind?" Gui looked at her and asked seriously.

Honglian looked at him, and suddenly smiled softly: "The so-called world, isn't it you?"

Gui froze on the spot. He looked at her face as if he was looking at a stranger. After a long silence, he said in a hoarse voice, "It's so selfish of you to do this."

"I... I am very disappointed in you." He turned his head and left the ward.

Seeing the door of the ward being gently closed by him, Honglian's tears that had been in her eyes for a long time finally fell down.

It seems that you also had hopes for me, so why didn't you tell me earlier?

It's cruel to tell me I had it after I lost it.

【3】

"Hi, wig." Yinshi called Gui who was about to leave outside the ward.

"Not a wig is Gui."

"Why do you say that? You know it's not like that..."

"I can't say it." Gui turned his back to him, with an indescribable helplessness in his voice.

"Eh?"

"If she wants to live a good life for me... I can't say it."

Seeing his lonely back, Yinshi didn't stop him any more, he hesitated holding the doorknob hand, after a while he sighed softly, pushed open the door and walked in.

Seeing him coming in, Guren looked up at him with red and swollen eyes from crying and said, "Are you here to disappoint me too?"

Yinshi didn't speak, just sat down beside her hospital bed, stretched out his hand gently to stroke her hair, sighed and said, "Everyone is talking nonsense."

The tears that Honglian had finally stopped welled up again, and she threw herself on Yinshi and hugged him tightly in her arms and cried loudly.

She sobbed and said intermittently: "Yinshi, how could I be selfish..."

"I don't even have myself, how can I be selfish..."

【4】

Under the west window, Takasugi was holding the shamisen and playing the sad Duyi.Ricoh opened the paper door with a bang, and sat down at the low table behind him.

"I remember I told you to take good care of her, right?" Ricoh showed a rare displeasure.

"Ah, I seem to have said that." Gao Sugi stopped playing and leaned against the window, looking very listless.

"If you want to pull her to your side or to some other extent, I advise you to give up."

"Am I not good enough?"

"It can be said that to her, you are all just a part of the person in her heart."

"Have you seen that person?"

"In a way, yes."

"What a mysterious answer, it makes me want to meet that guy."

"There will be a chance."

"Hmph," Gao Shan snorted coldly, "Indeed, everyone is mortal."

Ricoh stared at him for a while, a strange light flashed in his eyes, but he calmed down quickly.He said lightly: "By the way, the person you were looking for has been found."

Hearing this, Takasugi turned his face, and seemed to finally regain a little interest.

"Can I see him?" There was an urgency in his voice.

Ricoh shook his head, "Not yet."

"As expected." Gao Shan fell down again.

"When the right time comes, we will naturally meet. Also," Ricoh's voice became cold all of a sudden, "you must tell me something before that."

Takasugi looked at him in surprise. This man had always had a smile on his face since the first time we met. Even when he betrayed his own sister, he always had a respectful and polite smile. What is it that deserves his smile? .

"In the late period of the war against barbarians, after you were arrested, what happened?"

Takasugi laughed loudly: "Why are you suddenly so interested in my past? Sure enough, you care more about me than that guy?"

"I just want to know if our enemy is the same." Ricoh's smile returned to his face, "And, I won't just forget about her."

Gao Shan looked at him with interest, and after a while he slowly untied the gauze wrapped around his head, and said, "It seems to start with my eye?"

The author has something to say:

After the last update, I talked about wanting the hostess to have a bento.After thinking about it carefully, if you want lunch, at least you have to wait until you sleep with a wig!

The next chapter begins and the plot slowly enters the final stage, and it is not far from the end~