Three thousand congratulations

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"Tell me something I was thinking a long time ago."

I can't see the figure, but I can only see the words

Almost going crazy when there's something I don't know

Is the love at your fingertips clean or dirty

I'll wait until I can see the opposite of the opposite of words

It's fine if you just wait

You who move forward and me who stop

What should be filled in the gap that will not shorten?

I still can't say it outright

natural coward

almost spilled from both hands

To whom should I give the love given to you?

I don't think there's anyone to give in to.

【1】

After Gui changed shifts, he dragged his tired body out of the ward, sat on a chair outside and fell asleep.

The corridors of the hospital were eerily quiet, and he slowly fell asleep.

He dreamed of the pale moonlight on the river bank, he dreamed of their shadows passing feebly across the dark grass, he walked with her on his back, and the river didn't reflect their reflections, as if they were just two ghosts with no future .

In her room, the door was opened slightly, and the moonlight could enter the room to illuminate their silent silhouettes.

She opened her eyes, like a lost star in the night sky.

She stared at him and smiled.Then she brought her lips closer.

Even if it was a dream, he was clearly aware of what was going to reappear next.

Her kiss was on his lips.At that moment, he lost the moon in the sky, the silent waves on the river bank, and the longing for dawn.

At this moment, he had the blurred sadness in her eyes, a heart decorated with black feathers, and a pure Neverland.

He looked at her mournfully, knowing what kind of lingering words she would use next to crush his heart.

"Songyang..."

"I really miss you."

He closed his eyes, but no tears flowed.

He just feels suffocated.It was as if cold river water had flowed over his head, and the moment he exhaled, it flowed into his heart again.

He couldn't help coughing, and the blood on the tatami stung his eyes.

It turns out that the surrounding time and space have changed.

She and Songyang were kissing in front of him at this moment in the night that only belonged to them.

"I've been longing for you..."

His own position has been replaced.

Her hazy eyes, faint smile at the corners of her mouth, and trembling love words were all clearly caught in his eyes and ears.But he couldn't touch her.

He could only watch her body being occupied by another man's lingering.

Their bodies wetted by each other seemed to absorb all the water in the space.Let him dry up.

He knew that this river was going away from him.

It once flooded him, but resolutely poured into the abyss called the past.

He could only watch in despair as they were entangled like two symbiotic fish, and the migration after many years made them yearn for each other even more.

And he is like a fish in a rut, and no one is with him anymore.

He finally disappeared in the dust, leaving only a raised trace.

【2】

"Hello, wig?"

"Ah?" Gui woke up suddenly, and when he saw Yinshi in front of him, he even forgot his signature response.

"'Ah?'" Yinshi blinked, but didn't pay much attention, "What are you dreaming about? Your face is flushed."

"No, it's nothing." Gui became nervous, and glanced down at a certain part of his lower body. He quickly raised his legs and said as if nothing had happened, "It's just that I feel uncomfortable and can't breathe."

"Have you been enduring it?"

"Huh?" Gui almost jumped up from the stool as if he was electrocuted.

"They... that scene, I don't want to see it a second time." Yinshi lowered his head decadently, "It's just a breakdown."

"En." Gui's heart hanging in the air suddenly fell back into his stomach, and he nodded accordingly.

"It's really unacceptable."

"Yes."

Yinshi raised his head and said to him, "Will you go next or me?"

"You go first. I'll go to the bathroom."

"it is good."

【3】

Clothes sticking to the body, can feel the cold sweat that has not dried completely.Gui took off his pants in the toilet cubicle and sighed silently.

You can't go out like this.

He hesitated for a moment, then closed his eyes, and gently held it with his hand.

A bewildered look gradually appeared on his handsome face, and his thoughts gradually drifted into the boundless darkness.

what is the problem?

This morning, the two were still hugging each other tightly.

The moment he saw the familiar handwriting on the letter, he thought he was hallucinating.

It's Teacher Songyang's handwriting, how could he admit it wrong?

So he went to Yinshi for the first time, and when they came to the reception room and saw Gao Shan sitting inside, he even breathed a sigh of relief in his heart.

He comforted himself that all this might just be a plan by Takasugi to attract them.If that handwriting was imitated by Takasugi, it would make sense.

but…

That person still appeared in front of them.

He did that to her in front of his face.She was shaking physically and mentally, he could see it.

He knows that after so many years, she has never forgotten him...

Everything that slowly took shape...Because of the arrival of that person, it was severely crushed...

Everything is back to square one...

What happened between them last night?

Clinging to the skin of the body, the feeling of being completely possessed by oneself.

"My place has become the shape of Mr. Gui~"

The red lips opened slightly, and said words that made people's blood swell, rubbed against their ears, and exhaled warm breath, and the air was formed with the color of sex.

The eyes are blinded, unable to see the so-called future, but following the expectations of the body, they are constantly trudging on each other's bodies.

Touching the upper limit of provocation, with the joint efforts of the two, they easily crossed the boundary that they once abided by.

Temperance who had been left behind let out a mournful cry.The mood at that moment was pure and primitive.It is human nature to want to move forward in a straight line.

I can no longer consider whether you can bear it, but I just want to give you all of this, and even long for you to offer your knees and surrender in front of me.Just like our irrepressible desires in our hearts.

Begging for mercy like a defeated dog.Use your body to fill the part of my body that was left empty by the torn sanity.

look at your smile.I want to never be separated from you.Such flippant words almost escaped my lips.

"Guren...I..." What did you want to say at that time?If we hadn't hesitated back then, would we be different things now?

Or... just complicate what's going on now?

I slip from your body because of cooling passion.You slipped from my palm.Because of the irreparable decadence of reality.

Hold hands tightly, as if I have you again.This illusory happiness... For a moment, it is as if you are standing in front of me...

At this moment, I can only see you blindly, and I don't even see the sense of loss that follows...

"Honglian..." Gui's voice became hoarse for an instant, tears welled up in his eyes, and he was choked up in his throat by the intense physical sensation.

After a long time, he came back to his senses, looked at the mess on the ground bewilderedly, and whispered in disbelief: What happened to me?

【4】

He walked to the sink and washed his face with cold water when Yin Shi broke in.

"wig!"

"what?"

Yinshi was obviously taken aback when he saw him, "Hey, your complexion is not very good, are you okay?"

"It's okay." Gui wiped his face with his sleeve, "What's wrong?"

"She just woke up."

"Really? Did you say anything?"

Yinshi's expression darkened, "She just asked."

"'Am I not dead yet?' I said of course not, and she replied calmly, 'That's right.'"

"Then she's alone now?"

"Gao Shan is watching her," Yin Shi's eyes became more worried. "If this goes on, I'm afraid..."

Gui frowned and fell silent.

Yin Shi stared at him, hesitated for a moment and asked, "What are you going to do?"

"I?"

"How long are you going to pretend to be stupid? You don't know that guy's feelings, right? How long are you going to delay? It's the same for Guren, and it's the same for Jisong, just wandering in their lives blindly No promises. Is it that hard to respond?"

"What are you going to do, let that guy go on like this?"

When Gui turned his back to Yin, he said in a low voice, "Now is not the time to talk about this..."

"If you don't plan to do something, I will snatch her here at any time. Even if I don't do it, there are plenty of people who have such thoughts." Yin Shi grabbed Gui's shoulder and made him look at himself, "Speak, wig, don't try to prevaricate me with vague nonsense like 'some feelings don't need to be expressed'!"

Gui looked at him for a long time, and finally sighed softly. Yinshi watched the helplessness in his eyes, and slowly let go of his hand.

"I have never left Master Jisong's life because Master Jisong needs me."

"Although Master Jisong seems to be able to take care of everything in an orderly manner, never speaks of suffering or loneliness, and acts as if there is no one at all, but the more she is like this, the more she yearns for warmth and longs for love in her heart. Is it the most common and simple happiness. She needs someone to talk with, to help occasionally, and to be scolded by her. Once I realize this, there is no way for me to leave. I know what she wants things, but now I can't bring her all this."

"And I didn't leave Guren-sama...because..."

Silver also fell silent.

After a while, he broke the silence: "Gui...you..."

Gui smiled sadly and continued talking.

"Actually, she is stronger than anyone else. It's just because she is too affectionate that she doesn't want to come out of the past, grow up, and open her heart. After unraveling her heart knot, I believe she will be able to pick up life again." Confidence, a gentle person like her will definitely find someone who can trust her and is willing to take care of her. It seems a bit wrong to say that... She actually doesn't need others to take care of her. "

"Because she is someone who has the ability to make others happy." Gintoki continued, "Even a man who can't make people happy will feel that he can do it with her. So, we will all be attracted to her, right? .”

Gui smiled bitterly, "But she doesn't seem to be aware of this yet."

"Promise me." Yin Shi put his hand on his shoulder, "You will tell her."

【5】

Gui walked to the ward and found Gao Shan leaning against the door, smoking a cigarette.

"Takasugi, smoking is not allowed here."

Gao Shan looked up at him, twitched the corner of his mouth and said in a low voice, "Really? I'm sorry."

Gui was taken aback, "What happened?"

Takasugi didn't respond, just patted his shoulder lightly, and left.

Gui walked into the ward and saw that she was staring at the ceiling without a trace of anger on her face.Gui sat down beside her bed, not knowing what to say.

She moved her eyes to him, as if waiting for him to speak, but Gui lowered her eyes, not daring to meet her gaze.

She waited for a long time, and finally gave up.She gently covered his face with her hand, feeling the temperature of his skin, and smiled faintly.

"sorry that I had you worried."

When I knew that you liked gentle and strong women, I also forced my cowardly and self-willed self to pretend to be strong and open-minded.I know that you are someone who can’t stand idly by other people’s suffering, so I don’t want to tie you down by my side in that way, so I keep pretending that it doesn’t matter at all, so that I don’t let you realize the uneasiness in my heart, and I don’t want to let you You worry about me.

But now I can't pretend anymore.

Maybe you can get your favor with a little more effort, and maybe one day you will get your wholehearted attention if you keep doing this.

But all this is not important to me now.

At that time, even if you were driven to a desperate situation, there was always medicine to treat it.He gently hugged me, whose heart was partially broken, and comforted me in a low voice. The wind gently blew through his flaxen hair, feeling his body temperature, and I was always able to smoothly forget that my hands were wet. Even if God does not forgive me, only that person understands and knows who I swung the knife for, and I can choose to turn a blind eye to it all.

But now my eyes can't avoid seeing through all the illusions.

It was hard to escape from the choice of destroying oneself and others, and it was hard to come to you.There is a little bit of light in the dark heart, and the outlines of the future and imagination seem to gradually emerge in front of my eyes.

But in the end I found that I couldn't stand in front of you smiling with tears in my eyes.

As if I couldn't abandon the past and run towards the future shining with the outline of the dawn.

So, can you remember the way I smile?This is the only thing I can give you who is trying to be liked by you.

Everything you gave me will never be forgotten.She caressed his cheek, her gaze slowly gliding over his eyebrows, eyes, nose, lips, and chin.She tried hard to remember his appearance.

But the harder he tried to smile, the more tears welled up in his eyes.

I don't cry because I've been lied to, or because I've lost something long ago.

I cry for us who can no longer be near.I'm not losing anything, I just can't have anything anymore.

She turned her face away, unwilling to let him see her brave side.

"red lotus?"

She withdrew her hand and clenched it into a fist.

"I'm tired, can I have a rest alone?"

【6】

Obviously, I want to be loved, embraced, and treated gently more than anyone else, but because of the jokes from heaven, I lose my beloved one after another, and lose all the scars all over my body. In the end, I only learned to hide all my desires in my heart. In fact, smiling is more painful than anyone else, and even feels that she is not worthy of being a human being.Even though she has a more beautiful smile than anyone else, she can no longer show it to her beloved.The burden-bearing body of reality is on the shoulders, and I can only reluctantly throw away all the innocence and pampering in the past. This is not only the only way to survive, but also the only way to continue to love you.

The author has something to say:

Poor Gui, after finally ushering in the home game, he did not escape the fate of being ntr...

If these two people don't make any progress, the article will end... I blame me for being too greedy, and I have a paragraph with this and a paragraph with that, but the business is delayed (but everyone is very happy, isn't it??)

There is a kind of idea that I want to make up for Gui, and then open an article to give him the real hero (I want to dig a hole again...)

The next step is to fill in all kinds of holes and happily usher in the end, right?

The goal is to get Gui online more than 5 times in a row! (Gui: I don’t know if it’s appropriate to say something about mmp...)

Isn’t the so-called male protagonist just the existence of cheating~ Is this the first time you have seen such an operation where the male protagonist’s appearance rate in the first 60 chapters is less than 30% (yes, I counted it)? (In fact, he is a nominal TAT)

Take a look at Curly, the first CP with the heroine, but isn't it the time to send assists now? !

Our wigs are the fate of the finale (the tail of the crane)~ If this is a TV series, then our wigs will be properly paid to act in cameo scenes with a lot of pay!