until now

In that wet painting, Chen Xiao was lying on his side on the bed with a calm expression, the dappled sunlight shone all over his body, except for a shadow on his face, like someone who blocked the dazzling sunlight with his hand.

Chen Xiao stared blankly at the painting, staggered back a few steps, and leaned against the wall, feeling that something was missing.

"Meow~" A soft cat meow came from the room, and Little Wonton moved to Chen Xiao's feet step by step with small steps, and rubbed his neck against his leg.

Chen Xiao's body froze obviously, and the next second he remembered Shen Feng smiling while holding the little wonton, so he also squatted down slowly.

"Meow~" Little Wonton squinted her eyes and lay down on the ground.

A wry smile twitched from the corner of Chen Xiao's mouth: "Has he even abandoned you?" Has he become himself again now?

"Meow~"

Chen Xiao's eyes darkened, and he slowly stretched out his hand to scratch Little Wonton's chin: "Is there really nothing in his heart that is worthy of his nostalgia?"

After finally waking up from the chaos, Chen Yanyan realized that she had lost sight of her, and ran to the door of the studio in worry and fear, and heard Chen Xiao muttering to herself: "Since there is no nostalgia, then it doesn't matter what ...Is that right? Small ravioli?"

Chen Yanyan had never seen Chen Xiao approaching the cat, but at this moment, his posture of holding the cat was exactly the same as that of Shen Feng.

It's just that in the eyes, there is less dependence and more suffocation that is inevitable.

Chen Yanyan was apprehensive in front of Chen Xiao, and Su Qing, who heard the news of Shen Feng's departure, rushed over in a hurry, comforted the little girl who was about to cry, and then turned her gaze to Chen Xiao, who had been silent all this time. Xiao.

"It's okay, you guys go back. I will send someone to find him." Chen Xiao slowly shoveled shit for Little Wonton in the house.

"But, I'm worried..." Chen Yanyan hesitated to speak, thinking of the incident that happened to Shen Feng in the supermarket some time ago. Since then, although there was nothing abnormal on the surface of Shen Feng, his occasional eyes were more than before. Even more decadent.Moreover, Shen Feng would never leave in such an extreme way.

"Don't worry, I'll take care of it." After shoveling the excrement, Chen Xiao put a small box of canned cat food in front of the little wonton, his expression unchanged.

Su Qing hugged Chen Yanyan's shoulder and softly coaxed a few words, then asked Chen Xiao seriously: "Are you serious about Shen Feng...?"

Chen Yanyan was taken aback for a moment, her eyes turned back and forth between the two of them.

Chen Xiao didn't speak, just stared at the little wonton.

"I see, I'll take Yanyan back first. I guess you won't need our help either." Su Qing shrugged and pushed Chen Yanyan out of the unknown. Finally, she turned her head and blinked. "If even you can't find him, probably no one will be able to find him."

After speaking, the two left.

Chen Xiao stood up, walked to the kitchen, took out the bottle of Valium, his eyes loosened a bit.

Shen Feng will not take the initiative to seek death.Chen Xiao didn't believe that after these three months, Shen Feng's heart was not shaken at all.With Chen Xiao's ability, he can clearly understand Shen Feng's past. It's not because he deliberately avoided it, but because he was afraid of hurting Shen Feng and racked his brains to get in. It's just that he hasn't waited for Chen Xiao to figure out how to solve it. Thinking about it, Shen Feng actually sneaked away.

But, did he think he could escape?Of course not.A smile appeared on the corner of Chen Xiao's mouth. From the first side on the square, Shen Feng had no possibility of escaping from him.

It's just that Chen Xiao at the moment thinks so.

Shen Feng was carrying a bulging travel bag, standing outside a dilapidated courtyard, with a complicated look on his face.

After hesitating for a moment, he finally walked in.

The red iron door has lost its paint, and it is full of rust and traces of time.There was a loud TV sound coming from the room, but the slightly noisy sound quality showed that it was also an elderly "old guy".

Shen Feng walked into the room slowly, only feeling that his nerves became more and more tense, those vague memories began to become clear, his right hand shook uncontrollably, he didn't pay attention to his feet, and accidentally knocked over a bottle.The wine bottle fell to the ground with a crisp sound, rolled twice and stopped by the wall.

The people in the room heard the noise, but did not move. The whole person was still nestled on the sofa, and the Anti-Japanese War movie of the 80s and [-]s was playing on the TV.

Shen Feng didn't speak, and stood straight behind, but the painful look in his eyes showed his depression, as if he would be destroyed in the next second.

"Dad..." After a long time, Shen Feng uttered a word softly.

The person on the sofa drank a sip of beer impatiently, then slowly turned around, just glanced at him, his expression was full of disdain, there was no greetings between father and son that he hadn't seen for many years, but Shen's father was old but couldn't hide it. Zhu Zhu's hostile face was full of contempt: "Your illness has been cured?"

Illness... Shen Feng bowed his head and smiled wryly, yes, it was an illness.Just because I like men naturally, my father thinks this is a shameful disease.

"Isn't the price I paid enough for this disease?" Shen Feng said in a low voice, as if he was asking himself, as well as himself.

With a bang, a bottle of beer exploded at Shen Feng's feet. "You two white-eyed wolves that you don't know well, is this how you repay me?" Shen's father was instantly furious, pointing at Shen Feng's nose and scolding, "You are willing to be raped by men for the rest of your life. How beautiful I was in the army back then , how could there be such a coward like you... Back then, I shouldn't have softened my heart and wanted to cure you, so I just threw you into the kiln as a rabbit master. I would be happy without your son! What a fucking bad luck!"

Oh, soft-hearted?Yes, I was soft-hearted. Because of my soft-heartedness, I almost beat myself to death, and broke my lover's leg. Because of my soft-heartedness, I threw myself into the crowd of women to do that kind of thing forcibly, because of my soft-heartedness... ...and almost fucked his own son after being drunk...

Shen Feng raised the corner of his mouth mockingly.

"It's quite a pity. You didn't throw me into a kiln to be a rabbit master, but into a group of women to try to cure me. If you don't allow me to paint, you have to break my hand. You don't allow me and Qin Hao Together, Qin Hao will be killed. But now?"

There was a mocking smile on Shen Feng's face, which made the usually calm and gentle face look a bit hideous, "Didn't my sister leave home to marry Qin Hao in spite of your objection and never came back to see you again? Didn't I still draw Hua, liking men? You disciplined us self-righteously, what about now? Didn’t you end up with no one to take care of you? Ha! Why, do you still want to taste your own son now? "

"You! You bastard!" Shen's father never thought that Shen Feng would say such words, and then he breathed heavily in his chest. Years of drinking had already emptied his body, and he was no longer the high-spirited warrior of the past. Pride and glory, what he stubbornly insisted on, could not be accepted by his descendants. Now, it is very difficult for him to reach the phone on the cabinet.

"You see, our hearts are exactly the same." Shen Feng watched his father panting like an old organ, his face flushed, but he knocked the landline at home to the ground and stomped hard. go up.

If he died, would it be over?When he died, those things would disappear with his departure, and he would no longer have to suffer from those painful memories every night; if he died...

Shen Feng showed a gentle yet cruel smile.

Shen Ling rushed to the hospital with a dull expression, and stood in front of the hospital bed, watching her father struggling to speak, but unable to speak.

Stroke, the most common disease at this age, is still a person who has been drinking for a long time.

Shen Ling looked at this man coldly, this was the father who gave birth to him and raised him, but if it wasn't for him, why would Qin Hao have one leg disabled, and he would have to endure his parents' pointing and pointing.

Although Shen Ling occasionally rejoices, if it weren't for this, how would she get Qin Hao.

"Miss Nurse, may I ask who brought him here?" Shen Ling grabbed the nurse who came to make the rounds.

"The patient's son. Are you his daughter? Please come with me to go through the procedures. He only paid the deposit and left. There are still many procedures to be completed." The nurse looked a little dissatisfied.

Shen Ling was taken aback when she heard this, but quickly regained her composure, the look in her eyes became a bit ugly, she politely thanked her, and said she would go through the formalities later.

Looking down at her father with cloudy eyes, a trace of impatience was drawn from the corner of Shen Ling's mouth, and she said, "How about it, how do you feel when you see your own son? Shen Feng is also capable of making you so angry."

Compared with indifference and ruthlessness, Shen Ling feels that this has soon become a family tradition. The indifferent and stubborn father and the indifferent and ruthless younger brother are now the indifferent and ruthless self.

She forgot who was silently pushing everything behind.Shen Ling forgot, but no one would forget.

On the way to go through the formalities, an unfamiliar phone called again and again, and Shen Ling picked it up impatiently.

"I'm going to trouble my eldest sister for the matter of seeing my father off." Shen Feng's voice came from the phone.

"Shen Feng? Where are you? Are you so angry with Dad that you don't even show your face?" Shen Ling's tone was full of disgust.

"Sister, we will all have retribution." Shen Feng's voice was low, but concealed a trace of joy that destroyed everything, "Everyone who was guilty back then will have retribution, of course, including me."

"you--"

"Take good care of Dad, don't worry, brother-in-law is here, and I am..." After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone, and a busy tone came from the receiver.

After Shen Feng hung up the phone, he could imagine how distorted Shen Ling's gentle and beautiful face would be when he heard that he was with Qin Hao.

If, this is his own life... Shen Feng turned around and looked at Qin Hao who was dragging his prosthetic limb, feeling a little pain in his heart.

If people are really doing it and the sky is watching, then fate will give everyone a reasonable trial.