happy snow

I am Ming-19.

The universe is a vast and complex system with endless algorithms.There are three thousand worlds and three thousand lives.

My birth exists to maintain the normal operation of this system.I am not any kind of creature, I have no entity, not even a mind.For an infinite amount of time in the past, I have been repeating the algorithm mechanically.It's like a computer in the human world.

I am responsible for the "fate" system of human beings in the earth area.The so-called fate is not as magical as human beings understand it. It is nothing more than a causal relationship. Whatever cause is planted, the fruit will naturally be born.

But the system hit a snag.The causal circulatory system in certain areas of the planet is blocked, causing its disorder.Of course I have to maintain it.

I selected people with severe damage to the life system among human beings, and appeared beside them as virtual identities, guiding their behavior in the opposite direction to normal.

What is the normal orientation?I can't define either.

So I have a human body.Very miraculously, there is a place called the heart beating on the left side of the chest.

I met Tang Chengxue.

All the information about Tang Chengxue in the past 15 years can be retrieved within a breath.There is nothing special about this person's misfortune, at least in my opinion at the time.

The first time I saw him was one afternoon when the sun was shining brightly. I saw him flipping his clothes and smiling with the little fat man next to him.When he saw me, he must have been taken aback for a moment.I smile back.

In order to complete the task, I frequently appeared by his side and extended a helping hand to him. Only by helping him can he make him trust me.This is my experience of observing human beings for so long.

There is also toffee, that kind of sweet and greasy food. I didn't know why Tang Chengxue liked it at first.Thinking about it later, maybe he wants to enjoy the bitterness, this sweetness may be the only joy.

My identity here is a rich second-generation Chinese teacher.In the human world, it is easy to do things with money.I moved to live next door to Tang Chengxue's dormitory, it would be easier to carry out tasks closer to him.

Everything is as expected, and the time progress is slowly lengthening.I can also clearly feel his dependence.

well.

Oh, by the way, I got a mobile phone later, because Tang Chengxue said he wanted to add me on WeChat.

Later, he didn't know that there was nothing in the phone except his WeChat, because I didn't need to contact other people.

I know all his whereabouts, and I can even guess his thoughts easily.However, I don't know why, when I saw him sick, or when he smoked alone at the bridgehead on New Year's Eve, I felt a little bit reluctant.

That kind of emotion should be called "reluctant".

Can't bear him to suffer.

He is too strong, like a dry grass swaying in the cold wind.

Ha, I have been teaching Chinese for three years in the human world, and my metaphors are quite handy.

I miss that time, watching fireworks with him on New Year's Eve.So noisy, yet so quiet, as if there are only me and him left in the world, two.

Tang Chengxue got into a fight with his classmates at school and was disqualified from accommodation.

Maybe I did it to complete the task, or because I wanted to be with him, I let him live in my house and live in the name of a couple.Although I don't quite understand such a thing as "love".

He is very interesting, we chat together, talk about the world, ideals and future.We drink hot coffee in the warm sun in winter and iced kumquat lemon in summer.

He was too lazy to get up early to eat, but how could he skip breakfast?I love getting him breakfast when the sun comes up and I love watching him gobble it up.He doesn't pay much attention to his image in front of me.But I love him just like that.

If you don't eat onion, ginger, garlic and coriander, you are simply too picky.This cannot be tolerated blindly.

Sleeping dishonestly at night, always kicking the quilt, how easy it is to catch cold...

In doing this day after day, I feel all kinds of human emotions.Joy and sorrow, love and be loved.Maybe it's love, I'm not sure.

But I know that his future is so dark, and my future with him does not exist at all.

So I couldn't bear it even more.But time will not stop his gears, or my colleague "time" will go crazy.

What should have come is still here, and my self-deception of peace and harmony was ruthlessly broken.

That day he lay on my lap and played with his mobile phone as usual, but the next second he asked my identity.

I wouldn't lie to him, ever, so I told the truth.

He didn't say anything superfluous, but I could feel the beating of my left chest even more, it was so fast.The next day, Tang Chengcheng left.He didn't say anything superfluous.

I took him home and sat down at his house.I always wanted to see him more, even though I knew it would embarrass him to enter his house.His dislike of my feelings can be reproduced, and I have nothing to refute.

At that moment, I also hated myself, hated the feelings that I could reproduce.

After nearly a year, Tang Cheng never looked at me directly again.But I know that he rented a house with extremely poor conditions near my home and waited for me on the No. 23 bus every day.

But I dare not step into the 23rd road, I can only follow him and watch from a distance.

And, I'm leaving eventually.

Stop hurting yourself and others.

Tang Cheng still had an accident.

The moment the cargo box hit him, my heart stopped.I want to appear by his side to block the pain for him, but I can't, I can't interfere with the normal flow of the world.

The car hit him, how much pain he will have...

I dare not think about it.

I can only guard at the door of the hospital, at the door of the ward.

I want to hold him, I want to block all the pain for him.

There are still so many sorrows in his life, how will he bear it.

My Tang Cheng.

The college entrance examination is over.I should go too.My mission on Earth has been satisfactorily completed, and there is no reason to stay any longer.

Tang Cheng, when you find out that I'm gone, don't blame me.

Tang Cheng, you have to work hard.