Tomorrow can be expected

"What? What?"

Jiang Chen froze in place.

For a moment, there was only a blank in my mind.

She stood there in a daze, stupidly standing upright.

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"...I have a relapse of depression."

Jane choked with sobs in her weak voice.

She was able to call Jiang Chen at this time because she was looking for the final salvation.

At this moment, she is sitting on the edge of the roof, and one step forward is to meet the god of death.

"……depression?"

Jiang Chen has been in a state of subconsciously repeating her speech since she connected Jane Ting's phone call, and her brain has completely lost its previous ability to operate.

Jane listen?

depression?

relapse?

Want to jump off?

When these words filled Jiang Chen's mind, circling back and forth in his mind, his rationality was beyond his control.

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Jiang Chen had never been in contact with a depressed patient before.

Depression, which has always felt distant from her life.

The only knowledge I have had is from simple news reports.

It couldn't be simpler, so that when I searched for anything related to depression in my mind at this moment, I was only at a loss.

Jiang Chen just remembered that he had seen it before.

In severe depression, the patient may want to commit suicide.

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"Where are you?!"

"Tell me where you are! Now! Immediately! Immediately!"

Jiang Chen roared like crazy.

My body lost control, and I started shaking out of thin air.

All the words she blurted out were trills.

The heart was thrown into the deep sea, as if frozen.

She must not lose Jane!

Absolutely not!

Even if you don't like her in this life, it doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter if you don't see each other again after you go to England.

She only wants her to be well, and she only wants her to be well.

Just live in this world until you get old and die happily.

Not now!

Definitely not now!

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But the response on the other end of the phone was silence.

Tears filled Jiang Chen's eyes in an instant, and the fear of losing everything paralyzed her heart.

She had never been so devout.

She prayed to God.

Please, please, please...

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"Jane listen... I beg you... tell me... tell me where you are, please? Can you wait for me? Don't be stupid. I really beg you, please..."

Don't let me live.

Jiang Chen was already kneeling on the floor.

She begged on the phone with tears in her eyes, and finally broke down in tears.

She had never hated her incompetence so much.

There is nothing you can do in front of the person you want to protect the most.

Jumping down is just a matter of a moment.

If you can't stay at this moment, maybe, the next moment...

Your own world will fall into eternal darkness.

That is her love.

The one she couldn't part with in this life.

But all she can do now is to ask.

It is pity for her to ask God to have such a moment.

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"……I'm at home."

The person on the other end of the phone was already in tears.

"...you help me... I can't hold on anymore..."

Jiang Chen is his last redemption, at this moment, Jane couldn't hear it more clearly.

The other party's begging and crying broke her heart.

She could just skip it.

She can die.

But these worldly worries...

If it wasn't for worrying that her departure would cause trouble to others and make those who cared about her sad, Jane Ting might have chosen to end the rest of her life when she was alone these days.

She quietly looked at the ground under the roof, and looked beyond the houses in the community to the distance.

Those are great worlds, but now she just wants to escape.

She wanted to skip it, and this kind of urgent desire to die was the most serious today.

But just when she was about to leave this world silently, the only remaining guilt in her heart pulled her body back to take a step forward.

She sat back on the short wall by the roof and made a call.

If possible, only she will be her last salvation.

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"You wait for me! Wait for me, do you hear me? I'll come right over! You wait for me! I beg you, be sure to wait for me! I still have a lot to say!"

Jiang Chen, who was wearing a bachelor's uniform, rushed out of the auditorium and ran all the way.

Jiang Chen didn't dare to hang up the phone, not at all.

Be afraid, be afraid, once this call is hung up, it will be forever.

His heart was beating extremely fast, and the hand holding the phone was shaking.

She ran tremblingly and went straight to the gate of the school without stopping for a moment.

How can the campus of the University of Technology be so large?

So big that she ran for a long time, but still couldn't see a way out.

She stood on the side of the road waving her arms desperately, pacing back and forth trying to stop an empty taxi.

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The person on the other end of the phone didn't promise her anything, and that was what frightened her the most.

"Listen, Jane! I order you to wait for me!"

Trembling, Jiang Chen opened the car door and gave the address.

"Master, please, drive faster! Use the fastest speed! You can pay as much as you want!"

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It takes more than two hours to travel on weekdays, but it was shortened by an hour.

The taxi driver chose the fastest loop route and drove all the way.

The security manager of the community can still recognize Jiang Chen.

She took a taxi and went straight into Xingqiao Community.

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"Jane listen!"

When approaching Building 22, Jiang Chen was already shouting in the car.

All she can do now is to let Jane hear her voice.

"Listen Jane! Where are you!"

She subconsciously searched for a high place and looked towards the roof of the building. With just one glance, she saw the figure sitting on the edge of the roof.

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He quickly climbed into the wooden fence beside the garden of Building 22, and rushed straight to the security door.

Jiang Chen really wanted to slam the door open.

At a certain moment, she really felt that as long as she tried her best, she would be able to smash this obstacle.

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The anti-theft door was not closed, and for some reason, there was a gap.

Jiang Chen couldn't think about who left the door.

She ran up to the rooftop in three steps at a time. Outside the terrace, she bumped into Aunt Lu Ran who had been living in England and would never appear here.

Jian's father leaned against the door, weeping anxiously.

Lu Ran grabbed Jiang Chen who wanted to rush over,

"She won't let people pass by now, so don't provoke her."

Jiang Chen was taken aback by Lu Ran, and then he realized that his behavior just now was really inappropriate.

Indeed, people outside can no longer stand any stimulation.

Annoyed and discouraged, she could only look at the people on the edge of the terrace,

"Jane listen..."

Jiang Chen was sure that his voice could be heard by Jane, because she clearly saw that Jane's voice trembled.

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"Can I go over?"

Jiang Chen begged, and there was no more desire in his eyes.

But the figure on the edge still didn't respond to her at all.

Jiang Chen could only hesitate in place, not daring to act rashly.

After a while, she finally made up her mind,

"Jane, if you don't speak, I'll take it as your acquiescence? Am I coming?"

The other party still didn't respond, but Jiang Chen seemed to see hope.

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She tentatively took one step, two steps, and made a loud noise.

The people sitting on the balcony tightened their arms when they heard the sound, and their faces were deeply hidden between their arms.

She just curled up on the short wall, and she might fall down at any moment.

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Jiang Chen directly hugged Jane Ting.

tight...

tight...

For the rest of her life, her body was still trembling, and the person in her arms trembled with her.

Her cheek was pressed against Jane Ting's ear, but tears could no longer be suppressed, gushing out.

"You really...really..."

She couldn't say a whole sentence.

It's just extremely fortunate that God heard her long-cherished wish and kept the person in her arms alive.

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"You are so cruel...you actually want to leave me...Why are you so cruel? How can you be so cruel?"

Jiang Chen still couldn't help but patted Jane Ting's back, berating the other's cruelty while patting.

She could feel it, and the person in her arms was also crying.

She made her heart ache to death, but still gave her hope of life.

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Jiang Chen raised all his strength and hugged Jane Ting away from the edge of the terrace.

The embrace was tight and loose, loose and tight.

She laughed with a "cough", with a smile in her tears.

"Don't you know I like you?"

The secret that she was determined to keep hidden in her heart for this life was revealed softly at this moment.

She loves her.

She has to tell her.

She can't live without her, even if she can never have her.

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"Listen, Jane, I love you."

Jiang Chen gently kissed Jane Ting's hair, and kissed Jane Ting's ear.

Extremely pious, but also full of infinite love, she asked herself to pause for breath at that moment.

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With tears in her eyes, Jane Ting was stunned, and raised her lowered eyes in the blurred eyes of tears.

She quietly stared at Jiang Chen in front of her, through a haze.

The person who blushed and shy countless times because of her gaze, this time also faced her gaze directly.

Jiang Chen didn't retreat in the slightest, nor was he cowardly.

If this gaze is Jane Ting's scrutiny, she is willing to open her heart once.

She is willing to search out all the feelings in her heart, and put them all in front of the other party to deal with.

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"I'm sure, I love you."

A faint smile stood on Jiang Chen's lips.

Her heart has never been so peaceful.

"Heh, it's all my fault for being too slow and too late. Actually, I should like you for 7 years, but I didn't realize it until more than 3 years ago."

Jiang Chen stroked the hair hanging in front of Jane Ting's eyes, tenderly and affectionately.

At this moment, she no longer cared about Jane Ting's opinion.

If she is embarrassing, if her embarrassment can make people change their minds, if her embarrassment can save her lover, then the so-called embarrassment will no longer be embarrassing, and the deepest unspeakable feelings in my heart can also be revealed See you soon.

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"Do you remember Xu Yanyu?"

In the end, Jiang Chen laughed at his own question.

"I was stupid and asked a strange question."

"...Xu Yanyu, the reason why she broke contact with us later is because she discovered my liking for you."

"Do you remember when we went to see the Christmas lights in Xicheng Square in our freshman year? On Christmas Eve, we had a night in ktv?"

"That day, you fell asleep... That day was actually the first time I realized that I liked you, not just my good friend. I... wanted to kiss you at that time."

Jiang Chen's face was reddish but he still didn't look away from his gentle eyes.

"I wanted to kiss you, but at the last moment, reason overcame desire. It's just that I didn't expect Xu Yanyu to see my approach to you. I really thought I was paying attention."

"She couldn't accept same-sex love at all. According to her, she felt disgusted. I wanted to refute it, desperately wanted to refute it, but I don't know why, at that moment, I suddenly felt disgusted Get up. It's not because I like you that I feel disgusted, but because I will shake my determination to love you because of other people's opinions."

"In the years that followed, I had a lot of thoughts. I was thinking, even if I lose such a friend, even if I feel disgusted by more people, it doesn't matter. I only hope, there is only one hope, that I can look at you , guarding you."

"I have been entangled many times, whether I should continue like this. I have thought, if I don't be your friend and stay away from you, will it make me feel a lot easier? But later, I found that I didn't There is no choice. I don't want to leave this position by your side, even if it's just a good friend."

"And I'm afraid of dragging you in. Of course, I don't think you'll like me. It's just that I'm worried that my liking will cause trouble for you, and make other people with colored glasses feel as if you did something wrong What's the same."

"Very early on, I made up my mind that I will never tell you this in my life."

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Jiang Chen bent over to Jane Ting's ear, hugging her wholeheartedly.

"Sometimes, I really feel confused and hesitant, and I also eat inexplicable jealousy. There are really too many people around you, and there are many excellent people. I didn't go to the same school after college. Sometimes it’s really overwhelming.”

"At least in the eyes of most people in this society, in the eyes of society's traditions, liking you is something that only boys can do. I can't be like them, and say I like you bluntly with a loudspeaker in my accent. You can't directly declare to the whole world that I love you..."

"Only at this time, I will envy those boys."

"I may not be as good as others think, so free and easy. I have the idea of ​​wanting to have you, but... just now on the way I came to find you, I feel that I have let go."

"Listen, Jane, on the way I just came here, I only had one thought. I want you to live and live well. It doesn't matter if you can't be friends in the future. It doesn't matter if you don't come back after you go to England. Even if you don't contact me anymore It doesn't matter to me. It doesn't matter if...you get married, have children, and meet someone you love and love you. As long as you are healthy, safe, and happy. That's all I hope for, and I don't want anything else."

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The author has something to say: Today's first update.

"Finally" in chapter 142.

Confession.