Tomorrow can be expected

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Jiang Chen couldn't pay attention to the tears all over her face, her heart was full of the girl in her arms at the moment.

She was extremely grateful that God heard her prayer, took pity on her past, and forgave her future.

If she has sinned in this life, she is willing to use the next life to pay off the debt.

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Jane Ting's breath hit Jiang Chen's shoulder, it was warm there.

At this moment, only this clear feeling can make Jiang Chen feel better.

Jane Ting gently pushed Jiang Chen's shoulders.

Holding Jiang Chen's eyes with both hands, the movements were slow but extremely gentle.

She gently wiped away the tears on Jiang Chen's face.

Jiang Chen smiled with tears in his eyes, and realized that the other party was not much better than himself.

She wiped away the wet marks on her face indiscriminately, imitating Jane Ting's movements, and cleaned up the other person's face extremely meticulously.

"Oh, I didn't bring a tissue..."

Jiang Chen came in a hurry, still wearing a bachelor's uniform, and the bachelor's cap and graduation certificate were thrown outside the balcony door.

"Then I use my hands?"

Seeing that Jane Ting had no objection, Jiang Chen wiped away her tears with his hands instead of paper.

"Go back to your room, please? Get some sleep and rest?"

Jane nodded in agreement and seemed to have given Jiang Chen salvation.

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Jiang Chen had never seen such a well-behaved Jane Ting.

Lying obediently on the bed in the bedroom, looking straight at himself.

Jiang Chen tried his best to hold up a smile again,

"Close your eyes. Go to sleep...I'm here with you."

This emphasis is not necessarily to cheer myself up.

Before coming here, even when he was listening to the confession with Jane on the terrace, Jiang Chen was not without tension.

If she hadn't been full of passion, if she hadn't been dazzled by the pain of heartbreak, she would never have dared to be so self-righteous and self-assertive.

She is not anyone Jane listens to, at most she is a best friend.

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The hand covered in the quilt stretched out of the bed.

Jane Ting grabbed Jiang Chen's hand and squeezed it tightly.

The sudden dependence made Jiang Chen loose for a moment.

She hooked the corners of her lips, and held the back of Jane Ting's hand back, with even more cherished strength.

Jane Ting slowly closed her eyes.

Jiang Chen waited for a while, until the steady breathing came, until he clearly felt the looseness of his hand.

She gently let go of Jane Ting's hand, and put the quilt back on Jane Ting's arm.

She really wants to stay here and listen to Jane, every moment...

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"Auntie?"

The last time I saw Lu Ran was when Jane's mother passed away.

5 years ago, time seemed to fly by.

And time failed to draw marks on each other's faces.

In Lu Ran's eyes, Jiang Chen is just like the childish girl 5 years ago, except that his facial features are more three-dimensional, and his deep facial features are getting more and more downcast.

In Jiang Chen's eyes, Lu Ran was as mature and elegant as he was 5 years ago, and every gesture was the mature woman he had always aspired to be.

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"Jiang Chen?"

This name impressed Lu Ran five years ago, or even four years ago.

"Want to talk to me about Xiaoting?"

Lu Ran sat on the corner of the sofa and motioned Jiang Chen to sit down.

"She...Jane called me and told me that the depression relapsed. The meaning of relapse...means that this is at least the second time, right? "

This matter has been hanging in Jiang Chen's mind ever since he received Jane's phone call.

At least the second time, and she had no idea.

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"Well, this is the second time... I didn't know about the relapse until two days ago, and I rushed back after I found out. My brother-in-law, who is also Xiao Ting's father, didn't know about her condition before, so I am as sorry as you are." I don't know anything about it. You know, Xiao Ting is a child who is used to patience. She has been like this since she was a child. She is used to being brave. I chose to keep this secret because of her begging. Maybe it's the two of us. Everyone imagined too well. After recovering from depression for the first time, we all thought that there would be no relapse. I didn't expect..."

Sitting in a corner of the sofa, Lu Ran put his hand on his forehead, full of annoyance and regret.

"Fortunately, she is still conscious. In fact, Xiao Ting discovered that she had an emotional problem a month ago. She went to the hospital secretly by herself. She thought she could carry it secretly, and even kept it from me. Two days ago we Contact, her condition is getting worse and worse, she told me the truth because she was worried that she would not be able to save herself."

Jiang Chen lowered his head and squeezed out a few words with difficulty,

"When did that happen? I mean the first time... when it was definitely depression..."

"The year you graduated from high school."

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Jiang Chen choked his throat.I didn't expect the onset of the disease to be so early last time.

It suddenly occurred to her that there was a period of time when Jane Ting was almost never online.

And the slightly pale face I saw when I was listening to the video with Jane on the day of the dinner party after the college entrance examination...

"It was before summer, right?"

"Well... She came to Europe for a trip. She planned to visit me in the UK first, and then go to other countries. But in fact, she has stayed in the UK and never left."

"Shortly after coming to the UK, she was diagnosed with depression. I took her to see a doctor, take medicine, and do treatment. After she recovered, she returned to China."

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Jiang Chen's tears fell again and again, heartbroken.

4 years ago, already diagnosed?

At that time, Jane Ting had fought against depression in a foreign country?

And myself...

I don't know it at all?

She should have found out.

Not without clues.

Why is she so careless!

So confused!

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"Jiang Chen, I told you this, not to make you blame yourself."

Lu Ran handed her a tissue.

"Wipe it, the tears shed just now are not too many?"

Lu Ran touched Jiang Chen's drooping mind.

The girl in front of him should be Xiao Ting's salvation.

The person who still remembers the moment of life and death, the person who will dial the phone for final help.

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"Xiao Ting's current dose of medicine is 1.5 times that of the initial attack, which means that this attack is more serious than the last one. When I did not return to China, she had been secretly seeing a doctor for treatment, but the effect was minimal. her……"

"She thinks that kind of thing is beyond her control, and she cannot control it rationally. I am very glad to have you, Jiang Chen. Frankly speaking, I think you are special to Xiao Ting."

Lu Ran stared at Jiang Chen seriously,

"She has actually been in this state for two weeks, and it has become more serious every week. The doctor said that she may think about it every moment, as long as she is free. My brother-in-law and I came back this morning. She was outside on the terrace when we saw her. We thought she was still asleep, but when we came back we found...she was on the terrace...and she wouldn't let us pass at all. Then you came over. I guess, yes She called you, right?"

Jiang Chen silently nodded.

"I'm really glad that she is willing to call you at that time and ask you to help her."

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On the way home, Jiang Chen ordered many books on depression online.

She knew very little about this aspect before, and urgently needed to supplement relevant knowledge.

Orderable books didn't arrive until the next day, so she had to do some research online.

Jian Ting's medicine contains sleeping ingredients. Although Lu Ran has already had a preliminary understanding of Jane Ting's condition, Jiang Chen still wants to learn more.

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So far, the etiology of depression is not very clear, but it is certain that biological, psychological and social environment factors are involved in the pathogenesis of depression.

Biological factors mainly involve heredity, neurobiochemistry, neuroendocrine, and neurogenesis; psychological susceptibility qualities closely related to depression are premorbid personality traits, such as depressive temperament.

Stressful life events in adulthood are important triggers for clinically significant depressive episodes.

However, the above factors do not work alone, emphasizing the interaction between genetics and environment or stress factors, and the timing of the interaction has an important impact on the occurrence of depression.

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"Is encountering stressful life events in adulthood an important trigger for clinically significant depressive episodes?"

Jiang Chen was lost in thought when he read this sentence.

Depression is not like a common disease that can be diagnosed. This disease may be caused by a variety of conditions, and doctors cannot judge it rashly.

But combined with the time when Jane Ting first fell ill, Jiang Chen may only think of one thing.

Mother Jane's death?

If this is the case, it means that in the next few months, Jane Ting was just a strong supporter under the clouds?

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Jiang Chen patted himself on the head fiercely.

She is so stupid!

How could Jane Ting be as indifferent as she appeared on the surface when such an important relative passed away?

But what is the environmental impact?

Back then, and even up to now, everyone kept secret about Jane's mother's death...

Jiang Chen suddenly thought of the sandwiches he made during the spring outing the year before last.

Did she do something wrong?

At the beginning, I should have asked Jane what happened...

But, can Jane hear it?

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This night, Jiang Chen couldn't close her eyes, and she spent the whole night searching for information related to depression.

Whether it is basic knowledge or sharing experiences of patients.

In short, she is willing to click on any webpage and give it a try.

During the day, her eyes became swollen due to shedding too many tears, and she didn't get enough rest at night. When Jiang's mother saw Jiang Chen in the early morning of the next day, she was startled by her swollen eyes.

Jiang Chen couldn't explain much to his mother, he just evaded it with the reason of graduation.

She hailed a taxi at the gate of the community and went to Xingqiao Community.

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On the way to Jane Ting's house, Jiang Chen received a text message from Jane Ting:

I am not at home.

do not worry.

I will treat well.

I didn't have time to wish you a happy graduation.

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