who will you be

The well-recognized little girl Shiluo climbed over the wall in a sailor suit, but unexpectedly there was someone in the corner of the wall, which made her lose her balance and almost fell. In a panic, she put her hands on Wang Feng's shoulders to stabilize her figure.

Shi Luo glanced at Wang Feng who was standing still with clenched fists and tears still on his face, and Eve who was in the distance, and the lollipop in his mouth moved from left to right.With a sudden smile, she kissed Wang Feng's lips, opened his teeth with her tongue, put the lollipop into his mouth, licked her upper lip with the tip of her tongue, looked at him for a while while grabbing Wang Feng's shoulder, and finally stretched out her hand Gently wiped away his tears with his thumb, smiled and jumped a few steps with his hands behind his back, and walked away.

Knowing that they had been together for several days, at noon on the day they rejected Wang Feng, a person who claimed to be Eve's brother called her out of the dormitory.

"Police Xu Guowen, number 9527." He took out his wallet.

"Ah."

"Do you know this person?" He took out a photo of a middle-aged man with a shiny face and a fat body.

Eve shook her head.

"Forget it." He stared at Eve's face for a while, took out the lighter and lit a cigarette, "He is the chairman of Huaying Group, he is dead."

……

"Your father is dead too."

……

"Your mother is back, waiting for you at home."

"Hey! The students over there! Smoking is not allowed in the school." Uncle Zhang from the school's security patrol team shouted far away.

Xu Guowen stubbed out the cigarette butt and threw it into the trash can, waved away, walked halfway and turned back, wrote down the contact information on the note paper, tore it off with a "stab" and handed it to Eve. I."

"Are you okay, who is that person?" Uncle Zhang came over, a little concerned.

"It's okay, my brother."

The rice cooked by my mother still tastes the same, but it is not as good as before.She came back alone and did not see Uncle Wang.They didn't say a word when Eve came home, when they finished eating, when they got out of the shower, and when they dried their hair.Before going to bed, my mother finally said: "I'm leaving tomorrow. The police have come to collect evidence, and there may be a lot of trouble. Come with me."

Eve shook her head.

"He's not your real father."

Eve had known for a long time that she was also a betrayer, but she never thought that her betrayal would be more thorough.

She shook her head vigorously.

Eve got up very early the next day, and her mother had already left, leaving only a bank card.Didn't make breakfast, didn't say anything to Eve, even the password was tried out by Eve herself later--father's birthday.

The funeral was simple. When Eve knelt in the mourning hall wearing a mourning belt, she thought no one would come.Father never said anything about grandparents, nor did mother say anything about grandparents. Eve's impression of her parents didn't seem to have any relatives, and they had long since lost contact after not having many friends.After decades of life, he finally turned himself into a loner.

Neither disappointed nor guilty.Eve felt that she was just like that, a guy who did a lot of evil, suffered on his own and hurt others.The first time he made an oath, he broke his promise, but the second time he thought self-righteously wanted to make up, but instead pushed his father into the abyss.

Want to die, dare not.

Consciously that everything in the world can be forgiven, only one's own sins cannot be forgiven.

Yet someone came.

These uncles who bought toys for themselves, aunts who hugged them, these so-called friends who suddenly turned against each other, are here now.Wearing white flowers on their heads, they walked past the coffin where the father's body lay, and there was no sadness or joy on their faces.

Forget it, it doesn't matter if you come, my father is afraid of being alone.

"I'm sorry," one of the men said to Eve.

Are you seeking forgiveness?Are you trying to assuage your guilt?

sorry?Who should I tell?

At this time, another young man came in. He scanned the small mourning hall and walked straight to Eve.She clearly felt the anger of the young man, and instinctively took a step back, but she tightened her lips and looked directly into his eyes.She had seen these eyes in the photo.

"It's you." He wanted to say this plainly.

"Heh, heh." The anger in his eyes distorted, as if he had finally confirmed something, and he smiled sadly, as if something he was proud of suddenly collapsed.

"Ah...Okay." He raised his head and blinked his eyes quickly a few times, then took a deep breath, "It's okay, goodbye."

So, in this black and white world, Eve is the only one left.

In the evening, she also got up and left.

"Shi Zhengyu, chairman of Huaying Group, was killed yesterday. Mayor Cao Wei expressed his deep condolences at the funeral, 'Jingzhou City has lost an entrepreneur with social responsibility'. It is reported that Chairman Shi Zheng has done countless good deeds in his life. ..."

"Oh, it's true that good people don't live long. The chairman helped us repair the roads in the village."

"Who is the murderer, does anyone know?"

"I heard that I was suppressed by that young master, so the dead are gone..."

"What? Want to know? I have a relative involved in this."

"Come on, tell us."

"Boss, add half a dozen beers!"

"Okay! Let me tell you about it! This murderer used to be considered a character. He started from scratch and integrated the online daily necessities market in the city in two years. I bet he has a lot of things in your house."

"Such a cow?"

"awesome!"

"Guess what, he was about to make a fortune, but he went bankrupt overnight. Later, his wife also ran away with others. Speaking of his wife, she was a first-class beauty..."

Eve listened quietly to the news reports and people's chatter, feeling like she was listening to a story that had nothing to do with her.The neon lights on the restaurant's signboard were changing, and when I looked up, it was dark, and Eve wanted to go to school.

"So his first bankruptcy was really related to Chairman Shi?"

"Haha, it's okay, I guess, don't take it seriously..."

"Hehe, this old guy dares to steal peanuts!"

"Well... go away! It stinks!"

"Hey hey hey, that's enough! Are you hungry? Come on, here. Why, still want to drink beer? Okay! Here you are!"

"Hehe, I can't tell, Zhang Dashan!"

"Hahaha……"

"Okay, okay, what are you talking about! Before something happens to others, even the dead chairman may not have a good reputation..."

Eve has gone away.

She very much hopes that her father can leave some clues to guide herself to discover the ins and outs of the matter.She even imagined that one day she would suddenly receive a letter from her father, telling herself his story, her mother's story.But no, really not.They were clearly a family, but in the end they became an outsider.Ah, not quite right, she is also a murderer.

If there is a chance that things will go wrong, no matter how small the possibility, it will happen.Is it right?

"Wang Feng is getting better with Taimei." When returning to school, Xiaoqing stood in the doorway of the dormitory and questioned Eve, getting more and more excited as she spoke.

"why?"

"What the hell do you think?"

"Afraid? What's there to be afraid of?"

"Don't you understand? Or do you not like him at all?"

"Speak! Chase him back!"

Eve bypassed her and went straight upstairs without saying a word.

"If you don't go, I will!"

"Anyway, he will be let down sooner or later. It's better for me than others!"

Xiaoqing blushed and left angrily, but when she came back, her eyes were red.Where she went, who she met, what she said, what she did, Eve didn't ask.When the heart is filled with one thing, other things are other people's business.Maybe that's true, people only care about how they feel.

Eve read, wrote, and studied. Day after day, her feelings of pain, guilt, and disgust faded away.

Eve was shocked by her ruthlessness. She had reason to believe that as long as she didn't deliberately look through it, and didn't carve those fragments of memory into the way she wanted, all those memories that she once thought were unforgettable may eventually become someone else's business. , leaving only some sequelae similar to conditioned reflexes.

For example, the sourness in the eyes when seeing other people's parents, for example, the unconscious repeated scrubbing of the body in the bath, for example, his smiling face that comes to mind when the tip of the tongue feels the sweetness.

After Wang Feng and Shi Luo got together, he seemed to be a different person suddenly.If what he gave Eve was vague and sincere emotion, then what he gave Shi Luo was a kind of madness that was not afraid of destruction.

He gradually became less likely to come to school, and it was rare to see him in the same frame as Shi Shi, but he frequented fruit stores, grocery stores and convenience stores, either in the early morning or in the evening.Sometimes he was busy alone, and sometimes he wrestled with a middle-aged man.

He seemed to be short of money, very short of money.

"It's okay to give you money, eat this!" Hong Mao lifted his pants after wiping his butt, stretched out his feet and picked up the boy's chin with the tip of his shoe, "Do you want to do it?"

"What expression do you have? Are you pumping? Brother is asking you something!" The younger brother at the side kicked his waist and remained motionless.

"Hey! It's pretty awkward, isn't it?" Little brother No. [-] wanted to go forward as he spoke, but was stopped by the red hair.

"I am rich, but my money is not given for nothing. You know, nothing is given for free." The red hair looked down at the boy, his eyes were full of disappointment, "You don't deserve to pay back your mother's medical expenses !"

"Will you pay for eating?" Wang Feng happened to pass by, instead of looking at the boy with bulging veins on the ground, he asked Hongmao directly.

"What, are you interested?"

"How many?"

"He wants five thousand and six."

"Five thousand and six?" Wang Feng bent down and picked up the brown object on the ground, staring into the red hair's eyes and asked.

"Five thousand and six!" Hong Mao's eyes gleamed, and he forgot to stop him in surprise.

Wang Feng supported it, turned it over, picked out the sand at the bottom, looked at the red hair again, and swallowed it in one gulp.The two younger brothers retched for a while, and the boy was stunned.

"Give it to me." Wang Feng spread out his palm, the residue on it was clearly visible.

"Uh, well, I don't bring that much cash." Hongmao was a little embarrassed, "So, why don't you come with me?"

"How much did you bring?" Wang Feng didn't take back his hand.

Hongmao took out all the money in the wallet, and the two younger brothers also consciously took out their own money, which totaled more than three thousand five hundred.

"The rest are mine." Wang Feng put the money away in front of the boy, straightened up and said to Hongmao, "Let's go, lead the way."

"Brother, I don't like him." Little brother No. [-] was annoyed.

"Brother, me too! Eat Tuoxiang and kick your nose on your face?" Little brother No. 1 is annoyed +[-].

"You gave it all? Why don't you get some more?" Hongmao waved his hand and said in a friendly voice.

silence……

"Oh, forget it, the cash machine is quite far away, I want to take a taxi there, let's go." The red hair put his arm on Wang Feng's shoulder, and Wang Feng wiped it on his clothes smoothly.Hongmao actually didn't mind, but instead asked him if he wanted to chat first, and the two younger brothers felt nauseous again.

"I said brother, money is tight recently?"

"Ah."

"How big is the gap?"

"Are you rich?"

"I don't have one, but my old man does."

"20."

"Hiss... this is not a small sum." Hongmao was surprised, "Don't blame me for talking too much, brother, what do you want so much money for?"

"use."

"Wow, brother, you are so cool. How about this, I will give you 20, and you will hang out with me in the future, how about it?"

"What to do, like them?"

"How can I? I'll call you when I need your help. Come if you like, and forget it if you don't. Of course, it would be best if you are willing to follow all the time."

"let me consider it."

"Haha, that's it. You take this card first, and I will transfer it to you when I go back."

"it is good."

"Brother, did you really give it to him like this?" Little brother No. [-] was a little worried.

"What are you afraid of? At most, you will be beaten up by the old man!"

"Hey? Brother, wait for me!"

There are nine out of ten unsatisfactory things in life, and this is one of them.

One day later, Shi Luo suddenly said to Eve, "I'm sorry, I'll return him to you in a few days."

It was a summer afternoon, the sun was scorching hot, the dizziness brought by the heat wave and the intermittent singing of cicadas made everything around me unreal.

Before Eve fully realized what she said, she learned that Wang Feng had hanged himself from the old tree, and the names of Wang Feng and Shi Luo could still be found on the tree.While there were different opinions, it was rumored that Shi Luo's body was found in an abandoned warehouse.

The warehouse is tidy and there are not many sundries.She lay quietly on the straw mat on the ground, the knife marks on her wrists were deep enough to show the bones.Accompanying her are only flies that have just arrived.

Some people say that they have seen Wang Feng carrying a bag on the way to the warehouse, some people say that they have seen Shiluo in a hurry near the hospital in a neighboring city, and some people say that Shiluo will sometimes be in the alley beside a certain hotel Making a deal with a round bearded man...

The story suddenly came to an end, and irresponsible rumors and embellished speculation wrapped up the truth, making the mystery that had no clues even more suspicious.Eve was in the clouds and was torn apart by great unease, while Xiaoqing's hateful eyes were like a sharp knife cutting out the heart.

She dialed Xu Guowen's phone...

"What did Shi Luo tell you?" After a while of silence, it was he who asked first.

"What happened?" Eve didn't intend to answer.

"Fact or speculation?"

"fact."

"Her mother had just completed the operation, and the cost totaled more than 20 yuan. Before that, she was seriously ill and was hospitalized for more than two years, and was taken care of by Shi Luo alone." Xu Guowen took a long puff of smoke, "Her mother's disease is hereditary."

"and then?"

"Gone."

"What's your theory?"

"It's the same as what happened to your father, it's not the fault..."

Eve hung up the phone.

Since then, Eve has lived by reading books.There is too much confusion in her heart, and she hopes to find convincing answers in the works of her predecessors.

After experiencing the betrayal of love, the alienation of family, the injustice of friendship, the fragility of life and her own selfishness, she is eager to know what the meaning of her existence is, what she should believe in, and what she yearns for.

This once made Eve become extreme.Once someone drowned, she jumped into it without thinking, completely unaware that she couldn't swim.Jiang He after the rain, in the ups and downs of life, what she felt was the joy of being liberated...

After a long period of self-salvation, she finally compromised with herself, embraced betrayal, alienation, injustice, vulnerability, and selfishness. She began to miss her mother.At this juncture, she received a call that her mother had a car accident and went to the emergency room.During the blood test at the hospital, she was told that she was not related by blood to her mother.

In the flower shop run by my mother, the roses were in full bloom.

Funerals kept simple...

"Do you think that everyone close to you will suffer misfortune?" Eve told Xiao Ai about these past events, she said, "I feel that there is a deeper cause and effect in these things. As for the truth, me and the policeman same opinion, you don’t have to carry that.”

But people's opinions change...

Ah, Xiao Ai, where have you been?No, I have to find her tomorrow!

Well?The water seems to be cold, it seems, still sticky?Eve opened her eyes and found herself lying in a vat of crimson liquid, with a stench coming out of her nostrils.

Eve was numb, trying to climb out of the bathtub but found that she couldn't move.

Suddenly, her ankle was caught, and a ball of black silk thread floated out of the "water", slowly rising, it was the head!A person slowly crawled out of the blood-red liquid. Her hair was thick and dark, and her shoulders were covered with a strange dark red luster.She grasped the edge of the bathtub with both hands and approached slowly, the feeling of her hair crawling through her skin under the water was very clear.

Eve unconsciously held her breath and closed her eyes.The strange thing is, compared to fear, there is a stronger sense of difference, is it... a sense of familiarity?

"Meow!" A deep cat meow sounded outside the door, and it became calm again.

Open your eyes, everything is business as usual.