Delicacy

After that separation, Lian Xiao always had an indescribable feeling of strangeness in his heart, as if something was about to run off into an unknown direction.And he and Qin Yuanmu haven't seen each other for a long time.

Some things are much tougher than imagined.Let's take the relationship as an example. After Qin Yuanmu almost blurted out the word "breakup" that day, he felt that he and Lian Xiao couldn't grow up together.But in fact, they kept getting along with each other just like before, and even lived a boring life for more than a year.

During these two summers and one winter, Lian Xiao graduated from technical school and successfully got a job in the hotel where he practiced. After getting a formal salary, his work became more and more busy.Qin Yuanmu still participated in various competitions with his two friends, and the dean of the Provincial Academy of Fine Arts would wake up happily every time he thought of these three students.

In the winter of the last school year, when Lian Xiao looked at the balance of his salary that he had saved for more than a year and was planning to rent a house, Qin Yuanmu returned to his hometown with the mission of doing an internship.

Xu Tao originally planned to start planning the studio now, but in Xue Yujie's eyes, this kind of easy thing has no right to delay the time between him and Xu Tao. Xu Tao went on a trip.

When Qin Yuanmu came out of the station this time, he didn't look around any further, but strode out of the station without squinting.There was no expression on his face, but there was something majestic about him.After doing one thing for a long time, there will be a corresponding aura in his bones. Qin Yuanmu is like this, and he looks different from most of the secular people in the station who are exhausted.

After seeing her son again, Wu Fenfang felt that Qin Yuanmu seemed to be a little taller, and he also had a bit of aloofness.For a while, she didn't know whether Qin Yuanmu's change was good or bad.

"How long can you stay this time when you come back?"

Qin Yuanmu brought back most of the things this time, and Wu Fenfang touched the trophy for a while, and admired the oil paintings she didn't understand, and at the same time, her mouth was not idle.

"I won't go back to school until May, half a year." Qin Yuanmu replied, taking off the scarf and hanging it on the wall at the same time, "Mom, don't look at it, it's not a good work, it's just something you draw for fun."

Wu Fenfang took a final look at the oil painting, thinking that the smell is quite unpleasant, is it poisonous?With a smile on his mouth, he said: "You can exchange such a large number of trophies for something you draw at random? My son can do it... By the way, Yuanmu, Mom has a serious matter with you. Have you thought about where to go for an internship?"

Qin Yuanmu said indifferently: "It doesn't matter if you don't practice or not. My classmate plans to take over the art studio after graduation, and I will go to work directly. During this time, I can continue to practice painting at home."

Wu Fenfang's expression suddenly became serious: "Do you think you children can make money by playing around?"

Qin Yuanmu didn't understand what she meant, and looked at her suspiciously: "Mom?"

"You're old and young, so I'll tell you straight up if I have something to say." Wu Fenfang looked at Qin Yuanmu, and there were many things Qin Yuanmu couldn't understand in her eyes, "Studying art is for the sake of Let you get a bachelor’s degree. Although you have done a good job and won some awards these years, these will not support you to live in the future, you still have to have a stable job.”

Qin Yuanmu suddenly remembered what Wu Fenfang had said to him during the winter vacation. Could it be that Wu Fenfang had been thinking about it since then?

Wu Fenfang went on to say: "It's fine to treat painting as a hobby, and if you want to use it as a meal... It's not that Mom looks down on you, it's not an easy way to go. Your father had many friends during his lifetime, I asked them to help I found you an internship in the bank because of my relationship, and you went there and performed well. You can also apply for the campus recruitment, okay?"

Although it was in a negotiating tone, in the eyes of his mother, Qin Yuanmu really didn't see much room for negotiation.

"I think it's quite inexplicable for you to do this." Qin Yuanmu looked at her and said, "Maybe when I studied art, it was really just for the exam, but it's different now, Mom. You haven't experienced that time, so don't Knowing what drawing means to me. It's... pretty much my entire life."

Wu Fenfang nodded: "Yuanmu, I know what you think. Seeing that you have won so many trophies, mom also believes that you really like this. But life is not as simple as you imagined. Can your hobbies support you? ?Even if you don’t go to work and don’t earn a penny, your mother can support you now, but what about in the future? When you get married and have children, will you still just muddle through with your drawing board? People can’t be so capricious, Yuan Mu .”

"I just want to do what I want to do. Is this called self-will?" Qin Yuanmu has never been a good-tempered person. Now that Wu Fenfang said this, he became angry, "I know you are doing it for me. Okay, but at least ask me if I need it? Why do parents dictate the future of their children? If I live my life according to the path you stipulated, what is the meaning of my life? "

Wu Fenfang sighed deeply, pressed her forehead and said, "You are still young, and you don't even know how difficult many things are."

"How difficult is it?" Qin Yuanmu sneered, "I don't even want to know about the nonsense things you talk about. Getting married, buying a house, daily necessities, this is the life you planned for me, right? I've heard this kind of stuff all these years. That’s enough! I understand now that it’s really impossible for people not to study. If you have nothing to do, read more books. Your superficial and worldly thoughts are really ridiculous. Mom, do you think a person’s life should be like Like countless mediocre ordinary people, living a step-by-step life? Well, even if it is like this, life is not easy, anyway, it is difficult, so why can't I choose the path I want to take?"

Wu Fenfang was silent for a while. She thought that Qin Yuanmu would not be disgusted with this matter, but she did not expect him to love painting to such an extent.But Wu Fenfang still looked at Qin Yuanmu wearily, and said softly: "Yes, it's not easy. But I don't understand, Mom has already found an easy way for you, why don't you hit the south wall Why don't you turn back?"

Seeing Wu Fenfang's expression, what Qin Yuanmu wanted to say was choked in his throat.Anyone who tries to explain this kind of truth to him, Qin Yuanmu can refute it, and even yell at him, but this person is his mother, his only relative in the world.

After a moment of silence, Qin Yuanmu raised his head and asked, "Do you not believe in my ability?"

"No," Wu Fenfang shook her head slowly, "but this society is really not what you imagined. I won't say whether you can make a lot of money by painting, but can you guarantee that you can ensure food and clothing? You must have learned it in class, which writer's How much money was auctioned for which work, but it is different now. Besides, how many people have painted in the past and present, and how many people can be mentioned in your textbooks once? Sigh, maybe you will understand in the future. "

"I'll understand later, so I'll talk about it later." Qin Yuanmu got up from the sofa and grabbed the scarf hanging on the wall, "You cook and eat yourself, I'll go out for a walk."

Wu Fenfang should also be upset, and didn't stop him, allowing Qin Yuanmu to walk out of the house.

The sky is gloomy, and I don't know if it will snow tonight.

Qin Yuanmu stared at the sky for a while, then walked forward aimlessly.He wasn't wearing thick clothes, but there was always a fire burning in his heart, and he didn't feel cold at all.Since I went to college, it seems that everything around me is against me, why?It's like this with everything, and when I finally see some turning points, new problems will come to me immediately.

There is a strong New Year flavor on the street, with lights and festoons everywhere, festive songs playing on the stereos of every shop, just like competing with each other, the few pedestrians on the road are in a hurry, but their expressions are full of New Year’s excitement .Looking at the scene in front of him, Qin Yuanmu didn't know what to do.

Walking, Qin Yuanmu was a little tired, standing under the street lamp, staring at the window across the road in a daze.If he was dressed in shabby clothes, passers-by would probably imagine a little match selling girl when they saw this scene.

After a busy day, Lian Xiao received a call from Qin Yuanmu when he left through the back door of the kitchen.

"Where are you?" Qin Yuanmu's voice was very low, who knows how many more cigarettes he smoked.

Lian Xiao looked at the snowflakes falling from the sky, shivered and said, "I just got off work, and I'm planning to go home, are you back?"

"Come back for an internship. Where are you, I'll look for you." Qin Yuanmu's tone could not detect any emotion.

After hanging up the phone, Qin Yuanmu reached out to stop a taxi, reported the address that Lian Xiao told him just now, and then closed his eyes, not giving the driver a chance to chat.

During the Chinese New Year in this small city, there were really not many cars on the road. Qin Yuanmu felt that it hadn't been long since he got in the car, and the car stopped at the place.

Lian Xiao was waiting for him at the stop sign downstairs, and walked over as soon as he saw him, frowned and said, "Why are you wearing such thin clothes? Isn't it cold?"

Qin Yuanmu said, "It's not cold, you live here now?"

Only then did Lian Xiao realize that Qin Yuanmu's weird voice was not because of smoking, but because he had caught a cold.Lian Xiao took his hand and felt a chill: "Well, I have a job now, of course I moved out. It's on the second floor, don't think it's broken for a while."

Qin Yuanmu didn't say anything along the way, and followed Lian Xiao through the dark and dilapidated corridors and stairs, and stood in front of an iron gate.From this door alone, it can be seen that the place where Lian Xiao lives now is not very good. The iron door is full of mottled rust, and Qin Yuanmu feels that he can kick it open with one kick.

In the dark, Lian Xiao fumbled for a long time in a bunch of keys before he successfully opened the door and entered the room with Qin Yuanmu, whose legs were already a little stiff.

Although the level of anti-thief of the iron gate is better than nothing, it still cuts off the cold air outside.The room looked very old, but it was tidy by Lian Xiao, even the quilt was folded into tofu cubes, and he sat on the bed obediently.

Heating and air-conditioning are unnecessary for this kind of dilapidated building for rent. The heating tool in the house is only a small sun, and from the appearance, the quality should not be as good as that of the internet-addicted boy in his dormitory.

Lian Xiao plugged in the power and pressed the switch, Qin Yuanmu felt a little warmth, and looked at Lian Xiao with unclear meaning.Lian Xiao smiled embarrassedly: "I don't have the money to buy an air conditioner yet, so I'll just make do with this. If you're willing to move in with me, I'll buy it tomorrow."

The stale and decadent smell in the room did not remain much, and it was replaced by Lian Xiao's air purifier.Although Lian Xiao is not picky about the living environment, he always tries his best to tidy up the house well.Whether it's the dormitory of No. [-] middle school, the dormitory of technical school, or now, it's all the same.

Lian Xiao touched Qin Yuanmu's face: "Why is it so cold? How long have you been wandering on the street? Do you want to take a bath first?"

Qin Yuanmu sat down wearily, and asked, "Can you still take a bath here?"

Lian Xiao smiled triumphantly: "That's right, although the sparrow is small and has all five internal organs, there is still a water heater. Let me fetch water for you?"

"Farewell, I'll leave after a while." Qin Yuanmu stopped Lian Xiao who was going to fetch water, "Sit down and talk with me for a while."

Lian Xiao nodded and sat down beside Qin Yuanmu.

Qin Yuanmu asked others to chat with him, but he didn't say a word. Lian Xiao was silent for a while and asked, "Qin Yuanmu, are you in a bad mood?"

The answer to this question is too obvious, Qin Yuanmu didn't answer him, but asked instead: "If I don't paint, what else do you think I can do?"

Lian Xiao froze for a moment, not understanding what Qin Yuanmu meant.But when he didn't speak, Qin Yuanmu just kept staring at him. Lian Xiao, who was taught by Qin Yuanmu's hooligan eyes, couldn't stand his emotionless eyes, so he could only bite the bullet and say, "You are so Smart, doing the same thing...why are you asking this all of a sudden, do you want to give up?"

Qin Yuanmu smiled softly, how could he want to give up, but his mother gave him a social lesson, letting him know what it means to be involuntary.

He suddenly gave up on himself, what's the use of telling Lian Xiao about this?He was no different from anyone else, and he couldn't empathize with himself.

The room fell into silence again, until Lian Xiao couldn't sit still, only then heard Qin Yuanmu softly say: "Help me make a meal, Lian Xiao, I haven't had a meal made by you for a long time."

Lian Xiao finally breathed a sigh of relief, he is good at this, and quickly jumped up on the sofa: "No problem, my current craftsmanship is not what it used to be, look at you!"

If it wasn't for Qin Yuanmu's sudden arrival, he wasn't prepared, otherwise Lian Xiao really wanted to make Qin Yuanmu a pot of Buddha jumping over the wall.That kind of delicacy, you can forget all your troubles after eating a bowl.

Of course, this dilapidated house does not have a special kitchen, except for the bedroom and the bathroom, Lian Xiao just placed a gas stove in the corner of the living room to serve as the kitchen.Looking at Lian Xiao's busy back, Qin Yuanmu tried to raise the corners of his mouth.

If only I were still in high school.Even if he had to bear the feeling of being overwhelmed by so many sketches again, at least he had a firm dream in his heart at that time, and there was the intimate Lian Xiao by his side.Rather than like now, some things are really different.The good news is that the "wrong" person is him and not Lian Xiao. The bad news is that he still can't change himself.

The young Lian Xiao no longer exists, and the young Qin Yuanmu has gone somewhere.

Wu Fenfang fully demonstrated her tenacity in this matter. She didn't use words to force Qin Yuanmu, but she didn't give up her thoughts at all.It seems that parents are always like this, they firmly believe in good things, and they force their children to do so.Whenever Qin Yuanmu heard Wu Fenfang inadvertently showing that he had paid for him, his head was covered with a plastic bag, suffocating, but there was nothing he could do.

Wu Fenfang never backed Qin Yuanmu's back when calling, and Qin Yuanmu heard how Wu Fenfang spoke nicely to others for that job.Qin Yuanmu sneered in his heart, how could his parents' tricks be called tricks?That's called love, isn't it?

Wu Fenfang always said, you will understand when you grow up, Qin Yuanmu really wanted to ask her, when will he grow up?At the time of death?

Xu Tao and Xue Yujie were having a great time, and Lian Xiao didn't understand it, so Qin Yuanmu had no choice but to find someone to discuss with. Every time Wu Fenfang brought up this topic, he made the same excuse as that day : Go out for a walk.

Lian Xiao is quite happy recently, because Qin Yuanmu has come to him more and more frequently, and the enthusiasm between the two seems to have slowly recovered.

In fact, going to work every day is very tiring, especially the tedious work of cooking.Lian Xiao is already very tired from cooking all day, and often has to serve Qin Yuanmu's mouth at night.But he is still very happy to cook for Qin Yuanmu. After all, one of the reasons for learning to cook is for Qin Yuanmu.

I don't know if it's because I haven't eaten for a long time, or because Lian Xiao has really improved. Qin Yuanmu feels that Lian Xiao's craftsmanship is better than he thought.He always felt that Lian Xiao didn't know him well enough, but thinking about it now, he seemed to have never asked about Lian Xiao's situation.

While eating, Qin Yuanmu took a mouthful of bitterness.What was his four years in college?If Lian Xiao is still willing to stand with him desperately like before, will he be able to face everything bravely like himself in the past?

Qin Yuanmu decided to find an opportunity to have a frank and honest talk with Lian Xiao, maybe after the communication, those inexplicable negative things can go away.

Unfortunately, he never found this opportunity.

One late night, Qin Yuanmu, who was still eating and drinking at Lian Xiao's place, didn't want to go home, but recently because of internship and work, he and Wu Fenfang have always had conflicts. Wu Fenfang would think too much.So despite some reluctance, Qin Yuanmu got up and left after resting.

Regarding Qin Yuanmu becoming a "gentleman", Lian Xiao couldn't say whether he was more happy or more disappointed, as usual, he accompanied Qin Yuanmu to send him downstairs.

After saying goodbye in the corridor as usual, Qin Yuanmu suddenly took Lian Xiao's hand: "Lian Xiao, when we meet again..."

"Qin Yuanmu!"

Qin Yuanmu hadn't finished speaking when he heard sharp shouts from outside.After subconsciously looking over, he was stunned, and Wu Fenfang was standing not far away.Judging from Wu Fenfang's shocked expression, the scene where he kissed Lian Xiao just now failed to escape Wu Fenfang's eyes.

Wu Fenfang was trembling with anger, she knew the extent of Qin Yuanmu's house, running out every two days to relax had already made her suspicious, she followed Qin Yuanmu secretly today, but saw this scene.

Qin Yuanmu let go of Lian Xiao's hand, and looked at Wu Fenfang in a panic: "Mom..."

Wu Fenfang's eyes went black, she couldn't believe what she just saw, she staggered back a step, stretched out trembling fingers to Qin Yuanmu: "...you come home with me!"

Qin Yuanmu glanced at Lian Xiao flusteredly: "You go back first...I'll find you later."

Lian Xiao could almost guess that this was Qin Yuanmu's parent, he didn't say anything, and didn't dare to look at Wu Fenfang's expression, so he nodded and hurried up.

Seeing Wu Fenfang's thin figure, Qin Yuanmu didn't dare to face it at that moment.