Delicacy

On the way home, Wu Fenfang didn't say a word.At the door of the house, Qin Yuanmu called her several times after paying the fare, and then she stiffly got out of the car as if she had come back to life.

When we got home, Qin Yuanmu felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave due to the rushing heating. Wu Fenfang didn't talk nonsense to him, just like she told him that day that she helped him find a job, she sat straight on the sofa and asked: " Qin Yuanmu, what is your relationship with that man?"

that man?Qin Yuanmu's heart suddenly trembled, Lian Xiao has always been a sunny and lovely boy in his heart, and now he has reached the age where he can be called "that guy".

Qin Yuanmu lowered his eyelids and sat down without saying a word, like a broken sack with a hole in it.

Seeing that Qin Yuanmu didn't answer, Wu Fenfang knew that things were just as she imagined, and she felt a little out of breath: "Qin Yuanmu, how long have you been with him?"

She knew Qin Yuanmu, her son would never suddenly run to that shabby place to kiss someone on a whim, obviously she had been kept in the dark for a long time.

"Not long." Qin Yuanmu's voice was very low.

He never thought that he and Lian Xiao would be exposed to their parents under such circumstances.In the past, Qin Yuanmu felt that it was okay to come out, why did his parents need the nod of his feelings?But now, he is not as free and easy as before.His father is no longer there, facing his mother who is struggling to support the family, Qin Yuanmu really has no face to harden his heart for him and Lian Xiao.

"How could you be like this..." Wu Fenfang's tense expression suddenly cracked, and the sobbing sound was like a knife, stabbing Qin Yuanmu's heart with a knife, "How could you be like this..."

What happened to me?Is it wrong for me to be with the person I like?Is it wrong for me to pursue my ideal?Qin Yuanmu pulled his hair and shouted frantically in his mind.But these words can't be said at all, because Wu Fenfang is his only and favorite relative.

Ever since Qin Dayong passed away, Qin Yuanmu had never cried again, but today, when he made a decision, tears still wet his eyes.

Qin Yuanmu, you are old too, it's time to think about your mother.

"What's there to cry about this kind of shit?" Qin Yuanmu laughed and wiped away his tears, "It was just a ignorant play, and I broke up with him immediately. I won't not get married in the future Yes, I will also do the job you found for me, okay? Don't cry, I will live a good life in the future. "

Wu Fenfang looked at Qin Yuanmu with red eyes: "You have to do what you say...you really can't be angry with your mother, I really have... I only have you, Qin Yuanmu, do you have a conscience? "

Qin Yuanmu put on a smile, looked at Wu Fenfang and said, "Okay."

The next day, when he learned that Qin Yuanmu was coming, Lian Xiao cooked a table of dishes early.But he was always restless when cooking, and he almost cut his hands several times.He couldn't help but think wildly, how would Qin Yuanmu have a showdown with his family?If Qin Yuanmu's mother disagrees, what should he do with Qin Yuanmu in the future?

This anxiety lasted until he saw Qin Yuanmu, and Lian Xiao pulled Qin Yuanmu in a panic: "You didn't quarrel with your mother, did you? What did you say?"

Qin Yuanmu stood at the door for a while, then stepped forward and said, "Go in and talk."

Lian Xiao should be in no mood to work, so he asked for leave today and waited for him at home.This is the first time Qin Yuanmu came here during the day, and the dying sunlight outside the window in winter didn't make the room much brighter.Qin Yuanmu looked at the hut, and if nothing else happened, this should be the last time he came here.

"We've been together for almost six years, Lian Xiao." Qin Yuanmu said the first words when he entered the room.Lian Xiao froze for a moment, then nodded seriously.Yes, six years, enough time for them to face any storm together.

"Actually, the first time I looked back and saw you, I never thought that we would walk together for so long, but after so many years, I am also very happy when I am with you." Qin Yuanmu continued.

Lian Xiao's expression froze. Even if he couldn't understand the good words, he could still understand such an obvious meaning. Lian Xiao looked at Qin Yuanmu stubbornly: "What do you want to say?"

Qin Yuanmu turned a deaf ear and went on to himself: "At the beginning, I was very happy every day, especially our high school time, every day was so happy, I dreamed of going back to that moment, even for a day That's fine too."

Lian Xiao fell silent, looking straight at Qin Yuanmu.

"I will firmly remember everything you have done for me," Qin Yuanmu pointed to his heart, "If it wasn't for me, you should have a better life, I'm sorry for hurting you. We and I I have kept that graduation photo of my brother, and I will look it up when I have nothing to do. In fact, when I think about it, I am really a lucky person because I met you."

"But I don't know when it started, probably after I went to college, I always feel that we are getting farther and farther apart. Maybe it's because the distance between us is getting farther, and the heart is also farther away. I am getting more and more trapped in my own world. The deeper you get, the more people you can't touch, you can't hear your voice, and gradually... I feel like I've lost you. Every time I see you during the holidays, I can't find that impulse anymore, I think You should feel the same way."

"I didn't." Lian Xiao said slowly, his eyes were a little red.

Qin Yuanmu paused, and said: "Actually, even if there is no incident yesterday, we will separate... sooner or later. We are getting farther and farther away from each other's world. You don't know what I think every day, and I also Not knowing you, no communication, no communication, no common topics, that's the scariest thing."

Lian Xiao has been staring at him: "Is it because I'm not good enough?"

Qin Yuanmu shook his head: "Lian Xiao, why don't you understand, we are not people from the same world anymore. Although it is silly to say so, it is the truth. Haven't you noticed it all these years? We can chat There are fewer and fewer things. Every time we meet, I have nothing to say. It’s all nonsense, and even that kind of thing has lost a lot of passion. Lian Xiao, the kind of happiness at the beginning, I have already found It's not here."

Lian Xiao nodded dully: "It's my problem."

"Lian Xiao!" Qin Yuanmu was a little anxious, "Don't you do this? The relationship problems are not the responsibility of one party, but we are no longer suitable. I provoked you at the beginning, I was sorry for you, you call Whether I scold me or scold me, I have nothing to say. But Lian Xiao... If you don't feel it, you don't feel it, can you understand?"

Lian Xiao shook his head: "I don't understand. Are you kidding me when you say I can never leave you? Are those words false?"

Qin Yuanmu was silent, those were the truth, but the same is true of what he said now.

"Anyway, Lian Xiao," Qin Yuanmu took a deep breath and said, "Those happy times back then were not fake. I was really lucky to meet you. I hope we can get together and leave each other well, and leave each other alone. Make the best memory."

"Not from the same world?" Lian Xiao seemed to be slow, and now he slowly grasped what Qin Yuanmu said just now, "I know I'm not good enough for you, I always knew it. You are much prettier than me, and you More talented than me, but you can’t look down on Qin Yuanmu! I have been working hard to move forward, and I have also won the first place in the province. Now I can also cook a table worth tens of thousands of banquets. I have always been Not being left behind by you, I really haven't! You can't think I'm not good enough for you..."

The more Lian Xiao talked, the more excited he became, Qin Yuanmu hugged him and said: "It's nothing Lian Xiao, I never looked down on you, I just... I just don't like you anymore."

This sentence was as small as a mosquito humming, and it was no less than a critical blow to Lian Xiao.Qin Yuanmu doesn't like him anymore?I don't like him, what do you mean?Like a robot with no electricity, Lian Xiao froze in Qin Yuanmu's arms, not even daring to look up at Qin Yuanmu's expression.

"Let's break up, Lian Xiao." Qin Yuanmu hugged Lian Xiao and said softly.

Lian Xiao suddenly struggled out of his arms and looked at Qin Yuanmu in a panic: "You...your mother doesn't agree with us being together, right? You just can't convince her, right? I can listen to you, you Don't force yourself to say that..."

Seeing Lian Xiao escaping from reality, Qin Yuanmu threw out another ruthless medicine: "Lian Xiao, have you ever thought about what your parents will do if they find out about this?"

Lian Xiao was stunned, they already knew.

"I'm not hurting you with these words, but you really need to understand, what will your family look like when you are with me? I didn't think about this issue before, because I was immature, but now this issue has been put on the table , can you and I pretend not to know?"

Lian Xiao thought to himself, but Qin Yuanmu, my parents already knew that I had already fallen out with them because of you... If you leave, I will lose completely.

Qin Yuanmu smiled wryly: "It's not that I haven't thought about being brave, but last night... when I saw my mother's first tears, I understood that I can't be willful and reckless. I used to think that emotional problems It's so stupid to let family members intervene. But after this happened to me, I didn't know how painful it was."

Lian Xiao thought wildly, it was quite painful, indeed.

"I don't want to see you falling out with your family, it's too painful."

I've fallen out.

"If I still have the courage, I would like to carry it with you, but I really don't have any."

Do you not or do you not want to?

"Everything in the outside world is an excuse. The most terrible problem lies with me. I don't love you anymore."

I don't believe it, Qin Yuanmu, you are lying.

"Let's get together and get together, Lian Xiao, I'm sorry."

I beg you Qin Yuanmu, don't break up with me, okay?

"Let's end it, okay?" Qin Yuanmu hugged Lian Xiao again, his movements were gentler than ever before, as if hugging some fragile valuables.

Lian Xiao heard his own answer: "Okay."

After leaving Lian Xiao's house, Qin Yuanmu suddenly stopped walking on the road, and looked up at the clouds in the sky.Not long after, the sun poked his head out from the thin clouds. This was a rare sunny day in winter. Qin Yuanmu silently lit a cigarette under the sun, his whole body was warm.This is the end. I don't know if this relationship is a disease-free one, but it's over anyway.

After Qin Yuanmu left, Lian Xiao stood there alone for a long time, then slowly turned his head and looked at the room where he was alone.When he saw the cold dishes on the table, he let out a sigh of annoyance, why did he forget to let Qin Yuanmu eat?

Sitting alone on the dilapidated chair, Lian Xiao gently picked up a chopstick of shredded fish-flavored pork, and put it in his mouth to chew slowly.Lian Xiao thought while eating, but luckily Qin Yuanmu didn't eat it, he seemed to have forgotten to add salt.

After a bland lunch, Lian Xiao curled up under the blanket and fell asleep.

Although it was sunny today, the temperature did not rise by a few degrees. Maybe it was because he forgot to turn on the little sun. When Lian Xiao woke up, his nose was not smooth, and he might have caught a cold.Looking at the dark sky outside the window, Lian Xiao suddenly felt bored, slowly got up from the bed, put on his shoes and went out to the hotel where he worked.

Meal time is always the busiest time, Lian Xiao suddenly asked for leave today, which made everyone in the back kitchen in a hurry.Suddenly seeing Chef Lian, the busy people almost applauded and cheered.

The other chef saw Lian Xiao who had changed his clothes and walked slowly, as if he saw a savior: "Lian Xiao, you are here, you have a conscience! Hurry up, two stir-fried pork livers!"

Lian Xiao didn't know why he came to the restaurant suddenly, he was absent-minded even when cooking, it seemed that all his actions were subconscious.

The back kitchen was in full swing, Lian Xiao was frying while thinking, why did the surrounding voices sound so fake?

When shaking the spoon, Lian Xiao's heart twitched without warning, and his whole body seemed to lose strength. The lifted frying pan hit the stove, and even the pan and the ingredients fell to the ground.

Lian Xiao subconsciously reached out to grab it, but his left hand touched the bottom of the burning pot.The scorching tingling sensation spread all the way from the fingers to the heart, Lian Xiao let out a miserable cry, and squatted on the ground grabbing his burned left hand.

"Lian Xiao, are you okay?!" When everyone heard the movement, they gathered around with concern.

The tingling pain in his hand continued intermittently, but Lian Xiao felt that his heart hurt even more.Maybe it's only now that he sees the reality clearly, Lian Xiao clutched his hands, squatted on the ground and burst into tears, no matter how people tried to persuade him, it was of no avail.

He no longer has Qin Yuanmu.

"President Feng, this is my son. Yuan Mu, say hello to President Feng. In the future, when you practice here, be diligent and learn more business, you know?"

In the office of a bank branch, Wu Fenfang graciously pulled Qin Yuanmu up, Qin Yuanmu looked at President Feng sitting on the office chair, and tried to squeeze out a smile: "Hello, President Feng, please take care of me in the future .”

Feng Xing grew up named Feng Fei and was the person in charge of this bank branch. Speaking of age, he was only about ten years older than Qin Yuanmu, so he could be called a young man.But it is obviously not easy to become the person in charge at a young age, which can be seen from the prescription of Feng Fei's glasses and the density of his hair.

Feng Fei chuckled, adjusted his glasses with one hand, and habitually stroked his missing hair with the other hand, and said, "Sister, you're out of your league when you say this, Brother Qin has done many tasks for us in the past. , isn’t it just an internship? It’s nothing worthwhile to help with this little favor, so you’re welcome.”

Wu Fenfang pulled Qin Yuanmu to say a few more words of thanks, and then left Qin Yuanmu to leave alone. After all, she still had to go to work, and people would gossip if she always asked for leave.

Feng Fei looked at Qin Yuanmu and smiled: "Qin Yuanmu, right? Don't be restrained, your father and I have been friends for a long time, just treat me as a brother."

Qin Yuanmu nodded, he suddenly thought of Wang Ya, and he didn't know what this brother was doing now.

"It's the first day you come here, and you don't know much about the work of the bank. Just find some business books or rules and regulations to read, and I will introduce you to other colleagues after get off work in the evening." Feng Fei quickly instructed the documents in his hand. explain.

Qin Yuanmu heard that the outside has become a mess of porridge, so go out and help out if you want to, but he is afraid that he will make trouble, so he can only sit in his seat honestly, pick up an economic magazine and read it.

"Look at the camera! Let you blink and blink again, click once and don't swallow the card!"

"There are quite a lot of people queuing up now, you can go to the self-service if you withdraw less than [-] yuan!"

"Sorry, you can't open an account without an ID card... It's useless for you to complain, this is the regulation of the People's Bank of China... Do you want to complain to the People's Bank? I support you!"

Across a wall, Qin Yuanmu could hear the noise in the hall, thinking that he was really busy.

It was noisy outside, President Feng clicked his mouse, and economics books were too hypnotizing for Qin Yuanmu, a scumbag like Qin Yuanmu. Qin Yuanmu sat on the sofa and almost fell asleep. .

It wasn't until five o'clock that the lobby where wave after wave of customers had been sent off became quiet.Qin Yuanmu thought to himself, as expected, he got off work very early, and he would be fine after five o'clock.

In the end, he was so innocent that he was slapped in the face. Feng Fei picked up the phone and dialed the internal line: "Hey, ask the people inside to check out later, and I have a classmate who will transfer the money later. Tell the people who are busy to stop chatting. I didn't write the meeting last time." Those who have experience quickly write, and the line is very urgent... Let’s quickly count today’s indicators, report to the personal department before 05:30, and have you opened a public account today? Check your mailbox for new emails. I remember that the risk department conducted a due diligence investigation... By the way, what date is it? Haven’t I checked the library this month? Forget it, I’ll bring a little brother in to let everyone get to know him, and he’s going to be an intern with us.”

Feng Fei's series of incomprehensible words made Qin Yuanmu feel dizzy. Don't you get off work at five o'clock?What is the situation with so many messy things?

Seeing Qin Yuanmu's expression, Feng Fei knew what Qin Yuanmu was thinking. He smiled self-deprecatingly, stood up and said, "You don't think the bank leaves at five o'clock, do you? Getting off work every day is the beginning of the battle, okay Come on, follow me into the business hall."

Qin Yuanmu stood up hesitantly: "Can I go in too?"

"No according to regulations, but no one cares after get off work." Feng Fei patted Qin Yuanmu on the shoulder and led him out of the office.Not to mention, this little fat man walked quite fast.

People who have never entered a bank business room are always full of curiosity about it, and Qin Yuanmu is no exception. When entering the double-opening linkage door, Qin Yuanmu stared at the door lock for a long time.

But when I went in and took a look, there was nothing special about it. The picture of banknotes piled up like a mountain did not appear. A few tellers sitting behind the bulletproof glass were still counting the inventory. Throw it together with the data in a mess.The staff on the other side are non-office staff. They are not idle after get off work. They are either recording data on the computer or making sales calls. They have no intention of leaving get off work at all.

Feng Fei clapped his hands: "Guys, stop and rest for a while, and I will introduce an intern to you. Qin Yuanmu, a senior student in the Provincial Art University, will come to us for a few months as an intern. If you have any chores in the future, you can entrust them to me. He will do it, but don’t bully the newcomers too much, teach them more.”

Qin Yuanmu nodded to both sides respectively: "Hi everyone, I hope all the teachers can give you some advice."

Feng Fei spoke very fast, pointing at people and introducing them to Qin Yuanmu, Qin Yuanmu was dazed and didn't remember any of them.But it's going to be a long time in the future, so it doesn't matter if I can't remember it now.

Qin Yuanmu felt a vibration in his pocket, it should be someone sending a message.After Feng Fei finished his introduction, he started calling to urge his classmate to come quickly, and the others continued to be busy with their work, so Qin Yuanmu took out his mobile phone and looked at it.

Xu Tao: Brother, I'm back!It's too hot in Hainan, but it's still warm at home. I brought you a gift!By the way, how's your painting practice recently?Xue Yujie said that if you don't make progress, he won't take you to play.

Looking at this message, Qin Yuanmu clenched his fist silently.