[Comprehensive] Teacher Songyang is always committing suicide

This world is so warm.

——However, darkness will eventually take everything away.

"It's amazing. You bastard, you have 'Eternal Darkness' parasitic in your body."

One of the worm masters who had adopted him pulled open his left eye and looked in amazement.The other party's rude actions really made his eyes hurt.

The white-haired child broke free, and his immature voice had a sense of vicissitudes different from his age: "I know. How can I kill it?"

"Kill?" As if he heard some joke, "Among the people who encountered a bug like 'Ever Dark', you are the first one I have ever seen who can survive. It is hopeless, sooner or later, you It will be swallowed by the 'Eternal Darkness'."

——This is one of the things Songyang doesn't need to know.

All memories before the age of ten are lost.When I opened my eyes one morning, "Eternal Darkness" was parasitic in my left eye.

According to the difficult scrolls left by the insect masters, the young Yingu learned the true form of "Eternal Darkness" with difficulty.All he could know was that this was an extremely terrifying bug.

It is darkness that breathes and moves.It will transform all creatures that approach it into a part of darkness.Including memories, including feelings, anything that exists in the literal sense will be swallowed by "Eternal Darkness".

Can't kill. "Eternal Darkness" has been parasitic in the body, living in symbiosis with itself.Moreover, the insect-recruiting physique brought about by "Eternal Darkness" made it impossible for the young man to stay in the same place, and was forced to wander around alone.

——Until he is finally swallowed by "Eternal Darkness", he will never have the life of an ordinary person again.

The boy Yin Gu kicked his worn-out straw sandals, climbed over the grass, and walked up the steep cliff.Full of hatred for "Eternal Darkness", the young man looked at the cliff edge in front of him, his green right eye was as indifferent as death gray.

So, so what?

——If I die, can you live?

The moment before he was about to jump, the pain in his left eye suddenly became unbearable.The young man knelt down on the ground in embarrassment, blood gushing from the fingers covering his left eye.The pain in the left eye lasted for a long time, until the boy shouted hoarsely: "I know! I will live! I will live!"

The bleeding stopped instantly.

yes.

Because you want to live, have I, who lived with you, been deprived of the right to seek death?

——This is something Songyang doesn't need to know, part two.

Yin Gu wiped his face clean, poured out the bloody water again, and washed the basin when he had time.No matter what he did, Songyang would walk up and down behind him, with the helpless look on his face, which made him laugh and helpless.

"Is it really all right?" I asked myself for the fourth time.

"It's all right." The fourth time answered him gently.

However, somewhere in his heart, he was also aching because of that pitiful expression.

Songyang was originally a gentle and strong person.No matter what kind of predicament he is in, even if he is entangled by "Rui" for three months, he can still smile calmly to the villagers who avoid him.Coupled with the strange strength and the force value against the sky, it is not difficult to guess that there were days when blood was licked with a knife in the past.

But—is it because of what he suffered in the original world, or because he was with him for too long?

Songyang is becoming more and more dependent on him now.

Yin Gu brushed back the broken hair in front of Songyang's forehead, stared at the pair of dazed red pupils, and then leaned closer to kiss the other's eyelids.

"Scared you."

"...Mr. Yingu, at least tell me what 'Eternal Darkness' is, can you?" Songyang was kissed as docile as always, but his breath was not stable, "as the 'Lord of Light Pulse' Who is stronger than me?"

"If you want to kill it, you have to kill me first. 'Eternal Darkness' is such an existence."

The insect master spoke calmly, but Songyang suddenly raised his head, his eyes became more bewildered.

That night, the worm master didn't talk about any worms again, even if Songyang asked repeatedly, he just kept silent.No matter what, he coaxed Songyang into bed.Coaxed into the bed, he didn't intend to sleep. The other party looked at him with a frown, as if he was afraid that something would happen if he didn't look at Yin Gu. Yin Gu had no choice but to use the ultimate method to deal with Songyang - his own constitution.

"If you don't sleep well," Yin Gu made a gesture to tuck his cold hands into the quilt, "I'll hug you to sleep."

Songyang did not hide, but held his hand to warm it.He lowered his soft eyebrows and said nothing, Yin Gu just looked at him quietly until he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

"Eternal Darkness" has been parasitic in his body for more than ten years.It was only at this time that the riots started, and he even felt a sense of surprise that "Eternal Darkness" had allowed him to live on for several years.

——Such a big world, and there are so many worlds beyond this world.How lucky do you have to be to meet you?

How cruel.

I want to fight seriously once, and I want to walk with you.

When I woke up the next day, the girl who had turned into a worm was no longer in the young master's room.Yin Gu kept some medicine as a routine, and said to the young master: "In this situation, the medicine is useless. If you really want to keep her, just tell your heart over and over again, how important is her existence to you?" mean something."

When leaving the young master's house and walking towards the mountains, Songyang saw a bunch of doughnut-like worms hanging on the branches, so he couldn't help but take a second look curiously.Yin Gu let him watch, and when he had seen enough, he said to him: "Songyang. I wanted to tell you one thing last year, about why you, as a worm, couldn't see the worm in the first place."

"Why?"

"There is a process for a person to mutate into a worm. Just like that girl, first she had the idea of ​​​​abandoning human feelings, then she became able to see the worm, and then she herself became a worm that others could not see, and finally dissipated in the veins of light."

He took the cigarette out of his mouth.Even in the midday sun, the hole in his left eye was dark.

"So I was thinking, is there such a process for a worm to become a human?"

Songyang was startled for a moment, but didn't speak.

"——Did the 'Xu' who was first born have the desire to become a human being at the very beginning? This desire is so strong that he walked out of the light vein and became a human being that can be seen by human beings. How about the worms slowly forgetting the world of worms?"

Song Yang still did not speak.

Ever since he returned to Master Bug, he never mentioned Guoxu again.

He hates Xu for hurting the people he cares about, and is also afraid of Xu's existence.But the entanglement between them is not so simple that it can be explained clearly.

He and Xu Xu share the same memory.They were also persecuted by ignorant humans. Their eyeballs were repeatedly gouged out, and their bodies were driven into nails. Some people took pleasure in torturing his indestructible body.He knows Xu's hatred, he can understand Xu's sadness, and even Xu's practice of being an enemy of the whole world, he can also understand to a certain extent.

but.

"...No matter what he thinks, I should take revenge on him and myself—"

The words were spoken almost tremblingly.

Just thinking of Jin Zhu's look at him when he was stabbed in the abdomen by a knife, Song Yang couldn't help but feel a sharp pain in his heart.

As a teacher, he went to attend the funeral of his student who died unexpectedly, how many tears he shed under the mask, in the end, only the instigator knew.

Gingo, who was walking in front, took a puff of smoke lightly.He didn't turn his head back, but took Songyang's hand backwards, and gently held his hand in his palm.

"You take the connection between yourself and Xu so seriously that you want to bear his sins together. From the perspective of my only remaining right eye, you are just 'Yoshida Matsuyo', yes Yoshida Shoyo, who once suffered hostility and malice from everyone, but finally chose to reconcile with the world with gentleness. This kind of courage may not exist, and he will not understand it.

"Did I ever say that? It's great to meet you."

Songyang was stunned for a moment, never expecting that he would speak tender love words when discussing such a heavy topic.His hand, which was trembling with pain from the memories, slowly relaxed in the other's palm.

"Me... me too."

He accompanied Yin Gu through spring flowers and summer grass.The autumn leaves rustled in the wind, and the winter snow gently dyed their heads white.

In the past 500 years of life, Songyang seems to have never been so peaceful and happy-the five years of private school were also happy, but there seemed to be something different.After the little samurai told him the warmth of getting along with others, Yin Gu made him understand the meaning of companionship and long-lasting love.He confirmed that his initial choice of the path of redemption and resistance was correct.

"Gingu, I want to go back again."

The pupils of Songyang who said these words have turned back to a gentle and firm light green.The worms, which were visible for a while, gradually became colorless and transparent.

"If I settle everything, I hope you... can also come to my world."

The white-haired man laughed.He still asked, "Why?"

"Because I want to be with you."

Because I was too eager, I accidentally told the truth.After saying this, the long-haired man still blushed unavoidably.

I want you to see my cherished students.I want you to meet more gentle people.If it was in his bustling world, even Mr. Insect Master wouldn't occasionally show a lonely expression like he does now.

In the past year, Yin Gu's left eye has never had any abnormalities. "Eternal Darkness" seems to be just like what he said, just coexisting quietly with Yin Gu, and there is no harm.

They went together to find the cocoons of new "virtual worms" as preparations before crossing.Recently, Yin Gu's health seems to have deteriorated a little, and he needs to sit down and rest for a long time from time to time before he can continue walking.Songyang asked him, and the man just said that after all, the travel time is too long, and he also needs to find a place where there are not too many insects, so he can take a good rest for a while.

When everything was ready, Yin Gu took Songyang to a lake at the foot of the mountain where the light vein was about to reach. As long as Songyang entered the light vein at the moment the light vein flowed through, he could follow the guidance of "Master Zhou" to return to the lake. Back to the original world.

It was late winter then.The lake is frozen and looks hard.Songyang knocked a hole in the ice, touched the bitterly cold lake water with lingering fear, the man smiled behind him: "I won't really jump into the lake. If you go directly into the mainstream of the light vein, there will be no temperature there. of."

Yin Gu's breath sounded a little unsteady when he spoke, obviously he had just rested not long ago.Songyang was still a little worried, so he hung his scarf around the man's head several times, and asked softly, "Are you going to get sick from the cold? Or I'll go back when the spring begins."

"It's okay, it's just that when people are old, there will be various problems with the body." Yin Gu's voice came out from under the two layers of scarves, with a muffled smile, "After I send you away, I will go to Huaye. Think I think the travel expenses are almost used up."

Huaye is a doctor, and Songyang can rest assured that Yingu is with him.

The white-haired man was wearing two scarves, sitting on the frozen grass beside the lake, looking at Songyang's back guarding the lake.He just stared at it for a long time, until his eye sockets began to dry up, and he was about to shed tears.

Songyang.

He called the name silently and gently over and over again.

The place where his finger was cut by a branch the day before yesterday, he has kept it in his pocket so far, so that Songyang did not see it.The wound has not healed, and what flows out is no longer blood, but misty darkness.

Chang An was devouring his body bit by bit.First the viscera, then the vascular texture, and then the bones.The worm kept his heart and brain until now, probably because he didn't want the host to notice too quickly that the part of his body that had turned into constant darkness was still functioning normally to maintain life.

"The light pulse is here."

The insect master's eyes can directly see the movement of the light pulse, and seeing the thin light shining through the thick ice, he reminded Songyang softly.

"Then, I'll—"

Song Yang stood up.

"—After returning to that world, don't come back again."

The saddest thing is that he couldn't help but say such a sentence.

Song Yang was stunned for a moment, but when he looked back, his expression at that moment seemed to think that the man was playing a joke on him.Immediately afterwards, his expression changed completely, shouting Yin Gu's name, and rushed over from the lake.

"……do not come!"

The overwhelming darkness burst out from the empty socket of the man's left eye.

At that moment, even the brilliance of the world, the sun and the moon seemed to be swallowed up.Chang An looked like some kind of huge and terrifying black creature, quickly crawled across the lake and the jungle where the man was, and with lightning speed, all the surrounding creatures were swallowed into the darkness.

—Darkness that breathes and moves.

memory, emotion.All "existing things" in the literal sense will be swallowed by the everlasting darkness.Yin Gu thought of himself who had no memory before the age of ten, probably because he was approached by Chang An when he was ten years old.

Songyang still remembers the last moment when he stepped into the darkness, he was rushing towards the figure of the insect master.

But it was empty.

I didn't grab anything in my hand, and there was no real feeling of where my feet were stepping on.Memories are lost quickly and crazily like running water, the gentle palm of the white-haired man, the glowing worm, the tennis boy, Xu, Oboro, Gintoki, Shinsuke, Kotaro, the cherry blossoms at the gate of the private school, the rattling lottery, the knife and blood , Amaterasu Temple Naraku, Tokugawa Ieyasu——

Even if it is always dark, there is no way to eat 500 years of memory in one go.The feeling of the memory being pulled away by the worm was too real, and it was too painful. Songyang inserted his hand deeply into his forehead hair, as if he wanted to pierce his fingertips into the skull, trying to peel the worm out.

As for the memory of killing, it doesn't matter how much you eat.But only those warm parts, even a minute and a second, can't give you——

"Songyang."

A hand stroked his face.There was no warmth in those hands, neither cold nor hot, only pure soft touch remained.

"I am here."

"You are……"

Song Yang's voice was also swallowed by Chang An.He opened his mouth with difficulty and made movements to make a sound, but it was useless, the sound could not come out at all.

"You have to try hard to remember the names I said. This is one of the ways to deal with Ever Darkness. Even if you can't remember it for a while after leaving Ever Darkness, when you meet these people, your memory about them will start to slow down. Slow recovery."

The voice in the darkness was gentle and calm.There is not much sadness, just a kind of melancholy.

He said many names.One by one, carefully remembering to say it.Too many, Songyang thought, he couldn't remember so many.

"Probably, there is nothing missing. I have well remembered every story and every name you told."

(And you?)

Can't speak.You can only grab the opponent's arm hard.

(Which one is your name...?)

"And then, most importantly, the name."

Fingertips stroked his palm, writing stroke by stroke.Men always do things so calmly, as if the two of them are not in the dark belly, but in the warm room with the afternoon sun.

——Yoshida Matsuyo.

Yoshida Matsuyo.

"This name," the man said with a smile, "is the name of someone I like."