Late autumn

A month flies by quickly.Now I live here with Gin, he doesn't seem to have many tasks recently, and he always has time to look after me every day.He reported to the boss that I was unwell and asked for a month and a half of leave for me. The boss readily agreed and told me to take a good rest.The Boss and I are very clear about what this "physical discomfort" is all about.Only Gin was kept in the dark about the whole story.

He would sleep with me until noon, help me prepare "breakfast", and sit on the sofa with me to watch a movie-although he has no interest in the plot, he only cares about the result.

He would ask me what I like to eat, and then ask Vodka to buy it.Every time we taste delicious food, we enjoy it, but poor Vodka often travels across half of Tokyo to satisfy my tricky taste, and has to drive the food to Gin's villa in the suburbs before it gets cold.

He will buy me a lot of fashion brands to make me happy. Although I always blame him for always spending money indiscriminately, I still feel very happy in my heart.Money is really something outside of him. How can a person who walks on the line of life and death every day care about these nihilistic things.Every time I asked him, he would say, "It's okay to waste a little bit, who knows how long our days will last like this?" I just thought he was lamenting the life and death of the killer profession.

That period of time was really the happiest time for me. I have never felt how solid it is to have someone I can rely on for more than ten years alone, who can let me sleep peacefully with his shoulders on my head, and who can give me peace when I feel cold. A warm embrace, yes... In fact, I can live here with such peace of mind because of what he said to me in the ward.

At that time, I had just slowly woke up from the pain, and he said to me: "As long as Akemi Miyano does not do anything excessive, the organization can guarantee her safety."

He also said to me: "The person monitoring you reported that you had a few conversations with Zhuxing alone. In order to confirm your innocence, you will temporarily isolate yourself from Akemi Miyano for a period of time until you and her are confirmed separately. Zhu Xingda has nothing to do with it."

I said yes.This kind of house arrest has actually become my recuperation vacation, and I don't feel bored if I have someone to accompany me every day.

I just don't know, is my sister doing well?

He refused my request to speak to my sister and confiscated my cell phone.

I thought that God had forgiven me, and finally gave me the happiness of an ordinary person, and let me enjoy the feelings that a normal woman should have.But I was wrong again, and God did not forgive me, but gave me a more tormenting fate, perhaps, it never favored me.

"Miyano Akemi is dead." When he came back that day, I greeted him at the door full of expectations, and his first words when he saw me were like a bolt from the blue.

"What did you say?" I looked at him incredulously.

"Akemi Miyano is dead," he repeated.

"Did not you say……"

He interrupted me: "Yes, I said that the organization will guarantee her safety, but only if she doesn't do anything excessive."

"My sister, what did she do?"

"She plans to defect and go to your good brother-in-law."

"Even so, why did you kill her? Who is it? Who is it!" I pounced on him, grabbing his collar and asking.

"Me." He seemed to be afraid that I might not hear clearly, so he repeated, "It's me."

"Why... exactly why... You know that I have been working for the organization all these years only for her safety. Now that I know why, why do I still do this?"

"..."

"You resent me for killing your child without telling you, don't you? You are angry at me, why did you hurt her?!"

"..."

"You know that she is my only hope to live in this world..." I was almost desperate, leaning against the wall powerlessly.

He suddenly grabbed my shoulders and asked loudly: "Miyano Akemi, Miyano Akemi, why do you only think about her all the time?! Why are you willing to die for her?! Why did you say that Everything you do is inseparable from her?! She harmed you and us, but you still speak for her. If she is gone, you will lose hope of life. Is there nothing else in this world worthy of you? Are you nostalgic?" He shook my body, uncharacteristically calm and emotional.

"Other nostalgia?" I smiled back from grief, it was a bleak smile, "Could it be you?"

His eyes on me gradually dimmed, and then he threw me to the floor, and I slumped on the ground.He took a few steps forward, with his back to me, and my back to him.

I calmed down, "Tell the organization, I want a reason for my sister to be killed, otherwise, I will stop the research on APTX4869."

He slammed the door away.

The moment the door was closed, my tears couldn't stop flowing, and I knew that the bridge between us had finally collapsed.He's gone, and he's never coming back.

I sat alone on the cold floor, tears streaming down my cheeks, the sound of dripping on the floor was very clear in the quiet room, I could not stop muttering: "Could it be you... Could it be you... ..."

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"You are really stupid, protecting him like this, but you don't know that sooner or later he will bring you big trouble."

"Really, then, if that day comes, what will you do?"

Actually, you already knew that, right?Knowing this, why didn't you tell me earlier, let me kill this feeling when I first fell in love with you?Why should I be in such pain now?You didn't answer me that day, and I just took it as disdain. Now it seems that you had already planted the seeds of this disaster at that time.

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"Then, for her feelings, you would rather give up your own feelings, wouldn't you?"

At that time, I didn’t understand why I had to sacrifice my own feelings to fulfill my sister’s feelings. Now it seems that, really, the entanglements between the four of us are too many and too chaotic... If I had known that Zhu Xing was If I was an undercover agent, I wonder if I would be so selfless to help them?

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"You don't look like a rum drinker, Sherry isn't for you."

In fact, this sentence has already determined our relationship when we first met.We really can't go together, there is an insurmountable gap between us, the first sentence I said to you is this sentence, if the person who decided the code at that time knew that there will be such a distance between us, Will you lament your greatness?Successfully predicted a bad relationship.It seems that everything is doomed...

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"Don't say that, anyway, I'm also Mingmei's boyfriend, your future brother-in-law."

Zhu Xingda, if Gin is the executor of this tragedy, then you are the creator of this tragedy.Why, why did you let your sister fall in love with you?Why use us?Why not protect her afterwards?Why... You are not worthy to be my brother-in-law, not worthy.

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"But I hope you will be happy all your life, An Ran..."

Sister, do you know that your departure took away all my happiness, and it is impossible for me to be safe again in this life.Why are you leaving?Why do you want to be with Zhu Xingda so much?Why can you risk your life for him?You can go to heaven to reunite with your parents, but why leave me alone on earth...

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"Women are just a tool for me to pass the long night... How can I have feelings for a tool..."

"You are not his first woman, he has no heart for women."

In fact, I should blame myself, right?Knowing that he is a killer and it is impossible to have feelings, why do I always hope that he is by my side?Someone already reminded me, didn't I?Miyano Shiho, you are so stupid, since you already knew it, why are you still obsessed with it?In fact, you shouldn't believe that he can protect your sister comprehensively...

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"Put away your stupid and ridiculous thoughts, I am the only person in the world who can end your life."

Yeah?Are you really that sure?No, you are wrong Gin, this person is not you, definitely not you...

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