Late autumn

I moved back to his house.Return to the Institute to continue new research.I see my sister twice a month.The days gradually calmed down. The previous period made me exhausted, and I finally had a chance to relax. In fact, there is nothing wrong with repeating the same life. Although there will be no surprises, at least there will be no surprises.But I forgot that this is an organization, there will be no surprises, but there will be no fewer surprises.

The first surprise was that I was pregnant.Of course, it's a secret, a secret that no one knows but me, at least that's what I thought at first.

I went to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor said that the child is more than a month old.These days I'm wondering what to do with it.It's his, should I keep it? Gin has a mission to go abroad, and the heavy workload in the past few days has made me breathless. This news only makes me more worried.

The second surprise was that the Boss actually knew about it.I'm curious about how much power they have in this city. They should have learned about it when I went to the hospital for an examination. Boss contacted me and gave me two options: first, keep the child, and the organization will train him into the next generation of killers; second, choose Gin, and trade my child's life for it.

"He and the child can't coexist," Boss said. "The professional requirement of a killer is that there is no bondage. I don't care who has a relationship with whom in the organization. I care who has a relationship with whom. You have a relationship with him , but I know he won't have feelings for you, after all, women can have many for him. You are not his first woman, he has no heart for women. But children are different, they are his flesh and blood, he I will be concerned, and if I have any concern, I am no longer suitable to be a killer. Sherry, you know, the organization does not keep useless people."

"It's the same for you. I have nothing against you being with him, but I don't allow any affection between you. Having children will become a burden on your work, and you will come up with stupid ideas and want to do things for your children." Fight for freedom and light."

"Of course, I won't force you, you can make your own choice. The lives of both of them are in your hands at this moment. However, no matter what your choice is, this matter is between you and me I won’t let the third person know about my secret, and you’d better not either.”

Of course I understand that this is not a multiple-choice question for me, although he said so in his mouth, he didn't think so in his heart.He wanted to keep Gin. After all, training another killer would be costly and labor-intensive. Boss probably doesn't have time to wait another 20 years, right?Besides, this child is unknown to them, who knows if this child has the talent to be a killer?Who knows if his shooting will be better than Gin? Boss is a seasoned character, he won't do things he is not sure about.Even if I choose my child, I will "accidentally" miscarry, and then only Gin will be left.

I can't give up, I can't give up both, so there is no way to have the best of both worlds?Escaping from the organization is not feasible, I am not qualified to negotiate terms with the boss, because I want the safety of the people around me.

Walking on the street, looking at the faint, seemingly absent spring scenery everywhere, it is a new four seasons.New life will be born and old life will die.The world is always in endless reincarnation, and the birth of this child is the beginning of another reincarnation.Don't you think it's too similar?Once, my parents, too.After giving birth to my sister and me, they passed away unexpectedly.The elder sister is struggling, conflicting between the longing for light and the cruelty of reality.And I, being at the mercy of others and working hard, cannot escape the fate of black after all.

"...If you keep the child, I will train him into the next generation of killers..." The words of Boss are still in my ears. Once this child is born, he will be a victim of the struggle between black and white just like me. It is better not to exist, but also a relief.I touched my flat belly with my hands, imagining how sweetly he was sleeping there.I'm sorry, my boy.I can't protect you right now...

Walk out of the pharmacy and go back to the apartment.

I don't know how much effort it took me to decide to swallow the pills, my throat was dry, and something cold ran down my cheeks, and that was the first time I cried after returning to the tissue.

Time passed slowly with the movement of the second hand, my lower abdomen was cramped, my legs could no longer support the weight of my whole body, and then I fell down...

When I woke up again, I was already in the white ward, not the medical department of the organization, it seemed to be a regular hospital.The bloodstains on the white gauze in the tray were shocking.I saw him sitting on the edge of the bed, seeing that I woke up, and turned his head back again, not meeting my eyes.

There were only the two of us in the room, "When did you... come back?" My voice was hoarse.

"Yesterday." His words changed back to a few words, seemingly without emotion.

"You... know everything?" I asked.

"understood."

I was silent.The room was very quiet. After a while, he said, "Why don't you keep him?"

It seems that Boss is right, he still can't be unfeeling towards children, after all, a tiger's poison does not eat its children.

"Leave him? What if he is alive? It's nothing more than being at the mercy of others like us, don't you think it's too similar? Two members of the organization have children, and then the children join the organization to continue the black lives. It's too painful, I don't want my child to live such a life, I don't want him to be branded with darkness from birth, I want him to run in the sun like a normal child, cry and laugh like children of the same age..." Sourness rushes up Throat, I can’t go on. I can bear such a heavy fate alone. I don’t want my children to struggle on the edge of light and darkness like me. Instead of this, it’s better not to exist. It’s also a relief ...I am now unable to give him happiness...

"But that's my child too, didn't you ever think about discussing it with me before making a decision?" His tone suddenly became soft.

"Is it useful? Can you change this result by consulting with you?" I am infinitely sad, that is my child, my flesh and blood, no one will be more sad than me, and no one will want to keep it more than me he.

He stood up and went to the window without speaking.

The doctor who made the rounds opened the door and broke the silence in the room. She looked at my medical records and asked me, "You only have one?"

"Yes." I sorted out my emotions.

She looked at me, then at Gin beside the bed, her mouth moved, but she didn't say anything, she just told Gin to take good care of me and not to go to the ground for a month.

"Observe for another three days. If there is no problem, you can leave the hospital." The doctor said this before leaving.

"What would you like to eat? I'll let Vodka get it." He turned to me.

"Anything is fine, I don't have much appetite." I got under the covers, trying to sleep for a while.Seeing this, he closed the curtains for me, opened the door and left.

Gin, I can't say, I can't tell you about my agreement with Boss.If you know that you will definitely rebel, it is too dangerous. I have already lost my child, and I can’t lose you again... I closed my eyes with tears, and I swallowed the tears together with these bitter things. It was really bitter, very bitter ...

Accidents are constant.The following days were painful for me, and the blow to me was also huge, big enough to change the entire trajectory of my destiny.

"Rye is an undercover agent and has been exposed." He said this to me blankly.

"What?!" I sat up suddenly, "How could he be an undercover agent?!" I always thought that he was just a traitor, but I didn't expect that he was an undercover agent from the beginning, and he was using our sisters from the beginning.

The stomach suddenly started to hurt violently, and some viscous liquid flowed out from the thigh. Gin saw it and immediately called the doctor.

Sister, why did you fall in love with such a person...

The doctor came to check my situation, asked Gin a few words, and then blamed him: "Didn't I tell you to take good care of her, too much mood swings will make her bleed again, why don't you listen! She still Being so young, it would be very harmful to her body, do you understand! The nurse has already brought the tray and is busy with the doctor to stop the bleeding."

The phone rang.

I picked it up to see, it was my sister. Gin snatched it to a place that I couldn't reach. The severe pain and anxiety tormented me together, and my forehead was covered with sweat.

"You, give me quickly... quickly..." I struggled, and one side of my body left the bed.He was unmoved.The nurses hurriedly held me down, and said angrily, "What time is it, let's put aside the most important things."

I insisted, "Gin, give it to me quickly, hurry up..." I frowned and looked at him, but he still didn't move.The cell phone kept ringing.My sister called me so soon after knowing that Zhu Xing was exposed to confirm my safety. If she doesn't answer the phone at this time, she will definitely be close to collapse.

The doctor sighed, turned his head and said to Gin, "Just give it to her, we can't do it if she is so dishonest. Why are you so stubborn, let's have a fight."

The pain in my abdomen worsened. I lay powerlessly on the bed, bit my lips tightly and tried not to make a sound. He sighed and walked to my side, "Here. Let's see how you answer the phone in this state."

I took a steady breath and tidied up my voice, "Don't make any noise," I instructed.Then, the answer button was pressed.

"Hey?"

"Zhibao, it's me." It was my sister's voice on the other end of the phone.

"elder sister."

"What are you doing, why aren't you answering the phone?"

"Just now in the laboratory, you know, making phone calls in the laboratory will affect the equipment." The pain in the abdomen seems to have subsided temporarily, my voice is very low, but my sister's voice is very tired, probably I haven't slept all night.

"Oh." She seemed relieved. "They didn't do anything to you, did they?"

I forced a few laughs, "What will happen to me?"

"Shiho, Maharaja, he..."

"I've heard about him. Don't be too sad, sister."

Slight pain hit, I bit my left index finger, trying not to breathe heavily.

"I won't be too sad. In fact, I knew it early on... Do you remember that day in the coffee shop? In fact, that morning, I overheard the content of his phone call, and then I knew he was an undercover agent .And, the day before the accident, he also confessed to me personally..."

"Then you... you know that he is using you..."

She smiled faintly, "After meeting him, I don't even believe that I am really the Miyano Akemi I used to be. Love and time can really change a person, Shiho."

Love and time?I couldn't take it any longer, closed my eyes, and knew I had to end this conversation right away.I'm sorry, sister, even though I know that now is the time when you need me the most, but I can't let you know what's going on here. Facing the departure of your lover and the illness of your relatives, how can you stand it physically and mentally exhausted.

"I'm going to work, sister, let's talk another day. The meeting has already started." This is the last sentence I can say in a normal tone.

"Zhibao..." She seemed to be hesitant to speak, and changed her eager tone, "Well, go, and, please be safe, I'm sorry for you."

Don't say that, sister, it's because I don't have the ability to make you leave him earlier, I'm the one who brought you into dire straits... There's no way to go on, I opened my mouth a few times, but didn't make a sound.I could only tell her this in my heart, and then hung up the phone.

The right hand hangs down according to gravity, letting the phone fall to the floor.All the pain that hadn't erupted before hit me at this moment, I couldn't bear it, my eyes went dark, I lost consciousness...