Late autumn

Seven years ago, I received an order from my superior in the FBI to sneak into a large criminal organization headquartered in Japan and do undercover work.

Half a year later, after a relatively comprehensive investigation of the organization's personal connections, I decided to use the two sisters of the Miyano family as a breakthrough point and slowly enter the organization.My plan was to establish a romantic relationship with Miyano Shiho, a woman code-named Sherry, so as to go deep into the organization.But she belongs to the top of the organization, busy with a certain research, has been rarely out, the chance is very slim, so I changed tactics, changed the target to Akemi Miyano, the task went well, I got in touch with her, and soon became a couple with her .

Another six months later, I joined the organization with the help of the two sisters.

Frankly speaking, starting a relationship with Minmei was not something I wanted.As a member of the FBI, I have always followed the principles of being calm and decisive, but this woman exudes sunshine and simplicity everywhere, and she is easily emotional, definitely not the type of partner I yearned for at the beginning.But this is a necessary sacrifice for a spy. For the sake of the mission, even sacrificing one's own life will never turn back, not to mention feelings?

Akemi's conversations with me always contain little valuable information, except when it comes to her sister, Miyano Shiho.

From her few words, I vaguely feel that this is not an easy woman, if the task can get her help, the task will make great progress.

I want to use every opportunity to meet her, she rarely goes out of the organization, every time I find out her whereabouts, I always plan carefully, and every time I see her, she is always guarded by Gin, In this way, I have not been able to meet her alone.

The four of us happened to meet at their apartment that day, and I could see that she and Gin's subtle movements showed a tacit understanding, I could see that Gin was shot, I could see Gin's high vigilance, and even, according to my intuition, I smell the unusual relationship between the two, although I don't want to believe it.

The more I hear about her in the organization, the more I appreciate her, the stronger my sympathy for her and the desire to protect her.I want to take them out of the organization, I want to give them a life in the sun.

However, after experiencing various changes, my mission ended in failure.In order to avoid being chased by the organization, I was forced by the FBI to return to the United States to work, but I didn't know that that was the last time I saw Mingmei.

She did not escape the clutches of the organization, and used her own death to fulfill my mission and change me.Later I heard that Zhibao was also dealt with by the organization for the reason of resistance. Hatred and regret alternated with each other, permeating my dark years.

She said: "Don't tell me I don't know!" She said: "If you succeed, would you really be my boyfriend?" She said: "Take care of Zhibao for me." She said: "I don't regret it... ..."

But I regret it.I regret that I didn't take you away at the beginning, I regret that I only focused on the task.

Is it too late when I realize the love in my heart?Is such a life destined to be accompanied by loneliness?

When I got the news that Zhibao was not dead, I was determined to protect her. I have experienced the feeling of loss once, and this time I will try my best to protect her.

The decisive battle came soon. As expected, we wiped out most of the organization's forces. That day, Gin and I met at the back door of the building. He shot through my right shoulder with a gun first, and the walkie-talkie slipped. I used instant judgment out of instinct. He shot back in the direction of the bullet, and only when he turned around did he see the hatred accumulated in his eyes.He had already been shot in several places, and at this point we were in a freeze frame, holding our guns at each other but neither of us pulled the trigger again.

"Long time no see, Mr. Enemy. I set so many traps and finally lured you out."

"You really haven't changed."

"Yeah, because we are all the same people, how can we change before we meet you."

"I only want you to pay the corresponding price for Mingmei."

"Public revenge." He teased with a smile.

I looked into his eyes, burning with anger.

"I've never been the kind of person to sacrifice my own interests to fulfill others. Naturally, I would not sacrifice my own woman to fulfill you and your woman. A person like Miyano Akemi is not worthy of being her sister at all."

I raised my hand and shot him, "You don't understand what she wants at all." The words were heavy.

He suddenly laughed out loud, "You are also selfish, aren't you? You would rather sacrifice her sister for your girlfriend."

I suddenly felt inexplicably sad, pity the man in front of me, and pity the woman who is desperate for him.

"It seems that you are still kept in the dark. Then I will give you one last gift, the truth about the incident three years ago."

What a ridiculous reincarnation, Zhibao chose to sacrifice his first child for Gin and Mingmei; Mingmei chose to sacrifice herself for me and Zhibao; Gin chose to sacrifice Mingmei for Sherry; but fate sacrificed everything we sacrificed by accident .

There was a little desolation in his eyes after listening, "That gentleman played this game of chess really well, and we are just pawns on his chessboard..."

I know this is the best moment for me to convince him, "Since this is the case, you don't have to work hard for him anymore. From the beginning to the end, he just took advantage of all of our feelings. She is still waiting for you, you should do it for her Make up for everything in the past."

The melancholy in his eyes suddenly disappeared, "You should know that what I am loyal to is not that gentleman, but the darkness. I know that destruction is coming, but my destruction is definitely not in the light."

I put down the gun, and his gun slowly fell.The previous contact made me understand the pride of the man in front of me very well.Maybe what he said is right, we are the same people, we just stand at the two ends of the chromaticity.

"Then end it the way you want. It's just her, what do you want her to do?"

"There are still many possibilities in her life, and she doesn't have to sacrifice again for me."

"You should know it's impossible."

He smiled, turned around and left. The black figure gradually disappeared in the black corridor. I knew that this was the first and last time I saw him off in this life.

As we expected, Shiho chose his path.I didn't stop it, not because I forgot Mingmei's entrustment, but because this is the real happiness she wants.

After the mission ended, I returned to the United States and continued some ordinary or shocking missions. Occasionally, I could receive photos of their family from Kudo, full of happiness and warmth. This should be what she would like to see in another world .

This kind of absurd work is still going on endlessly. Yes, I now use absurd to describe the work I used to believe in.After going through ups and downs, I realized that I had nothing left behind. I was doomed to be alone when I chose this path.That late autumn changed the life trajectory of all of us——

Some people returned to the screen, some graduated, some got married, some got happiness, some fell asleep because of it, and I have always been alone, still don't know where to go next.