Late autumn

When I first saw her, there was no doubt that I hated her in my heart.Driven by what she called a "meaningless sense of justice," she was a companion to those demons, so what if she betrayed them?Her words are true and false, and she is unwilling to disclose too much information about the organization to me, which makes it difficult for me to trust her.

Watch out, this is the attitude I take with her.

It's just that I gradually feel that this girl who looks strong and indifferent and refuses to admit defeat seems to be very fragile in her heart. She is always calmer than other children when encountering ordinary cases. I care about it, but on the other hand, she seems to be very afraid of the organization. She is always very sensitive to any disturbances related to the organization. She is obviously very scared but still pretends to be calm.I actually felt a slight heartache, because of the strongness of this girl's disguise, and also because of her past in the organization that I didn't know very well.

I don't know how my trust in her was established. Was it because she desperately wanted to tell me the drug information when the Cup House Hotel was facing desperation?Or is it because she doesn't want to implicate everyone because of herself?Perhaps the trust was also built up little by little, because she and I knew each other because of similar experiences, and we could always save the day in critical situations, or it can be said that there is a tacit understanding between us.

I think, compared to the heavy-hearted woman who lives in fear every day, I still prefer to see the girl who gets wild when she encounters small animals, the girl who blackmails wantonly when she sees fashion brands, and the girl who has a poisonous tongue. She is relentless, even though these always make me dumbfounded.These make me feel that she can finally live a life that a normal girl should have like Ran, Ayumi and the others.This is what fate owes her, and I hope to use my power to make up for the life she never really enjoyed.

It's just that the ghost was obsessed that day, why did I tell her about the decisive battle?I hate my ignorance and the impermanence of fate.

"Hui Yuan, you have to be more careful recently. The secret war between us and the organization has gradually unfolded. The people in the organization may have noticed our situation, and it may not be certain that they will plant eyeliners here. You have to be careful. Some, don’t let anyone discover your true identity.” I whispered to her on the way back from school, and seeing Yuantai and the others running wildly in front of me, she murmured: “Look at them, they are smiling so happily It's nice to be able to smile so carefree."

"... Huiyuan?"

"Is it really coming to an end... To be honest, I haven't lived enough of this kind of life..." Her eyes dimmed.

"You don't have to worry too much, didn't I tell you? You just need to play the role of this little devil well. No matter what, others won't pay attention to an elementary school student who is still in school." I pretended to be relaxed and comforted looking at her.

She didn't speak.The atmosphere was a little awkward.

"Don't worry," I tried to break the atmosphere, but I didn't know how to comfort her, so I could only tell her about the deployment situation, "We also have a lot of undercover agents in the organization, and almost every department is undercover. Yes, so once they have any signs of action, our people will also communicate in time."

"Oh? Undercover? About how many people?" She turned her head and asked me.

"I think there should be no less than 10 core parts, plus those small operatives who are placed at the grassroots level just in case, there should be a lot." Over the years, I have not been patient all the time, but I have always been patient. Enter. The FBI incident made me realize that there may be many international security organizations that have noticed the existence of the organization and sent spies.Akai and I have been in contact with various organizations, hoping to join forces with them. In this way, we have already connected a huge spy network in the organization, and we are only waiting to annihilate the organization in one fell swoop.

"That's it..." She didn't say anything more, she seemed to be thinking, and suddenly she said, "Then, don't you suspect that our side is also planted by the organization? Like me?"

"Ha, ha" I laughed helplessly, "How come, this joke is not funny at all, Hui Yuan, how could it be you."

"Well, forget it, seeing that you are so nervous, help you relax." She showed a proud Queen Fan indifferently.

Please, I am obviously the one who tried to ease your mind because I saw you were nervous.I feel helpless in my heart, this woman, I really can't figure it out.

Wu Yan walked for a while, and when she was about to reach the parting intersection, she suddenly asked me: "Kudou, if one day I suddenly disappeared and returned to the organization, what would you do?"

"Grey Yuan?"

"If, I say," she dropped her voice, "I like you, what would you do?"

I was stunned.This guy……

interval of a few seconds.

"Seeing the shock on your face, you have already been fooled by the first joke once, and you still fell for it. Your brain doesn't seem to be very bright today, big detective~"

I smiled awkwardly.

"Then, see you tomorrow, Edogawa." She waved goodbye.

"Ah? Oh, see you tomorrow." I didn't recover for a moment.

This guy, shouldn't he be aware of something?I walked on the road and kicked away the stones on the road, but after thinking about it, this guy always likes to joke, and her bad personality seems to be the same as before, and has not changed.

It was only later that I heard from the doctor that the temporary antidote to APTX hadn't left her side since that day.

That guy has always been sensitive to organizations, otherwise he wouldn't have noticed the existence of people from the organization so quickly in the mall that day, and he wouldn't have chosen to sacrifice himself to protect everyone.

She was taken away by the organization.

With Gin's ruthless means, I can't imagine what she will face after being captured and brought back to the organization as a traitor.I've even thought about letting her "get the job done" by uncovering one of our spies in the organization, and maybe they'll let her go.Emotions overcome reason, I hope she is well, I hope she doesn't have an accident, I hope she lives in peace.I am willing to pay any price. People always know how to cherish after losing. Before, it was nothing to accompany each other every day. After she left, I realized that being with her for several years has become an inseparable part of my life. This feeling grows slowly in the bottom of my heart.

It's just that when I figured out the reason for that feeling, it was too late, and she left me forever.

The doubts buried in his heart were finally solved, by his behavior of accompanying the man to death.Everyone was sleepless that night, busy with the rest of the organization, almost no time to be sad.I tried my best not to let myself rest, because I would think of that sad thing when I was free.

When I got home early the next morning, I saw Lan's tired face. She told me that the child hadn't slept all night and kept crying, and it was useless to coax her.I took her from her hand and heard her crying hoarse, and the sad things accumulated in my heart poured out like a bank burst.The hoarse cries of the children in the house were particularly stern, and we were relatively speechless. When we were really sad, we couldn’t shed tears or express our sadness. Everything was too heavy, and the price we paid was too painful.

Akai knocked on my door.

The two sat quietly, neither of them had the strength to speak first. He had vowed to protect the two sisters, but they left him one after another.After half a day, he finally spoke.

"Perhaps we should respect her decision."

"..."

"This is also a good place for her."

"..."

"You haven't been in the organization yourself, so you may not know what she does. Anyway, I have watched her struggle to survive in the organization."

"..."

"She shouldn't continue to live with these burdens. Such a life is already too heavy."

"..."

"She and Mingmei are sisters, and their determination to protect someone is the same. It's the same to be selfless for the one you love."

"If Gin is caught and sentenced to death, how do you want her to live on her own?"

"..."

"Actually, you should know that you can't give her any results, even though she likes you so much and is willing to give everything for you. You won't give up Mao Lilan for her, will you?"

"..."

"Probably, she didn't want to embarrass you."

……

Many autumns passed, we graduated, got married, and had children of our own.Lan was a good wife and a good mother.As she wished, we are happy and our life is very stable.Time passes peacefully on peaceful days.If time can slowly heal the pain, what about the past?What about memory?Will they all be scattered in the wind like quicksand?At that time, I stood in front of their tombstone, took my two children, and went to sweep their graves together.It's another fall.Fallen leaves, blue sky, everything is the same as that late autumn a few years ago, but people's hearts have long been different.

Sometimes looking at her daughter is like seeing her. The disdainful or arrogant expression that the daughter showed inadvertently was exactly the same as her at that time. In my memory, she broke into me with such an indifferent expression. life, changed my destiny.The woman on the stele is smiling like a flower in the photo. She gave me all the happy endings and chose to face death by herself.Her smile will always stay at the age of 20, stay in that eventful autumn, and always stay in my heart.