[Comprehensive] Obsessive-compulsive disorder

The work efficiency of Tsuji Wabijiu can be said to be quite high. At noon the next day, I handed over the completed household registration to Kazama, and changed shifts with my colleagues, and took Kazama to the housing agency to book a three-month rental house , can be called vigorous and resolute.

When Kazama and Tsuji Wabiji’s girlfriend Bai Xuelizi were shopping for supplies in the supermarket, she couldn’t help but sigh with emotion: “It’s so fast.” Bai Xuerizi smiled: “Because it’s Wabijiu-kun, and his mobility He's very strong! And he's smart! He's also handsome!" Seeing Bai Xuelizi start talking, Kazama hastily interrupted her blatant show of affection: "How long has Miss Bai Xue been with him? See It sounds very familiar, are you a childhood sweetheart?" It's better to change the subject.

"It's not a childhood sweetheart either." Bai Xuelizi waved her hand, she seemed to recall something, her smile became warmer, "However, I did meet Wabijiu-kun when I was young, and that's why I want to see him He can be with him now."

I saw it when I was a child, and then I have been looking for Tsuji Wabi to save me?Kazama was a little surprised, thought for a while and asked in a low voice: "Is Miss Bai Xue the one who knows about the sweeper?" "Yes." Bai Xuelizi admitted, "I was the first person saved by him."

"I grew up in a single-parent family, and my mother has been abusing me since I was a child." As if recalling the pain, Bai Xuelizi pressed her arm, and her smile faded - but she soon became happy again, "Then Wabi Saver came to save me!"

This "save" means "kill the mother", right?Kazama was startled, she had never experienced maternal love, and therefore longed for maternal love, so when she heard such facts, she was inevitably puzzled.But she didn't express her feelings, she just smiled and said, "It's like the prince who rescued the princess from the dragon." "That's right!" Bai Xuelizi was also very happy.

After saying goodbye to Bai Xuelizi and returning to the temporarily rented hut with his things, Kazama exhaled, leaning his back against the door and asked, "Gangji, do you think she is happy?" "Her happiness is definitely not It’s fake.” Tsunaki replied in the affirmative.

"Even if your relatives are killed, sometimes you are happy..." Kazama put down the shopping bag in his hand, and pressed his palm against his forehead, "What kind of abuse did Miss Bai Xue's mother do to make others feel happy?" Can't stand it anymore, seek help from the killer?"

This world, isn't it too strange?Why do so many bad things happen?Can only end with death?

Kazama didn't say this, but Tsuna was very aware of her confusion, and after thinking about it, he said: "These things also exist in our world, but you haven't seen them. It's better Say, you should be very clear about it."

Kazama quickly understood what Tsunayoshi's last sentence meant, and couldn't help but laugh: "That's right, obviously I have also experienced being traded as goods... I just don't understand the definition of family affection. Now it has become What's it like..."

She was close to muttering to herself, but Gang Ji didn't answer, but just listened quietly.Kazama fell silent, and asked suddenly after a few minutes: "Even if I kill someone, can I still bring a smile like Miss Bai Xue's to others?"

"It's definitely possible." Gang Ji replied, "There are always two sides to things, and you have to see the good side."

Kazama paused: "Is this the solution to the material essay question I taught you last time?"

"That's right, Granu was still a senior at that time." Tsunaji replied seriously.

"Well, you've put what you've learned into practice. Well, I'm going to get busy, and I'll do it tomorrow!" Kazama picked up the shopping bag again, went to the living room to put it down, and started to tidy up, and encouraged himself in his heart: No She has to face the problem.

It is not difficult to find Kazuma Takamura. The tasks assigned by the World Sweeping Agency will take into account the location of each sweeper, which is also more convenient.For children, it is more strange to run far away to kill people, but the nearby places will be more familiar.

Kazama first came to the university where Gaocunhezhen was studying, and stayed near the teaching building of the department for two days, and then he got a good idea of ​​Gaocunhezhen's action rules.Just looking at this, she really couldn't imagine that Kazuma Kazuma would be that kind of person.At 06:30 in the morning, I will come to the school from time to time, run in the morning with friends from the club, then go to the teaching building after breakfast, and go to the library to study after lunch, and occasionally I will be called by the teacher to help.

During the day, there is no problem at all-but at night, Takamura Kazuma becomes another person.

After saying goodbye to his friends, he went to a different hotel to get money from the woman he blackmailed. Once the amount was insufficient, he would beat and scold him, and then spend the money cursingly. Kazama couldn't believe that the same person could have such Two completely opposite faces.

"How are you going to kill him?" Tsuna asked calmly, and Kazama flipped through the illustrated book: "Use a gun."

What appeared in her hand was the CZ75 commonly used by Li Baoen, which Tsuna is very familiar with. Kazama weighed the gun and said with a smile: "This is the first gun Li Baoen taught me to use, and it is easier to use. I’m a little familiar, but this is a specially developed type that can use dead energy flame bullets, and when it hits, the shell of the bullet will shatter, and then the dead energy flame wrapped inside will enter the human body.”

"Special round?" Tsuna raised his eyebrows, it sounded similar to the dead air rounds and critical rounds he had used.

Kazama shook his head: "Li Baoen told me about the special bomb, but this is simply capable of containing the flame of death energy. If you don't have a firm belief, people who don't have the attribute of the flame of death energy will be injected with the flame of death energy. After that, you will die."

Tsuna recalled for a moment, Li Baoen really said that at the beginning... It's just that Li Baoen only used it on Sasakawa Leoping at the beginning, and hit him at other times, and Sasakawa Leoping also has Qing attribute, he didn't think much about it.

Now it seems that it has become a very suitable tool for assassinating Kazama.The bloodless way of killing... is also good.

"Then just pick a suitable timing." Kazama picked up the gun and tried to aim at the thumbtack on the wall. Sound, still avoid the crowd."

Of course, the more important thing was that she didn't want to expose herself, nor did she want to have witnesses.

The way to finally kill Takamura Kazuma is surprisingly simple.Kazama just lay in ambush on Gaocunhezhen's way home after being drunk late at night. After about two days in ambush, when Gaocunhezhen was leaning on the wall to vomit, he decisively shot him in the body, not even aiming at the head.

The bullet casings fell to the ground and shattered into a handful of powder. Kazama stared at the powder for a while, then turned and left without much thought.It will definitely not be associated with a shooting, because of the dead flames, there are no bullet marks on Gaocun Kazuma's body at all.He vomited so hard that he would only be identified as the cause of death such as alcoholism, and that little flame of death would also disappear after Kazuma Kazuma's physiological functions disappeared.

So even if someone noticed the pinch of powder, they would only think it was crushed garbage on the road and would not think too much about it.

Back at the residence, Kazama was still very calm. He took out the sandwich from the refrigerator and threw it into the microwave to heat it up. When he bit into the sandwich, tears suddenly burst out.Gang Ji is still in Kazama's clothes pocket, if not face to face, I don't know what's going on with her at all.It's just that the silent atmosphere made him feel uncomfortable, so he opened his mouth and said, "San Tang, are you okay now?"

Kazama's tone was very calm, she couldn't hear that she was crying at all, and she still had food in her mouth, so that her speech was a little vague-normal vagueness, and it was impossible to think that the person who was speaking had already cried twice. Both hands were covered with water marks: "It's okay, I'm just hungry."

In fact, she didn't understand why she was crying. When she shot, she didn't even feel nervous at all. Her hands were steady and her mind was clear.She knew she was killing people, but she didn't feel her actions were wrong, she didn't feel guilty.

The problem lies in the concepts she has always accepted and the character she has developed. None of them tell her: "You can kill people." She is not a real victim of Gaocunhe, but just accepted such a task.Just because of that, is she justified in killing people?Her actions did save those suffering girls, but she didn't know them at all before. Did she really kill them out of the idea of ​​saving them?

She hated being in this situation, and hated herself for having to, as if forced to do something.She felt that this was because she was first stuffed with the cognition of "you are going to kill someone", and then continued to accept other cognitions in order to find reasons for herself who accepted this cognition.For example, "Because that person is a bad person", or "Because killing him will save someone".

Without those reasons, it is absolutely impossible for her to kill someone.If there was no mission, she wouldn't even have the idea of ​​killing... No, she still would, because she had already joined Vongola, and as a mafia, she had to be exposed to these things, either she or someone else.

Kazama swallowed the food in his mouth, and took another bite of the sandwich.

This is the path she chose, so no matter how difficult it is, she will go on. The question is, is that really the path she is willing to choose?

If at that time she was not facing Li Baoen, but Gang Ji, she must have thought about how far she could run, right?Even if you panic at first, after a long time, you will think that "such a big man won't like a small citizen like me", and then live with peace of mind.

She was even very sure that if the person she was facing was Gang Ji, he would not see that there was something wrong with her, but would only think that she was more vigilant.Whether it is the fact of rebirth or the existence of the illustrated book, she will not reveal it.

But the person she was facing was Li Baoen.It wasn't until this moment that she dug out the thoughts in her head and was willing to admit her original fear.That man, from the moment he appeared, seemed to be able to lead people into another dark world.

She escaped like that in her previous life, and she escaped like that in this life. Having experienced human nature, even though she could only see a little bit of the man named "Li Baoen" standing in front of her at that time, it was enough to make her give up. The darkness of resistance.

So she made a choice, choosing the former between "voluntary acceptance" and "forced acceptance".At least in this way, Bao En would feel that she was sensible—he was indeed satisfied, so he never let her see the slightest darkness afterwards.

All the time, all the time, she pretended that nothing happened, and she seemed to have forgotten those things.However, when she killed herself today, she suddenly couldn't bear it for some reason, so it turned into a rejection of these things attached to her.

She was forced to accept various cognitions, so in order not to let herself collapse because of these cognitions, she tried every means to convince herself.As long as this is the case, she can continue to live, because those are "acceptable" things.

It was as if she originally had infinite space, but she kept adding cages to herself, and finally trapped herself, and comforted herself by saying that this was normal. She had such a large space for movement before, but she misunderstood it.

"I'm full." Kazama said to Tsunayoshi, his tone still calm as if nothing happened.

From the beginning to the end, she never took the phone out of her pocket.

She knows that Gang Ji can be relied on, and she firmly believes that meeting Gang Ji is the happiest thing for her.

But at this moment, she really couldn't face Gang Ji - she must look extremely ugly and disgusting now.Obviously I don't have a firm belief, and I am obviously regretting it, but I have to find all kinds of reasons for myself and push all the responsibility to external factors.

Despicable, ordinary, cowardly, pathetic, arrogant, arrogant... She doesn't want this kind of herself to be exposed in front of the person she likes.

It's just a coward trying to be brave, slapping his swollen face to pretend to be fat, which is ridiculous.

Negative emotions washed Kazama's mind over and over again, like sulfuric acid, corroding until a big hole was broken in his heart.

"Is there anything that can patch this hole?" A faint voice seemed to be calling.

Who made that sound?I don't know, maybe... it's "someone" who is still begging for "something".

"Santo Kazama, let me see your face."

Unprecedented tough words spread into the ears like this.

The author has something to say: This chapter echoes the first few chapters. Some people have always said that I was too brainless in the first few chapters.

Actually no, she has always been just the crying child locked in a dark cabinet.

She wants to escape, hoping that someone can open the cabinet to help her, she can be afraid and cowardly.

This is obviously a matter of course, the problem is that no one shows up, she can only choose to force herself in despair.

However, now there is one, the person she had hoped for, appeared by her side.