Bite Your Fingertips

In the cramped narrow alleys, even the moonlight could not shine in.Through Lu Shi's eyes, Chu Yu seemed to be able to see the endless pain trapped in a square inch.

He grabbed Lu Shi's wrist and removed his hand that was holding his chin.

His chin hurt a little from being pinched, and his skin was probably red too.Chu Yu didn't take this into consideration, and raised his arms to hug Lu Shi actively.In this posture, his teeth bit into Lu Shi's shoulder.

The force is heavy and the bite is deep.

The blood was sucked into his mouth and swallowed down his throat. Chu Yu let the blood stick to his lips and smiled when he looked directly at Lu, "If you think your blood is dirty, then I sucked so much of your blood. It's already dirty like you."

"So, do you feel better?"

Chu Yu didn't take Lu Shi back to school, smelling of alcohol all over his body, it was not a good thing to be bumped into by caring people.

After hailing a taxi, Chu Yu helped him to Qingchuan Road.

The weather is cold, especially at night, and the wind is so cold that even a sweater can't stop it. Qingchuan Road is quiet and there are no people there.The street lights have not been repaired, some are still on, some are not.

Chu Yu walked a few steps, then turned around to look, not because he was afraid of people following behind him, but mainly because he was afraid of ghosts.

After finally putting the person down on the bed in the bedroom, Chu Yu stood by the bed and took out his mobile phone to search, how to take care of a drunk person.

"Drink a lot of water, sugar water, light tea, mung bean soup, tomato juice..."

Chu Yu ran to the kitchen, rummaged through the boxes, but couldn't find a handful of rice. If there were mice in the house, he would starve to death.

There is not even a spoonful of white sugar, let alone tea, mung beans, and tomatoes.

"You can't lie on your back, you have to lie on your side..."

Going back to the bedroom, putting the phone aside, Chu Yu rubbed his hands together, bent over in a gait, and put his hands on Lu Shi's back, ready to exert force.

But he didn't want to, Lu Shi put his hand on the back of his hand, and then held his four fingers, "Don't make trouble."

The voice was hoarse, like strong wine.

Chu Yu collected his strength and squatted quietly beside the bed, holding Lu Shi with his left hand and propping his chin with his right hand.

He looked at Lu Shi's tightly closed eyes, sharp eyebrows, and the sharp jaw line of the young man, and was fascinated.

The skin on the side of the neck was hot, and it seemed to be still stained with tears from landing.

His mind was full of questions, but they were all mixed together, so he didn't know what to ask.

If I have to say it, I just feel...very distressed.

What should Lu Shi be like?

It should be in school, with the best grades, praised by teachers, and looked up to by classmates.It was on Qingchuan Road, they were never relentless in beating people, and few people dared to provoke them.Or on the track, with the scenery outside the car window turned into a phantom as a foil.

Instead of leaning on his shoulder in the narrow and dark alley, silently, restrained fiercely, not allowing anyone to see him crying.

But maybe everyone is like this?

What others see is glamorous.But the inside, which outsiders can't see through, has already become a weed.It's like when others see him as the most favored young master of the Chu family.

In this world, there has never been a real empathy.

Lu Shi felt like he was dreaming.

He seems to have turned into the same child, wearing a school uniform and carrying a schoolbag to go home.

Pushing open the iron gate, a few flower clippers were scattered in the garden, the Lu family mansion was silent, no one could be seen, not even a breath of wind.

He took the report card, pushed open the door, passed the empty living room, and ran up the stairs.thud thud thump, up and down, in and out, the only echo was his own footsteps.

Passing by a closed door, a strange sound was suddenly heard.Panting and screaming, like thick mucus, seeping out from the crack of the door, dirtying the soles of his shoes.

"You're back."

Lu Shi turned his head, and saw a woman standing in the deep corridor.The woman's face was hidden in the dark, and her expression could not be seen clearly.

Feeling happy, Lu Shi stopped paying attention to the mucus under his feet, turned around and ran towards the woman, and said excitedly, "Mom, look, I won the first place again!"

The woman wore a luxurious evening gown and said bitterly, "Little bastard, did you hear that, your father has other women, and brought those whores home to hang out again! Why does he keep going over and over again?" Why can't you control yourself? Lu Shi, the blood flowing from your body is really dirty and disgusting."

The light coming in from the window dragged the woman's shadow long.The black figure continued to elongate and grow bigger, like a terrifying monster hiding in the dark, stretched out its sharp claws, and grabbed at Lu Shi.

Holding the report card in his hand, Lu Shi backed away in a hurry, his voice seemed to be stuck in his throat, "Get out, don't touch me, get out, get out—"

Calling for help and struggling had no effect, Lu Shi was drawn into the shadows, and the next second, he was thrown into the river again.

The water was bitingly cold, and it was so dark that the sky could not be seen. He seemed to be trapped in a box, and he could only let himself sink and sink again——

"Lu Shi!"

Lu Shi suddenly opened his eyes.

He saw Chu Yu standing by the bed, his pupils shrank slightly, as if he was looking at something terrible, his eyes were strange.

At this moment, Lu Shi felt that he was like a dirty monster whose exquisite skin had been ripped apart.

His dark thoughts, those dark pasts, were all spread out and exposed to the scorching sun.

Feeling dizzy, he rested his wrist on his brow bone, covering his eyes.

Lu Shi thought, if you want to leave, just leave, he never expected that such a self could keep people by his side all the time.

Happiness never lasts for a moment, and from the very beginning, one should not be greedy.

Because half of his face was covered by his arm, Chu Yu couldn't see Lu Shi's expression clearly.

Thinking of Lu Shi's pale face when he woke up just now, he tentatively asked, "Lu Shi, do you want... hot water? I'll pour it for you."

No answer was heard.

Chu Yu struggled in place for two seconds, walked out of the bedroom, and went to pour a glass of water.

"Well... I saw it said on the Internet that drinking more water will make you feel better." Chu Yu's heart was beating a little fast, and he had nothing to say, "I don't know if it's true, do you want to try it?"

Still no response.

Chu Yu also has a young master's temper.With Lu Shi's obviously uncooperative and unresponsive attitude, he didn't bother to hold the water glass stupidly anymore.

He casually put the water glass on the table, but he didn't leave. He took off his shoes and went to bed, straddled Lu Shi's waist, held Lu Shi's wrist, squeezed it away, and said in a fierce and anxious tone, "Speak if you have something to do." , if you are not happy, you are not happy, what kind of autistic and decadent are you playing?"

He cried when he thought of Lu, his heart was a little soft, and his tone was also soft, "Did you just have a nightmare? What did you dream about? I called you several times, but you couldn't wake up. I heard Aunt Lan say that I did it." Nightmare, just say it."

Chu Yu's tone was soft, like coaxing a child, "Really, I won't lie to you, I won't be afraid if I tell you."

Lu Shi opened his eyes and looked at Chu Yu, his pupils were as dark as a deep pool.

Chu Yu continued his efforts and used Lu Shi's tricks to coax him, "Or, do you want to hug him?"

When Lu didn't speak, Chu Yu took it as his acquiescence, leaned over, put his wrist around his neck when he landed, rubbed his head against his head, and hugged him.

Holding his breath and concentrating, it wasn't until Lu Shi put his hand on his back that the tension in Chu Yu's heart was relaxed by two points.

Lu Shi's ears were very close, Chu Yu asked in a low voice, "Lu Shi, what's wrong with you?"

"Would you like to tell me? I'll help you keep it a secret, just like you help me keep the secret that I'm a blood-sucking little monster, and I'll help you keep it a secret, okay?"

Maybe it was because of being poked by the "little monster", or, Lu Shi could no longer bear the weight of the truth alone because he was struggling alone for too long.

He said with a dry voice, "They all told me that my mother was pregnant with me shortly after she got married. Later she died of dystocia, and she died after giving birth to me."

Chu Yu didn't dare to intervene, and secretly guessed that "they" should refer to Lu Shi's father, his strange stepmother, or, Lu Shi's grandfather.

Died of dystocia, is that why Lu Shi felt that he killed his biological mother?

"But by chance, I knew another possibility. She didn't die of dystocia, but was killed."

Chu Yu's heart shuddered.

Lu Shi's voice was hoarse, without any obvious emotion.

"I hired a private detective, and I have been investigating the events of the year and wanted to ask for evidence. After a long time of investigation, I finally found some small details of the past.

When she gave birth to me, she was alone and recovered well.I was carried back to Lu's house without a full term, and she was given the title of 'dying in childbirth'.I didn't even know she existed until last year. "

"I always thought that Fang Weiyun was my biological mother."

Chu Yu's breath stagnates.

In just a few sentences, it makes people shudder.

Lu Shi closed his eyes again.

He was once trapped in a nightmare day and night, and every night, he heard his biological mother crying, complaining, and hating.

Her own son, year after year, called his enemy "Mom" affectionately, humbly fawning and pleasing.

He fell into the nightmare and the abyss, torturing himself every moment, in exchange for half a second of happiness.

He wanted revenge, but he had nowhere to go.It's like being stuck in a swamp, struggling to stagger, sinking too deep, and can't turn back.He didn't even think about turning back.

Those damned people should have died long ago.

It took Chu Yu a long time to recover.

He wanted to comfort him, but he was at a loss for words, so he had no choice but to keep his mouth shut.

At this time, all comfort seems futile and pale.

Chu Yu lay next to Lu Shi, staring at the ceiling, silently putting together the details in his mind.

According to Lu Shi, his biological mother gave birth to him by herself, and not long after, he was snatched back by the Lu family.His biological mother should have been killed at that time.

People from the Lu family kept telling Lu Shi that he was Fang Weiyun's child.After Lu Shi exposed this lie, he changed his rhetoric and told Lu Shi that his biological mother died of dystocia.

It is estimated that a lot of words were made up to whitewash it.

Chu Yu thought about it again, only to feel cold all over his body.

I don't know when, it started to rain outside the window.Chu Yu was awakened from his thoughts, and sat up with his arms propped up on the bed, "I, I'm going to close the window."

He stepped on the floor barefoot, his feet numb from the cold.

The wind was a little strong, and the draft paper on the desk was rattled.

From the corner of his eyes, Chu Yu caught a glimpse of the sharp handwriting on the paper. It was a poem. He had read Lu Shi's writing before, and even looked it up specially. The poem was "Xijiang Moon Slow".

It's not the first time he's seen it.

There was a sudden "thump" in his heart, Chu Yu lay back on the bed again, and asked hesitantly, "Those words—"

"That's my mother's name, and her name is Jiang Yueman."

He once wrote these words over and over again, one stroke at a time.

Just to let myself not forget for a moment.