Do not lie to me

Shang Xuechen stirred the leftover instant noodle soup in the carton with a plastic fork, and occasionally pretended to glance at Ji Shuping casually. When he looked away, he couldn't help but start to slander, what, how can someone eat instant noodles so dignifiedly.

Ji Shuping saw Shang Xuechen who was scratching his ears and cheeks next to him, and thought he couldn't leave him alone anymore.Putting down the instant noodles in his hand, he took out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped Shang Xuechen's hands, "Don't mix it up, your hands are full of oil."

Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shuping who was wiping his hands with his head down, and couldn't help calling his name, "Ji Shuping."

Ji Shuping didn't respond, but still seriously guessed his hand, and said to Shang Xuechen after wiping and put away the handkerchief, "Let's go. Go out and find a table to sit, so that we can see when Qi Liang will be free."

Seeing that Ji Shuping was about to get up, Shang Xuechen reached out to grab him and called him, "Shuping."

Ji Shuping turned around and looked back at Shang Xuechen who was still sitting on the sofa.Shang Xuechen looked up at him, then lowered his head again.Ji Shuping didn't speak, just reached out and touched the top of his head.

When Shang Xuechen touched the top of his head, his nose started to turn sour. He lowered his head and said, "Shu Ping, is it too much for me to ask you this way? In order to relieve Qi Liang, I ask you to explain Wen Ting's situation to him. A large part of the suicide is because of your broken appointment. What am I? Let you take responsibility. You are my lover, how can I push you out?" Shang Xuechen looked up at him, "Forget it Right. You are the one I love. You are the one I should protect the most. I shouldn’t push you out. Shuping, let’s stop here today. I think Qi Liang is also very busy, how about we let's go."

Ji Shuping stretched out his hand to caress his face, and rubbed the corners of his eyes with his thumbs, where there was moisture, and he saw that there was a little water in Shang Xuechen's eyes.Ji Shuping was actually happy, glad that he thought this way, glad that he regretted himself.Ji Shuping squatted down in front of him, wrapped his hands around Shang Xuechen's, looked into his eyes and said, "But this is the truth, isn't it?"

Shang Xuechen looked at him.That's right, because of Ji Shuping's broken appointment, Wen Ting delayed her chance to escape, and after being captured, she lost all hope and jumped off the building.Maybe before he died, he thought of Qi Liang's guilt, so he begged for forgiveness, saying that he was apologizing, which was more like saying goodbye.Shang Xuechen closed his eyes and shook his head, "Even so, it's not your fault. It shouldn't be Qi Liang's fault either. It was she who met the beast, why didn't the beast come to reflect, and the rest of the passers-by Do you want to condemn yourself? If you have to say it, it's our family's fault, if it wasn't for my dad who tied you up, if it wasn't for uncle..."

Ji Shuping watched Shang Xuechen talk more and more shortness of breath, and his mood became unstable. He hooked Shang Xuechen to let him lean into his arms, patted his back with one hand, and comforted him softly with the other hand, "It's not your fault, it's not It's your fault. None of us is wrong, I know you are worried about me. I'm not going to take responsibility alone, I'm just going to tell him the part that Qi Liang doesn't know. "

Shang Xuechen held his breath, closed his eyes and leaned on Ji Shuping's shoulder, "Isn't it my fault?"

"Yeah." Ji Shuping patted him on the back, "Neither of us is wrong, the kidnapping is an entanglement of their previous generation, and has nothing to do with us. You just asked me to state a fact to Qi Liang."

Shang Xuechen got up and looked at him, "If you don't want to mention the past, then let's go now."

Ji Shuping looked at him, took his hand and said, "Things back then were not so terrible to me. Didn't we meet again?"

Meet again?Shang Xuechen looked puzzled, Ji Shuping glanced at him with a smile, got up and took his hand, "Let's go. Go out and sit for a while."

Shang Xuechen was pulled up by him, followed Ji Shuping to find a casual table and sat down, just in time to see Qi Liang's busy figure.

Qi Liang looked like he was going to go to the back, and it seemed that he was going to get ice.Ji Shuping glanced at Shang Xuechen, "He's gone to get some ice. There shouldn't be many people in the backcourt. I'll go over and talk to him."

Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shuping worriedly, and Ji Shuping squeezed his hand hard to reassure him with his eyes.Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shuping's back when he was chasing Qi Liang, and took a deep breath, hoping nothing unexpected would happen.Just as he thought so, an unexpected situation came up, the boy who entered the door and jumped from behind and wanted to throw him down saw the timing and sat on Shang Xuechen's table.

Qi Liang went to the freezer to fill a bucket of ice, and when he came out, he saw Ji Shuping waiting at the exit.Qi Liang lowered his eyes first, and when he was about to bow his head in embarrassment, he raised his head bravely after thinking about it.

"I have something to ask you."

"I have something to tell you."

Because the two spoke at the same time, Qi Liang was taken aback for a moment, but still lowered his head and walked forward with the ice bucket in his arms.When passing by Ji Shuping, he stopped and asked him, "What do you want to tell me?"

In fact, Qi Liang thought a little bit about what Ji Shuping wanted to tell him, and it was nothing more than to stop pestering Shang Xuechen.

"Wenting. It's about Wenting."

This was unexpected to Qi Liang, Qi Liang looked up at Ji Shuping in surprise, "Do you know Wen Ting?"

Ji Shuping nodded, "I knew her when she came out."

"She came out?" Qi Liang heard it for the first time. He only knew that he rarely saw Wen Ting during the days when he was bullied. He thought it was Wen Ting who didn't want to get involved with him. went.Qi Liang looked up at Ji Shuping, and suddenly felt that he looked familiar, "Did I meet you somewhere? And Wen Ting, why did she come out?"

"When I was looking for Shang Xuechen, I happened to see you throwing him on the sofa." Although Ji Shuping had met Qi Liang before that, Qi Liang was Ji Shuping who happened to see him at that time. "As for why Wen Ting came out, she ran away to raise money."

Qi Liang looked at Ji Shuping and thought, so they met at that time.Regarding Wen Ting, Qi Liang lowered his head and sighed. He knew that Wen Ting's life was difficult, but he didn't expect it to be so difficult at that time.Qi Liang felt even more guilty towards Wen Ting in his heart. He looked up at Ji Shuping anxiously as if he had thought of something, and asked him anxiously, "You know Wen Ting, but you are with Shang Xuechen. It's because Wen Ting told you about What about me? You saw me throwing Shang Xuechen down, so you used Xuechen to take revenge on me?!"

Qi Liang attributed Wen Ting's suicide to his reluctance to save Wen Ting when she was captured by her stepfather, and he did not say a word of forgiveness to Wen Ting until the end.He thought that Ji Shuping must have pretended to accept Shang Xuechen in order to help Wenting take revenge on him.Xuechen must have felt so guilty towards him because of the kidnapping, that he was toyed with by him, that's right, that must be the case, otherwise how could he explain the entanglement between them?Qi Liang doesn't have good love, so naturally he doesn't believe in good love between others.

"No." Ji Shuping replied with certainty, "Wen Ting didn't tell me about you, and she didn't even tell me about her family. I have nothing to do with Shang Xuechen and anyone else. ...just because the two of us want to be together, to be together."

Qi Liang looked at Ji Shuping in a daze, seeing how he answered so firmly, "Then why did you come here and tell me about Wen Ting?"

"It was Shang Xuechen who asked me to explain to you. He said that he hoped that others could have their own happiness like him, and he hoped that you could start over properly." When Ji Shuping thought of Shang Xuechen, the expression on his face was always uneasy. Consciously became softer, "He knows that Wen Ting's matter is your knot. I just came to tell you that you don't have to blame yourself too much. Back then, Wen Ting and I were in a relationship. I learned about her escape plan and wanted her to take her away. Fuck me. I made an appointment to escape, but I was kidnapped."

Ji Shuping paused at this point, and Qi Liang understood to help him connect, "Did Xuechen's father kidnap you?"

Ji Shuping nodded, "The situation back then was very complicated. I almost died in that kidnapping, but he actually saved me. Whether it was dragging me out of that basement physically, or dragging me out of that basement psychologically, out."

Qi Liang listened to Ji Shuping's words in silence, and what he saw was an involuntary smile on his face, and he remembered that he had seen this smile before.When I was at the playground, I saw Shang Xuechen's face.

"Before the kidnapping, Wen Ting asked me to run away. I went back to her and waited. But she didn't know that I had been kidnapped in the next few days. She sent a text message telling me to run away. Waiting for me at the agreed place, but I didn't show up. I think this should have dealt a big blow to her."

Qi Liang understood that he saw Wen Ting in that alley. It was probably the day Wen Ting asked someone to run away. Unfortunately, she didn't wait for the person she wanted to wait for, but her stepfather came and took her back.Qi Liang lifted the ice bucket in his arms and was about to go to the front court, "Thank Xuechen for me, he is a good man."

Ji Shuping saw that Qi Liang left behind the non-painful words, frowned and followed Qi Liang, "So you don't have to blame yourself too much for Wen Ting's death."

Qi Liang walked with his head down, "I see."

Ji Shuping held him back, "You don't know!"

Qi Liang stopped in shock from Ji Shuping's yelling, and stared blankly at Ji Shuping.

Ji Shuping knew that he had lost his composure, so he withdrew his hand and cleared his throat, "He wants you to start over."

Qi Liang's complexion improved slightly, "Well, I'm working hard on this matter."

"Don't appear in front of Shang Xuechen again."

Qi Liang looked up at Ji Shuping in surprise as if he couldn't understand what he said.

Ji Shuping turned his head expressionlessly to look at Shang Xuechen who was sitting on the stage talking with someone, he frowned deeply, because the person Shang Xuechen was talking at this moment was coming up from behind when he entered the door That person from Shang Xuechen.

"What do you mean? Are you threatening me?" Qi Liang asked him timidly.

Ji Shuping still looked at Shang Xuechen, "I'm not threatening you, I'm asking for your help. At least you should not appear in front of Shang Xuechen for a while."

"Can I help?" Qi Liang still couldn't understand what Ji Shuping meant.

Ji Shuping sighed, he still can't separate himself to go to Shang Xuechen's side to drive away the people who haunt him.Ji Shuping turned to look at Qi Liang, and said to him seriously, "I like fireworks very much."

The expression on Qi Liang's face became even more puzzled.

"I also want to watch the fireworks with my lover. Under such a gorgeous scene, I feel blessed. Because the fireworks are grand, everyone will stop and watch for a while when they see the fireworks. Everything promised is beautiful."

Qi Liang agreed with Ji Shuping's words.

"However, from now on, I may not be able to experience such a scene. Because my lover can't watch the fireworks."

Qi Liang half understood and turned his head to look at Shang Xuechen who was smiling not far away, "Xuechen, what's wrong with him?"

"He was traumatized by the kidnapping. There was an explosion and he couldn't look at the flashes, he couldn't watch the fireworks."

how so?In such a bad situation back then, he actually made things worse for Shang Xuechen.Qi Liang was afraid to look at Shang Xuechen's smiling face, "I don't know."

"He didn't say anything to anyone. It seemed that he had seen a doctor for a while, but he refused to see a doctor because he felt that the treatment was not effective. Later, he used alcohol to deal with all kinds of people to numb himself."

"I thought... I thought he was hating me."

"He didn't hate you, nor did he blame you. So please let him go and yourself. As long as you don't appear in front of him for the time being, he has been sleeping more and more badly recently, although he hasn't had an aggressive attack like before. , but emotions seem to be hard to control. I'm not sure what triggered his emotional instability. The only thing I can do now is to clean up step by step. Clean up those things that will affect the relationship between me and him. So, I would like to ask you to help me not to affect his emotions for the time being. I will tell you when he is emotionally stable. At that time, I hope you can come to bless us with your new life."

Qi Liang looked up at Shang Xuechen, how painful and lonely he must have been hiding his illness all these years.He looked back at Ji Shuping again, "I see."

After finishing speaking, he turned to leave, but Ji Shuping stopped him, "What did you want to ask me just now?"

Qi Liang stopped in his tracks, he just wanted to ask Ji Shuping why.After thinking about it again and again, Qi Liang turned around and looked at Ji Shuping, "You don't care about his father kidnapping you because he saved your life? Or, because of his illness, you feel guilty towards him, so you don't care about it." ?”

Ji Shuping smiled and shook his head, "No, I just love him because he is him."

"Then have you ever blamed his father?"

"No."

Qi Liang lowered his head and muttered to himself, "Why are your forgivenesses so simple?"

But why can't I do it?

Ji Shuping took two steps forward to look at him, "It's not a question of simple or not. It's just a question of whether you want it or not. Many things are like this. As long as you think about whether you want to do it that way, any problem will suddenly become clear. .”

"But how should I think about it?"

Ji Shuping smiled, because he thought of Shang Xuechen's strange theory, "According to Shang Xuechen, from the moment you have doubts about whether to want or not, to do or not to do, in fact, the balance in your heart has already tilted towards wanting The side that does it."

Qi Liang glanced at him, turned around and walked forward holding the ice bucket tightly.From the time you start to have doubts about whether to want or not, in fact, you have a bias in your heart.He mulled over these words in his heart repeatedly, and walked out step by step.Is that so, Shen Ao?When I started to have the idea of ​​whether to try to forgive you, in fact, my heart was already biased towards the side of forgiveness.If I can forgive generously, maybe I can really start all over again.

Ji Shuping had no time to take care of Qi Liang anymore, he hurriedly turned his head to deal with the kid who was pestering Shang Xuechen again.But when he turned his head, he saw Shang Xuechen looking at him and laughing. Ji Shuping was a little angry at first, but when he saw Shang Xuechen smiling at him in the crowd from a distance, his anger dissipated.He saw Shang Xuechen tilting his head towards him while smiling, and Ji Shuping couldn't help laughing along with him.

He likes watching fireworks very much, but it doesn't matter if the person he loves can't watch fireworks with him.Ji Shuping thought, as long as he loves like himself.Ji Shuping walked forward with a smile, wanting to walk to Shang Xuechen's side through the lively crowd.

Shang Xuechen braced his head and recalled the days when he was carefree, was he so bad at handling the follow-up?He looked up at the person sitting on his table, "Why did you come back?"

The boy carefully looked around, "Where's that fierce man?"

Shang Xuechen was laughed at by him, "You said he was fierce?" He remembered that Ji Shuping, who was quite good at putting on a show, was always regarded as gentle and polite by others.

"Isn't it just fierce. You don't know that he stared at me just now, which scared me to death. How did you get involved with such a difficult person this time?"

"Get started?" Shang Xuechen smiled and shook his head. From the corner of his eye, he saw Ji Shuping who was standing on the sidelines talking with Qi Liang. He wanted to get rid of this person quickly, otherwise Ji Shuping would be a cheapskate again when he saw it, " I didn't just play casually this time, so let's go."

"Who will believe it, you never leave when you get tired of playing. How about it, do you think I can still be with you for a while? I haven't found a satisfactory bed partner recently."

Shang Xuechen anxiously turned his head to look at the person opposite, and told him seriously, "I'm serious this time. What I mean is, I'm in control, so I won't play anymore."

The person on the other side seemed to be in disbelief, and raised his eyebrows to look at him, "Is it true? What's wrong with that fierce person?"

Shang Xuechen was laughed at by him again, "He. He is good anywhere, the best thing is, he likes to watch fireworks. If he is with me, he can no longer watch fireworks. But you see, he still chooses to be with me. I'm together."

The person opposite saw Shang Xuechen's silly look, gave him a disgusted look, left without saying "crazy".

Shang Xuechen was still smirking, and said to himself, "That's right, I'm sick." After speaking, he turned his head and looked in Ji Shuping's direction.It happened that Ji Shuping also turned his head to look at him, but his expression was a little serious.

Shang Xuechen looked at it, thinking that just now someone commented on Ji Shuping as being fierce, looking at his expression now, Shang Xuechen thought he was really looking fierce.He looked at Ji Shuping with a simple smile, and seeing that Ji Shuping was still serious, he tilted his head to look at him with a teasing smile, and then Ji Shuping laughed.

That's great, this guy.Shang Xuechen looked at Ji Shuping who was smiling, got up and walked around the chaotic crowd to go to him.He saw Ji Shuping walking towards him.The people I love like to watch fireworks, but I can't watch fireworks, but that's okay.Shang Xuechen thought, one day, he would watch a grand fireworks with him.

Ji Shuping walked in front of him, and Shang Xuechen also stopped.They stopped among a group of people, and they could still hear the crowd who came to drink together, booing and urging each other to drink.Ji Shuping smiled and asked him, "Who did you talk to just now? I only left for a while, and someone posted it."

Shang Xuechen was questioned this time and neither answered back nor was he downcast, he just looked at Ji Shuping with a smile, "I told him that I already have a master."

Ji Shuping smiled and stretched out his hand to hold his hand, but Shang Xuechen didn't use the crowd as an excuse to avoid him this time.Anyway, everyone drank too much.

He put his hand between Ji Shuping's fingers, and looked at the person in front of him seriously.Silently thinking in his heart, he will definitely, he will accompany this person to watch the fireworks.