Do not lie to me

When Qi Liang drove back to his apartment downstairs, he sat in the car for a while.Qi Liang hasn't seen Shen Ao for some days, and he is not sure if he will see him in the apartment Shen Ao bought for him tonight.Qi Liang grasped the steering wheel in front of him, took a deep breath to relax himself.

If I can see him tonight.Qi Liang took a deep breath, and then let it out with a big mouth.If Shen Ao really came, what would he say?Is it really that easy to let go?

What if he didn't come?

Qi Liang let go of the steering wheel in his hands, and looked up upstairs.The room he lived in was still pitch-black, and Qi Liang remembered that if he wasn't there, Shen Ao would never turn on the light by himself.Qi Liang looked away, took two more deep breaths in the car before getting out of the car.

He got out of the car and pressed the car key in his hand. It was obviously his car, but he was still startled by the sound of the car lock.Qi Liang turned around in shock, seeing nothing but the car.Still glance around from the corner of the eye, if Shen Ao is there, he might be hiding in a corner and peeping.Thinking of this, Qi Liang couldn't help laughing at himself again, when did he know Shen Ao so well?

But Qi Liang swept the light from the corner of his eye, and then concentrated his eyes to look around carefully, but there was nothing.Not even a feral cat passing through the bushes, not even a cricket chirping on the leaves.Everything around me seemed quiet and lonely.Qi Liang turned around and glanced at the balcony of his apartment upstairs.

He clenched the car keys in his hand and walked into the corridor. The voice-activated lights in the corridor turned on in unison, as if to appease his current mood, which he couldn't tell whether it was excitement or anxiety.Qi Liang entered the elevator and reached out to press the floor.He thought maybe Shen Ao didn't come today.He hasn't been here recently, and probably won't be here in the future.When the elevator closed, the voice-activated lights outside the corridor had already gone out. Qi Liang looked at the dark corridor outside at the moment the elevator door closed and thought, when did he start looking forward to him coming?What if he doesn't come anymore?Qi Liang didn't dare to think about it. Looking at the closed elevator door, he felt a little weightlessness brought to his body by the elevator's ascent, a bit like Shen Ao's feeling when he bumped him.He didn't dare to bring himself too much about Shen Ao not coming again in the future, he only pretended to be relieved and thought, that's fine, that's fine.

If he doesn't come, the past grievances can be lost for no reason.There are so many people who come and go in this world every day, they all get together and then get separated, and this goes back and forth.You see, even the Shang Xuechen you tied up will get lost in your world from now on.It's no big deal, who hasn't come to this world alone, and left alone?You see, Wen Ting is like this.

He found all kinds of reasonable and absurd reasons to comfort himself, walked to the door of his apartment chaotically, and inserted the key into the lock.Holding the key and twisting it around, a clear "click" sound was heard in the corridor, which also awakened Qi Liang from his chaotic state.He stared blankly at the door of the apartment in front of him. Before when he opened the door, Shen Ao would squat in the entrance.He was always waiting at the entrance, and Qi Liang always pretended that no one was there and skipped directly into the living room or the kitchen, busying himself with his own affairs.In fact, he saw it, when he opened the door, Shen Ao looked up at him.Although he always put on an indifferent look, he also felt that it was good in his heart. It felt good to always have someone waiting for him at home.After all, he has no home, and he will feel scared in cold places.In the past, I wanted to be with Shen Ao, apart from torturing each other, we also got what we needed, at least he could be warmed up by Shen Ao, and when he was warmed up, the cold place in his heart could melt a little bit.

Qi Liang raised his head and stared blankly at the door of his apartment. It was obviously his usual place to live, but like a thief on the spot, he carefully pasted the cat's eye to see what was going on in the house.Too bad you can't see anything.Qi Liang turned back, still staring blankly at the door of his apartment.The moment when Shen Ao raised his eyes while squatting in the porch recurred in Qi Liang's mind, he always felt as if he had seen that expression, that look in his eyes before.After searching the memory, I found that it was not about people, but about animals.When Qi Liang felt very lonely, he once thought about raising a dog. He went to the pet shop twice, but unfortunately he didn't find the right one after the two visits.The dogs in the pet shop were all taken care of so well, when Qi Liang walked past the cages one by one, none of the dogs showed much excitement.It may be that they know that one of the people who come to see them every day will pay to take them away, so they behave peacefully and calmly.Qi Liang felt that such a dog was not suitable for him, and such a pampered dog was not suitable for his poor self.

He later went to an adoption center in the suburbs, the fur of the dogs there was not as bright as the ones in the pet shop, but when Qi Liang passed in front of them, their eyes were much brighter than the dogs in the pet shop, with prayers to please and be careful , It is the kind of "scared" caution.Qi Liang likes this kind of dog the most, and he always feels that this kind of dog is suitable for him.When he carefully looked at each of them and wanted to choose one to take back to raise, the more he looked at these dogs, the more familiar their eyes were.When Qi Liang saw a fierce big dog yelling at him, Qi Liang realized that the eyes of those dogs looked like they were squatting in the porch every day waiting for him to come back, and it was Shen Ao who showed it to him. eyes.Qi Liang, the owner of the dog farm, said that the vicious dog had been abused, so it was particularly aggressive towards people.Qi Liang didn't adopt a dog back. After returning home that day, he opened the door and passed Shen Ao indifferently. When he was on the sofa in the living room, he asked Shen Ao to crawl towards him, and then announced to Shen Ao that from now on he would He could only be a dog in front of himself, and from then on Qi Liang called Shen Ao a dog, and he thought it was revenge against Shen Ao.Thinking about it now, it was just an excuse for his loneliness, an excuse for Shen Aolai to get close to him.Sometimes when Shen Ao put his head on his knees, Qi Liang looked down and always thought of the dog that yelled at him in the kennel, obviously he had only met him once, and he was not very friendly to him, but Qi Liang felt I always think inadvertently, does that dog still hate people so much?After thinking about it, he can't help but reach out to touch the top of Shen Ao's head, and Shen Ao will kiss his fingers with his nose. Only at that moment, there is warmth between them, pretending to be the owner and pet. Come a little warmth.

Qi Liang swallowed at the door in front of him, and turned the key to open the door. When the door just opened a crack, Qi Liang couldn't help thinking in his heart, if he wasn't here... before he finished thinking about the door, he would After opening it, Qi Liang looked at the empty entrance, he was not there.

Qi Liang entered the house, closed the door and took a look at the entrance, and when he reached for the slippers, he realized that there were not many shoes on the shoe rack.He has been tidying up recently, and he can't tell why, he just wants to tidy up.Qi Liang changed his shoes, went into the living room and sat down on the sofa. Looking at the empty room, he opened his mouth and asked, "Dog?"

He had never had a dog before, and of course he never heard a faithful dog running towards its owner with a happy sound.Qi Liang laughed to make the empty room less quiet.After that, he started tidying up the house again.There was still his suitcase in the living room, and he dug out the suitcase that was placed on the cabinet two days ago.Given his height, it took him a lot of effort to get the suitcase down.After taking out the suitcase, Qi Liang didn't know what to do anymore, he just left the suitcase open in the open space of the living room, sometimes he would take out one or two pieces of clothes and throw them in, and the next day he saw that he put the clothes inside again Take it out again.Going back and forth like this, I can't tell what I want to do?Just simply packing up out-of-season clothes?Or do you want to pack your bags and leave?The clothes were folded and unpacked, but the suitcase was left in the open space of the living room.

Qi Liang went to the suitcase and squatted down, there were a few pieces of clothes scattered inside, and he couldn't remember when he started throwing them in.He folded the clothes and took them out, got up and walked into the room to put the clothes back into the closet, after taking two steps, he looked back at the suitcase, Qi Liang's head was empty, he just let his body react, he stopped and went He returned to the suitcase, squatted down and put down his clothes.He squatted next to the suitcase and folded the clothes one by one.Summer, autumn, thin, thick.Folding randomly, when the mind is awake for a moment, the hands will gently smooth the folds on the clothes, smoothing the folds on the clothes one by one, it is extremely gentle, as if it is not a dress, but A fragile item, it is not wrinkled, but the pain that will make him sad, like the scar on the back, given by Shen Ao.Qi Liang Shun flattened his clothes and looked down, but the first thing he saw was not the clothes, but his knees. He spread his hands on his knees, looked at his hands and said, "Shake hands." After speaking, the living room was still silent.It was a small game he played with Shen Ao when he was in a good mood, just like between the owner and a pet.Without putting his hands on his knees, holding his open hands, Qi Liang looked at his own empty hands and laughed at himself.After laughing, he went to look at the suitcase, which was half stuffed with clothes, and put the folded clothes in it.

After putting down his clothes, Qi Liang stared blankly at the suitcase for a while, then unraveled his clothes after a while, grabbed them and got up.Just when he got up, the door lock made a sound, Qi Liang looked nervously at the door, and saw Shen Ao pushing the door in.He saw Shen Ao breathing nervously, if he had seen Shen Ao coming over before, he would have turned around and continued busy with his work, as if he hadn't seen this person.But today, Qi Liang wrinkled the clothes in his hands, and looked at Shen Ao standing in front of the gate motionlessly, he had never been so nervous.

From the moment he was in the car, Qi Liang only thought about whether Shen Ao would be there, he forgot to imagine how he should speak to Shen Ao first.say what?Talk about the things between them, say that I want to try to forgive what Shen Ao did to me in the past, and say not to do this again in the future, maybe ask Shen Ao if he will fall in love?

Shen Ao grabbed the key tightly, saw Qi Liang's flustered expression when he entered the door, and then saw a few pieces of clothes scattered in the opened suitcase, Qi Liang tightly gripped the clothes in his hand, Shen Ao guessed that they packed them out of the room.Seeing this scene, Shen Ao frowned, his lower lip trembled twice, and the words stuck in his throat, but he didn't say anything, because he always waited for Qi Liang to give orders first.Then he heard Qi Liang say, "Let's not do this again."

Shen Ao's lips trembled twice, and finally looked at the suitcase on the ground and said, "You want to go?" He hurriedly stepped forward, "Where are you going?"

Qi Liang's nervous mood had nowhere to dissipate, and he clutched the clothes in his hands more tightly. He hadn't prepared what to say to Shen Ao yet, and he didn't know whether it was because of a whim, or because he had planned to forgive Shen Ao long ago. plan.He didn't know how to say the words of forgiveness from his own mouth, and he needed a moment to adjust.

It's just that Shen Ao didn't give him a buffer time, so he rushed over excitedly, Qi Liang was taken two steps back by Shen Ao who suddenly rushed over, and fell directly into the sofa.Qi Liang was a little dazed by the collision, and after looking at Shen Ao who was pressing down on his shoulder for a while, he regained his composure.He wondered if Shen Ao had misunderstood something.

Qi Liang wanted to open his mouth to say his plan, but at this moment something hot fell on his cheek, Qi Liang stretched out his hand to touch it, and when he looked up at Shen Ao, he realized that it was Shen Ao who was crying.

"Why do you want to leave? Obviously, I have already stayed by your side so obediently. If you hate me, just hit me. I can vent your anger however you want, but why are you leaving?"

"Shen Ao, this is wrong." Qi Liang thought he should tell Shen Ao that what he did was wrong in the past, and they groped together how to do the right thing.

"Is this wrong? Didn't you say that bad love should be embraced?"

love?Did Shen Ao always think that there was love between them?So Shen Ao is loving herself in disguise?Qi Liang reacted belatedly, he was a little blurred by Shen Ao's tears, and he could only hear Shen Ao asking repeatedly, "Why are you leaving? Why are you leaving?"

Shen Ao didn't know that he was crying, he just couldn't see Qi Liang in front of him clearly, it became more and more blurred, as if he was getting farther and farther away from him.He thought that Qi Liang's face was dirty, so he stretched out his hand and rubbed Qi Liang's face with his fingers, thinking that maybe he could see Qi Liang more clearly, and murmured, "Why should Go? Why go?"

Shen Ao's eyes are blurred, and his ears seem to be deaf, only the ringing in his head, you have to catch the one he doesn't want to mention the most.As long as you mention it, he will not move a step.

Shen Ao was stunned for a moment, and saw Qi Liang who was blushing in front of him.Seeing him stop, Qi Liang thought that his emotions had finally stabilized, and he finally had a chance to speak to Shen Ao slowly and clearly.

"Shen Ao, what I want to say is, maybe, we can let go..."

"Wen Ting, I was the one who forced Wen Ting to tell you about you back then. I deliberately made excuses to bully you."

Qi Liang didn't finish his sentence, he was already frightened by the truth about being late from Shen Ao's mouth.

Shen Ao looked at him, squeezed his shoulders, and continued, "So. I forced Wen Ting to tell your secret first, so that she would have no face before seeing you. I left you alone and helpless. In my applause. So, you hated Wen Ting, treated her as a shameless villain, and didn't forgive her until the end, causing her to be disappointed in this world." Shen Ao smiled at the people below him with tears all over his face. After a while, "So, stay. Stay to confess to her, stay to torture me."

Like a wooden man, Qi Liang listened to Shen Ao's words word by word, then looked at Shen Ao with a fierce face, and smiled foolishly at him, "We really deserve it."

Shen Ao didn't feel sad when he heard Qi Liang's ridicule, instead he sneered and reached out to unbutton Qi Liang's clothes one by one. He hadn't tasted Qi Liang for a long time, even though he couldn't wait, he could He still abides by etiquette, like careful and restrained pre-dinner etiquette, correct and slow.

Qi Liang didn't stop him, but just looked at Shen Ao, he seemed to have lost his senses, only when Shen Ao unbuttoned him, his stomach felt a little bit, it was Shen Ao's nails that scratched his skin, sharp and cold , It seems to be able to cut open the internal organs inside.When Shen Ao unbuttoned his belt, his movements were a little too big, causing his unconscious body to bounce up and down again. When Shen Ao opened his pants, Qi Liang regained a little consciousness, and his mind began to think again. .

He felt some pain, it was Shen Ao who forcibly broke into his body, he watched Shen Ao frown and couldn't help frowning with him, and then his body was pushed up and down by Shen Ao.Qi Liang didn't care about the pain in his body, he just looked at Shen Ao's face and reflected on himself, he thought he couldn't learn it, he couldn't learn such a good love, he couldn't do that kind of generosity, that kind of tolerance, Who let his heart be broken by Shen Ao?

When the physical pain climbed up his limbs little by little, transmitted to his brain nerves, and pierced into his heart, he felt the reality, but after reacting, he couldn't struggle.Shen Ao firmly pressed his shoulder so that he could not move.Qi Liang listened to the sound of Shen Ao slamming into his body every time, it felt as if he heard the sound of Shen Ao's every punch hitting his spine hard in the past.There was no part of his whole body that didn't hurt when he slumped on the sofa and was manipulated by Shen Ao. This feeling was the same as when he was slumped at the end of the alley and looking up to find a tall building to jump off.Only this time, no one reached out to him to give him a hand.

Qi Liang took another look at Shen Ao who was on his body, and happened to have something hot falling on his cheek, either tears or sweat.Qi Liang looked at Shen Ao's sweaty face and thought, yes, no one will help him.no more.

Because I deserve it.

The words "I deserve it" were like a painkiller, which paralyzed Qi Liang's sympathetic nerves, allowing him to survive the period when Shen Ao wreaked havoc on him.When Shen Ao stopped, when he was finally no longer pushed by Shen Ao, Qi Liang was still staring at the ceiling in a daze.Shen Ao just sat by the sofa with his head down and said nothing.

Qi Liang pulled up his clothes and sat up from the sofa. When he stood up, he was hurt again, and his lower body was tearing.He couldn't do much, and walked to the kitchen with trembling legs.He wanted to drink a glass of ice water to soothe the pain in his heart.Qi Liang stumbled towards the refrigerator, took out a bottle of water from the refrigerator, poured it straight down his throat, and didn't care about choking the throat pipe, the water flowed back from his mouth to the corners of his mouth and flowed down his chin , wet his clothes.

When Qi Liang felt his heart regained his composure and the pain in his body felt better, he closed the refrigerator door and saw the postcard pasted on the refrigerator.Qi Liang stretched out his hand to touch the lighthouse on the postcard, as if he regained consciousness again, tears began to fall, and the part on his chest could no longer tell whether it was wet from drinking water or was wet from tears of.

Qi Liang touched the lighthouse on the star card and said to himself, "This place looks so far away."

It seemed as if he would never get to this place in his life.