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I am lazy, but Chen Fang,

Because you love yourself and don't slack off.

So Lu Nana likes Chen Fang very much now, like a real relative, even closer than her mother, it should be.After all, sometimes, Chen Fang is the one who accompanies her to play, attend class, buy books and toys with her, and go to the hospital with her.

They have known each other since high school, until now, almost 20 years.Thinking of it, she could still see the smiling faces of Chen Fang and herself when rehearsing plays, the joy when she got the admission letter, and the joy when she came to University A to find herself... She never made fun of herself, even when the quarrel was the worst; She was hostile to her ex-husband, who was still her boyfriend, but she didn't show much, and she could get along peacefully; when she slapped Chen Fang, they had known each other for six years.In the following year, Chen Fang didn't come across the city from K University to look for her like before, but when he came, he still asked her about her health and wellness.Thinking about it today, how sad those eyes are, but she was so dazzled by love that she didn't notice it.

It was Chen Fang who didn't say anything, but she didn't notice.Now she can understand, but Chen Fang still doesn't say it.Or they all think that this is very good, and there is no shortage of a confession to prove it.

"Yeah, but that's all in the past. It's in the past." Chen Fang, who was wearing a turtleneck sweater in front of him, had peeled the citrus. As an old habit, he tasted a slice first to make sure it was sweet, and then handed it to her.

"These years..." She took the ganzi, her nose sore for some reason, "I didn't treat you very well, I tortured you... I'm sorry."

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Please read this chapter in conjunction with Karen Mok's "Actually, I've Always Wanted to Tell You".

It's not that no one pursues Chen Fang.It's not that she didn't try to get along with others, especially when Lin Yichu was angry with her for no reason.But love is emotional, the opposite of reason.She always felt that there was a magnet on both herself and Lin Yichu, nailed to them by nails.The only difference is that her piece is firmly nailed by myself, while Lin Yichu's piece is always swaying.Therefore, most of the time she feels attraction from Lin Yichu, and sometimes she feels inexplicable repulsion.

She fell in love with Lin Yichu when she was in high school.At that time, there was a girl with long hair and glasses sitting in the first row.My English is very good, and I am more courageous than myself. I always speak actively in English class, and I am quite confident in my own level.And she herself always sits in the back row, is used to keeping a low profile, and doesn't raise her hand to speak.Once when it came to a question, there was a sentence in the stem of the question that started with that. Some people said it was wrong. She insisted that it was an apposition clause, but she didn't dare to say it.And Lin Yichu in the first row didn't raise his hand, and directly said that it was a subordinate clause, as if he maintained his own point of view diametrically opposite to the people behind her.The teacher asked those who thought it was a clause to raise their hands, she raised their hands, and so did Lin Yichu, there were very few people.Lin Yichu looked back like thousands of people, and saw Chen Fang expressionlessly.

Chen Fang didn't think there was anything special about what he was wearing that day, his short hair was still the same, and he was even a little fat in high school.But Lin Yichu smiled at her, turned his head and raised his hands proudly, as if he felt more justified because of having the same kind.Chen Fang recalled that moment many years later, and also asked Lin Yichu, of course Lin Yichu did not remember, only she remembered clearly, that smile and raised hand made Chen Fang understand that Lin Yichu was also uncertain.

But it doesn't matter, she still looked at Lin Yichu's right hand with the red wrist watch for a long time.

Good grades in English became the prerequisite for the two to greet each other—to be precise, it was the prerequisite that Chen Fang needed, and Lin Yichu didn't care.The difference in language performance made Lin Yichu interested in Chen Fang.The same was true for the comprehensive liberal arts later. Chen Fang's politics were very good, and he was always the first in his grade, and his grades were used by the teacher as a standard answer.Chen Fangyou began to guide Lin Yichu.Lin Yichu once wondered why a person who writes a well-written composition and looks very romantic between the lines can also have such good logic?She admired Chen Fang, but she didn't know Chen Fang's admiration for her.

This kind of admiration for Chen Fang can't be explained by herself. Even in her third year of high school, where her grades have completely surpassed Lin Yichu's, her admiration for Lin Yichu is still the same.Maybe it's the horoscope, maybe it's the horoscope, which makes it impossible for Chen Fang to be a flamboyant person, nor a vigorous person.Her personality is unified internally and externally, she is calm and stable, and she likes everything to flow slowly, and then it will happen naturally.She will not do something suddenly, and she will not give up suddenly after she has done it.Sometimes this kind of inertia makes her tired, maybe because of this, she admires Lin Yichu's impulsiveness.

It must be added that Lin Yichu was never afraid to bear the price for himself.I didn't get into K University but still wanted to live in a better distant city, so I resolutely chose A University.When Chen Fang learned that the two would go to the same city, he was very happy.At that time, she knew that her feelings for Lin Yichu were not the feelings of a friend. No matter how good a friend is, tolerance is of course unlimited, and admonition will never be absent.Chen Fang is an upright person, until now.There is only one situation where she will choose to compromise, will choose to conceal and lie in good faith, love.And her love is only for one person, Lin Yichu.

When she found out that she never pointed out what Lin Yichu did wrong but let her be happy, she knew that she fell in love with him, just like it was written in the book.It's just that in that era, the unrestrained early 90s, she didn't know how to deal with her feelings.I would rather procrastinate for a while longer, go to a distant place together, grow up thoroughly together, and see if I can find a better way on the road, get close to Lin Yichu, get close to her heart, and then dedicate my heart to her.

In the years of K University, Lin Yichu would do whatever she asked her to do.Lin Yichu wanted to come to K to play, so she rode a bicycle across the city to pick her up.Lin Yichu wanted to go to the city center to play, so she dropped everything to accompany her. Many of the books borrowed under Lin Yichu's name from the University A library were not read by her, but by Chen Fang, because Chen Fang spent a large part of his freshman and sophomore years at University A.

She was waiting for the opportunity, organizing her words, and before she was ready, Lin Yichu met her future husband.Chen Fang therefore followed Lin Yichu even more closely, even though it was a torture to herself.The first time she saw the boy, she was still out of shock and discomfort.After seeing him a few times, she naturally began to dislike that person, which even led to her analysis and sex with that person.She told Lin Yichu that he was too proud and a bit paranoid, sometimes he could not distinguish between right and wrong, and there was something wrong with his nature.She didn't know that it was very risky to say this, she was used to being upright, and at this moment, she might also stand on the standpoint of not distinguishing between public and private.

Lin Yichu was really angry and quarreled with her.Since then, the dispute between the two has continued because of a boy. Those who don't know may think that they are rivals in love.Lin Yichu may also feel the same way, but Chen Fang resents himself for not being able to confess and is jealous of Lin Yichu's boyfriend, and even more afraid of losing Lin Yichu forever, so he loses his mind and becomes more and more crazy.She collected the boy's bad comments and negative gossip, and dumped it on Lin Yichu like big news, but the result only aroused Lin Yichu's rebellious psychology.She forgot that Lin Yichu and her family were in the same state after the college entrance examination, she also forgot that he was a stubborn person, and she even forgot that if she didn't prepare a set of arguments, it would be fine to just take Lin Yichu away from that person.During each other's torment, in the late autumn drizzle, she found out that the boy had beaten his ex-girlfriend, and ran to Lin Yichu as if she had found a treasure, but was defeated by Lin Yichu.

She goes back and forth between the two ends, and often goes back at night to light up the night battle. The degree of myopia has risen rapidly, and the degree of glasses has also increased several times.Lin Yichu slapped her across the face, and her glasses flew out. The strong wind blew and the leaves fell off.She didn't see Lin Yichu's appearance clearly at that time.This point, although I was a little lucky afterwards, but in the first year or two when I left Lin Yichu, the expression on that face always changed repeatedly in my dreams.

My aunt, whose family is far away in the United States, said that it was strange. Chen Fang, who was reluctant to go to the United States after persuasion for half a year, why did he do so?

She went to Atlanta first, fought her way through graduate school at Emory for a year, and immediately found a job.Later, he stayed in New York and Boston.Yimei stayed in a cold place, thinking that the cold could make him stop thinking.As a result, on a Christmas day in Boston, which was swept by a winter storm, she took her entrepreneurial team and prepared to return home.At that time, the development was better, and the policy of returning to China also had benefits. She left not long ago and was familiar with the legal system when she returned. More importantly, she has always lived in this distant foreign country without belonging.

Cultural background is what makes blood thicker than water, she thought.

During her time in the United States, she lived alone and learned to cook by herself.But sometimes even if you make a big table, you just eat alone, which not only wastes food but also wastes effort.Whether she decided to go abroad or actually leave the country, she did not inform Lin Yichu.She couldn't talk to her, couldn't say anything, and would rather say nothing.Let everything stop like clockwork in an earthquake.Going to a foreign country and starting a new life, I thought I would be able to forget Lin Yichu.As a result, no matter the race, no woman in the world can make her fall in love again.

Since then, she has met at least four or five people who are much better than Lin Yichu, but she may not be interested so she doesn't try, and the only two who have tried finally find it difficult to get along with them no matter how hard they try.After all, every lonely night in the United States, she is used to remembering and missing.What is Lin Yichu doing?she is now