[Comprehensive] A heroine who doesn't want to be a villain is not a good hero

The relationship between Nishida Rena and Miyazawa Yukihime's Xueli is very wonderful.

They are like people on two intersecting lines. They once compared each other, stared at each other, and after the intersection, they quickly separated and rushed to their own position and direction.

In a way, they grew up together.

The two families lived not too far apart, and they were barely neighbors.

In fact, Nishida Rena's family situation is not very good.

Her biological father was a person who had no choice but to be satisfied with cold violence in the family. Although there was no such vicious incident as domestic violence in their family, there was no warmth at all.

In addition to Nishida Rena, there are three other brothers and sisters, enough to crush this poor family, and Mr. Nishida's meager salary can hardly support four children and a wife who has to become a full-time wife.

When they were young, Miyazawa Yukihime and Nishida Rena belonged to a kind of people who knew each other existed but never said a word.

Girls like them are not favored at home and are neglected or even tortured. They are also marginalized and bullied among their peers and children in the streets of the entire community.

Coupled with the gossip between adults, her situation is as bad as that of Xueji, both of them are bullied and ordered to run errands.

In such a bad environment, they can only get a little psychological comfort and comfort through the miserable appearance of their peers.

Nishida Rena didn't know whether Miyazawa Yukihime was satisfied because of this, but when she saw that she was hiding her injuries every time, Nishida felt a little despicable in her heart - there was someone who lived more than her. Oops.

Although she was neglected by her family, she often didn't have enough to eat, she had to give things to her younger siblings, and she had to pick up waste newspapers and sell them for money. The day seemed a little better.

The life of Xue Ji's family became worse after the death of Mr. Miyazawa.

Mrs. Miyazawa has a beautiful appearance. After losing her husband and son, she was in tears almost all day long.

She didn't know how many people coveted her beauty in the neighborhood, but there were many more slanders against her among the housewives in the neighborhood.

Nishida has heard her mother describe Mrs. Miyazawa in very ugly terms many times, and they used to be restrained, but now they don't at all.

The children here are basically sent to the same middle school.

A very bad middle school full of hierarchy and school violence.

This kind of ethos is already a terrible tradition. They have been at the bottom of this abuse chain since they were young, so naturally they will only be bullied even more when they are in middle school.

The two are still the worst group. They will be splashed with water, their hair will be pulled, their textbooks will be torn, and a lot of bad words will be written on the table.

If they are restless doing errands for the big sisters and big brothers above and handing in protection fees, even if they are pushed into the water and almost die, even if the teacher sees it, they will not say anything.

Even the teachers don't want to provoke these bad guys.

It really is a terrible world.

Rena Nishida wanted to die countless times.

But Xue Ji is worse than her. She is a girl without father and brother, and only has a mother who cries all day and has a bad reputation.

And she was so good-looking, that outstanding appearance and unique temperament made her incompatible with all of them.

It's probably natural...

Nishida once secretly imitated Mrs. Miyazawa's words and deeds. She must admit that this is indeed a very touching and beautiful gesture.

If she were a man, she would not like her mother's nagging and fat appearance like a shrew, but would like Mrs. Miyazawa's delicate and beautiful appearance.

Xue Ji inherited her mother's beauty, although she doesn't feel so delicate.But this seemingly natural beauty did not bring good luck to Xue Ji, she was bullied even more, she was crazily envied by all the girls, and the boys would only look at her with lecherous and disgusting eyes.

They didn't actually say anything, even if they saw each other, they just looked at each other depressingly and coldly.

Both of them seemed to be oppressed the same way, even Xue Ji was a little bit more miserable, but gradually Nishida discovered some differences.

Because he was often arranged to do some unreasonable errands and bullying, Nishida discovered that Miyazawa Yukihime was a person with a beast in his heart—she was different from her.

Xi Tian saw resistance in Xue Ji's eyes, and the facts also proved that Xue Ji was completely different from a dull person like her who couldn't speak a word.

She quickly opened up the situation, and got mixed up with the eldest sister in the middle school.

Xi Tian didn't know how Xue Ji did it, and what she did to win the trust of the eldest sister, but she knew that Xue Ji had become the middle part of the crowd.

It was dazzling, the kind of person she envied.

They are indeed different.

Later, Mrs. Miyazawa remarried to a wealthy family.

No one knew what kind of existence her new husband was, but everyone saw Mrs. Miyazawa and Yukihime Miyazawa being taken away by expensive cars.

Rena Nishida couldn't tell what kind of mood she was in, but she knew that she didn't hate Miyazawa Yukihime that much anymore, and she would no longer seek some satisfaction from her. She realized that there was something in Yukihime that A trait that she longs for and is extremely powerful...

She is really envious...

Mrs. Miyazawa sold all her belongings including the house.

The two of them didn't seem to have any reluctance, but Nishida Rena also understood that if she could, she would also want to leave this ghost place without looking back.

But she couldn't do it, and she didn't have a good-looking mother who could attract men.

But before leaving, Xue Ji quietly stopped and secretly watched Nishida Rena for a long time.

This was probably the most memorable conversation the two had ever had.

All this time, I could only look at each other, watching the two people whose distance was getting wider and wider, silently staring at each other.

"this is for you."

Miyazawa Yukihime said to her with a smile. This kind of smile was developed by Rena Nishida watching her in a dark corner, just like watching the masks she put on layer by layer. There is a kind of mutual understanding.

— It’s a very different kind of relationship.

"..."

Rena Nishida lowered her head gloomyly, and they were all like this, always full of gloomy, with a soft face that was easy to bully.

But when she opened the box, which had a bit of frayed lacquer around the edges but was generally nice, she finally couldn't help crying.

Inside is a very beautiful crystal hairpin.

This should be a pair, this belongs to Miyazawa Yukihime, Nishida Rena knows it very well.

This was a birthday present given to Miyazawa Yukihime by her brother Miyazawa Sanno.

It is said that a pair of crystal hairpins were bought for her by her brother who worked secretly.

Her brother put it on for her himself, but the day she took it out, the other kids threw stones - as usual.

With some unknown jealousy in mind, Nishida Rena took advantage of the chaos and secretly snatched one of her hairpins.

After that, she always looked at the hairpin that she snatched with a feeling of horror, envy and jealousy, and never dared to bring it out.

Even if she really likes it.

She always thought that Xue Ji didn't know, but when she was about to leave this terrible place, she gave her the remaining hairpin.

Nishida Rena felt that she was about to collapse, and various emotions such as inferiority complex, fear, panic, etc. impacted her heart.

"I'm leaving." Xue Ji said to her calmly.

"Are you showing off to me?" she breaks down and yells at her like a shrew—like her mom.

"My brother once gave it to me, but he is no longer here. It doesn't make sense for me to leave only this issuing card, so I gave it to you."

"Are you proud?!"

Xue Ji didn't answer her words, she watched her quietly for a long time, and she didn't continue until her nearly collapsed emotions gradually eased.

"I'm changing my name."

"..."

"The new name is Fujiwara Yuri, and I will become the adopted daughter of the Fujiwara family."

"..."

"Maybe no one will remember me."

"In this rubbish world, who will remember us... Oh, you are no longer the same."

Rena Nishida cried and laughed while holding the tin box.

"But you will remember, right?" Xue Ji smiled at her with certainty, the most hypocritical kind of smile, "I gave it to you, you will remember Miyazawa Xue Ji, right?"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Nishida Rena sneered, it was the first time she was so presumptuous.

"Linna, we are all people who live in the gutter. Even if we stand under the sun, there are still deep places that cannot be touched by the sun. Those shadows and darkness will not disappear because of our changes. of."

"But I still hope that we're all going to be fine."

They ended up exchanging a hug.

Nishida felt as if he was embraced by a poisonous snake, and he couldn't feel any warmth.

But she was still a little happy, this was the first harmless embrace she got from her peers.

Miyazawa Yukihime, or Fujiwara Yuri, is indeed a lunatic.

When Nishida Rena saw Fujiwara Yuri, who was already a first-year student of Yuei, on TV for the first time, she once again affirmed her thoughts.

She was in perfect control of the situation while maintaining her own decency and grace.

Just like she used to be so beautifully in the nearest position to the big sister, very lucky and powerful to arrange everything.

No one can underestimate her, even if she looks like a vase.

She is so dazzling on TV, but she also lived so humblely.

They are indeed different, they are people of two worlds.

But she was still a little happy, maybe Xue Ji's existence was telling her that people like them could live such a lucky and dazzling life.

The author has something to say: Nishida appeared very early, but it was just a background board

She had more than one partner (?) during Xiao Xue Ji's period

The hh mentioned in Chapter 19