tangled ivy

Chapter 60 What I Believe

Probably... this is karma.

Akashi Seijuro couldn't help thinking.Pursuing too much victory and not caring about other people's feelings will lead to disintegration.The mistakes I made... now finally have to pay.First, for the sake of victory, I finally let the irrepressible second personality come out. Everyone was probably taken aback. Even for me... it was just fear; With such a score, even Heizi was angry... How can such a crime be repaid?If I had been more mature, I could have handled it better back then, and it wouldn't have been like this.

Really bad.The best teammate, now the enemy...

But what I miss the most is the time I spent with you guys.

Kuroko.

What a cunning, myself.

Even though he did such an unforgivable thing, he still greeted him with a smile as if he was a good old friend.What's wrong now is the current teammate, right?Even with your eyes closed, you can imagine that the expressions on their faces must be the same as Heizi and the others at that time...

Also, no words...

I feel that I have done something wrong again... What will I do next...?

This match was as expected.The invincible strong man he created was finally defeated by his former teammates, and he finally gained control of this body.It's just that I don't feel happy at all... It's really a terrible situation and a terrible mood.Sure enough, it was because of encountering Weiyu, the biggest accident, which broke his chess board.

There is a lot of power in that small body.

That well-behaved appearance, the other side that is unknown

Those clear eyes, the world you see.

Just like myself, struggling in this strange world, desperately trying to hide myself.

But, unlike my evasion, that girl bravely and resolutely went up to her...still maintaining her innocence and kindness...and then, like a small stove, gentle...not scorching...

then,

Unknowingly, I was attracted.

Unexpectedly, even the self who only cared about winning couldn't help but want to enter her world.Before me, I got her approval first.Originally, I planned to approach him slowly after I came back, but I was afraid that I would be too strict and leave a bad impression on her...but it was rare to make him become a person like me, to go like that Taking care of a person, like that, caring about a person's opinion, is obviously tough but wraps around his edges and corners roundly.Because we didn't speak, our thoughts rarely agree.Although it is also myself... This statement is really subtle.

Akashi smiled wryly.

But now, let her down.

However, I have to come out.This "brother" is really worrying.I can't make any more mistakes, and I can't let my current teammates down. Now, "Luoshan" is the place I want to go back to.I can't just give up like this, otherwise, how can I face Mibuchi, Hayama and the others.

Sure enough, the moment she saw herself, she became quite astonished.The head is lowered... It's too far away, I can't see the expression... But, I also know, with the sensitivity of that girl, I should have noticed it... It's really bad.It's just that, for the time being, we need to settle the game here first, and play a long-lost game well.Work hard, earnestly, and work hard to play this game well.

Please, Weiyu...don't leave the scene...don't leave.

don't do that to me...

I'm Seijuro too...

Ah, that's amazing, Heizi.Still lost, this game.I really don't want her to see me like this, it's really embarrassing.I don't want her to see that spineless look of losing tears.It's just, tears... So it's the feeling of losing.Such pain, unwillingness, as if his chest was suppressed by something, and he couldn't breathe.This feeling is really bad.I couldn't control my expression well.

It was still full of cheers, but it wasn't cheering for myself, really...

It's hard to accept...

This is the end.

leftover…….

What should we do?How do I face you?My silence.

I know, obviously so confused, obviously trembling with fear, you are still standing behind me.

But... the me right now, I can't help it... I can't help it... I can't turn my head to face you.I'm afraid that you will leave as soon as I turn around... I'm afraid of seeing the disappointment on your face, and I'm even more afraid of letting you see that I can't calm down in this state.

So sorry.

I can't face you just yet.

My self-esteem, my pride, and the upbringing I have maintained cannot allow me to appear in such a posture in front of the people I care about the most.

I do not know……

How do I explain my existence now.How can I explain to you that I, with a dual personality... how about it, so that I won't scare you, so...

give me some more time...

Give me some time to tidy up.

and so……

"Sorry. Don't come to me just yet." - Akashi

And

"爱している"

"Master, master is waiting for you in the study."

The ancient famous house has a wooden structure with Western characteristics, like a small bungalow.The courtyard is still a Japanese-style courtyard, with gurgling water, the fine white silver sand is stained with snow, even the dead branches are beginning to hang ice strips, and the cold air hits.

Akashi couldn't tell how old this house was, was it a product of the Showa era, or...before?

It's strange, a question that I usually don't think about at all, now pops up suddenly.

How long has it been since I haven't looked at this house carefully...

Since when did I rack my brains and want to leave here...

Although the excuse is that Luoshan is the best school, running to Kyoto alone is to go to school.Although there is indeed this factor, there is also a part of the factor that I don't want to see Kuroko and the others in Tokyo. After all, Tokyo is so small.At that time, I didn't know how to face it.But Akashi was clearer about the reason for leaving here for Kyoto.No matter who I am, I can't stand the depression here.Before officially inheriting the company, before being completely locked up, I want to take a good, free breath and enjoy the so-called youth that is not much.

Obviously it is home.

During the day, it is full of brilliance and solemnity, and it seems that even loud noises will disturb this place.

Silence, everything returns to silence.

The house in the dark looks more terrifying than imagined.

I don't know if there is any resentment in this house.

Weiyu, if you come here, you will definitely be afraid.After all, looking at it from here, it is so cold and gloomy.The color of this family faded at the moment of mother's death, along with the warmth, and the rest are just rules.

And I can't get out of this place.

There is no way to drop this burden.

Who made me the "eldest son of the Akashi family".

If I pull you into this home, will this home become more and make me want to come back even more?

Still, you will feel like your mother...

As expected, my father started talking about the famous Akashi family again.I don't need you to repeat the rules of this family, I know it too, but it's a fact that I lost.Father, I am actually very glad that I lost. I am very glad that I can have such an experience. It turns out that regretting is so unwilling.

"People from the Akashi family are not allowed to lose."

"Yes, father."

"If you can't take care of both, then there's no need to persist." Akashi Masomi put down the document in his hand, and looked up at his son with his head bowed in front of him.

The breath on the body has completely changed back.

However, he knew that this child's stubbornness was exactly the same as her mother's. Even if he agreed now, it would not change.

"However, as a man, if you can't even stick to the things you like, you are even less worthy of being a member of the Akashi family."

So, you better give up the so-called basketball!

Akashi Seijuro opened his eyes wide in surprise. He thought that his father would say this sentence as usual, but the sentence just now...

obviously it is……

"I see."

My father has changed a bit, no, it should be said that he has changed back.

He changed back to the father who occasionally laughed when his mother was still there.

Akashi Seijuro clenched his fists slightly.

"Go out, the arrangement for these two days will be suspended first. You should reflect on it."

"Yes."

It's not without good things, at least my father is different.

Akashi's heavy heart seemed to ease a little.

"Ah, and, since you're back, go and talk to your mother. You haven't seen her for a long time."

Shiori, did you see that?

Our children have come back.

I finally did what I promised you.

I'm not such a bad person, am I?So don't hate me like that...

I have learned to consider your mood.

The author has something to say: la la la ~ continue to update the article, it is almost over, after this wave of small twists and turns ~ and then, I am considering whether to have a special episode--

What to do, I have the urge to write about Akashi’s parents’ fantasies Σ(?д?lll) But these two fantasies are definitely be, so I’m so entangled, should I post a be’s fantasies for the Chinese New Year--