A curtain of dream

Chapter 27 Double Edge

After the X-rays were taken, my mother accompanied me to Chu Lian's ward.Uncle Chu was not there, only Aunt Chu and Chu Yi were with Chu Lian in the ward.

Chu Yi tried her best to talk to Chu Lian, but she saw that Chu Lian sat upright without any reaction.

When Aunt Chu saw me, she was pleasantly surprised, and immediately said sadly: Luping, you better not come.

I kept silent, pursed my lips and looked, Chu Lian was holding a glass of water in his hand, he didn't respond to Chu Yi's chirping voice, he didn't even look at Chu Yi, his eyes fell on He stared at the glass of water in his hand, as if studying, or not studying anything.

Mom pushed me to his bedside, he looked up, looked at me, and said: What are you doing here?

I said to my mother, Aunt Chu, and Chu Yi: I want to talk to Chu Lian, can I?

Aunt Chu understood and went out with her mother's arm. Chu Yi looked at Chu Lian, then at me, and I said calmly: "Chu Yi, don't worry, I'm just chatting with your brother."

She nodded, and slowly backed out, closing the door for us.

In the ward, only Chu Lian and I were left. He lowered his head again, looking at the glass of water in his hand, motionless.

I clasped my hands, put them on my knees, and stared at him silently. He was getting more and more haggard day by day, Chu Yi's words were still in my ears, and Zi Ling's tears were vivid in my eyes. Do your best?

I called softly: Chu Lian.

He rolled his eyelids slightly, and cast his eyes on me. His voice was low and hoarse, and he said: I don't need you to pity me.

I said: You know I wouldn't do that.

He looks at me.

I smiled, looked at him and said: But, Chu Lian, I really look down on you.

His eyes were dull, staring at me without saying a word.

I said slowly: I look down on you wandering between our sisters.

He trembled all over.

I smiled and said: I'm probably too stupid to understand everything until today. Thinking about the last time I said here that I want to marry you, I feel very stupid.

His lips were pale, he looked at me and said: What do you understand?What do you know?

I sighed: Chu Lian, since you chose Ziling, you shouldn’t have hugged and kissed me when I told you I like you and confessed to you. Since you’ve always liked Ziling, you shouldn’t have been nice to me. You shouldn't be gentle with me, you understand?I looked at him quietly, he avoided my gaze.I sighed and said: If I could wake up earlier and see you clearly earlier, maybe I wouldn’t be here today, facing such a you.After the accident, I felt guilty towards you, and I blamed myself very much, but when I knew that you confessed your love to Ziling the next day after you came back drunk in Ziling, and you have been dating since that day, how can you tell me how embarrassing you are?At that time, I thought I could try my best to catch your heart!Why didn't you tell me plainly after confirming your relationship with Zi Ling that you like Zi Ling and you chose her?

He remained silent.

I laughed at myself: Of course, don't tell me anything because we are a couple in the eyes of adults, so you can't help it, we are not children anymore, such a statement will only make people feel funny and childish.

He turned his head suddenly and said angrily: "Do you think I don't want to?"Ziling said not to hurt your heart, maybe the person you like is not me, I can only... that's the only way.

I chuckled, looking at Chu Lian's green and white face, my heart hurt so much.My face gradually turned cold: not only because Zi Ling stopped you from speaking, but also your man's self-satisfaction, seeing that both of us like you, seeing me confessing to you, is it special? Sense of accomplishment?Now that you are already with her and you show mercy to me, what on earth do you want to do?Are you trying to kill two birds with one stone?

Chu Lian stared at me with gloomy eyes, gritted his teeth word by word, and said: I never thought that way!

I leaned on the wheelchair and said softly: "Chu Lian, you shouldn't hesitate. From the beginning to the end, you fell in love with each other, and even when you asked me to go out, you shouldn't hesitate. In fact, to be clear, it's just a few words." , that is, I'm sorry, Luping, the person I like is not you, thank you for liking me, just a few words, that's all.You can rest assured that I will not be unable to live because of losing you, but you hesitated...

Chu Lian raised his head slowly, and smiled bitterly: I admit that I was hesitant, that's because, in my heart, I have feelings for you and Ziling, but Ziling's feelings for her broke through that day. Long-term depression, Luping, I liked you once, and I have no feelings for you.

I said: Hehe, thank you, Chu Lian, but feelings, or love, have always been exclusive and exclusive. In the world of love, one person is too lonely, three people are too crowded, and two people are just right. .You did it wrong at the beginning, and now, you are still doing it wrong again and again.

Chu Lian looked at me blankly, and murmured: "Wrong again and again?"

I said: Because you lost a leg, you feel that you are not worthy of Ziling, so you lied to Ziling that you found out that the person you love is me, right?You also lied to her that I told you that I don't love you, which caused you to be stimulated and caused this car accident, right?

He showed a very complicated expression, looking at me with guilt and vigilance.

I said: Don't worry, what I hurt is only my body, not my brain. I understand what to say and what not to say.Even though I can understand your painstaking efforts, are these words of yours fair to me?

He was startled, his eyes flickering.

I looked straight into his eyes and said slowly: You are not only shirking responsibility by doing this, but you also don’t consider my feelings and situation at all. You only consider Ziling. You don’t want her to be sad for you, and you don’t want her to follow you. Suffering, but, have you considered, if you say this and do it like this, how much will it affect my relationship with Ziling's sisters?If I let you go, Ziling will resent my ruthlessness, because I told Ziling, I love you!However, if I go against my will and come to take care of you and take charge of your life, you and I will never be happy, nor will we be happy. At that time, what do you make Ziling think?She is my younger sister after all, no matter what I do, you have placed my position in the most embarrassing place, and Ziling... I sighed, and said slowly: She will never be happy either.

His hand holding the cup trembled violently.

I stared at him and said: How about this, since you want to push her away so much, how about I help you?Let me tell her how you treat me, let her see you clearly, see that you have been dealing with us sisters all the time, in this way, your purpose will be achieved more thoroughly, and she will leave you completely, maybe She will be sad for a long time, but time will heal her wounds, she will meet someone she likes again, and the sister relationship between me and Ziling will not be broken because of you, what do you think?

I stare at his trembling cup.

For a long time, he still didn't speak, but the veins in his hands burst out, holding the cup desperately.

silence.

He raised his head and looked at me with hatred in his eyes: Do you have to treat me and Ziling like this?Are you still the Luping I know?

I said lightly: I'm sorry, you probably have never known me before. The real me is a villain, and I will take revenge if I have a grudge. I don't hate Ziling for secretly dating you, because in her world, you are the only one. It seems that he is quite a man, so she will fall in love with you, there is no suspense at all.The person I hate is you.I will not forgive you for dealing with our sisters, even if you are disabled now, it is your own fault.Do you know why I want to see you today?I want to tell you, if you are a man, just live, don’t break a leg and die or live, if you continue to toss like this, you should commit suicide as soon as you wake up, or when I come to persuade you, you should Persist in the hunger strike, don't torture your family in this dead state, Ziling and I can't see your ghostly appearance, the saddest thing is not your parents and sister!If you were still a man, you would stand up and start all over again, then I would still admire you, and I look down on you very much now!You are no longer the Chu Lian who once protected us in my mind.

He raised his head, his eyes were confused and struggling, and suddenly he threw the cup in his hand at me, and he yelled: Get out!You terrible woman, whether you hate it or love it, get out now.Get out of here!roll!

As soon as my eyes were dazzled, the cup hit my forehead heavily, and with a bang, the warm water poured on my body.The cup fell to the ground with a crisp crackling sound, just like my broken heart.

I looked at the debris and water stains on the ground, but felt cold on my body.

Mother and Aunt Chu heard voices rushing in from outside the door, and Chu Yi yelled: Brother!what have you done?

Mom and Aunt Chu came to me quickly, and my mother grabbed my hand and exclaimed: Luping.Why are you like this.

Aunt Chu turned around and brought a dry towel to press on my head. Her lips trembled and said: Luping, you are bleeding!

I smiled softly and took the towel from Aunt Chu's hand. Of course I knew, because the warm liquid flowed down from the place where I was hit. I covered my forehead and looked at Chu who was shaking with anger on the hospital bed. Lian, I smiled faintly: Are you great for such a naive behavior?Did you hurt me?You hurt yourself, right?Don't take advantage of it, make yourself a lunatic, and make your whole family sad, you should wake up.

Aunt Chu was covering her mouth, hearing this, she began to cry softly.

Mom said anxiously on the side: Luping, what's going on?You and Chu Lian...

I signaled my mother to stop talking with my hand, and then I looked at Chu Lian who was crumbling on the hospital bed supported by Chu Yi. I smiled sadly and said to my mother: "Mom, let's go back to the ward!"

Back in the ward, my mother helped me to bed, and said anxiously: "Luping, what's going on?"Can you tell me clearly?Why did Chu Lian throw the cup at you? What are you talking about with him?You know that Chu Lian can't be stimulated in this state... Mom couldn't continue, frowning, the corners of her mouth twitched, and looked at me with a sad face.

Mom, I have a headache.I said softly, the place where the quilt hit just now started to hurt.I took off the towel I was covering, and there was a group of bright red blood on it.

Mom looked nervously, and said: "It's swollen, did Chu Lian throw you a cup?"She said angrily: How could his child become like this!No, I have to ask the nurse to treat the wound for you, and I walked out after saying that.

I leaned on it, and felt the injury on my forehead was getting more and more painful, and my heart was also cramping. I covered my forehead with one hand and my heart with the other, closed my eyes, and waited for my mother to call the nurse to come to me. While dealing with the wound, I was in a daze, thinking of a sentence in my mind, feelings are a double-edged sword, hurting others and myself, the remaining feelings hurt him and myself, and slowly I fell asleep.