[Projectile] You smile at the hope called despair

"One gentleman... one gentleman!"

what……?

In the blurred and gradually clear vision, Qi Hai's face appeared in front of her eyes, her complexion had improved a lot, but she had a reproachful expression.

Noticing that he was lying on her bedside, fell asleep unknowingly, and was still holding her hand, he immediately let go of it with interest.

From the looks of it, I have overstepped without knowing it.

Although he hoped to take good care of her during her unwell period and accompany her instead of her companions, this situation obviously exceeded the scope of nursing care.

And he fell asleep without knowing it... This is simply unbelievable for him who has been taught to pay attention to everything around him at all times.

Have you become so slack...

At this moment, Qihai suddenly grabbed his hand tightly again.

"Ichi-kun's hands are cold... are you staying here all night? Although I want Ichi-kun to stay with me for a while, but if you are tired, you should take a good rest-there is a preparation room next to it. Usually It's used by mom and dad, but they haven't come back for half a year... Although it's a bit deserted, at least you can have a good rest there."

This kind of attitude and tone... is simply...

"Ichi-kun, what's the matter? I'm very happy to be here with me... But if Ichi-kun doesn't take care of himself and falls ill, I will be angry—"

She puffed up her face, faced him, and looked at him with a serious expression: "The hair hasn't been cut yet, it's messed up... Every time I see Yijun, I feel that Yijun didn't pay attention to his body... No matter what Yi-kun is doing, if Yi-kun is always ignoring himself, I will be sad...ahem..."

After all, she hadn't recovered completely yet, she had been bedridden before, and she fell into a persistent cough afterwards.

"Isn't Qihai also trying to be brave... I said before, I can see Qihai's thoughts, there is no need for that—"

"It's not that there are any, necessary things! Ahem..." Qihai shook her head violently, "Yijun just...doesn't understand anything!"

"Didn't Yi-kun tell me on that day that speaking is not just to get ideas and make countermeasures... but, talking itself is a very happy thing... Yukino-sensei, told I am... being able to express my thoughts is a happy thing..."

"It's me who wants to... Tell Yikun how you feel... If it's just being seen by Yikun, to such an extent... Ichikun won't care at all!"

Hearing this, he smiled: "Qami...you are such a gentle person...you know nothing about me, but you are still so defenseless against me..."

"Aren't you afraid...all of my actions are for a disguise, for an ulterior purpose?"

"Ichi-kun, you're starting this kind of inexplicable talk again... so cunning... always trying to escape when you're about to attack... this is exactly the same as Hinata-kun..."

"However, I have already said... I will never give up trying to understand Kazu-kun... no matter what."

"But, Qihai...you don't know who I am at all, and you don't know what I'm going to do...even the name 'Number One' is fake...So, Qihai also wants to know."

"Those are not the Yi-kun I know...it doesn't matter at all." Qihai looked at him suspiciously, "Names and identities are always given things, right? If it's something Yi-kun doesn't want, doesn't like For the matter, my friend should help Yijun and become Yijun's support."

"What I know is Yikun who has been with me for nearly half a year and spent a happy time with me... I am very happy to be able to help Yikun and be trusted like this...so I feel that I can do There's a lot going on..."

He was silent for a while: "Qihai...haven't you ever thought that the real me is a terrible person... Even the whole world will not tolerate me, and will think that I am a real monster... "

"Yi-kun... don't say that. I believe that Yi-kun is a gentle person... and he also looks forward to friends, right? If Yi-kun is really tired of all this, according to Yi-kun's ability, he should not always want to be with you. Let me seek the answer together..." Qihai got up and hugged him gently, "This time, everyone has their own affairs, and I feel lonely again... At this time, I will feel that there is a gentleman who can know someone Jun, it's really great. If everyone can't accommodate Yijun, come to me? I need Yijun very much."

"I...I..." He suddenly stopped, "There is no one in the world who really understands me and understands me... There are many things that Qihai cannot understand!"

Impossible to understand... In the intertwining of everything and wishes in this world, even if everyone looks forward to a world full of smiles, there are always people who smile in anticipation of the pain of others.

Some people look forward to taking the risk and hurting everything to get happiness.

Between love and expectation, there will also be harm.

Different people have different hopes, so the world is always not so satisfactory——

Even though many people yearn for and love those who save them, their power is limited after all... That unequal love will always bring new jealousy, betrayal, and hurt, and then stab those who have saved them. tenderness and love.

Would Nanami feel the curse that he had seen in advance?

Just like him, if he doesn't want the whole world to be manipulated by order...he must destroy everything that supports the existence of order...

"It's better to say... Qihai doesn't understand me, it's better... Otherwise, you will become like me..."

"No, Yi-kun, you made a mistake." Seemingly aware of his trembling, Qihai patted him gently, "Isn't it necessary to find the answer to find it? Similarly, do you understand? It's not important, what's important is 'I want to understand'... I want to convey the feeling that Hinata-kun conveyed to me, too."

"When I first held a game conference with everyone, I didn't have the confidence to understand everyone... But Yukino-sensei told me, 'If you want to do it, do it'...Hinata-kun also asked me to create a game with them More memories... When you look at the memories of the past like this, you will find that if you don't fully understand, at least you understand something."

"The important thing is, it's really great to think about each other's feelings. I can spend such a happy time, and I feel that I never regret my hard work at the beginning——If I can understand a little better, maybe Hinata-kun will also be there Here..."

"After staying at home for so long, I also wondered, what would I do if one day everyone left and had their own affairs...Will I go back to the time when I was alone in the game... ..."

"However, there is no need to think about these troublesome things now..." Qihai smiled, "After all, the one in front of me is Ichi-kun... I can get up today, let's play games together?"

"No... Sitting on the bed and playing, I'm afraid it's not good for your eyesight." He looked at her with some trouble, "Qihai told me not to be brave..."

"Hmm..." Qihai thought for a while, "Then let's play cards together, Yi-kun?"

The small table was quickly set up, and Qihai skillfully rubbed the cards.

"This is the skill I learned from the junior girl of the 78th class...It's amazing, right? Unfortunately, she only likes gambling and things like that..."

That should be, a super high school level gambler.

"So she likes winning or losing... Although she doesn't like it, but, this is her pleasure, right? If you think about it carefully... It's not incomprehensible... So, no matter what Yi-kun does, I think I will go Trying to understand... I believe that no matter what I know, Yijun, there must be a reason for what he does."

"It's just..." Qihai looked at him seriously, "You can't do things that hurt yourself... Don't do things you don't want to do, you will definitely regret it... Just like me, I skipped several games because I didn't want to participate in competitive games The competition is over, and even the newspapers have exposed it... But I don’t care, if I don’t like it, I just don’t like it. Fighting with them is just for a medal, it’s better to spend it with everyone.”

……

……

"Now you, there is no way to turn back."

An inorganic voice sounded in my heart.

"Destroyed most of the research data, you have been deemed 'out of control'... Now it is impossible not to cooperate with that woman."

Yes...it's been planned for a long time...

Now, I can only immerse myself in dreams all day long.

Those guys must be busy dealing with Munekata Kyousuke and restoring the destroyed data.

In this way, they couldn't care less about cleaning him and monitoring Enoshima's actions.

The next thing is to wait.

People at the top value their own honor more than the life and death of others.

Therefore, they will definitely become Enoshima's pawns and die in her hands.

Ahh... so boring.

Compared to her, all of this, life and death, are very boring things.

After all, it's nothing to do with him... only she wants to understand him, right?

So, don't plan the script well and let her live, can't you?

It's a pity... But, I don't intend to explain all the actions.

No matter what kind of world it is, there will always be a group of people who are dissatisfied... However, there are always some words to deceive them, make them feel satisfied, and want to endure.

Is this a chronic 'suffering disease'...

When the days become static, time becomes fast.

The world and the rules... Right is the product of the struggle... If other people don't like it, they will bring it up, if they dare not, it's their own problem.

It is their own problem to want to die.

At the very end, when time is on the verge of ending, what I always think of are those happy times.

As a 'person who shouldn't exist'... he will eventually disappear.

Well, it's okay to be a madman... go ahead and be a madman and live your life according to your dreams and not the way other people want you to.

Everything in the world is meaningless... if she can't get happiness!

Well... let me see the future after that...

……

It drives the consciousness to shuttle through the sea of ​​information, screening the required information.

He saw the black and white bear robot laughing wildly at the students who had lost their memory.

"If you don't conduct school-level referees, you can't survive? After all, you are enemies? This is the rule? I am very obsessed with the rules and absolutely fair."

"Do you know each other's true faces... They will kill you without paying attention? If you don't find the correct prisoner, you will be executed collectively? And the prisoner can leave."

"Don't you want to know what's going on outside...then kill it! Uh, puff, puff, puff, puff!!"

"Don't be so hypocritical? After all, you have to execute the 'murderer' in order to survive?"

If this is the rule, how do you... how to deal with it?

Do you want to resist, or do you want to be obedient and live?

But the results you see next are meaningless.

Because, whether he was willing to fight or not, Enoshima eventually got tired of playing the game and punished people who shouldn't be punished in violation of regulations.

Finally killed them all.

She stood on the high pile of corpses, laughing and weeping.

"Because of despair, there are no rules... It's really, really great."

Enoshima... you...

Like this, no way.

Can't... do it again...

The faint pain gradually became more severe, wrapping around his body like a rope.

Using the power of emotional analysis always brings unbearable pain... But if you can only see a single future, will it be more painful and more desperate?

So... what does the future hold?

If, taking everything into consideration, acknowledging the existence of all unscientific... Is there such a possibility...

what?

At the end of consciousness, before he lost consciousness again, he saw...

Blank.

Is the future...undetermined...?

……

……

After an unknown amount of time, a burst of terror and stiffness suddenly appeared in the depths of his body.

As if being stared at by someone, there will be such a realistic experience in the depths of consciousness——

It's scary, but it's also, thrillingly exciting...

The gap between reality and fantasy is instantly broken.

Extremely unscientific, a figure suddenly appeared in the depths of his consciousness.

With his appearance, the originally illusory and indistinct world suddenly has quality and sound.

That guy, with the same appearance as him, 'float' in front of him like a ghost.

Cold face, inorganic and confused eyes.

Exactly the same appearance as him.

This is a situation that cannot be analyzed with all his talents.

It's simply reached the realm of supernatural.

"Who are you."

The man squinted at him: "Who am I... Is it that important? No matter how many light-years we are separated, the first words we intuit when we see people are the same."

Completely inexplicable.

"How did you come to me."

"That's what I wanted to ask you."

Obviously, because of some inexplicable circumstances, he broke into the place of the same inexplicable person.

In the same world, there will not be two of the same people.

So this person, is...?

"Is that so... People on this side cannot see the existence on the other side... But those who are already in between can see the existence. Because you have closed all your senses, you can see me."

The man's words, tone, and expression, strangely, couldn't catch up at this moment.

What's even more strange is that according to what the man said, he is still alive...why did he see him dead?

When he thought this way, the image of the person in front of him collapsed like fragments.

The rest is utter emptiness without a trace.

The strange thing is that even though there is nothing, it still feels like there is something there.

"Are you there...Who are you? Why did I fall asleep many times before that, but I couldn't see you?"

Because you admit that 'everything' exists...anything is possible.The existence that is denied by many people can also be felt by you.To put it simply, I am someone who is already dead, "Super high school-level fortune teller", "Super high school-level onmyoji" and the like, you can feel my existence occasionally.

Although his voice could no longer be heard, strangely, the meaning was still conveyed.

"'Super High School Level Fortune Teller'... is it a talent that has been called 'supernatural talent' together with 'Super High School Level Luck' by the council, and has been studied repeatedly but with no results..."

Yes, their ability to predict the future is different from analysis in the general sense... When you are hopeless, you also choose to believe in supernatural things, which are scoffed at by ordinary people.Originally, they inherited their physiques, but they have been covered by the "common sense" that has been guided.

"The ability that has not been researched...how could it be used on me? The teachers didn't say this..."

That's right... what about your luck ability?

"As long as you have the ability to analyze, to some extent, the result is destined to get what you want..."

Unfortunately not.You always deceive yourself with such reasons.But, how did you become like this little by little, I can see clearly—really, why didn’t such a good thing happen to me...

After I died, that "lucky" got brain disease and went to the school for treatment... Since the experiment had already failed once, the school expected his luck to make the experiment successful, so they fucked with that "lucky" a lot Similar brain organization... Then a lot of experiments were done to see which one was the working structure.

Then, your brain was first 'put together' into that shape... and then it was modified many times... The structure of the 'Super High School Level Onmyouji' that died earlier was also used on this... This Waiting for nonsense measures, it turns out that it really works.

How lucky... How come I died on it because of rejection.

"Then you are...?"

I am?I don't even know who I am anymore.

Like you, I have also been subjected to a lot of experiments, and the brain structure is completely different from the original... According to the theory of Onmyoji, even the soul is different.

Unlike you, I was given a name, and I don't know who I am... However, according to the code name, I am 01.

A waste product that no one wants, a failed product named 01, out of the throne.

"I am not an exile from the throne...my name is..."

What are you kidding.Except for the name you were given, and this skin, you are completely different from the original material...the successful 'Super High School Level Hope'...no, now you should be called, 'Super High School Level Despair' ?

Indulging in the destruction of the world...an accomplice who killed countless people...'Super High School Level Hope'...haha, what an irony.

Although I really want to say that I'm jealous of you, but now it seems that it doesn't make any sense...

I was the same back then. I was deceived into saying that I would have talents, and I only had to consider the risk of success... I never thought that after I succeeded, I would become like this...

Haha, if it were me, I would kill them all just like you, right?

Who would it be to push people into hell and laugh at people who turned into demons?

So, vent your anger and hatred to your heart's content... I'll be happy.

In the past few months, I have been able to feel your pain, and I am very happy.

After all... this way, I won't feel so miserable... I am the most unfortunate... person...

At this time, his voice suddenly became complicated and indistinct.

"you……"

Ah, once the obsession... disappears, there is no way to maintain it... Anyway, I am very glad that you can see me, junior.

Finally...someone found me...even though...I already had a...replacement...

But at this moment... I'm not alone.

You will... be overwhelmed by the thoughts of many beings... What awaits you is... an endless hell...

At that time... can you be sure... who you are...

"I am not miserable...It is completely different from you...As long as there is someone important, I will know who I am. For the future she expects, even if I am bound again, I want to live with her. "

Ah... So, it was for this reason that you ruined everything...

Hmph, cunning, really too cunning...

Doesn't this seem to be my misfortune? !

It seemed that the anger was rising again, and his voice stabilized a little.

"No. If you really think you are unlucky, you will really be the unluckiest person...Although, I don't seem qualified to say that to you, sorry..."

Are you laughing at me for having no future... Hehe, you too, a person without a future.

People who are going to disappear, dare to talk about the future? !

So, you are the same as me, no, you are more miserable!

At least I'm still free!

……

Crazy voices flooded into the brain like an explosion, and the strong negative emotions almost drove people crazy.

He now understands what is 'endless hell'.

Since I was able to see it for the first time, there is no limit anymore.

It is no longer the consciousness on the intelligence level, but many painful voices are disturbing.

They all shouted, 'Go to die', 'Go to rest'...

"Despair at the super high school level" deserves to die for committing such a great crime...

That is the opposite side of the 'life instinct', the 'death instinct'...

Not all long to live... Those who suffer and cannot escape, long for the end.

This feeling of turmoil... It's just like the noise from before.

A person who is bound by the noise cannot understand the real desire, and can only instinctively follow the path that others want him to want.

Extremely resistant, but also afraid of being independent from the crowd.

Such a sense of fear and anticipation for freedom turned into endless pain, clamoring for relief.

People who suffer from the pain of being torn apart from the outside world and themselves, and who suffer from "suffering diseases", can be divided into acute and chronic.

The acute ones become lunatics, and the chronic ones become machines and tools.

From the beginning, he also struggled with whether to go against his own path.

But when I think about how little time is left, I feel that everything is already fearless.

Go ahead and be a madman and live your dreams not the way other people want you to!

I want to live with her... together!

Everything else has nothing to do with me!

As long as she is enough!

……

The method really worked, and the emotions of other people could no longer invade him.

It has been decided.

Bringing his efforts in, not just looking at the future, but creating a future that wants to be created!

……

……

The sound of high heels sounded in the room, and a blonde woman with heavy makeup appeared in front of him.

"Yeah, hello, senior... It is said that you made a lot of money before! Why don't you let Dunzijiang join in the fun?"

"I'm waiting for your arrival."

The calm and calm voice startled Enoshima.

"what?"

"What I did should have been out of sight, and your preparations have also been completed."

"Suddenly like this, what is the senior talking about?"

"There's no need to pretend...things are as you expected, isn't that just right."

"Hey, wait, isn't this a smooth and desperate thing? Don't you have a motive for doing this, senior?"

"In terms of motivation..." He paused, "Your purpose is to make all of this hopeless... My purpose is to see which is more unpredictable between hope and despair... The purpose just happens to be the same, Shouldn't they cooperate with each other? Like you, I am also desperate for such a world, where everything always happens according to the law... Under your despair, who will win the duel between them and you? The result, I want to know."

"Haha...hope is a boring pre-conciliation, chaotic and viscous despair is so sweet... as long as you grasp the handle, anyone is a very useful tool?"

"Using the contradictions of all of them, beyond your violence."

"Outside of violence?! Hey, what are you planning?"

"Boring... If it weren't for killing each other by triggering the despair in people's hearts, would you still be 'Super High School Level Despair'...As 'Super High School Level Despair', what you are currently calling, the embodiment of 'Despair' ’, Isn’t such a thing easy? A simple extreme violent confrontation, such a degree of despair, is not qualified.”

The twin-tailed girl smiled triumphantly: "Absolutely——satisfy the seniors! Then, can you give me some advice?"