[Projectile] You smile at the hope called despair

"Seven Seas... Seven Seas..."

Faintly, someone was calling her.

Um……?

It seems... while playing games... fell asleep?

I want to sit up, but... my head hurts... I feel a little dizzy and cold...

Immediately afterwards, he was pushed back by a pair of hands.

"Please don't force it... You have a fever now. I have prepared some medicine. Take it quickly."

This voice is... Yijun?

Nanami suddenly opened her eyes.

Yijun looked at her with some sadness.

"I knocked on the door before, but Qihai didn't respond. I wanted to see what was going on, so I came in without permission—sorry. You should take good care of yourself, Qihai... playing games in the house with the air conditioner on all the time, it's harmful to your body Not good... Also, eat well and stop buying so many instant noodles."

Yijun...you came to find me...you played...

He wanted to open his mouth, but found that his throat was dry and sore.

"Stop talking, Nanami—I can see what you want to say. At least until you recover, let me take care of you."

Yijun can come to see me... I am very happy.But sorry, I can't play with you now.

"What are you talking about now... Nanami can get better soon, I am happier than anything else. Nanami... It always makes people worry. Take care of yourself first... Take the medicine, and then I will prepare something you like."

Yijun...don't go yet...will you stay with me?

"...I'll just stay here."

After taking the medicine, Yijun tightly held Qihai's outstretched hand, and stuffed her quilt again.

Ichi-kun...I'm very lonely right now...

Thinking of this, Qihai felt like crying.

I hate holidays... the previous holidays, I was so happy when we all hung out...

This year... everyone has their own affairs, so they can't play with me all the time... I'm so sad...

I want to ask them out... But, it will disturb them... I can only play games at home like before...

Although I have participated in game competitions...but it's all competitive...I hate it.

A lot of things I have done before... I have no interest in doing them...

I want to be with everyone, do different things, go to different places...

I also went to find Hinata-kun... but found that he had disappeared...

"I'm sorry... Qihai, I should... come to see you earlier." Yijun gently wiped the tears on Qihai's face with a handkerchief, and smiled, "Now Qihai doesn't have to be sad... I'm here. "

"So let's take a good rest now... After Qihai is better, let's do more things together..."

After that, Yijun kept talking with Qihai.

Sometimes I get bored, and when it comes to games—

Yijun moved the game console to Qihai's bed—and got a big display screen.

Yijun was operating, Qihai was pointing, and the two of them had a great time.

After Qihai got better, she played various board games with Yijun in the living room.

Maybe it's because one king has no talent, and the two win and lose each other.

When it came time for the launch ceremony of the new game, Yijun replaced Qihai and queued up overnight to buy——

Then hand over the new game to her as soon as possible, and pass the level with her.

When it was time to eat, the two of them were in the kitchen, thinking of ways to make various new dishes.

If Yijun said this, Qihai would eat well.

Qihai felt that she was very happy to be able to do so many novel things with Yijun.

Perhaps because of his ability to read minds, Yijun is always very considerate.

He always prepares everything in advance and is very good at cleaning the room.

Two weeks later, Nanami had fully recovered, and Yikun had no reason to stay here.

But she still secretly hoped that Yijun would not leave.

……

"Qami... from now on, you have to treat yourself well and take good care of yourself. Don't forget everything because of playing games. If you're good, you can do more interesting things—otherwise, I won't let it go."

"Yijun...are you leaving?"

"Well. Because, there is something I have to do. I'm afraid I'm going to a far away place too..."

"...Is there a chance to meet again?"

"Qihai." Yijun looked at her sadly, "Don't always stick to the past... In the future, there will definitely be more encounters. Qihai wants to make many, many friends, do many, many things, and many people will I like you. Because Nanami's smile is the most beautiful—as long as you can always look forward to a happy world full of smiles, it will definitely come. No matter how difficult you encounter...as long as you don't give up, everything will turn around... …to live and continue to believe that anything can start over—no one expects true despair.”

Why……

"There are no absolute rules in the world, and everything has the possibility to change... If you don't like it, you have to fight hard and try to change it... Believe in yourself and fight with those who believe in you. Don't blindly Complying...that's a sign of giving up. People who are not undergraduates, regardless of their identities, can understand well..."

——Here it is again, this kind of lonely expression that seems to want to say goodbye to everything.

"Yijun... what will happen to Yijun?"

"I..." Yikun's voice lowered, "Qami, if one day I forget everything, lose myself, do many unforgivable things, and even be resented by everyone... you will try to continue Do you believe me?"

"Yijun, why...you talk like that..."

"Just... let's make a metaphor. Such an extreme situation... If it's Nanami, would you want to understand it, what about me like this?"

"Why do you use such a cruel metaphor... Yikun is not such a person." Qihai's voice trembled, "I know Yikun's heart...Yikun is a gentle person, and he doesn't want to hurt others at all... ...that's impossible."

"I mean what if? Nanami."

"If... Ichi-kun becomes like that one day and does something that cannot be forgiven, no one will believe it anymore... I still, will believe in Ichi-kun... Believe in Ichi-kun, just like me, looking forward to full of smiles I will try to understand Yikun again, and I want to understand why Yikun became like this...because...if you don't believe that things will get better...how can you work hard, how can there be hope?"

"What if I lose all my senses and emotions... I can't even hear Nanami's words? Will Nanami be afraid of me like this?"

"I'm not afraid... I'm more afraid of Yikun being left behind than I am afraid... I will definitely find you and stay by Yikun's side! Even if I can't share the pain, even if I can't fully understand...I will always go Persevere until Yijun is reawakened! It's like an unreasonable game...don't think about success or failure...if you work hard, you will definitely get something! This is my business, even if other people don't understand it, it doesn't matter ... Ichikun is my friend, I like Ichikun's smile, I want to get back such Ikkun... No matter what, I will go to save Ikkun! If I didn't care about anything because I was afraid of Ikkun, Ichi-kun is still very lonely now... Now that I can see Ichi-kun accompanying me like this... I will feel that I have done something amazing..."

Yijun showed a smile: "Hearing what Qihai said, I feel relieved... and I have made up my mind. Qihai... must continue to believe in herself and be able to do what she wants to do... In this case, it is considered Miracles can happen too."

A gentleman?

What is your decision?

"Yijun... Do you want to do... things that hurt yourself..." Qi Hai panicked, "Impossible... As a friend, I don't allow..."

"Yeah... everyone has something they have to do..." Yi Jun smiled bleakly, "But it is precisely because it is something I choose that I truly become 'me'... I have also made up my mind and have to bear the corresponding consequences... After all, it is all for myself."

What is this.

Qihai just wanted to stop it, but found that her consciousness gradually became blurred.

"Yijun...you...what did you...why...do this..."

"I'm also a very willful person... I don't ask anyone to forgive me, and I don't ask anyone to understand... If you want to hate me and kill me, I am also willing. You can make such a choice, you can decide your own In the future... I will feel that I will be a human being, not a tool... If there is a chance to meet again... I... I will ask Qihai. I am very grateful to meet Qihai... because of Qihai Believe me, I will never, fall into despair..."

"Qihai...remember...be careful of the school's senior management...to live well..."

……

……

If possible, I hope to be able to keep you away from that place of right and wrong.

— Seven Seas.

I am so lucky to have met you.

No matter which time it is, you want to find me, understand me, and find happiness with me.

In this cold, desperate world, always valued by talent——

You are literally a gift from God.

You are very grateful, the former me will accompany you and give you many suggestions.

But the world that can see the value of others, and try to move forward together, looking forward to creating more smiles——

With such a mood... Nanami, you are so special.

I am very happy and fortunate to be able to help you and move forward together with you.

I like what you said about the class.

From there, I saw another possibility, the happy world that I had long since given up pursuing.

So, I don't blame you at all.

Please, stop feeling guilty about this.

It's a pity... I will never have the chance to express my feelings like this again.

I may have been Hinata Chou once, but now I am infected with so many sins, I will no longer be Hinata Chou in your mind.

I want to protect you, I want to protect the world you want to believe in, and I want to look forward to the future you look forward to.

I want to move forward with you.

But the reality is not that we can usher in good things just by praying all the time.

At that time, I could only watch helplessly, and all kinds of inexplicable and helpless despair took away your smile.

If I just keep watching and don't do anything, like this... I can't forgive.

Even if Qihai says you, no matter what blow or failure, she won't give up——

I will never forgive myself for being like this.

It's a pity... In this world, the result of having no power is that even such a mood is taken advantage of.

At that time, I was deprived of my name, forgot everything, lost all emotions, feelings and thinking, and could only move forward mechanically according to the arrangements of those people.

—Became the existence I hated the most before.

It even keeps hurting you.

But even if it was me like this, you didn't dislike me, you still wanted to get back my long-lost heart.

Because the world in your eyes is so beautiful——

You like everyone's smiles.

I have been trying my best to understand everyone and do things that bring smiles to everyone.

Many things are also in this mood, and I have new fun.

I know that this feeling of liking is so tenacious, but——

Lean on your friends a little and it will be easier to go.

Nanami is really cute.

So cute that I want to keep looking at you and stay with you forever.

Although I haven't said it all the time, in my mind, Qi Hai is really worthy of pity.

You obviously hoped that the atmosphere of Feng Academy would be like that, but you still became friends with everyone.

Wherever there is you, there is also joy.

Therefore, I will absolutely not allow such a world to come to an end.

Although people have many different desires, the intertwining of each other has brought a lot of helplessness and conflicts——

But as long as they're all looking forward to that wonderful world, things won't end in despair.

Just get rid of all the hindrances and unnecessary rules—

new possibilities will be discovered - they will finally understand that there is no set path and the future can be changed at will.

If you lose all thinking and just mechanically follow the prescribed path——

That's not living at all.

Therefore, I want to regain my consciousness, destroy that hateful research, and destroy all the 'Hope Principles', no matter how great the sacrifice is-

Even if everyone hates it.

People cannot expect to be saved by some 'hope', they can stand on their own, think by themselves, and decide their own future.

I look forward to the day when all people can get rid of their identity stereotypes and work hard to understand each other instead of being judged by their abilities mechanically.

From each other's experiences and encounters, they are jointly looking for answers they don't know.

Even if the future is already doomed——

But there must be something special about that.

There may be many conflicts and sacrifices - but it will be a free world.

A world where all people dare to do what they want to do and realize their true desires.

I will never allow that possibility to end.

……

Once I take the road of rebellion, I will definitely be dehumanized by them again.

Maybe to forget everything I felt again, to do something irrevocable again.

But, at least for now, I want to make my own choices, leaving future possibilities open.

I believe, at least, the later 'he' will wonder why I did such a thing——

Then set foot on the path of wanting to know me again.

When I think about it, I know that no matter what - I'm not going to disappear completely.

Seven Seas.

If possible, I hope to be awakened by you again.

Even if there was no place for me in the world at that time, I knew that at least there would be you, who would try to continue to believe in me.

Such me, no matter what, will not fall into despair.

God—please take my hand a little bit.