Touched by a ghost, I choose death

Happy people are always the same, but unhappy people are unhappy in their own way.

Kakashi felt that he might be rated as the worst person in the world.

When he was very young, because of a mission failure, his father was under too much pressure from public opinion, so he chose to commit suicide, leaving him alone in this world.

His father's death ended his innocent childhood.

Later, he met Uchiha Obito and Nohara Rin in the Konoha shelter.

"Kakashi, don't feel that the whole world owes you." Obito once said to him so harshly.

Only then did he know that Obito's family died in the disaster, leaving him alone.

Almost everyone in Konoha Shelter has a tragic past.It is not advisable to be miserable, they must look forward.

After that, the three of them entered the Criminal Investigation Section together and became the group with the highest detection rate.

After the first mission was over, Obito took in the orphan.Although Kakashi also has sympathy for orphans, he is rational.

Temporary sympathy is irresponsible, and only if you can guarantee that you will always treat her as an obligation in the future, then consider the matter of adoption.That's what he told Obito.

Obito, who originally thought it was just a whim, actually began to treat the orphan with heart.And her household registration soon entered Uchiha's house and changed her name to Uchiha Nanaya.

When Kakashi saw Nanaya for the first time, she felt that she was very similar to her former self.The appearance is very indifferent, as if isolated from the world, aloof and arrogant.But there is still a slight flame in the heart.He called it the expectation of the good things in the world.

Fortunately, Obito made this fire of expectation grow bigger and bigger, which not only made Nanaya feel warm, but also Kakashi gradually planned to open his heart.

However, the fire of this cluster of expectations was extinguished abruptly by the news of his death.

Obito's death completely broke the ice in Kakashi's heart, making him willing to treat the world gently in the future, just like him.

However, this news of death was a fatal blow to Qiye who had been dependent on him since childhood.

Kakashi soon discovered that Nanaya, who used to show a faint smile, maintained a deadpan expression after Obito's death, with ethereal eyes, as if looking for something important through the air.

It was agreed that he would fulfill his duty for the rest of his life, but in the end he left the burden to him.

Kakashi stood in front of Obito's grave for a day, unable to stop feeling sad.

This was the second time he was devastated after his father's death.But this time, it was different from the despair of the first time. Instead, he planned to keep walking with the love and care of his companions.

So he became Uchiha Nanaya's guardian logically, but this time she didn't change her surname to Hatake, and it wasn't necessary.

Because of this surname, at least he will remember that his life was saved by Uchiha Obito.And he will fulfill his last wish and take good care of Lin and Qiye.

Obito likes Lin, and he always sees it, but Lin likes him.Her eyebrows and eyes are full of tenderness, but he can only choose to turn a blind eye.

This complicated love triangle finally collapsed completely because of the death of one person.

After that, they all tacitly stopped mentioning the past, and tacitly doubled their love to Qiye.

For them, Nanaya is certainly an important person, but also an emotional sustenance for Obito.

Under the joint care of Kakashi and Lin, Nanaya's eyes gradually became warm again with great difficulty, but a bigger incident occurred, which completely plunged the situation into a dark abyss.

Afterwards, Kakashi had nightmares all night and all night.

In the dream, he raised his hand and pierced Lin's chest fiercely.Blood splattered everywhere, staining his eyes red.

When he woke up, he was already sweating profusely, and there were still tears in the corners of his eyes.

Although the reality is not as cruel as the dream, Lin was not killed by him himself.But it was also I who did not kill Boren, and Boren died because of me.

Whenever he thinks back to the choice of the trolley problem, he sadly finds that even if he is given another chance, he will definitely make the same choice.

Every human life is precious, and no one is worth sacrificing.But in such an emergency situation where he had to make a choice, he, who had always understood righteousness, could only choose to give up Lin.

Those who are left suffer the most.He also thought about letting it go.For the third time in his life, when he was devastated, what happened next caught him off guard again.

Uchiha Nanaya, who was rescued from criminals, fell into confusion.

Minors suffer huge shocks one after another, and their already fragile minds are easily distorted and collapsed.The great changes in Nanaya allowed Kakashi to take part of his sad time and focus on her.

Seven nights changed after the amnesia.The faint smile that I used to see is gone now, and there is only a blank and indifferent face.

She still kept going to school, but stopped talking to him too much.

He knew that she always wanted to remember everything in the past, but Kakashi and the psychiatrist wanted her to forget.

Children who have not yet perfected the three views, are psychologically fragile, and lack love since childhood are the most likely to go astray.

As an adult, Kakashi was once unwilling to live in this world after suffering a severe injury, so Nanaya is self-evident.

On a certain day, Kakashi keenly noticed that Nanaya had changed again.

The explanation given by the psychiatrist was that the personality changes after the acute phase of schizophrenia, but he felt that such a change seemed like a different person.But after watching her gradually brighten up in her heart, he sincerely looked forward to such a disobedient change.

It wouldn't be too much to say that there have been any huge changes, but Qiye loves reading books more, and can slowly start joking with him.He felt that she was slowly opening up again, which was really the best thing for him.

Even if it is extremely against harmony, as long as she is still alive, he will live up to Obito and Lin's expectations.Even to take care of her, he has to live a good life, and then try to create better conditions for her.

It's just that the good times didn't last long, and he lost the most important person in his life again.

His father's death ended his innocent childhood.

After his father died, he still had Obito and Rin.

Obito's death broke through his cold and indifferent illusion.

After Obito died, he still had Lin and Qiye.

Lin's death cut off his lingering feelings.

After Lin died, he only had Qiye left.

Qiye's death plunged him into endless darkness.

Japan's suicide rate ranks among the top ten in the world, with 10 suicides per 21 people.

For many people, suicide is a kind of relief, no longer have to suffer from the pain of the world.Everything starts again, maybe you can meet the dead again.

Just when he was dreaming, his companion Kai resolutely broke his hole.

"Kakashi, how about traveling around the world with me!?"

Finally, under Kai's coercion, they embarked on a journey of hiking.

I don't know whether to say Kai is a passionate fool or an emotional idiot. Their first stop is Mount Fuji, which is the most popular place for suicides.

With a pair of dead fish eyes, Kakashi remained indifferent to the beauty in front of him.

There was a sign standing at the gate of the woods, and he glanced at it boredly.

"Life is a precious gift from your parents. Please calm down and think about your parents, siblings and children. Why don't you talk to us about your troubles?"

The signature is "Fuji Yoshida Police Station Suicide Prevention Liaison Association"

His parents had already left him, he had no brothers and sisters, and his close friends who could be called brothers and sisters also left one after another, and those who could be regarded as children also died unexpectedly.

Calm down and think about it, I really can't calm down.

But after seeing this warning sign, he no longer had the mood to commit suicide.

Well, wait a little longer.He didn't know why the idea of ​​delay appeared, maybe he still had a little nostalgia for this world, but he didn't know what it was.

The savings he has accumulated over the years are enough for him to sit and eat for a long time. He took a lot of vacations intermittently, and started traveling around the world with Kai.

He became obsessed with traveling. He felt that walking around the world was like being drunk, which made him temporarily escape the pain of reality.It was only after going out for a living that he deeply felt that the world was wider than he imagined.

There are too many distracting thoughts in my heart, and when I see the magnificent nature, I will gradually smooth out the wrinkles.

Walking in the desert, he saw wisps of solitary smoke, and his eyes were full of yellow sand. In this vast sea of ​​sand, he was like an ant crawling on the ground.

In abisko, Sweden, he saw the stunning aurora.

The blue-green light beams crossed the sky with dots of white light, like a smooth ribbon, stretched out in the dark before dawn, and then covered the entire night sky.The zigzag streamers transform into various shapes, brilliant and beautiful.

This is a moment long enough to last forever.

When life is most exhausting, depressing, and hopeless, God gives you this light.It pierced through the dense darkness enough to dissipate the fog.

"It seems that we are favored by the goddess Aurora." Kakashi heard someone nearby say.

"What is Aurora?" Kay, who graduated from a sports school and doesn't like reading, naturally doesn't understand these literary things.

"The goddess in charge of the Northern Lights in Norse mythology." The female voice said very gently.

"Oh! It sounds amazing!" Kai clenched his fist excitedly.

Kakashi couldn't help turning his head curiously, just as the girl was also looking at him, their eyes met for a moment.

He saw the girl's eyes widen for a moment, and then he tried his best to maintain calm, but he still couldn't help but glanced at him.

That look is not like a girl who is unrequitedly in love, but more like an old friend reunited after a long absence.

Kakashi looked at her meaningfully, but because the other party was wearing too thick clothes and a mask, he couldn't see what kind of girl she was.

"Is senior also here to travel?" She took the initiative to strike up a conversation with him.

"Well, yes." He replied lazily.

"Can I join you?"

"you are a person?"

"Yes, yes, senior."

It is indeed not easy to meet fellow villagers in a foreign country.And the other party was an unarmed girl.It's just that she doesn't mind acting with two big men.

This time Kakashi agreed without waiting for Kai's reply.

"Hi, my name is Maite Kai! Youth, youth! Girl, come and travel around the world with us!" Kai left two lines of wide tears excitedly.

"Kakashi Hatake, please give me your advice." Kakashi still lazily introduced himself.

The girl nodded unhurriedly, and then bowed to them: "Fujiwara Nanaya, please give me your advice."

Seven nights? !

Kakashi was surprised when he heard the familiar name, but it disappeared quickly.

Although the name "Nanaya" is not as popular as "Yuki", but there are so many Japanese, it is not surprising that they have the same name.