the depths of that autumn

After dinner, Lin Xi and I took a walk on the forest path...

Lin Xi said, "Xia Yan, have you gained weight?"

I felt a "click" in my heart!Immediately go back: "You just gained weight!"

She said: "Go out and walk more! How dare you sit in front of the computer all day..."

"I didn't gain weight!" I looked at her seriously.

She said: "You are not married yet, remember to keep in good shape, you know?"

I smiled wryly, "I'm really not fat!"

She was silent for a while, then looked at me, her voice softened, and she said distressedly: "Xia Yan, find someone to marry."

I sat down on the grass next to me. For some reason, I couldn't express what I was thinking in words accurately at the moment, so I just shook my head...

She also sat down next to me, looking at the sunset in the sky...

We were silent for a while...

She said, "Are you really going to live your whole life alone?"

My eye sockets were wet for a moment. Aren't all bad plans in life just expedient measures in desperation?Don't those who can't ask for it have to go all out to ask for it?Do you want to annihilate your conscience and take away those that should not belong to you?Life has its beauty, I am willing, just look at its beauty.

I can only answer: "Alone is fine."

She was silent, as if sentimental like me...

Under the setting sun, the camellias not far away were swaying dazzlingly. I smiled happily, got up and walked towards it: "Pick some camellias and put them in a vase..."

The moment I touched the camellia rhizome, a sharp tingling made me withdraw my hand with a soft cry!

"What's wrong?" Lin Xi had already walked to my side.

When I looked at Camellia and was about to speak, I was shocked...

At that moment, I felt as if I had passed away, and the whole world quickly became dizzy, because what was in front of me was clearly a rose!

Bright roses swaying in the wind...

Lin Xi looked at my hand: "Don't you know that roses have thorns? Why are you so careless! Let me see..." She took my hand...

I stared at the rose and couldn't open my mouth. I thought but couldn't say the words "It was clearly a camellia just now". I just closed my lips one by one. I couldn't believe that my eyes can be so dazzled...

Lin Xi said, "It's bleeding, let's go home and deal with it."

I looked at the blood on my finger, Zensheng was so similar to this rose...

"Xia Yan..." Lin Xi pushed me, "Are you okay?" Seeing her like that, it seemed that I was in a daze just now.

"Ah? It's okay!" I regained my senses and withdrew my hand, "I think it's a camellia!"

"Oh, you are so serious!" Lin Xi scolded, "You can be wrong! Go back!"She pulled me back to walk...

I followed her back and couldn't help but look back, yes, it was Rose.How could I have read it wrong just now?It's like the flower suddenly changed from a camellia to a rose.

Just to stab me?

Or, does it know that I want to pick it and transform itself to protect itself?

Like a dream, this is the first time I have encountered it in my life.

……

It was Sunday morning when Lin Xi went back, and the weather was fine today. The puncture wound on my finger was scarred, and it still felt a little painful when I pinched it. So I had a thought, go and see the rose that stabbed me yesterday... …

In fact, I still have a glimmer of hope, and I have that kind of mood, just go and see if it is a camellia or a rose!Oh, I can't believe myself.

In fact, I know, I hope that I am wrong, I always hope that such and such strange events will happen, just like I still believe that there is another world, I will not believe what I see [-]%, I know The hidden behind the surface, I believe that all things have spirituality, I look forward to the plant that stabbed me yesterday, it is camellia...

Yes, that's right, camellias don't have thorns!But if it was a camellia that stabbed me yesterday, then this would be a strange event!What's so strange about being pricked by a rose?Getting stung by a camellia is the real thrill, isn't it?I can be happy about this for several days, and even have the motivation to live and feel the color of life. Isn't this something to be happy about?

Lin Xi often scoffs at my thoughts that she thinks are abnormal: "Are you going crazy? Girlish heart!"

And I usually bestow one word on her sarcasm plus contempt, "Fuck off."

But when I walked to the spot yesterday, I clearly saw that what was swaying in the wind was a rose.

Oh, it's so boring.

I touched its petals lightly, turned and left.

Why was it considered a camellia in the first place?Are you really dizzy?I need to sleep more.

Go home to sleep.

……

People are more vulnerable emotionally at night, and it is usually at this time that they will do things that make them regret when they wake up the next morning; but it is also at this time that they dare to do things that they dare not do during the day things, such as confession.

Lin Xi's two male friends were lost by her confession, and she regretted it very much afterwards.I don't think it's a big deal, sometimes you have to confess to let you know whether you like this person or not.When I was in college, I always thought that I liked a boy, and I called to confess my love at night, but I was dumbfounded the next day!It seemed that the person was not me last night, and I suddenly found that I couldn't like him anymore!So I made a second call and told him I don't like him anymore.I guess he was too ignorant over there.

In fact, there is no fickleness in relationships. The so-called change of heart is just that you don't love deeply enough.You are not loving enough, time can prove it for you, but what most people use to prove it is not time, but marriage.

So don't let our lives go too hastily.Take your time, you will find its eternal beauty.