[Comprehensive] BE saves the world

That's falling, and it's also diving.

All the way to deep, deep darkness.

Like weightlessness, like drowning.

In the directionless chaos, he fell into the deepest part of her heart.

"Every time I see her, she has that expression of wanting to scream."

At some point, a Gothic Lolita-style girl appeared behind him, speaking in an inexplicably lonely tone.

"Like Dorian Gray who was afraid of her own picture, she was afraid to see herself as she really was, like the monster who dared not look in the mirror, and she tried to avert her eyes from who she really was. Human beings have always been afraid of who they really are , if you can’t see the real wound, you can lie to yourself that you can go on, if you can’t see how ugly you have become, you can tell yourself that I’m not that bad.”

The girl's tone was so indifferent and cold.

"Even so, do you want her to see her true self? In the novel, Dorian Gray finally wields a knife and destroys the portrait that represents his true face. In the fairy tale, the dwarf sees his true face in the mirror, because Unable to accept the cruel reality and die of heartbreak - I ask again, even if the result becomes like this, do you still want her to face it, the real herself?"

Hearing this, El-Melloi II just sighed slightly.

"That's wrong, ma'am," he said calmly. "If Dorian Gray hadn't let the portrait bear his guilt, if he hadn't used the canvas to cover up his sin and ugliness, he wouldn't have been so wrong in the end. If the dwarf had not been dragged into the cruel world, there would be nothing wrong with him not realizing his ugliness. But he had been brought to the grand stage of the birthday of the Spanish princess, and had been dragged into cruelty. In reality, his tragedy is already inevitable. If he did not look in the mirror, then the dwarf who rashly went to show his love to the princess, what awaited him next would be more cruel than a heartbroken death ending."

"No matter how hurtful the truth is, it's better than a lie... Do you think so?"

Tokitsuki Kaze asked.

"Even if the person involved wants to escape all this more than anyone else?"

"Escape can't lead to happiness." The man continued with a somewhat wistful expression, "If you can't see who you really are, you can't see what you can do. Keep covering your eyes and replace the truth with lies , Then, you will not be able to see the roads around you, and you will not know what choices to make. Those most important memories, those irreplaceable treasures, will become impossible to see clearly.”

A little... I thought of myself a long time ago.

Refusing to admit his own incompetence, refusing to face the cruel reality of the magic world, and stepping into the vortex of the Holy Grail War willfully and recklessly, how stupid and shallow it is to the point of being ridiculous.

In the process, how many wrong choices did he make.

Although he doesn't regret participating in the Fourth Holy Grail War, he always regrets that his stupid and incompetent self dragged down the king.

Therefore, he will never make the same mistake again.

Deceiving oneself, deceiving oneself, unwilling to face up to oneself, unwilling to face one's own wounds, unwilling to admit one's fault... This kind of thing is really too stupid.

He will not let his students fall into the same vortex.

"Escape is the furthest path from happiness, ma'am," he said. "Escape from reality, from yourself, and indulging in lies and illusions, will only lead you farther and farther from the right path. She has to do There's no time for her to go round and round in the wrong direction."

Therefore, he must be here to pull that person out.

Because...she needs someone so much, bring that mirror in front of her.

Or, take her by the hand and lead her to the mirror.

"You are indeed a qualified magician." It didn't sound like admiration or ridicule, the girl just said this lightly, "Even if you tear her heart apart, you still have to let her move on."

"Because that is the path she chose." El-Melloi II's tone was equally steady, "As a teacher, the only thing I can do is to guard her path."

Tokitsuki Kazuno was silent for a moment, then suddenly smiled very lightly.

"Then, I'm relieved." Her tone was calm and peaceful, "The third sg is not in my hands, but, I believe, you have already found it, right?"

"Ah." El-Melloi II responded briefly, and looked at the glowing Five Stopping Mind in his hand, "Hiding in this darkness... the last secretgarden, I have found it."

It was as if the darkness itself was glowing.In the center of the chaos, there is a tiny black light flickering.

Countless black lights swam around, swimming around El-Melloi II like swimming fish, as if confirming something, stardust-like flashes floated up and down around the five-stop mind concept in his hand.

The long-haired man took a deep breath and spoke his conclusion.

"The last sg is [Laziness]."

Going deep into the hearts of others, prying into the girl's privacy, peeling off her disguise step by step, forcing her to face her true self... This process is definitely not a pleasant process.

The so-called sg is a secret that others don't want to admit, and don't want others to know no matter what.To expose them, to force the other party to understand with oneself... This is really, the most despicable crime.

Especially like this, tearing off the last mask and forcing the core that the person least wants to admit, this kind of thing will not make people feel happy.

However, he still had to do it.

"Escaping from the self is laziness. Immersed in endless self-blame, you don't have to face the accusations of others. Trapping yourself in the darkness of self-destruction means you don't have to try to work hard. To the real self By turning a blind eye and avoiding talking about the real dilemma, you can take the easier way of life for granted."

Holding the last sg tightly in his hands, El-Melloi II took a step forward and launched one powerful attack after another against the darkness.

Words turned into arrows, words turned into swords, they tore through the camouflage and pierced the darkness.

The whole mind labyrinth vibrated, so vibrated that even in the void, one could feel the shaking and pain of the master of the mind.The space is shaking, there is a silent roar in the darkness, and the ripples of grief shake the entire labyrinth of mental images.But El-Melloi II did not retreat, he moved forward again, and swung his only weapon at the woman who was trapped in this chaos.

That is the irrefutable truth.That is an inescapable argument.

"It's natural for people to become lazy when faced with a situation they can't do anything about. When they're in pain and want to run away, of course people run away. Everyone doesn't want to do things they don't want to do. It doesn't Nothing to blame, lady."

He said.

"However, people also have things to do. No matter how painful it is to do it, it will be even more painful if you don't do it, so it is something you have to do, isn't it?"

He stretched out his hand into the darkness, and with the final announcement, the darkness began to tremble and began to retreat before him.

"At the end of the day, it's something you have to do for yourself. So get up, lady. This is not the time to slack off, the time off is over."

Under that radiance, darkness shattered before him.

The master of the mind, who was imprisoned in the void by countless chains, finally appeared in front of him.She lowered her head, and no one could see what kind of expression she was showing at this moment.

"...Why, do you want to come to this kind of place?"

she asked in a trembling voice.

"I hate it, right? You already know what an arrogant, despicable, cunning, selfish and lazy woman I am. Why do you still come here?"

At the end, the sound almost turned into a scream.Totally indecent, ugly crying of a child.

"Wouldn't you be able to go out if you let Gray release the treasure? What's so interesting, what does it have to do with you... What good is it to you to save someone like me! I don't want you to come, I don't want you to come I didn't ask you to save me! I can handle my affairs by myself, I don't need help from others at all...Why did you make it like this, isn't it just...it's not like...this is what I use to sell Do you come to sympathize with you!? My affairs have nothing to do with you, I have done everything myself... I don’t need you to sympathize with me! I have nothing to sympathize with!!!”

"……………………"

El-Melloi II wiped his face and sighed deeply.

Alright, ten years of feng shui turns, this is the retribution of Lao Tzu's death back then.Although it is said that there is a saying in the East that there is a teacher's inheritance, but why should it be passed on in such a strange place!

I always feel that if this goes on like this, one day among my students there will be the kind of stupid [beep] who stole the teacher's holy relic to participate in the Holy Grail War... No, no, no, this kind of thing is still unlikely, after all, it can be stupid [beep] 】People who reach that level are idiots who meet once in 4000 years... People still have to have confidence in their own future [reluctantly].

"Lady." He interrupted the girl's self-abandonment and opened his hands, "I understand your almost collapsed mood now, but I don't hate you, nor do I think you are pitiful."

"……………………"

The girl's voice suddenly weakened, and it took him a long time to hear her timid voice.

"...Didn't hate me?" Her voice hesitated, "Don't you think I'm pitiful?"

"Yes."

El-Melloi II walked forward with steady steps and a calm voice.

"After all this..." He paused politely when he said this, "I'm sure, you are indeed someone who can accomplish that goal. I don't hate what you have done in the past, and I don't hate what you will do in the future You have done a lot of great things, even if you deny yourself and you look down on yourself because of it, I don’t think you have done anything wrong.”

“……………………”

She was really silent this time.It seemed that he couldn't believe what he heard.El-Melloi II walked forward, and as he approached, things that were previously invisible became visible now.

Imprisoned in countless chains is a girl without a face.

Just like the countless corpses on the first floor of the maze, the girl who lost her appearance.When the blank face turned to him, it almost looked like a scene cut out of some horror movie.

However, for some reason, El-Melloi II did not feel fear.

He opened his hand, and the three balls of light merged in his hand, and the three bodies slowly merged into one, turning into a pale face.

Not glamorous, not charming, no matter it is far from Frederica's or Rebecca's beauty, it can't even be called delicate, ordinary face.

Even if he doesn't need anyone to remind him, this is the true face of the master of this mind labyrinth.

Played too many roles, said too many other people's words, lost her own face, almost lost herself... the real her.

"You really are an idiot."

After looking at that face for a while, El-Melloi II suddenly said this.

"Because I'm too selfish, I'm too afraid of hurting others."

"Because I am very calculating, I always feel that what I am doing is not good enough."

"I can't do anything because I'm going to suffer for other people's pain."

He stared at the woman in front of him with a wry smile on his face.

"How...to the mourners."

"Do you think this is integrity?" The female voice was almost bitter, and she smiled self-deprecatingly, "Even if I have done so many bad things, do you still want to say this is integrity?"

"Do you think bad is all there is to it?"

El-Melloi II did not answer directly, but asked rhetorically.

"Lady, when I was very young, I stole my teacher's holy relic, and for my own foolishness, I recklessly threw myself into the Fourth Holy Grail War. In that Holy Grail War, my The teacher died, I saw hell, my incompetence and stupidity led to the defeat of the king I summoned... I did many things wrong, many things."

When talking about these things, the wry smile on the corners of the long-haired man's lips became heavier, but he continued to speak, almost confessing, spreading out words that he had never spoken to anyone before her.

That is not a necessary confession, and it can even be said that it is a completely unnecessary confession.But he did it anyway.

He said, but I definitely don't think that everything I did in that Holy Grail War was bad.

He said, I won't say that the past me was useless other than being bad.

He said, so don't just deny yourself, lady.

"At that time, on the second or third floor of the maze, you once said that it would be better not to have met you, and they will not forgive you, right?"

When he said this, the wry smile on Er Shi's face almost turned into a sarcastic smile.He sighed, his green eyes fixed on the woman in front of him without even a moment.

"Do you think that, lady? Do they—the ones you've loved, the ones who matter most to you—do they think that too?"

"but I……"

She seemed to want to refute something, but she couldn't categorically say the phrase "Of course they won't forgive me".

El-Melloi II looked at her quietly, as if he wanted to see her heart—no, they were already in her heart, so this gaze probably wanted to engrave some important words on her heart. Let her mind.

"That's why I said, don't indulge in self-deception and illusions, lady." He said, "Because the result is not satisfactory, you forget the truth in the process."

Er Shi looked at himself, the most uneasy student, with a little more helplessness in his tone.

He asked: "Lady, have you ever done something that tramples on other people's hearts? Have you deliberately deceived, tortured, or hurt them? Have you involved people who have nothing to do with it, and enjoyed their pain?"

This person is really too honest.

he thinks.

Until I can't bear a child's crying, until I criticize myself too much.

Obviously... no one would really blame her.

"Think back, what they said to you, did they ever blame you? Not who you imagined them to be, but who they were, who were the ones you spent those times with."

What have those people who have spent warm times with her ever said to her?

As if being called into a distant memory by his words, in his hands, the woman frowned slightly, lost in thoughts of the past.

Like salvaging gold sand from the long river of memories, she salvaged the broken brilliance bit by bit.It was the momentary light that once illuminated her life, worn away by time, blown away by the years, lost in the long past, a tiny ray of light.

So small, so fragile, so tiny light.

But, that can also illuminate something.

Like dots of fire, those words floated up, illuminating her little by little.

It was the sentence left by the young man who once embraced her with a raging fire, it's great that I can be loved by you like this.

It was the sentence that the blond boy dropped when he held her hand after passing through all the evils in this world, you just need to stay there and wait for me to save you.

It was at the end of the dream, the girl who belonged to the dream world, said that sentence, you let me see a beautiful dream, I never thought that someone could let me see such a dream.

It's the man who was deceived by her and deceived by her, betrayed by her and betrayed by her. I will not forgive you if you don't deceive you forever.

Also, there is brother...

What was the last sentence that brother said to her?

"Remember." The Second King's words almost sighed, "Those things that you have forgotten, what did they say to you at that time?"

Brother, what did brother say?

Desperately thinking about the things that I forced myself to forget after that day because of the pain.

At that time, when my brother held her in his arms, what exactly did he whisper in her ear?

"No……"

It seemed to be back to that moment, when her blood was almost drained, and in the huge dizziness caused by the blood loss and wound, at that time, the man held her hand.

What did she say then?

Yes, I'm sorry.She's saying sorry to the man for being the worst sister.

Yes, the worst.Failed him in the worst way, hurt him in the worst way.

And what did he say?What kind of expression did he have at that time?

... She thought she hadn't seen it clearly.

She thought she hadn't heard clearly.

But why, at this moment, the memories became clear little by little.It was clear to the trembling hand he hugged her, to the temperature of the liquid falling on her face, to his voice.

He said...it's okay.

"It's okay. I never blamed you."

"—are they blaming you, or are you blaming yourself?"

Second asked.Without concealment and without mercy, he threw this question in front of her.

That sentence was the cruelest revelation.

That sentence is the most gentle salvation.

El-Melloi II raised his hand, gently but firmly, put the real face back on her.

Then, he gently called out her name.

Not Frederica, not Rebecca, not one of the false names she ever used.

It belonged to her, the real name.

That was the most important thing that ai gave to El-Melloi II before he entered this maze of mental images.

Hearing this name, the girl suddenly raised her head and looked at her teacher in disbelief.The Second King just looked at her, and after a while, he raised his hand a little bluntly, and patted her on the head.

"Keep your head up high," he said. "Magicians are fools. If you decide on a path, you will walk on it, no matter what others think, no matter what others say, no matter how much pain there is on this path. You are already a magician." , let me live according to the magician's method, idiot apprentice."

Speaking of this, as a teacher, his tone can be said to be hateful.

However, that was not such a harsh word.It was words that were put into her heart bit by bit with a helpless tone and an almost cautious gentleness.

Those were words that were too crazy for a magus, and words that a teacher should never say.However, he still told her.

"Since it is the path of my own choice, then no matter how many people are trampled on, I must go on. Since this is something that has to be done, then do it."

Having said that, even El-Melloi II couldn't help but smile wryly.

"Back then, I asked the black cat what would happen if you didn't do it? Remember how it said? 'No way'. That's when I thought, how cunning is that? .Yeah, nothing, you don’t lose anything, but you don’t gain anything. You don’t have to hurt anyone, and you don’t get your life back either.”

Looking at the child in front of him who was covered in bruises to save the world, even the monarch of the Clock Tower couldn't criticize her any more.

He could only tell her what he had to convey to her.

"But even so, you are not obliged to do these things. If you don't do it, no one will do it—this is deception. In fact, there is still a choice of not doing anything. Even if the world is destroyed, it has nothing to do with you—you It’s the path you’ve taken to get your life back. That’s what you want to do. That’s the path you’ve chosen.”

Recalling the path that the king had pointed out for him, he thought, he must tell this child about it.

This child who has lost himself in too long a journey and can't even see clearly what he really wants.

To go one's own way is to hurt others, to sacrifice something, to be accompanied by pain and doubt... this thing.

Those things that made him embark on the road of chasing, those things that made him less resentful of himself, he had to tell this student.

... Not just because she is his student.

"In order to realize your dream, it would not be a pity to travel all over the world."

Who in history who wanted to realize their own wishes has never trampled on the wishes of others?

"Since this is the way of life you have chosen, then practice it to the end."

If it's wrong, fix it.If it is correct, then no matter how painful it is, stick to it.

"If you retreat here, more people will fall into misfortune. Everything you have done is definitely not worthless. And you have done your best in this process, and you have not used despicable means , you didn't wantonly hurt innocent people, you did the best you could."

He had experienced so much with her before, and this time he knew almost all of her inner secrets, so he knew nothing more.

It is impossible for anyone to know better than him.

and so……

"Even if everyone denies it, I will admit it."

El-Melloi II declared so with a calm expression.

"I recognize your path. You have tried your best to do your best on the path you have traveled so far. No one can deny this, and I will not allow others to deny it."

He held the hands of this young girl, the hands of this young girl who once used all her abilities and painstaking efforts to accomplish something that is almost impossible for human beings.

He said.

"I believe you."

"No matter how difficult it will be in the future, I also believe that you will do the best you can. No matter what the result is, I also believe that you have done your best."

"So...forgive yourself."

"No matter how difficult it will be in the future, I also believe that you will do the best you can. No matter what the result is, I also believe that you have done your best."