[Comprehensive manga] Ruiguang

I want to live, even with the most humble gesture.As long as I am alive, I have the hope of recovering all the humiliation I have suffered. This is my belief in order to keep my spirit from breaking down.

My mother seemed to have been greatly stimulated. She couldn't even speak for the first few days after she was admitted to the hospital. Fortunately, she has improved a little recently, but from time to time she still suddenly behaved like no one could recognize her.Simply put, insanity.As for the body, further examination is needed.

During this period, I went to that bungalow several times, and wanted to find Alan Yuan Masaoyuki. After all, he and I have an unbreakable blood relationship. I wanted to talk to him about my mother's medical expenses.However, after going so many times, she was almost stopped by the woman named Mayu.

The only time I saw Masaoyuki Aihara, he didn't give me a chance to talk, he just told me that he would let me finish junior high school, and that he would send money to my credit card every month, what else did I want to say , he shied away on the grounds of being busy with work, and then left the follow-up to that woman.

After this time, I went to look for it again, and all I could see was that woman.She would always tell me with a smile that she would listen to my request and maybe be able to help me.

I will never make any requests with her again, although she will never refuse me, but the premise is that, like that day, I kneel in front of her and beg her in the most humble way.For example, if she wanted to meet Changzhi Lanyuan, her original words were, okay, I can make an appointment with Changzhi for you, but you have to let me see your sincerity.

At the beginning of the first natural month when I was kicked out of the bungalow, I took my credit card to the bank to check the account, and there was indeed a sum of money on it. The string of numbers was pitifully small, [-] yen, and in Tokyo, two people had to be taken care of The food and household daily consumption are basically very reluctant things.

My mother is in the hospital, and her medical bills are a huge sum that I cannot afford.I could eat just one meal a day, but even then, it wouldn't save much money at all.

When I went to visit my mother in the hospital, I would not tell her these things. I just told her not to worry, and said that Ai Yuan Masaoyu had paid me living expenses, so I just needed to recuperate in the hospital.

Probably because she saw my smile, she stopped asking.

The examination results have not yet come out, and the next stage of treatment has not yet started, but by that time, I will definitely be greeted with a huge amount of medical expenses.

I thought about the worst case scenario, and I would just kneel in front of that woman and ask her for help.But in that case, I will never let it happen, and I will never let that woman have the opportunity to humiliate me again.

For several days in a row, I skipped club activities, and I began to look for part-time job opportunities everywhere. I needed part-time jobs to expand my consumption base.

I also used to enjoy the days of abundance, but now, I am willing to accept any kind of suffering.Compared with these physical fatigues, I am more unwilling to let that woman trample on my dignity again.

Soon, I found a job in a bookstore very close to Kitazaki Town. The owner, surnamed Ishimura, was a kind-hearted middle-aged man. His daughter was two years younger than me.Because I am not old enough, but as long as the parents sign the consent form, I can start working in his bookstore.

I briefly explained my situation to Shicun, and he was very sympathetic to me, so he stopped mentioning the consent form and asked me to start working here this weekend. In addition, he also asked me to tutor his daughter in studies, At the same time, I got another salary.

Kitazaki Town is far away from Hyotei, no one at school should know that I am working secretly.

But the reality is not as smooth as I imagined. Although the part-time job has no problem and settled down, but the next day I took the tram for more than an hour to the school, but felt an inexplicable strange atmosphere. Many people pointed at me.

I only found out later that it was revealed that the president of Lanyuan Real Estate kicked his daughter and wife out of the house.

What makes me sad is that it was not my morally corrupt father and the mistress he brought back who were reprimanded, but my mother and I, who were said to be useless waste, which would put a mistress in power.

At least that's what I've heard.

It doesn't matter at all, being ridiculed and ridiculed, from the moment I knelt in front of that woman, I feel that there is nothing more important than being alive.

Pretending that everything was normal, I opened the door of the classroom. The noisy classroom suddenly fell silent the moment I opened the door, and everyone looked at me.Those strangely unanimous gazes stayed on me for a few seconds, until I closed the classroom door hard, and the muffled sound of the collision between the door edge and the door frame made them stop looking at me.

I don't know why, I obviously don't want to pay attention to it, but those whispers talking about me at this moment penetrate into my ears very clearly.

... I also heard that it was so miserable that he was kicked out of the house directly.

It's too embarrassing, how can there be such waste...

All evaluations like this.

I can only feel helpless in my heart, only such things will be spread so quickly, for example, Junko Aihara won another prize in the mathematics competition, and it will not be like this, to the point where everyone knows it.

Don't bother, don't bother... I keep saying this to myself, but the days go by, and I can no longer ignore it.

The words "garbage" and "get out of the ice emperor" were engraved on the desk, the shoe cabinet was filled with garbage, and the textbooks that were originally placed in the desk drawer were also missing.No one helped me, and no one spoke for me. I only felt the same cold gaze around me.

My heart was filled with grievances, oh shit... my eyes were sore.

For the first time, I felt that the reality was so helpless and heartbreaking. I endured not to shed tears in front of everyone. I lowered my head and left the classroom as if nothing had happened.

Time passed day by day, although my story was spread on campus, including teachers also knew.It's just that the classmates in the class seem to have reached a consensus, and they always behave in front of the teacher that they have a good relationship with me.But even if the teacher knew I was being treated badly, how could they stop it?As long as they deny it unanimously, the matter will only become my unilateral unreasonable trouble.

I once asked for help from the president of the Atobe who sent me to the hospital. I thought he was the only person in Ice Empress who would help me, but the result was not only that I didn’t find out the facts, but was dragged away by a group of people who claimed to be the support group. Go into the toilet, lock me in a cubicle and pour water on me.

Where he can't see, if there is no evidence, what can he help me?What can I do?

Sometimes, I even feel that I don’t even want the sun to shine on me. Everyone’s eyes always make me feel like I’m soaking in cold water, and it’s hard to even breathe.

Until I got used to this pattern.

What I have to do is not to pay attention to how everyone in the school will think of me. I was kicked out of my home by Lan Yuan Masaoyuki. Even if Bingdi still uses this incident to mock me and ridicule me, I have to pretend not to know.

It doesn't matter if you graduate from here with excellent grades, even if you live like a bug.

However, with the passage of time, I was promoted from the second year to the third year, and I withdrew from the student union. Those rumors about me have become known to everyone, and it is no longer a boring topic to bring up.

Finally, my life at school was considered stable, but something happened to my mother again.

The author has something to say: If you feel that there is something that violates harmony, please read it silently with me. The plot needs the plot and the plot needs it.

Let me mention the timeline, the heroine was kicked out when she was in the second year of junior high school, and now she has to read the hot words of the third grade.

In fact, I have considered for a long time whether it should be so long to write the memories, but I feel that after writing, everyone will know the background better.