The accident in my life is only you

The author has something to say: the text of the first volume is over, the following is Liu Shu's self-report, which is a supplement to the content of the first volume.

The second volume is about to start, and it is finally going to be entangled.

I feel like seeing the friends here, thank you all.

It was rare to have two days off this weekend. I took the bus for a walk alone. When I arrived near Lin Ying's house, I got off the bus unconsciously.

After wandering around, I still sent a message to Lin Ying, but I didn't expect her to reply.

I looked at Lin Ying not far away, walking towards me slowly, wearing slippers, a set of pajamas inside, and a long coat wrapped outside.

The hair was not combed neatly, and it was a little messy.

She was supposed to be sleeping at home and was woken up by my interruption.

I followed her to her house, went into her room and sat on her bed.

I didn't know what was playing on the TV, and I didn't take a look at it.

There was still a little temperature on the sheets, she should have been lying in this position to sleep just now.

As I stroked the bed sheet with a little bit of Lin Ying's body temperature, a strange feeling slowly appeared in my heart, with some inexplicable longing.

I took off my coat and slowly lay down on the warm sheets.

Looking at the ceiling, that trace of temperature seems to slowly spread into my heart, longing for more than one point, I am so greedy for her temperature.

When Lin Ying saw me lying down, she also slowly relaxed and moved to lie beside me.

I turned my head to the side, smelling the fragrance of her body, watching her hair scattered to the side, talking with her mouth slightly open, the collar on her chest slightly open, slowly rising and falling.

My heart beat faster and faster, the person lying next to me was the person I was thinking about, trying to be nice to her.

I haven't got anything yet, she is thinking of running away from me and leaving me now, no!I can't stand her forgetting me.

I turned over to hold her down, and covered her mouth with one hand. The gas from her mouth sprayed into my palm, making my heart itch.

She looked at me in horror, and kept patting me with her hands. Regardless of her struggle, I got closer to her and kissed her lips.

Lin Ying seemed to be really frightened, she didn't move, and the resistance I imagined didn't come, she just looked at me with empty eyes.

My kiss was also closer, stroking her soft lips that smiled at me, sucking the corners of her mouth that had once raised to me, and poking into the gap between her slightly opened teeth.

That kind of feeling just made me unable to extricate myself. It turns out that kissing the one I love is so beautiful.

If Lin Ying can respond to my kiss now, then I will definitely go crazy.

It's a pity that this is just my imagination, even the current kiss is forced by me, how can I respond.

Lin Ying still didn't resist, and lay stiffly. I opened my eyes and saw that she was still in a daze, a little angry.

Now if you are kissed by others, don't you resist?

He bit her lip lightly, but she still didn't respond.

The anger in my heart turned into longing in an instant. Only by not responding can I ask for more. Anyway, you are mine. If you want to leave me, don't even think about it.

I slowly let go of the hand that was holding her head, passed through the hem of the clothes, and approached her heart little by little. There was a faint warmth from the soft part of the palm.

Lin Ying's eyes suddenly showed some panic. She pushed me away in a panic, covered her mouth and retreated to the corner, staring at me viciously.

I sat on the edge of the bed and watched her, watching her finally have some expression, the expression caused by me.

I was a little bit lost in my heart, I should have done more just now when she didn't respond to anything, maybe there will be no chance in the future.

I watched her huddled in the corner and looked at me in horror, thinking of the alluring kiss just now, I really wanted to pounce on her again and hold her down.

It's a pity that it's a little late now, and her mother is outside. If she really yells, the situation will be difficult to clean up.

This is just my own imagination. Seeing how frightened she is, I can't bear to force her anymore.

At night when I went home, I lay on the bed and thought of the way she looked at me with fear and fear, and thought of her huddled in a corner and covering her mouth and looking at me, those eyes seemed to see through me, and I felt an inexplicable sense of guilt heart.

Sigh, why can't I hold back my anger, I promised myself not to provoke her this semester, but now what if she doesn't perform well in the college entrance examination?

I cursed myself in my heart, it seems that she will not talk to me again this semester.

But I still decided to go to her to apologize the next day, and see what else I could recover.

During lunch break on Monday, I was waiting for her in the hallway outside her class.

I had already thought of all kinds of reasons that would make people cry, but when I saw her cold face, I couldn't say a word, I could only stammer and say I'm sorry.

She must have been very angry that day, she answered me with trembling sounds, sorry or something must be useless, alas, I annoyed myself.

Naturally, those cold words will not be missing, and I kissed them all. She can say as much as she wants, at most it feels like being cut by a knife, and it's not even painful.

This matter has been stuffy in my heart for several days, and I can't tell Chen Jing, I can only talk to Lin Chun.

On the other hand, I hope that Lin Chun can speak in front of Lin Ying. Although Lin Chun vaguely knows that I am not friendly to Lin Ying, but after hearing what I said, his jaw is still so shocked that he gave me a thumbs up, expressing his strength .

But I was always annoyed and afraid in my heart, not because I was afraid that Lin Ying would be angry with me, but I did it anyway.

Instead, she was afraid that Lin Ying would keep this matter in her heart all the time, and it would affect her college entrance examination.

Now is an extraordinary time, I can't be someone who influences her.

Fortunately, in the days to come, I stopped a lot, and she seemed to be slowly getting involved in her studies.

I didn't take the initiative to find her again, but I still asked her to borrow some books one after another, and I tried to write as little as possible in the books.

But as long as I read her handwriting, I feel that she is by my side, and I am extremely at ease.

On this day, I wrote a sentence on a blank page in her book: May we be together forever.

I don't think she would notice it, and if she did, it would be painted over soon.

But when I saw that book again, there was actually a sentence written at the bottom: May our friendship last forever.

Go to your friendship, go to your friendship forever, whoever wants to have friendship with you, whoever wants to have friendship with you will last forever.

What I want is not friendship, what I want is that you only belong to me forever.

Inexplicably angry, you know that's not what I want, little liar.

The classmate record I gave her is the same as if it wasn't written, and the name, constellation and birthday are all nonsense.

Look at the classmate records I wrote for her, she didn't scare me into losing.

She wants to hide and hide, but I want to write blatantly, to see who is afraid of whom.

If you want to avoid me, I just want to like you, let's see what you do to me.

The admission ticket for the college entrance examination was handed out, but luckily I didn't share the exam room with Lin Ying. If I affected her college entrance examination, it would be a serious matter.

The college entrance examination has begun, and I haven't seen Lin Ying for a long time.

My heart is itchy and flustered, I want to see her smile at me, I want to touch her hair, scratch her cool fingertips, and if possible, I want to kiss her.

I know none of this is possible, and she's completely ignoring me now.

There was a math test in the afternoon, Lin Chun said she was going to find Lin Ying, and asked me if I wanted to go.

I thought she was going crazy, and I definitely wanted to go, but I was afraid of affecting her, so I gritted my teeth and followed Lin Chun.

Lin Ying saw that I looked strange and unhappy, and said some ugly and alienated words.

It doesn't matter, just say what you want to say, even if it's ugly, I'm willing to listen.

After the exam is over tomorrow, I will come to talk to you about this matter.

On the night after the exam, I texted Lin Ying at the door of her relative's house.

I sent her a message every ten minutes, from around 11 to [-] pm to [-] pm.

I know that her relatives should be resting during this time period. I can't keep sending her messages, and it will affect other people, and it's hard for her to explain.

The bed she slept on was simply put up against the wall next to the door of the room.

The last time I came here, I saw Lin Ying's books piled up on the small bed outside the gate. Lin Ying must have slept on that bed.

I remember there was a small window above the bed, and I went around to the back of the house and sat under that window with my back against the wall.

I murmured her name all night long.

Called the next morning, the voice is a little hoarse.

I don't know if she heard it. I dare not speak too loudly, for fear of affecting the rest of her relatives.

One night, I used all the pain and greed I was suppressing in my heart to call her name, as if speaking to myself.

My desire for you has reached the point where I can't control it, and I can't give up.

As long as I have a little way, I will not abuse myself like this.

When the sky was about to dawn, there was a light drizzle.

I didn't escape, under the drizzle, I suddenly became more awake.

She is right. In today's society, we have no results. What kind of result am I pursuing?

Just to let her know that I love her?She should have known.

From the time I kissed her, I should want more than this, I want more.

But she can't give it, why should I force her like this, even force myself?

Didn't it say that there is a kind of love called letting go?Liu Shu, why don't you let go?

I tidied up my mood and prepared to leave with that little bit of reluctance.

When turning the corner, I finally saw Lin Ying.

She stared at me blankly, maybe she didn't have a good rest all night.

She stood there looking at me motionless, without guilt or apology, but I couldn't bear to blame her.

I took a step closer to her, but she didn't run away, just stared at me blankly, and even took the things I gave her.

I took one last look at her, seeing her haggard from my torture, entangled in distress.

Goodbye my love.

I closed my eyes and exhaled, then slowly opened them, and walked out of the alley.

It's dawn, Liu Shu, you finally lost her.