The accident in my life is only you

It’s been a while since I got home, and the summer vacation after the college entrance examination was the longest in high school, and I had to stay at home for three whole months with nothing to do.

I am used to the busy life of high school for several years, but suddenly I feel a little uncomfortable when I am idle.

I heard about Jane's novel that she is working in the county, so I asked her to help me find a part-time job to pass the long summer vacation.

Jian Xiaoxiao was the school girl who shared the dormitory with me back then. That year when they took the senior high school entrance examination, she and Yang Han were admitted to the senior high school of this school.

After one year of high school, he dropped out of school and returned home. Maybe he felt that his academic performance was mediocre, so he dropped out of school and went to work.

Although she left school, we still kept in touch occasionally.

When the college entrance examination was finally over and I was finally released for vacation, she said that she wanted me to go to the county town to play, and by the way, introduced a part-time job to pass the time for me.

A few days before the time to go to the part-time job to report, Lin Chun suddenly called me and invited me to her house to play.

Her house is on the edge of the beach, and there is an endless sea below. The summer evening is very artistic.

"Are you going to grow hair at home for three months? Aren't you going out for a walk?" Lin Chun asked lazily on the phone.

"No, I'm planning to go to the county to do a part-time job here. Three months is indeed too long."

Lin Chun's voice was inexplicably excited, "Where is the time, send me an address, and I'll go play with you?"

I responded in a low voice and didn't speak again.

During the long summer vacation, there is a part-time job to pass the time, which is undoubtedly the best place for the college entrance examination candidates who suddenly feel free.

It seems that in this way, I can temporarily rely on my confused heart, not to mention that this dependence can also generate meager rewards, which is the best choice.

Lin Chun paused and asked again: "Did Liu Shu look for you the day the college entrance examination ended?"

When I heard Liu Shu's name, I remembered her last powerless back, her fingers unconsciously pinching her palm.

"Hmm." I responded quietly.

"Is what Liu Shu said true? She waited for you at the back door of your relative's house all night?"

"Ah."

Lin Chun's voice gradually became louder: "Then you haven't come out after waiting for you all night?"

"Ah."

Lin Chun's angry voice pierced my eardrums, "Comrade Lin Ying, you are so ruthless. I thought Liu Shu was lying to me, but I didn't expect it to be true."

Lin Chun didn't hear my reply, and continued in a resentful tone: "You are the most cruel person I have ever met. She has done this, and you are still indifferent. You are amazing, you are amazing! I don't understand Why are you so hard-hearted."

"No, Lin Chun, you don't understand, I can't, I can't make fun of our lives, if I accept her now, what about the future? How will our parents pass, how will our lives be passed?"

After a while, Lin Chun's voice returned to its normal tone, and she knew that what I answered was the truth, "You think too far, but you are really cruel to her like this now."

"Knowing that it's a tragic ending, don't have the chance to start. I will be responsible for our future."

Lin Chun sighed softly and hung up the phone.

At that time, I didn't know that I was small, but I could only be responsible for my own life.

And I wanted to protect her during this period of life and escape everything, but it was of no use, it just pushed her further away.

In the end, she didn't follow the results I expected, but went further and further down the rough road as predicted at the beginning.

I have been reporting to Jian Xiaoxiao's place for a few days, and I am busy every day to familiarize myself with various work contents.

At noon that day, after eating, I sat on a stool against the wall with my eyes closed, and was awakened by the sudden ringing of the phone.

I looked around and found that everyone was doing their own things and was not disturbed by my abrupt ringtone.

I clutched my phone and ran out of the gate all the way, only to see clearly that the phone number displayed was a landline phone number.

"Hello, who is it?"

"It's me, who is it?"

A familiar voice came from the other end of the phone, "Where are you now, how are you doing in the college entrance examination?"

"It turned out to be you, Aning. Why did you remember to call me? My exam is just like that. It's so-so. You should have done well in the exam."

Aning's voice over there was slightly sweet, with a bit of a coquettish tone, "I did very well in the exam, and I didn't perform well."

"Then do you want to repeat it?"

"I don't want to repeat it, I finally survived the third year of high school."

Listening to her voice pretending to be sad, I also laughed out loud, "I think so too."

After a pause, I continued, "I'm in the county seat now. A friend introduced me to do a part-time job. Where are you?"

Aning was a little surprised and said: "Yingying, you still work part-time. I'm too busy at home now, so I'll look for you in two days. Where are you?"

I smiled, reported the address briefly, made an appointment, and hung up the phone quickly.

Half a month has passed since the college entrance examination, and Liu Shu has not contacted me during this period of time.

I thought to myself, maybe Liu Shu really gave up this time.

Even from Lin Chun's point of view, the harm I did to her this time made Lin Chun's heart ache.

What's more, it's Liu Shu who has always put me in his heart, the hurt this time must be far more than Ling Chi in her heart.

During this period of time, my heart has felt a little dull pain. Whenever I think of Liu Shu who came from the corner with a tired and desperate face that morning, the dull pain will turn into throbbing pain, and I can't breathe because of the pain. .

I am in pain, I am in more pain than her, but I firmly believe that at least the pain now is better than the hysteria in the future.

That day, I received the photo she gave me and the letter I wrote to her before, which were tightly wrapped in a paper bag.

I didn't have the guts to open it until a few days after I got home.

One afternoon when I was alone at home, I closed the door of the room, sat on the bed, and opened the paper bag she gave me.

I turned the bag upside down, with the seal facing down, and shook it twice. A lot of paper pieces of different colors and sizes fell down one after another.

There is also a transparent pouch with her picture.

After opening the first one and reading it, my heart started to feel a little stuffy.

This piece of paper is a bit thicker than ordinary homework paper, and there are a few words on the back corner of this paper that are particularly obvious.

: Full-time general high....

The following line is: For the second year of high school....

Bottom line: People's Education....

I have touched this paper thousands of times, it is the paper of high school exercise book, and this paper is cut out from the exercise book.

It was the content I wrote in the margin of her exercise book, and she cut it out in a square shape and saved it.

I sorted out this messy pile of letters a little bit, and there are a few relatively small ones, all of which are of the same thickness and almost the same color, all cut from different books.

I picked them out and stacked them together, counted the number, and looked at the content on it that I had forgotten long ago, and my tears couldn't help dripping down.

Liu Shu, you idiot!you fool!You stupid!I'm not worth it, I'm not worth what you've paid for it at all.

You clearly know that I won't respond to you, what's the use of embarrassing yourself like this, you big fool.

While I was choking up, I cursed her in a distressed voice, and my tears became more and more for no reason, like an open stream of water, which was out of control.

I sat on the bed to relax for more than ten minutes, and the tears were slowly withdrawn.

With red eyes, I opened the second piece of paper. It was written on homework paper. The quality of the paper was a little yellowed, and the edges were a little damaged.

I opened it gently, for fear of accidentally tearing it off, it read: Life is a story of the past....

This paper is the one I put in the candy wrapper, and I thought she lost it after seeing it.

At that time, she kept asking me what I meant, and I perfunctorily said that it meant studying hard and making progress every day.

She should have looked at this piece of paper many times before folding it up. The quality of the paper was already very brittle, as if a little force from her fingertips would instantly shatter into pieces.

I covered my mouth and burst into tears: Liu Shu, you idiot, you say you are an idiot, you are really an idiot, what are you doing with this torn paper? They are all broken.

There was a smile on the corner of my mouth, but the pain at the tip of my heart deepened.

I had no choice but to look up at the ceiling and take a few deep breaths to calm down a bit.

The remaining tears in the corners of the eyes eroded the eyelids and became sore and sore.

After a long time, I opened the third one, which was the little poem I wrote to her.

The papers were folded symmetrically, each edge was aligned, and the lines of cross-folding in the middle were very obvious, and a large hole had been broken in the intersection point in the middle of the cross.

It must have been repeated movements of opening and stacking frequently, which made a hole in the middle.

My heart throbbed, and I hurriedly read the remaining pieces of paper.

Most of them were letters I wrote to her, and some slips of paper that I accidentally wrote and she tore out somewhere.

I picked up a picture of her, and the person in the picture was looking at me and smiling, the same way she smiled every time I met her in the hallway.

Smile at me day after day, year after year, and never bring me a bad mood.

I remembered the first time she took the photo and said she would give it to me, her eyes were like stars, looking at me expectantly, but I rejected her cruelly.

My heart ached so badly that the tears I had just held back poured down.

I couldn't control my sobs, and my tears dripped down on these papers.

I was afraid of getting them wet, so I kept wiping away the tears with my sleeves, and the more I wiped, the tears grew more and more.

I covered my mouth, bit my lip, and was alone in the room, crying until the sky was dark.

For so long, I have never cried in the face of all kinds of things with Liu Shu.

But today, I couldn't restrain the sadness in my heart, and finally cried out. The sadness and despair overwhelmed me like a tide.

Why do I like her, why does she like me, why everything is wrong.

Things should not be like this, is this our catastrophe?

That day, I cried all afternoon at home alone, crying out all my tears.

Then I washed it, folded all the paper letters according to their original texture, and put them back into the paper bag, as if they had never been opened.

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