broken sun

The winter in Vancouver this year has not yet snowed, and it is often cloudy and rainy, and the sun rarely emerges.

Qi Nian stood at the entrance of the hotel with an umbrella, waiting patiently for Qi Wenzhi who was standing under the eaves and making a phone call.

He stared blankly at the strange and unique scenery in front of him. There were many people sitting outside the roadside restaurant across the street, and there was still a little emptiness in the chaotic atmosphere of fireworks.

There was rain coming in from the sky, Qi Nian blinked his wet eyes, thinking of the more noisy and heavy rain in Yuncheng in summer; thinking of the dry and bitter wind a few days ago; thinking of the phone call with Gu Saming in the early morning.He hasn't calmed down yet, the joy temporarily covered up the torment of missing himself, and the intensified bewilderment since he set off.

Zheng Yiwan, who was also watching the winter rain, was still sitting in a wheelchair in the ward. She had learned the news from the assistant two days ago.

Zheng Yiwan's hands under the blanket were trembling faintly.

Living alone for more than ten years, in this foreign land that she is familiar with but has never found a place to belong to, Zheng Yiwan waited for the son she had spent most of her life in, and she didn't even need to be in front of her eyes, it was enough to make her cry and dry up My heart shines again.

She can also feel strongly before dying, and finally become a mother.

Carrying the freshly bought fruit in her hand, the aunt chatted with the nurse about the patient's situation when she passed the nurse's station, sighed, and then walked slowly to the advanced ward area.

She pushed open the door, and saw that the glass door that Miss Zheng was facing was opened, she quickly put down the fruit in her hand, and hurried to close the door while muttering: "It's so cold and wet, why is it blowing against the wind. "

"The nurse just said that the doctor will come for an examination later." The aunt closed the curtains and said, "Did you see today's flowers? The little girl in the flower shop, the one you praised for her beautiful golden hair before." , Said it was the best bunch left, I hope you recover soon."

When she turned around, she found Miss Zheng with her head down, her eyes closed, and she happened to be holding the best-blooming bunch of white eustomas in her hand.

She thought that Zheng Yiwan had fallen asleep again, so she called the doctor in advance, and she didn't realize something was wrong until she moved the person back to the bed with the nurse.

The situation was critical, and when Qi Wenzhi rushed to the hospital with Qi Nian, Zheng Yiwan had already been rescued and was lying on the bed dying, as if enduring the extreme pain in her body and struggling to breathe.

Qi Nian was left outside the ward.

He looked around, and there was an older black-haired woman standing outside the ward, with a flustered and sad face, it seemed that the aunt in the ward whom he was brought to visit by his father this time was already in very bad health.But when the woman turned around, she froze when she saw him head-on, tears streaming down her eyes.

Qi Nian was a little puzzled, and was also infected with a little compassion, so he frowned slightly and quietly stayed aside.

In the ward, Qi Wenzhi frowned, his vision was full of bright and dazzling white flowers, he had a headache, and said coldly: "Qi Nian is outside, didn't I tell you to let you see him, is there any Where can't you think about it, huh?"

Zheng Yiwan opened her mouth, but the sound she made was inaudible at all, and people had to get closer, and could barely hear it intermittently: "I don't...don't see...don't let him know... .”

Qi Wenzhi held back his anger at first and did not utter cruel words.

"Please......"

His mood changed several times, and after a long time, time seemed to stand still, and he squeezed out the word "good" from his throat.

Zheng Yiwan's doctor no longer carried out intense invasive rescue, and let the patient spend the last days as happily as possible.

And Zheng Yiwan fell into a deep sleep at noon on January 29th of this year, Beijing time, and passed away.Her temples were neat and her eyebrows were smooth. Before she died, she was holding the two most precious things in her life-a bouquet of snow-white platycodon flowers and two photos.

Represents her eternal and unchanging love.

The plan was completely disrupted, Qi Wen had almost forgotten this feeling of loss of control and pain for many years, but he had no choice but to book a return ticket for Qi Nian in advance overnight, and asked the accompanying assistant to send Qi Nian back home first.

Qi Nian was kept in the dark from beginning to end, dizzy.

He doubted the identity of the relative and aunt he had never met in the ward yesterday, and after thinking about it, he only thought that it might have something to do with him when he was a child, but he didn't have any impression of it, and in the end he didn't even see it at all.

There was no joy in Qi Nian's experience of going abroad, but an indescribable sense of depression.

However, the long flight time on the return journey was not difficult. He looked out the window of the cabin, and when his eyes were filled with clouds, he slowly closed his eyes and fell asleep.

And he knew that when he woke up and opened his eyes, the soft clouds had already carried him to his destination, and there must be his brother standing there.

Qi Nian arrived at Yuncheng Airport at five o'clock in the afternoon on January 29th, followed the uncle assigned by his father along the long exit gate, and got into the car that had been waiting for a long time outside the airport.

Lao Ji exchanged simple greetings with Assistant Director Qi, and asked if they would go back to the villa or eat something first if they were hungry.

Qi Nian hugged the limp schoolbag in his arms, and had been looking out the window with his back straight, but now he said first, "Uncle Ji, I want to go back to school."

"Back to school? Director Qi has already asked you to leave, Master Qi," the assistant on the side said softly, "There is no need to go back to school today."

"..." Qi Nian paused for two seconds, shook his head after thinking about his words, and said, "I have something to do when I go back to school, and I can be with my brother later in the evening." He looked at Lao Ji, "Now let's go."

Four or ten minutes later, the black Bentley stopped outside the street leading to Yuncheng No. 10 Middle School, and put Qi Nian off the car.

Qi Nian stepped on the familiar concrete floor again, and even the dry and cold air smelled pleasant.

His clothes were not as thick as usual, and he couldn't help shrinking his cold neck while walking, wishing he could fly into the school right away, to the fifth floor of the senior three teaching building.

Before crossing the campus avenue, the class dismissal bell rang from the loudspeaker next to it, followed by crowds of people pouring out from all floors and classrooms, making the campus that was still quiet a second ago lively. Qi Nian was not wearing a school uniform, and was dressed in black The short fleece jacket and black trousers looked awkward. He went up against the people who were rushing down the stairs, until he walked out of the classroom of Science Class 1 on the fifth floor with fever all over his body.

In the past two days, they only had one phone call on Qi Nian's birthday, and then they suddenly returned home early and lost contact for more than ten hours. thing.

Standing panting at the back door of the classroom at this moment, Qi Nian looked up at the words "Science Class 1" on the wall, unable to calm down for a while due to various reasons, he looked into the sparsely populated classroom Look, after searching for a round, I suddenly feel a little lost and depressed.

Why did Gu Saming leave so early, even the seats were empty? !

But he just rang the bell to end get out of class, and he didn't see him all the way... Could it be that he walked through the stairwell on the other side?

But he saw Shi Ze, and Shi Ze happened to see him.

After looking for Xu Li, the two barely became "harmonious". Shi Ze walked out slowly and said, "Looking for Gu Saming?"

Qi Nian nodded: "Do you know where he is?"

Shi Ze raised his eyebrows, as if he didn't want to say anything, turned his head and pointed upwards, and said, "Brother Chao just left early, and Gu Saming also slipped away early, I watched the one going up... .The whole world owes him 1000 million today, and he can break a human leg in the next second, which is unbearable."

He looked at Qi Nian, and suddenly said: "Did you provoke it?!"

Before Qi Nian came back to his senses, he was suddenly discouraged, as if remembering something sad, he turned and left.

Qi Nian was stunned for a while, then walked suspiciously towards the fifth and a half floors, and finally stood in front of the iron gate leading to the roof.

When the iron door was pushed open, it creaked and creaked on the ground. The wind was strong on the roof, and when the door blew, it lost control and was about to slam back.Before the loud noise, Qi Nian reacted in time, pulled the iron door hard, and slowly closed it before turning around.

The roof of the building was deserted, the mottled and uneven concrete walls and the dirty ground came into view, and there was no one on it, Qi Nian frowned, continued to walk in without giving up, and turned around the corner - immediately stopped.

Gu Saming sat on the cement platform with his back to him, against the wind, the smoke in his hand was emitting sparks, Gu Saming raised his hand, then put it down, a little white smoke floated out, was blown away in an instant, and scattered around, Then quickly disappear.

Afterwards, they were all left to burn.

With his throat choked, Qi Nian walked over very lightly and slowly, the short bangs on his forehead were all blown up, and his face was shaved so painfully.

He saw Gu Saming raise his hand to take another puff, but the next moment he threw away the remaining cigarette.

The cigarette rolled twice on the ground, and finally wobbled, staying in a puddle of dirty water.

Qi Nian didn't know if it was from the cold, or because of something else, the top of his head was numb, and his heart seemed to be pricked little by little with fine needles.He had never seen Gu Saming smoking, nor had he seen Gu Saming in front of him.

Taking another step forward, Qi Nian's calf rubbed against Gu Saming's shoulder, he slowly squatted down under Gu Saming's slightly startled but still unfathomable eyes when he raised his head, and sat down, leaning against him.

After an unknown amount of time, Qi Nian held his brother's arm with his cold hands through his clothes, slowly turned sideways, put his upper body into Gu Saming's equally cold embrace, and clung to it with both hands.He felt that Gu Saming lowered his head, so he buried his head deeper and breathed all the hot air into Gu Saming's neck.

Qi Nian didn't know what happened, whether it was because of him or something else.He left Yuncheng for four days, and after receiving his brother's happy birthday message, he never called again, nor could he receive a call. This was also a "heinous crime", and he just went to comfort or please his brother.

Qi Nian felt his embrace loosen, and Gu Saming kept a small distance from him, looked down at him, and touched his chin and cheek with his fingertips.

Gu Saming's lips were pursed, he looked at Qi Nian who suddenly appeared on the top of the building, appeared in front of him and beside him, the chaotic and painful mind that couldn't be solved with cigarettes finally woke up, he was held by Qi Nian When , rubbing, and pleasing, the heart that has been kept tense due to lack of sleep beats more violently, and there are both unresolved pain and regained pleasure.

The moment he was watched, Qi Nian's eyes turned red, and it was the first time he saw such a downcast and complicated expression on Gu Saming's face.

"Brother..." Qi Nian called him, "I miss you so much."

It took a long time for Gu Saming to let out a hoarse "um", the rest of the words were stuck in his throat and turned into tremors in his chest.

The child who was wandering in the dark with the backlight, lost hope in captivity, and highlighted words such as hate and death, turned into a boy who said to him with red eyes, "Brother, I miss you so much".

But Qi Nian, who once hated him so much that he wanted to get close to revenge no matter the cost, since when did he start to please him pitifully and sensitively, and will he like him forever?

When Qi Nian was belittled by him, rejected by him, or bullied by him, did you ever think of hating him in a long period of despair?

Qi Nian got Gu Saming's short answer, and continued to lean forward amidst the howling cold wind.He smelled the bad smell of cigarettes, but felt that Gu Saming smelled good, he only knew to stick it lightly, and rubbed his lips against his lips.Only love and dependence are distinct.

Gu Saming's Adam's apple rolled, and his arms tightened uncontrollably.

The mistake is not that they are connected by blood, it is not that there has been unreasonable hatred, and it is not that there is love that should not have been here.

Whether it's a radiant road or a dark road, there is only loneliness and scars left, and when it comes to the end, it is devastated.

And it's not us who are wrong.

The roof has a wide view, and at the same time, no one knows.

In broad daylight, the two teenagers embraced each other, their breathing was chaotic and rapid, and the taste was a bitter kiss.

The author says:

There is another flower language of white eustoma, hopeless love.In the beginning, the flowers were given to her by Qi Wenzhi back then, as mentioned in the previous article.