broken sun

Qi Nian's sobbing gradually subsided.They went back to the room.

Gu Saming's arms are always so firm and reliable, Qi Nian knew it from the first time he was found and hugged in the utility room.

He has selfishness and desires, and he wants to get his brother.

He couldn't bear it at all.

Qi Nian was let go and sat on the bed. Seeing that Gu Saming turned to leave, he got up without saying a word, clutching Gu Saming's arm, and insisted to follow him into the bathroom.

After washing his face, he came out and walked to the bed. Qi Nian took Gu Saming's hand and stopped again, standing still in a daze.

"Sleeping?" Gu Saming said in a questioning tone, "Brother will accompany you."

Qi Nian looked at him, his dark eyes rolled slowly, and the traces of crying could still be seen on his face. He nodded and shook his head slightly, a little absent-minded, but stared at Gu Saming intently, as if he was afraid that his hand would My brother will be gone in a second.

Gu Saming turned around and sat down, raised his hand to touch his pale face, and said, "Come here."

Even so, when he heard Gu Saming calling him, Qi Nian didn't hesitate and leaned over slowly. Seeing Gu Saming smiling at him in order to comfort him, Qi Nian lay back while pressing his waist.

The whole house was silent, so quiet that it seemed that time stood still.

Qi Nian lay on Gu Saming's body and listened to his heartbeat, listening carefully to every beat.

I don't know from which moment, when Qi Nian's sincerity and fear and worry about gain and loss have not dissipated, they have been doing these intimate things, and they have become more and more natural and proficient.

He opened his sleepy eyes, but his mind was unusually clear.

The heart buried deep under the bony bones has already been handed over, even if it is not good enough, Qi Nian has snatched Gu Saming away from the love of countless people.His elder brother is his, Gu Saming said it himself and forced him to confirm it.

And everything is like a dream.

Qi Nian's life is not only dilapidated and embarrassing, but also full of unresolved and inescapable pain.Whether he accepts his fate or not, he has no choice. Whether he wants to go all the way to the dark, he must go on.

Qi Nian was plagued by bad luck, and just as his life improved a bit, he would be ruthlessly dragged down again.

Qi Nian knew that he was about to lose Gu Saming.

His elder brother broke through the once gloomy world without sunrise with a dazzling but scarce sunlight, and stood there, allowing him to have a whole different four seasons - as big as a firework seen by the crowd in winter, It was so small that after playing tricks on Qi Nian, he bought a glass of drink to "make amends" on the side of the road, and there were many more, such as the snowball that hit him, the evening wind rippling in his ears, he was stretching in the dusk, Saw the sunset on the swing.

But he was about to lose his brother.

But bad luck was not brought to him by his brother.

Every day with Gu Saming needs to be engraved in Qi Nian's mind, and will become a memory to write into the future days - that is the only splendor and light he has ever had.

Gu Saming is not Qi Nian's bad luck.

He knows...

But he only knows how to cry and can't do anything.

He is so useless.

After an unknown amount of time, Gu Saming felt that Qi Nian in his arms was breathing evenly and steadily, so he turned his head to look, who knew that Qi Nian was not asleep at all, sensing his movements, his drooping eyes rolled up again , looked straight at him, causing Gu Saming a heartache.

This is what Gu Saming had expected when he pushed Qi Nian away countless times in his mind.

But when it was really in front of his eyes, he realized that everything was so heavy and powerless, that he couldn't breathe under the pressure, and he couldn't stand upright and turn over even if he didn't bow his head.

Gu Saming only regrets that he can do too little, just like Qi Wenzhi said, in the end he can't protect anyone at all.

Gu Saming turned over, let Qi Nian lie flat, and covered Qi Nian's eyes with his hands.He stood aside patiently, and gradually removed the weight from his hands, only covering them to block the light until Qi Nian finally fell asleep.

Qi Nian's closed eyes trembled from time to time, his eyelashes shook light and shadow, and he did not sleep soundly.

After waiting for a while, Gu Saming got out of bed very gently.

Gu Saming stood on the balcony with the closed door, waiting expressionlessly for the call to be connected, and continued calling when no one answered.By the third time, Qi Wenzhi finally accepted it.

—It wasn’t intentional either.Zheng Yiwan, who was far away in a foreign land, ended up with a decent life, and there was no shortage of people to take care of the funeral, many of which were even arranged by Qi Wenzhi himself.

Qi Wenzhi asked what was the matter in a weary voice.

Gu Saming was silent for two seconds, and his tone did not fluctuate when he spoke. He directly and succinctly explained to Qi Wenzhi everything that happened this afternoon.

There was some distorted and noisy background sound on the other end of the phone, and a few foreign words popped in from time to time, before turning to a slightly quieter place.And Qi Wenzhi never spoke again, he seemed to interrupt halfway, he seemed to be listening all the time, and he seemed to have left without hanging up the phone.

After he finished speaking, he paused for a moment in the silence, and finally heard Qi Wenzhi's voice. Shocked and sullen, he asked him how he took care of Qi Nian, so much that he wanted to put his own brother on the bed. bring.

Gu Saming closed his eyes.The relationship between him and Qi Wenzhi is not like a father and son, but more like an alliance, but the relationship is cold and there is no relationship.

He didn't explain anything, and apologized hoarsely to his father.

Undoubtedly, Qi Wenzhi was furious. To him, homosexuality was not a problem, but it turned out that his two sons got together in a ridiculous and stupid way.

Could this be the so-called retribution?

However, no matter how intense the emotions were, He Yu broke through this matter. Qi Wenzhi only wanted them to separate, but it would never be so simple with He Yu.

Since Gu Saming can take the initiative to make this call, it means that he already has a plan.

"As long as you are responsible for Qi Nian's safety, and all your studies and life in the future—" Gu Saming paused, his hands were resting on the jade railing of the balcony, and he gradually clenched his hands. Trembling faintly, when he let go with difficulty, words were squeezed out of his throat, "I agree to all requests."

Qi Wenzhi said a few words over there, Gu Saming's brows became more and more wrinkled, and his complexion, which had been suppressed for a long time, became extremely pale, and his hostility finally broke out.He directly interrupted the other party, almost shouting: "Then don't let him stay in the country!"

Regardless of etiquette and other things, he lowered his voice and said sarcastically, "Qi Nian is your son, but as long as he has a father, he wouldn't even use his future as a bargaining chip today." Do you have to wait for him to be tortured to death before you recognize this is your precious son?"

At this moment, Qi Wen had been provoked by his son, but he couldn't even vent his anger.

Not deliberate detours.Zheng Yiwan's death was right in front of his eyes, and that soul seemed to be still lingering around him, vividly telling all about his guilt and ruthlessness.

Listening to the sound of breathing in the receiver, Gu Saming knew that the goal had been achieved. He lowered his eyes and personally portrayed the despair even deeper. He said softly, "Father, besides, the exchange of benefits and whether it is worth it or not are mutual."

No one in the villa came back again, Qi Nian had turned over on the bed, did not wake up, because the nose was not breathing well, he could only open his mouth slightly, occasionally moving under the eyelids with blue blood vessels.

He looked restless and vulnerable, he had been refusing to close his eyes before, and now he was extremely tired and didn't sleep much.

Gu Saming pulled a blanket to cover Qi Nian, sat by the bed for a long time, left a note for Qi Nian that he would be back in two hours, and went out.

Gu Saming saw He Yu again after six o'clock in the afternoon that day, on the fifth floor of No.20 of the headquarters building of the Qi Group.

Secretary Zhan served two glasses of water as usual, then retreated tremblingly.

Still silence, long silence, changed to a place with more abundant lights and a wider field of vision.

Gu Saming simply wore a black coat, his whole body was cold, his eyes were deep, and he stood an arm's length away from the large desk. The teacup on the table in front of him was steaming hot, but it couldn't alleviate the coldness at all.

He Yu frowned, got up and passed him, walked to the wall and turned up the temperature in the room.

She faced her son again, and after an afternoon of torment and calmness, she gave the conclusion of the statement: "Sa Ming, it is impossible for you to be with Qi Nian, it is impossible. Even Qi Wenzhi, including your adopted son Parents, if they know about it, they won’t agree, no parent can tolerate this kind of thing happening.”

"It just so happens that the third year of high school is about to graduate. I talked to your homeroom teacher, Mr. Zhang. It is very easy to go to a top foreign school based on your grades." It's your own business, this is your future, a future that you can work hard without relying on relationships and back doors. Our family is not an ordinary family, we enjoy more, and we have to bear more responsibilities in the future. Whether you hate my mother or not , I have to do this.”

But they have always been a negotiating gesture.

Gu Saming seemed to know what she was going to say. He looked at He Yu for a while and said flatly, "What if I don't?"

He Yu's expression froze suddenly: "Ming Ming, do you have to fight against me? I've been looking for you for 13 years, and my mother's whole life is for you. What kind of evil did you fall into Qi Nian, ah?!"

"Okay, okay—" Her bloodshot eyes were red again, but she restrained her emotions and said in a cold voice, "Don't you want to know about Qi Nian's life experience, I'll tell you."

Gu Saming was in a daze for a moment when he heard the words.

He has already learned what a terrifying and vicious woman his biological mother is in the secret that Qi Nian will never take the initiative to say.

Gu Saming is so smart. He heard the threats, persecution, and temptation in He Yu's words just now, but it also included the real maternal love.

"Your mother has also been kept in the dark for more than ten years. It was only a few months ago that I found out that Qi Nian is your father's illegitimate son, your half brother, and the son of Xiaosan... " He Yu gritted his teeth.

Then she closed her eyes, omitted the unnecessary details, and got straight to the point: "His biological mother was secretly sent abroad to live for more than ten years, and died in Vancouver a few days ago. Qi Nian went with Qi Wenzhi In those few days, I went to meet for the last time—" She sat on the sofa chair and continued at a leisurely pace, "But they didn't see each other. Because Qi Nian couldn't bear this kind of blow. If you let him know her Mom has someone else, a mistress with a bad name, who passed away a few days ago, and he obviously went to Vancouver, but he didn't see him at all, do you think Qi Nian can bear it?"

"Qi Wenzhi wanted to hide it, but his conscience was finally awakened on that mistress. He was afraid that his little son would not be able to bear it. What about you?"

Gu Saming took a deep breath, and felt a sharp pain from his lungs up through his heart.

He can still stand here upright at this moment, all supported by one breath.He could only force himself to be distracted, afraid that Qi Nian would have woken up and saw the note, and he would have to go back within two hours on time.

Gu Saming raised his eyes and said slowly, "I agree. What about Qi Nian?"

He Yu was taken aback at first, but Gu Saming didn't expect Gu Saming to agree.She folded her arms, like an ordinary mother treating her rebellious youth son, and said, "Qi Nian takes the college entrance examination by himself, and it doesn't take much effort for a famous domestic school, and Qi Wenzhi is here, so there is nothing to worry about."

"He doesn't take the college entrance examination anymore, so he has to go abroad as well."

"This is impossible!" He Yu yelled almost instantly, slapping his palm on the table, his red eyes full of disappointment and anger.

She sneered and said, "Okay, if that's what you want—then you and Qi Nian will make a clean break, including brotherhood, and never contact you again, and I agree."

There was a buzzing in Gu Saming's ears. He couldn't find his own voice, so he opened his lips mechanically and stretched his vocal cords. He replied "Yes", and said that He Yu was not responsible for Qi Nian's going abroad. door away.

Inside the closed door, there was a moment of silence, and then suddenly there was the sound of things shattering, smashing, and uncontrollable hoarse crying.

After the phone call with Gu Saming, Qi Wenzhi disrupted the plan again and returned home from Vancouver ahead of schedule.

Zheng Yiwan's funeral is just a week away. The friends Zheng Yiwan met in the orphanage, the children he sponsored, and the colleagues in the company, regardless of nationality, are all sad and sad mourners. They will not let her go deserted alone.However, Qi Wenzhi has already booked two tickets for another flight in two days.

On the last day of the final exam, Qi Nian went down from the third floor with Gu Saming side by side.

They have been together for the past two days, but there is nothing but being together, hugging is not like hugging, kissing is not like kissing, and there is no pleasure in doing all the lingering things.

After going down the last step of the stairs, Gu Saming suddenly stopped standing on the flat ground and took Qi Nian's hand. There were still classmates around. Did you notice them?But Qi Nian wasn't flustered or surprised, he clasped his knuckles quietly but forcefully, so that their hands were tightly held together.

Qi Nian let himself remember this feeling, the feeling of being held by Gu Saming.

He remembered a lot of things about Gu Saming, but he didn't know how long he could remember. He didn't have the confidence, and he couldn't afford to gamble. In the last two days, he was as serious as a cold machine.

He didn't know much, everything was arranged by Gu Saming, and his father would come to pick him up two days later, so he readily accepted.Gu Saming didn't mention whether he would contact her in the future, how to contact her, and what the phone number was, and Qi Nian didn't mention it either.

Qi Nian no longer shed tears, but his heart was not controlled, he was crying all the time, crying until he lost his voice, crying until he couldn't sleep all night, crying like when he was a child when he just learned to lose.

They walked out of the school quietly, and Yuncheng No. [-] Middle School just had one more piece of knowledge.

Qi Wenzhi's car was already waiting outside the school gate, dazzling and dazzling.

If you want to go as fast as possible, even at a normal speed, this distance plus the time to get on the bus will not exceed 5 minutes.But Qi Nian was slow every time he took a step, he wished that this road would allow him to walk like this for the rest of his life.

"Brother," Qi Nian stopped in front of the opened car door and looked up at Gu Saming, "...what I said is true. Yours is too, right?"

Gu Saming wanted to answer him, tried several times, and finally only nodded.

Qi Nian forcefully opened his blurred eyes.

After being relatively silent for a long time, there was no expression on his bloodless face, which was very similar to the appearance when we first met, but it was very different.

"Stop smoking, I don't like it." Qi Nian spoke slowly, saying seemingly insignificant words.

Gu Saming was stunned when he heard the words, and his breathing deepened after a brief stagnation.He ignored Qi Wenzhi who was sitting in the car, and he ignored the people walking on the other side of the car. They were standing on the side of the wall. Gu Saming lowered his head, breathing over Qi Nian's eyes, nose tip, chin and the side of his neck. , but did not stop, and finally dropped a kiss on Qi Nian's forehead like a superficial touch, like a cold and soft illusion that cannot be touched.

"Don't be afraid," Gu Saming said in a low voice, poking his hand on his heart, "I'm here with you."

Qi Nian was trembling through the cloth, his feet were nailed in place and he couldn't move, somehow he was stuffed into the car by Gu Saming, he heard his brother whisper the last sentence in his ear.

——"Grow up well."

The moment the car door closed, everything was isolated.He froze for a second, only to realize that the temperature and burning heat on his face and heart quickly dissipated, and Gu Saming was no longer by his side.

The car started and moved forward slowly, Qi Nian suddenly woke up, turned his head to the car window to look for Gu Saming.He saw it at the first glance in the crowd, but Gu Sa obviously did not stand and wait, Qi Nian only saw a figure from the back, tall, straight, and slender, but there was only one figure left.

The lonely figure seemed to have no attachment, getting farther and farther away from him, getting smaller and smaller, covered by the crowd, and then appeared faintly, but disappeared completely after the car's path turned.

Qi Nian was lying on the back of the back seat, facing the empty scene, still staring at the glass window behind the car with his eyes open, hot tears in his eyes fell unconsciously, ran across his cheeks, fell on the back of the hand.

The howling sound was locked in the ventricle, tearing and colliding, echoing endlessly.

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