[Net King] Take away my heart

In some cases, the very existence of one person hurts another. ——Murakami Haruki

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On Valentine's Day at the end of the first grade, I received more chocolates than the total number of presents I got in elementary school.

When I came home with a big bag of chocolates, even my mother couldn't help teasing me and said, "Jingshi should have tooth decay!"

Because the quantity is too much, I can only put the bag aside first, and plan to eat it slowly later.

"Jiayin also received chocolates, she said it was given to her by a girl in the class." Mom told me with a smile.

I heard that on Valentine's Day, in addition to the usual girls giving chocolates to boys, it seems that it is also popular for girls to send friendship chocolates to each other.

"Yes, that's a good thing."

I know that the reason why my mother looks very happy is because it can show that Jiayin has friends at school, at least she gets along well with everyone in order to receive the chocolate.Mom was always worried that Jiayin wouldn't be able to make friends at school, and she didn't feel at ease until now.

"Jingshi also needs to help my younger sister more at school, you know? My younger sister grew up in the countryside, so it's inevitable that she's not used to it. It's rare for you two to be in the same school, and you have to take care of each other..."

"Yes, I know."

Listening to the exhortations my mother often chanted, I just answered silently.

"However, there are so many chocolates all of a sudden, and I have to drag your father to eat together to solve it. Popularity is also an annoyance, and you can't waste people's hearts, right?"

"I'll share some with Jiayin."

Saying that, I took out several boxes of chocolates from the bag and walked to Jiayin's room.

Boom boom, boom boom.

"Please come in..."

The sound of good news came from inside.

I opened the door and walked in. Jiayin was sitting at the desk with her stationery and several boxes of chocolates on the desk.

"I received these today, because the quantity is too much to eat, and Jiayin will help with it." I handed her the chocolate.

"……thanks."

She accepted the chocolate and whispered thanks.

"Mom said that Jiayin also received chocolates, didn't she?"

"Ah."

"Are these boxes?" I asked, pointing to the chocolates on the desk.

She nodded.

"Jiayin also received a lot of chocolates...do you want to exchange them with me?"

"exchange?"

I picked up a box of good news chocolates.

"Ah, that's—"

For some reason, Jiayin's expression tensed up the moment I picked up the chocolate.

"what happened?"

"nothing……"

She lowered her head.

I looked at the chocolate in my hand, it was just an ordinary package, and there was no blessing card attached to it, but Jiayin seemed very nervous about it.

"Then I'll eat this box."

I returned the chocolates to her and took another box from the table.

"Shall we eat together? Mom is still making dinner, so it shouldn't matter if I have some snacks first."

Jiayin nodded, and I opened the package with her.

I rarely come to Jiayin's room.Jiayin and I have separate bedrooms, and my room is opposite hers.Her room is very simple, a bed, a desk, and a set of cabinets include all the furniture. The whole room is unobstructed, and there is not even a single superfluous thing.

The single bed next to the desk is covered with plain bedding, old sheets and quilt covers that my mother used before, but Jiayin doesn't seem to mind it at all.

Seeing me eating chocolate while observing her room, Jiayin seemed a little reserved: "There is only one chair here...do you want to sit there?"

Her fingers point to the edge of her bed.

"...No." I smiled tactfully.

Although living in the same home, the feeling of stepping into Jiayin's room is completely different from that of stepping into parents' room.Entering here is more like stepping into Jiayin's own private space, rather than an area shared by family members.

Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be here.

Even if I passed by the door of the room at night and wanted to go in to say good night, I would hesitate for a while, and finally decided to go back to my room without saying anything.

Because Jiayin is a girl, I seem to have to pay more attention to her being a girl than she is being a younger sister.Being too close to her makes her uncomfortable and it makes me uncomfortable too, so keeping a little distance is the most natural thing to do.

After eating the chocolate, I walked out of the room without stopping.I almost never chat with Jiayin alone without other people, even if I just ask her about her studies.

In fact, I really want to know if she gave chocolates to anyone, because my mother never took the habit of giving us pocket money, so I think Jiayin's character would not take the initiative to ask for money to buy chocolates.But I silently waited, hoping that she might send me and Dad chocolates—just as family.

But she didn't.In this way, I am relieved, Jiayin has no money to buy chocolates, and has never sent chocolates to anyone.I even heard her friend Miyake yelling in the hallway that "everyone who gives chocolate is a fool".No wonder, with friends like Miyake, it is difficult for Jiayin to think about these things like ordinary girls.

Later, we ate those chocolates for more than a month before we finished them.When I finished eating, I was already thinking about how to collect less chocolate next year, but my mother said: "Hurry up and find a girlfriend?"

"What nonsense are you talking about in front of the children?" Dad muttered to her, "I'm still at the age of school."

It's true that I'm not very interested in love or anything, but I'm not exactly the kind of person like my father who studies hard in the pile of books.For Valentine's Day next year, there's only one thing I care about.

Jiayin bowed her head to eat.At the dinner table, unless her parents asked her, she would never be the one who spoke up.I looked at her out of the corner of my eye and thought silently, what kind of person would be able to receive chocolate from Jiayin?If possible, I really hope that person is not someone else, but myself.

When she entered the second grade, all the classes were rearranged, and Liu and Jiayin were assigned to the same class.

Miyake, who has been close to Jiayin since the first grade, continues to be in her class. Marui Bunta and Jack Sang are assigned to other classes. At the same time, both of them joined the tennis club and became the main candidates.

"Jack, Sanada should have repeatedly emphasized that no snacks are allowed to be eaten in the studio."

One day I ran into Jack sitting on a bench eating in the studio.Because there was an incident where a member brought snacks to the department room before, but left a pile of garbage after eating and left without cleaning up, Sanada was furious, and since then it has been stipulated that no member is allowed to bring food to the department. room.

"Mr. Yukimura...! I'm, I'm sorry... I'm so hungry, so I... I, I, I will throw it away! Please don't tell Vice-Minister Sanada!"

The flushed Jack Sangyuan jumped up from the bench before he could wipe his mouth.It seems that Sanada's iron fist rule is indeed very deterrent to the members.

"Fortunately, I found out, this time forget it."

Jack is a rare honest man among the existing members. Although his talent is not as good as that of Marui Bunta who joined the club at the same time, he works harder than anyone else in training. Quickly overtook a group of seniors in the third grade.

Although we don't say it, Sanada and I both recognize Kuwahara's strength, and are even planning to add him to the list of players for this year's national competition.

"Thank you, thank you, Minister! If Vice Minister Sanada finds out, he will definitely punish me severely, and I will be miserable! ... I almost couldn't even hold chopsticks after finishing the [-] push-ups that were punished last time... "

If you have to say that Jack has any shortcomings, it is probably that he is as good at eating as Marui.

Marui Bunta is a well-known sweet tooth fanatic in the department. He stuffed snacks in his schoolbag, clothes pockets, trousers pockets, and everything that could hold things.For this reason, he has been trained by Sanada countless times, but he is still stubborn, and even dragged Jack into the water.

It is normal for teenagers in the growing period to eat a lot. Most of the children in the ministry can eat two bowls of rice in one meal, but Jack and Marui double their appetites on the basis of two bowls.

"Your training volume is greater than that of Sanada, and your physical energy is exhausted, so I can understand that you are hungry, but there is already a Marui who is not very obedient in the department. If even you do not follow the rules, then come in later. Isn't your freshman—"

In the middle of talking, I suddenly noticed the snacks in Jack's hand.It was a familiar chocolate jar, I thought I must have seen it somewhere.

"That's..." I stared at the snack in Jack's hand, unable to look away, "Chocolate?"

"Ah, ah... yes!" Maybe he thought I was angry, Jack hid the chocolate behind his back in embarrassment, "That guy Wen Tai gave it to me on Valentine's Day, I almost forgot it in the cabinet, In the end, I was just hungry, so I turned this out..."

"Can you show me?" I held out my hand.

"Huh? Oh, oh...of course..."

Taking the chocolate box, I looked at it repeatedly in my hand for a while.Can't be wrong, I've seen the exact same packaging before, can't say it's a very ingenious design, but it left a deep impression on me - because when I want to exchange it, there are very few Jiayin, who reacted emotionally, suddenly became nervous.

"What's the matter? What's so strange?" Jack asked, "Ah! Could it be that the minister is also hungry? Well, you can take it and eat it, it's fine, I'm already full, and I won't tell others..."

I smiled wryly and shook my head.

I think I may know the origin of that box of chocolates, and why Jiayin is nervous.And honest Jack certainly wouldn't understand what was going on.

"Okay... Hurry up and practice, if Sanada comes in later, I won't be able to hide it."

I sent Jack out and sat alone in the studio with the box of chocolates in my hand.

From time to time, there was a clear and loud sound of hitting the ball outside the window, pat, pat, pat... A sense of emptiness that had not been seen for a long time came to my chest with this sound.I couldn't help twisting my neck and looking out the window. There were no curtains on the windows of the studio, but I had the illusion that there were curtains fluttering there, as if I had returned to the ward where I was imprisoned since I was a child overnight.

We are growing up.

No one can stop the pace of time. In a blink of an eye, Jiayin and I have entered a delicate and sensitive adolescence from innocent children.

But what changed our relationship?From the pen pals who talked to each other on the letter paper, to the lingering distance on the phone, we used to talk about everything and maintain each other, until today we finally get together under the same roof, finally we can see each other every day, and finally we don’t have to worry about the distance The distance and the loneliness of not being able to meet each other...

But in fact, the distance that really belongs to us has never been stretched so far.

We abide by the agreement, never chat, never quarrel, never get close to us, we are so strange as if we have never known each other.

On top of this seemingly indifferent and peaceful relationship, what is concealed is only our strange tacit understanding.Like two parallel lines that can't intersect even though they are on a piece of paper, I can only close my eyes and head towards the end point where I don't know where they are going.

I already had a faint premonition.

A feeling of foreboding.

The author has something to say: Little angels ~ Happy National Day!

I haven’t seen you in January, how are you doing? XD← You have the face to ask

Toru is working hard to become a [-] to [-] social person!Ah~ looking forward to and nervous

After experiencing a lot of exhaustion, I finally feel a little settled down, but there are still many uncertain factors~

Maybe stepping into a new field for the first time will face more challenges, maybe it will be more tiring than now, maybe it will be more interesting than now

We will see the outcome later~ But it is right to continue to maintain the moon until it is completely stable m--m

It’s rare to return to China to celebrate the National Day after an absence of N years. In addition to updating here, Toru also prepared a short story XDDD

Just treat it as a little inconspicuous gift for everyone~ [Release time is before the end of the long holiday]

Although Toru is a slowly crawling snail now, as long as everyone is willing to accompany

One day Toru will climb to the finish line and fill in the hole~>

Due to the drastic changes in the environmental situation, I have recently considered how to take care of it properly in the future*~

The results of the consideration will continue to be reported in short stories or in the next chapter>

Well, Toru still loves codewords anyway!

Even if you are very busy and tired, it is difficult to adapt, but as long as you read the text, you will calm down unconsciously

I hope that the original intention of loving words like this can be maintained~

Well, see you in the next chapter~XD