presumptuous [entertainment]

City W is 01 kilometers away from the capital, and the flight time is about two and a half hours.Tang Ruoyao took off on time at eleven o'clock, had lunch on the plane, and arrived in W City at 30:[-] p.m., walked low-key through the VIP channel, and met the people sent by the crew.

The production team arranged very thoughtfully, knowing that the plane meals are unlikely to be eaten, so they booked a restaurant to treat her specially.

Tang Ruoyao's appetite is light, and as a female artist, she has strict requirements on her figure. In addition, she also wanted to go back to the hotel early so that she could make a phone call or video with Qin Yinong, so she politely declined.

The life producer who accompanied her was a girl who looked sweet and had two dimples when she smiled.Hearing her refusal, the lovable life producer clasped his hands together, and said pitifully to Tang Ruoyao, "Mr. Tang, you just agree. The restaurants are all booked and the budget has been reported. If you don't go, I won't go." It’s better to explain to the superiors.”

Tang Ruoyao hesitated again and again, but still agreed.

She thought: After eating this meal, I just won't go out at night, and going to the set is tomorrow.

The life producer was sitting in the co-pilot, Tang Ruoyao took out his phone from his pocket, and sent a text message to Qin Yinong: [I'm going to have lunch]

After typing a line into the dialog box, Tang Ruoyao thought about it, and changed the modal particle "le" at the end to "la", um, it looks more lively.

Qin Yinong replied to her in seconds: [It's okay, I'm in a meeting]

The corners of Tang Ruoyao's lips curled slightly: [Then tell me when you're done working]

Qin Yinong: [OK]

Tang Ruoyao: [I'll talk to you later]

Qin Yinong: [hmm]

There were other people in the car, so Tang Ruoyao put away his phone.

Qin Yinong put down the phone and stared at the document in front of him for a while.

After a while, she woke up from her trance, signed at the end of the document she had read, put it together and put it aside, and continued to stare at the phone in a daze.

At four o'clock in the afternoon, Tang Ruoyao arrived at the hotel arranged for her by the crew.The cost of the crew is different, and the living conditions are not as good as those of her previous two films, so they can only be regarded as ordinary.

Most of the filming spots are in W City, which means that Tang Ruoyao will live here for a long time.

Tang Ruoyao took out her mobile phone and looked at it. Qin Yinong hadn't replied to her message, maybe the meeting was not over yet.She made up her mind, and worked together with Xin Qian to pack her luggage, put on new sheets, put on new quilt covers and pillowcases, and turn on the small humidifier.

After sending Xin Qian away, Tang Ruoyao sat on the single sofa in front of the window, and the sky outside the window began to darken.

Tang Ruoyao: [I'm done, haven't I finished the meeting yet? 】

One minute later, Qin Yinong replied to her: [Just came out of the meeting room]

Tang Ruoyao: [Wow, do we have a good understanding? 】

Qin Yinong returned her a smiling face.

Tang Ruoyao: [Is it convenient to call? 】

Qin Yinong: [It's not very convenient, let's go at night]

Tang Ruoyao was a little disappointed: [Okay [crying]]

Qin Yinong: [touch]

Tang Ruoyao: [What are you doing? 】

Qin Yinong: [Ready to get off work]

Tang Ruoyao: [I'll read the script first, let me know if you're free at night]

Qin Yinong: [hmm]

Tang Ruoyao took out the script from the bag and spread it on his lap, while the phone was locked and put aside.Just after reading a few lines on the first page of the script, Tang Ruoyao took the phone over again, flipped through the chat records with Qin Yinong from beginning to end, frowning slightly.

She sent a message to Guan Han: [Is Teacher Qin off work? 】

Guan Han who received the message: "???"

Is it okay to just ask Qin Yinong directly?Ask her what?

As a keen assistant, she noticed that the matter was unusual and reported it directly.

Qin Yinong remained silent for a long time, and said, "Just say that I just got off work." After a pause, she added, "Whatever she tells you in the future, you can read it to me before replying."

Guan Han: "Yes."

Both sides got a unanimous reply, Tang Ruoyao temporarily suppressed the vague uneasiness, and focused on reading the script.

Xiao Hong is a representative figure of women in the new era. The script mainly tells the brilliant life of her unyielding creative flowers in the poverty of several times of wandering.Brilliance refers to literature. From the perspective of outsiders decades later, her suffering is just a narration in a friend's memoir, and it is a cold word written on paper, which cannot be empathized with.

But Tang Ruoyao is different, she is going to play Xiao Hong, she can't stand in the perspective of God.She is a real person with flesh and blood, a flower-like girl who suffered successive blows from fate at a beautiful age, and gradually lost hope for happiness in life. She died of illness in Hong Kong at the age of 31 and was buried in the grave with regret. Repulse Bay.She once hugged her big belly and cried bitterly in the dark and damp attic in the dead of night, and she was desperate when love came. She used to live hard, so nostalgic for the world, and finally everything went out.

Death is like a lamp being extinguished, and the evaluation of future generations is only for future generations. She will not consider Xiao Hong or Tang Ruoyao.She threw herself into the torrent of history and tried her best to live this short 31-year life.

Tang Ruoyao has read the script many times, and is immersed in it every time.For her, every rereading is not a mechanical memorization of lines, but to let her soul go to the 20s, follow a person named Xiao Hong, read the books she has read, walk the path she has traveled, and feel the characters Feelings and sorrows of the characters, and then write those shining words with a pen, "Abandoned Children", "The Field of Life and Death", and "Hulan River Biography".

When the cell phone rang, Tang Ruoyao was in the summer of 1932. There was continuous torrential rain and soaring water. In front of her were floods and people fleeing in panic. With a big belly, she waited anxiously and desperately for Xiao Jun’s arrival. .

Tang Ruoyao was in a daze for a while, pulled away from the world of the script, and gently wiped the corners of his eyes with a tissue.

When the video was connected, Ning Ning's small face first appeared on the screen, calling her cheerfully:

"Mommy! I miss you so much!"

Tang Ruoyao smiled at her and said, "I miss you too."

She looked at every corner of the camera, but didn't find Qin Yinong's figure, so she took the initiative to ask, "Where's mother?"

Ning Ning turned the camera, Qin Yinong squatted in front of the TV cabinet, as if searching for something.

Tang Ruoyao let go of the big stone in his heart, and finished chatting with Ningning first, then Qin Yinong went upstairs with his mobile phone, closed the study door and then talked to her.

"Are you still used to it?" Qin Yinong asked.

City W is located in the middle of China, the winter is humid and cold without heating, and spring has not yet started, so one can imagine what it will be like.

Tang Ruoyao learned her mantra and said with a smile, "Fortunately, I didn't go out today."

"Are you going to the set tomorrow?"

"Correct."

"How's the condition over there?"

"I'll find out when I go to see it tomorrow."

"..."

Qin Yinong is not good at small talk, and Tang Ruoyao is actually not good at it either, but in order not to stand out, she took the initiative to take over the topic: "Are you tired at the company today? I heard you chatting with Guan Han about business this morning."

"It's all done."

Tang Ruoyao hummed and said nothing.

The period when the two of them communicated most frequently was after "True Colors" was finished and before they got together.At that time, even if there was nothing to say, listening to each other's breathing on the phone and looking at each other's faces in the video, I felt great happiness.

But it’s different when you’re really together. You’ve truly felt that person’s body temperature, tasted the softness and warmth of her lips, and fell asleep hugging each other every night.How can those intimacy be replaced by words and images?On the contrary, the more it is like this, the more it yearns for real warmth.

So after they formally confirmed their relationship, even if Tang Ruoyao occasionally announced to go out, the two of them seldom made videos.One is because there are not so many things to talk about, and the other is because they feel that they are far apart. They would rather face each other and hold each other for an afternoon without talking, rather than call to express lovesickness across thousands of miles.

They are the same kind of people, so when faced with parting and seeing each other so far away, they feel the same at a loss.

Qin Yinong found a tablet stand, set it up, and placed it on the desk in the study.

Tang Ruoyao imitated the example, and also fixed the tablet, aiming at the area where he was active.

After that, each did his own thing.

Qin Yinong practiced calligraphy and read books, while Tang Ruoyao studied scripts.

On the surface, Qin Yinong was alright, with a focused expression, holding the pen, and writing on the paper stroke by stroke against the copybook.Tang Ruoyao was a little absent-minded, she couldn't concentrate, partly because she wanted to see what Qin Yinong was doing from time to time, and partly because she was afraid that she would be too engrossed in the script and cry later, so that Qin Yinong could see it.

When Tang Ruoyao raised his head once, he saw that Qin Yinong's knuckles were turning white while clutching the pen, and his usual gentle brows and eyes were gloomy, showing a vague hostility.She blinked, and when she looked over again, the haze on her face was gone.

Is it her delusion?

After practicing a word, it took longer than usual.If Qin Yinong picked up the paper, Tang Ruoyao would find that the woman wrote so hard that the ink not only penetrated to the back, but also the pen tip scratched the paper.

Qin Yinong put down his pen, clapped his hands briskly, raised his head, and said to Tang Ruoyao on the screen with a smile, "Today's task is completed."

Tang Ruoyao praised her: "Awesome."

Qin Yinong pursed her lips, and the disappointment in her eyes flashed past.

In the past, Tang Ruoyao would take the initiative to throw himself into his arms and give her a rewarding kiss at this time, and then there was a half probability that he would misfire and turn into a sheep.

She looked at Tang Ruoyao from the screen and didn't speak, but the temperature in her eyes became eager.

Tang Ruoyao swallowed quietly, obviously thinking of the same thing as her.

"Baby." Tang Ruoyao's voice lowered, a little hoarse.

"Huh?" Qin Yinong cast a sideways glance at her lazily.

Tang Ruoyao slipped his throat and licked his lips: "I want to..."

Qin Yinong said coldly, "No, you don't want to."

Tang Ruoyao laughed and said, "Then I'll think about it when I go back, okay?"

Qin Yinong: "Okay." His tone was similar to Tang Ruoyao's, with the same smile.

"One more month, no, I'll be back in 29 days." Tang Ruoyao coaxed her softly, pretending to be brisk.

"I'm waiting for you."

The woman lowered her head and put away the pens and paper on the desk, the smile on her lips disappeared, her eyelids drooped, and her eyes were filled with indifference.

She thought: Do you know that I cannot live without you?why can't you come back nowWhy do you have to leave my side?Obviously you miss me too, don't you?

Tang Ruoyao glanced at the time displayed on the phone, it was already ten o'clock in the evening.

"Do you want the baby to take a bath and sleep?" The cool yet gentle voice of a young woman came from the Ipad speaker.

Qin Yinong raised his eyelids, curled his lips, and said, "Yes."

"Is the video still on?"

"Shut it off first." Qin Yinong didn't want to endure this invisible torture anymore, she would rather not hear her voice, see her face, and wait quietly.

One month, 30 days, 720 hours, 2509 million seconds.

After a while, it will pass.

"But... I want to see you more." Tang Ruoyao obviously didn't have the same idea as her.If you can't touch it, then the next best thing is to take a look.

"Then don't close it." Qin Yinong's smile showed a hint of reluctance.Her heart was full of negative emotions, and she still chose to follow Tang Ruoyao's wishes.

Qin Yinong took the tablet back to the bedroom, placed it on the bedside table, and changed it to face the bathroom. Tang Ruoyao watched her standing in front of the open wardrobe, her slender and graceful back froze for a while, then suddenly stood up, also Quickly took the pajamas and hugged her.

"Guess which of us will finish washing first."

"Me." Qin Yinong didn't hesitate.

"why?"

The corners of Qin Yinong's lips curled slightly, he slowed down his speech, and said meaningfully: "Because you wash very carefully every time you take a bath, especially..."

Her words suddenly became ambiguous, Tang Ruoyao understood what she meant, and rushed into the bathroom blushing.

Qin Yinong stood there and laughed for a while, but after laughing, she felt dull again. She sighed softly, looked towards the empty room opposite, and also walked into the bathroom.

Tang Ruoyao is going to the film crew to meet the main creators tomorrow, and it's not good to be late, so he took a shower and chatted a few more words before going to bed.

Tang Ruoyao: [Good night, if you have a nightmare at night, please call me, no matter how late]

They switched back to typing.

【Good night】

Qin Yinong returned to her.

Tang Ruoyao checked the alarm clock, turned off the lights, with a slight smile on his mouth, hoping to dream of Qin Yinong, and happily closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Qin Yinong clicked into Tang Ruoyao's super chat, browsed the essence of posts, looked at the fans' confession to her, opened a certain app, watched Tang Ruoyao's video clips, and then put down the phone, struggling to Brewing drowsiness.

In the past, Tang Ruoyao temporarily left for a day and went to other places to tell her the same. He said good night early, and then she faced the silent night alone, and it took a long time before she could fall asleep.

But today is more difficult than ever. It seems that the brain is soberly aware that she will not come back tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow.Those emotions that were temporarily suppressed by Tang Ruoyao's ubiquitous passionate love got a respite and made a comeback.

Qin Yinong didn't know how many times he turned over and opened his eyes to look at the digital clock on the bedside table.

Three in the morning.

She sat up, pulled on her slippers and went downstairs to the wine cabinet in the restaurant on the first floor.

Since the last time she was hospitalized, she rarely drank alcohol, and the only few times she attended parties in the circle, she lightly touched her lower lip.When going out to discuss cooperation with customers, try to make appointments in teahouses, and don’t drink if you can’t.

Tang Ruoyao was very strict with her body, Qin Yinong didn't want her to worry.They want to live a long life and grow old together.

Qin Yinong opened the wine cabinet, holding the cold bottle with her bare hands.

The moonlight falling in front of the window is as cool as water on the person.

There was a struggle in Qin Yinong's eyes, and with his fingers pointing outward, he took a bottle of whiskey and a glass and went upstairs.

There used to be a small bar in her room, but it was useless after quitting drinking, and now it is useful again.The amber liquor was slowly poured into the glass, Qin Yinong's pupils reflected the slightly shaking liquor.

With the wine in his throat, Qin Yinong put down the glass and lay back on the bed.

She finally fell asleep.

This sleep was very heavy, and she was awakened by a hasty knock on the door early in the morning.

dong dong dong-

dong dong dong-

Accompanied by a loud child's voice: "Mom! Mom! Are you awake?"

Qin Yinong rubbed her sore and swollen temples. Perhaps she drank alcohol at night and was light-headed. When she stood up, she shook violently. After she stabilized her figure, she dragged her heavy steps to open the door with a hoarse voice. :"What's wrong?"

Qin Jianing said: "Mom, Mommy is back!"

Qin Yinong reacted, breathing quickly: "Where is she?"

Qin Jianing pointed back, and replied childishly: "It's just downstairs, sitting in the living room."

Qin Yinong didn't think about why Tang Ruoyao didn't go upstairs directly, but instead called Ning Ning to call her, she immediately rushed downstairs, stumbled on the last step and stepped on the empty space, staggered forward and fell down, her arms He caught her in time, and she fell into a warm and familiar embrace.

It seemed that the floating soul had found a place to rely on, and in this embrace, she felt an urge to cry spontaneously.

"Why do you..." The woman lowered her head and restrained her excitement a little bit, raised her eyelids, and said slightly red at the corners of her eyes, "Why are you back all of a sudden?"

Tang Ruoyao looked at her with the usual tenderness in his eyes.

"I was afraid that you missed me too much, so I came back." Her voice was soft, with a smile.

"Who misses you?" Qin Yinong was overjoyed in his heart, but said awkwardly.

"I miss you." Tang Ruoyao changed her words with a smile.

Qin Yinong snuggled into her arms, wrapping his hands tightly around her waist and not letting go.

In this posture, Tang Ruoyao led her to sit on the sofa with half support and half hug.

After hugging quietly for a while, Qin Yinong finally remembered and asked, "Is it all right if you come back suddenly?"

Tang Ruoyao paused for a few seconds and said, "I won't make this movie anymore."

Qin Yinong frowned: "Why?"

Tang Ruoyao tightened her arms around the woman, and said in a low voice, "I don't want to be separated from you."

Qin Yinong opened his mouth: "But..."

Tang Ruoyao interrupted her: "Do you want me to leave you for a few months to film?"

Qin Yinong thought it was weird, but couldn't tell what was wrong.

Qin Yinong: "I..."

Tang Ruoyao continued: "Is filming important, or the two of us being together?" There was a trace of sadness in her eyes, and she said, "Don't you like me?"

Qin Yinong hurriedly said: "I didn't mean that, I also..." She said that sentence, "I don't want to be separated from you."

Tang Ruoyao held her hand and said softly, "Then we will be together forever."

Qin Yinong held her back, his eyes were firm: "I won't be separated for a day."

She rubbed Tang Ruoyao into her arms.

Ludicrous indulgence on the couch.

Feeling hot, Qin Yinong whispered her name in her ear, Tang Ruoyao responded honestly, but the voice seemed to be far away, coming from another time and space.

The eyeballs under the woman's eyelids rolled rapidly, and Qin Yinong opened them abruptly.

"distant!"

She sat up and looked around, her pupils contracted suddenly.

is a dream.

Is it a dream?She noticed the strange environment around her, the wall clock, TV, coffee table, dining room, this is the living room on the first floor, didn't she sleep in the room last night?

At this moment, a slender and beautiful figure came out of the kitchen.

Tang Ruoyao poured two glasses of water and put them on the coffee table.

Qin Yinong was stunned.

She looked at Tang Ruoyao, unable to distinguish reality from dreams.

Tang Ruoyao's cheeks were pink, with a hint of joyful charm, and said angrily, "It's still broad daylight, you just... Fortunately, your mother and Ningning are not at home."

Qin Yi became confused.

"Didn't Ningning wake me up in the morning?"

Tang Ruoyao laughed: "That was in the morning, now it's afternoon, you fell asleep after finishing, forget?"

Qin Yinong looked at the setting sun on the horizon, hesitantly said: "...Really?"

"Yes." Tang Ruoyao threw herself into her arms, bit the woman's chin lightly, and said, "You don't believe me?"

Qin Yinong rubbed her head and said with a smile, "How come?"

She confirmed to Tang Ruoyao what she heard in the morning: "Are you really not making that movie?"

Tang Ruoyao nodded.

Qin Yinong indulged: "Then don't shoot, I will pay the liquidated damages for you."

Tang Ruoyao shook his head: "I will pay by myself, I still have some savings, so I can afford it."

Qin Yinong didn't insist, and said, "That's fine."

Tang Ruoyao's attitude made Qin Yinong subconsciously believe in this truth even more.

Tang Ruoyao shook her hand and said, "We've all been downstairs for a day, and I want to go back to my room."

Qin Yinong agreed, and she got up and took Tang Ruoyao's hand upstairs. When she reached the bedroom door, her expression changed slightly, and she said, "You wait for me outside first."

There is still wine in her room that was opened last night. If Tang Ruoyao finds out, she will be angry and distressed.

Tang Ruoyao: "What?"

Qin Yinong stepped in and quickly closed the door.

The wine was at the bar, Qin Yinong went straight to the bar, but did not see the opened bottle of whiskey.

The bar was empty.

Qin Yinong was confused again.

Where's her wine?Was it taken by Tang Ruoyao in advance?

Tang Ruoyao knocked on the door outside: "Qin Yinong?"

Qin Yinong searched everywhere he could see, including the closet, but the bottle of wine and the glass disappeared.

Qin Yinong opened the door.

Tang Ruoyao walked in, saw her face turned pale, and asked worriedly, "What's wrong with you?"

Qin Yinong raised his hand to cover the back of her hand that was caressing his cheek, and said with dry lips: "It's okay." She asked, "Have you ever entered my room?"

Tang Ruoyao said, "No, I haven't gone upstairs since I came back."

Qin Yinong's palms began to sweat.

"When did my mother go out?"

"Morning."

"Did you see someone enter my room?" Qin Yinong glanced at the bar behind him again, and the bottle of wine appeared again, his pupils trembling slightly.

She stood in front of Tang Ruoyao, blocking her sight.

Tang Ruoyao didn't notice anything, shook his head and said, "No."

Qin Yinong supported her shoulders with both hands, turned her back to the bar, and led her to the edge of the bed step by step, staring at the bottle of wine from the corner of her eye.At this moment, something even weirder happened, the bottle of wine disappeared from her sight again.

Qin Yinong's back was covered in sweat.

Her face was pale, and Tang Ruoyao could no longer listen to her "I'm fine", and looked in the direction of her gaze.

Qin Yinong forgot to breathe.

What will she see?

It seems like a second, and it seems like a lifetime.

Tang Ruoyao turned her head back and said strangely: "There is nothing, what are you looking at?"

Qin Yinong breathed a sigh of relief temporarily, and forced a smile: "It's nothing, I'm not feeling well."

"Then you have a good rest." Tang Ruoyao helped her to lie down, Qin Yinong took her hand and said eagerly, "Aren't you going to accompany me?"

"Of course I will accompany you." Tang Ruoyao lay down next to her, Qin Yinong turned sideways, hugged her tightly, and greedily sniffed the fragrance that belonged to her.

"Did you suffer from insomnia last night?" Tang Ruoyao asked insightfully.

Qin Yi pursed her thick lips slightly and nodded.

"It won't happen in the future." Tang Ruoyao patted her on the back lightly, her voice was gentle and sweet like a sea monster in the deep sea, spelling out a spell, "I will always... be with you."

Qin Yinong gradually fell asleep in the familiar embrace.

She didn't know how long she had slept in this sleep. She woke up, closed her eyes, and hummed twice like an immature cub, instinctively looking for the body temperature she relied on.

"Clatter!" A sound of metal collisions brought Qin Yinong back to his sanity.

Qin Yinong opened her eyes. Tang Ruoyao's limbs were tied with cold iron chains. Her long, always soft hair was messed up, covering half of her face. With one exposed eye, she stared eerily at looking at her.

"Yaoyao." Qin Yinong's heart suddenly shrank, and he hurried to untie the chains that bound her, and said angrily, "Who tied you up?!"

Tang Ruoyao's eyes were dark, and he started to laugh.

Qin Yi felt horrified.

"It's you, have you forgotten?" She said softly, leaning forward, pulling the chain behind her, and there was another "crash", "I went to make a movie that year, and you tricked me back , and then never let me out again."

Qin Yinong shook her head: "I haven't."

"You have." A faint self-mockery flashed in Tang Ruoyao's eyes, "You said you loved me, but you locked me in your room and announced to the outside world that I had quit the circle, not letting me act, not letting me I'm going to make money, don't let me see my friends, just be your confinement."

She smiled, but the smile was full of sarcasm, and said quietly: "Is this what you call love?"

Qin Yinong murmured: "No, it's not like this." She suddenly woke up, brushed away the messy hair on Tang Ruoyao's face, gently cupped the young woman's cheek with both hands, and pressed it against her forehead, almost speaking incoherently , "Listen to me, I have thought about it, but I will never do it, I will not hurt you, you believe me."

"Look at the picture in front of you, how do you make me believe you?!" Tang Ruoyao struggled to break free from her, and suddenly raised her voice, so sharp that it almost pierced people's eardrums, "It's you, it's you who ruined me—— "

Tang Ruoyao's hatred was overwhelming, and he said hoarsely: "I hate you!"

……

Qin Yi's long eyelashes trembled violently, and his fingertips sank deeply into his flesh.

She opened her eyes suddenly, panting heavily.

The bedroom was so quiet that only her violent heartbeat and disordered breathing could be heard.

The wine at the bar is still there, as are the glasses.

Qin Yinong raised his hand to touch his cheek, feeling the coldness all over his face.

She opened the curtains, and the sky was bright.

It turned out to be just a dream.

The author has something to say:

I hope you are not frightened by the nightmare, no matter whether you are frightened or not, Sister Qin is frightened“_“Everyone leave a message, the message will send candy tomorrow, I promise!

ps: I don’t like people talking about mental illness/psychosis. I think this is a very serious word, not a meme that can be used as a joke.In addition, I think the mental state of each of my characters is set according to her own experience, and she is not forced to be mentally ill. Besides, Sister Qin is not mentally ill. It is just the paranoia and extreme lack of security caused by the encounters in the first half of her life. She will be fine. ,above