Ten Days End

How many days has it been?

I looked at the marks on the wall and couldn't help but smile bitterly.

Twenty days.

I have been trapped here for twenty days!!

In these three weeks, I could only get a bottle of mineral water and a bag of bread every day.

People can survive for three days without water and a week without food.

But if there is only a bottle of water and a piece of bread every day... How long can a person last?

Due to severe nutritional imbalance, my whole body has lost strength.

In this midsummer season, I was locked in an extremely hot and stuffy hut. There was no suitable place for me to defecate, so the house was stinking.

Countless maggots and flies wandered in the house, and countless cockroaches crawled all over the walls.

It's so funny... The current situation really makes me want to laugh.

I, a person who can't even have dust in my home on weekdays, now live with cockroaches all day long.

In the first few days, I ran around to avoid them, but the area here is too small and I can't get around it anyway.

I can only let them crawl all over my body.

Cockroaches feel soft and cold. When they crawl over my arms, it's itchy, and you can't even feel their slight weight.

I'm really afraid of this kind of thing, but I can't avoid it. Every day I can feel goose bumps all over my body, but I know that when I sleep, they will lean against me and rub their forelimbs carefully beside my ears.

They talk to me at night and use my body to keep warm. I can take cockroaches out of my hair at will.

In this dark and small room, I don't have any hygiene products, only bugs... only countless bugs...

But who am I?

Am I Zhang Laidi, who had to cook for the whole family every day after school when I was seven years old, or Zhang Chenze, who was sent a car to pick me up when I went to and from major companies when I was thirty-three years old?

I have two completely opposite lives, isn't that abnormal?

One of them must be a dream, right?

Yes, I must be hysterical.

If I were to choose now... I would be Zhang Laidi.

I don't want to die.

I lost, I really admit defeat.

These people have no law in their eyes, they will definitely let me starve to death here.

If I don't become Zhang Laidi, I can only be a corpse.

I am a human... I am not a pig, I shouldn't be locked up in a small room every day, eating, drinking, defecating and urinating together.

I want to stand up, I want to shake off the bugs on my body, I want to change into cleaner clothes, I want to take a shower, and I also want to eat a juicy peach.

I want to be Zhang Laidi.

What kind of unattainable dream was I touching before?

I want to get out of here and start another life.

The ten years in Chengdu are really the most absurd dream in my life.

I was wrong, I won't dare to do it again.

As long as I can leave this house, I can agree to anything.

I am willing to be Ma's wife, I am willing to stay in the village, and I am willing to give birth to his children.

My life has been destined to be like this since birth, but I have been struggling like a dream.

If I can completely get rid of these situations just by my own efforts, why are there so many miserable people in the world? This is unfair to them.

Now my dream is awake, and I should return to my original life.

Cockroach friends... Do you think I am right?

But why didn't the butcher come to find me?

Didn't he say that he only wanted to starve me for five days?

It's been twenty days now!

Fortunately, I can distinguish between night and day in the house, and I can vaguely hear sounds in the distance, otherwise I will definitely go crazy.

What happened to the nearest village?

A few days ago, I could always hear the sound of police cars and vaguely hear quarrels, but it has become quiet these days.

But I didn't even have the strength to speak, and I couldn't even ask for help.

Who can save me?

But will asking for help be useful? Everyone in this village is very united, and even the confessions will be coordinated in advance.

In such a deep mountain, even if someone dies, no one will call the police.

It was not until the evening that the door of the house was finally opened.

This door was opened for the second time in 20 days.

"Damn it..." Ma the butcher stood there angrily. He looked back and saw that there was no one around, then turned around and closed the door.

I gasped heavily, stretched out my hand, and wanted to say something, but found that my arm began to shrivele.

When did this happen...?

"What the hell are you doing in the city?!" He asked in a panic, "Why are there so many people here?Police? I didn't dare to come here for several weeks..."

"Let me go..." I finally said two words, almost using up all my strength, "Let me go..."

"Let you go?"

I saw that he had an oil lamp in his hand. He put the oil lamp aside and reached out to untie his belt.

I was a little dazed, and I didn't know what he was doing for a moment.

"It's so troublesome to lock you up... It seems that I can't wait for you to give in. I have to deal with you first. "

Wait... wait a minute...

I finally reacted, but my mind was extremely slow now. All the words I wanted to say were like cars crashing into each other in a car accident, stuck in my throat and I couldn't say a word.

He slapped me to the ground and stretched out his hands to tear off my clothes.

I didn't have the strength to resist.

Can you let me say a word?

I agree... I agree to everything, but don't touch me like this...

Please...

"Eh..." He took off my pants and showed a look of contempt, "You bitch... why are you dirtier than a pig? "

I am going to collapse. The dignity I have accumulated and the persistence I have worked so hard for for so long are all disintegrating at this moment.

How serious a sin have I committed to make my life so miserable?

What should I do?

At this moment, I am like a corpse. No matter what this smelly man does to me, I can't move at all.

"Idiot..." He saw that I didn't react at all, so he stretched out his hand and slapped my face.

I was slapped many times, and my mouth was full of the taste of blood, but I didn't say a word.

Until he stopped moving, I shed tears.

This is my life.

It is a life that I was destined to have from the day I was born.

It is said that on the day I was born, there were a total of six babies in the delivery room, five of which were boys.

My old man and my mother happily asked the doctor: "Which boy is ours? "

When they learned that the only girl was their child, the two turned away with grim faces. If the doctor hadn't stopped them, I would have lost my parents now.

"It's really a idiot..."

Ma the butcher stood up and put on his pants. When I thought everything was over, he hit me head-on again.

He took out the mobile phone that he had used for who knows how long from his pocket and started taking pictures and videos of me from all angles.

Whether it was possible to take pictures or not.

It's illegal... He broke the law again...

But wait... Why should I care whether he broke the law or not?

This is my future life. I'm not a lawyer. I'm Zhang Lai Di.

When I was most helpless, desperate, and dirty, he took pictures of me carefully.

Now I can't even cover my face with my hands.

"Aren't you a idiot, you bitch?" He turned the phone over and shook it in front of me. "If you dare to complain, I will post these photos everywhere, do you know that? "

After saying this, he spat on the ground, muttered "stinking" and slammed the door and left, locking the chain again.

He left again...?

I really can't, don't leave me here anymore, I feel like I'm going to die.

I seem to be injured... sick... and I'm almost starving to death...

Don't leave me here...

I'm in pain all over, and I feel like a cockroach has crawled onto my face.

Don't touch me anymore... Really don't touch me anymore...

I stretched out my hand with all my strength and took the cockroach off my face.

I really want to crush it to death in my hand.

But it's not fair to it.

This cockroach didn't do anything wrong, it was just forced to die because of my emotions, this is not fair.

My experience is already tragic enough, there is no need to involve other lives.