The Shaman Wants Transcendence

Chapter 32

32 – The Difference Between a Freak and an Uninvited Guest

The doctor looked very tired. Unlike the youthful-looking face that seemed young and the harmless-looking rabbit-like impression, there were thick dark circles under the eyes, giving off a pessimistic atmosphere as if they had been stricken by harsh hair.

Behind the doctor was a woman in a white nurse’s uniform, her face strangely blurred. Information such as pretty, cute, and young is clearly coming in, but the fog obscures the information and prevents it from being visualized… It was such a strange feeling.

『SAE』

The nurse’s nameplate was the same. The front part was clearly readable, but the back part seemed to be hard to read even though there were clearly letters.

Wouldn’t a person with dyslexia feel this way?

“Now that you’re up, shall we begin? Huh…”

The doctor sat across from her and asked.

“First…Do you remember your name?”

“Yes? Yes, of course… I’m Saigo Rise…”

“Okay. Do you remember how old you are?”

“Yes… I’m 21 years old…”

“21 years old…Hmm…Yes. I see.”

Swoop.

The doctor listened to Lisse and scribbled something on her chart in her hand.

“Okay… So what’s the last memory that comes to mind?”

“Yes? The last one? So… So… She went to make an offering to the shrine… What? I can’t remember any more…”

“Haa… From there.”

The doctor frowned as she put her hand to her forehead as if she were tired. Then she let out a very deep and long sigh and she said to Lise.

“Mr. Saigo Lise. I think this is already the 5th time I’ve been talking about it… But I’ll say it again. Ms. Lise is now suffering from Schizophrenia… No, Schizophrenia.”

“Yes?”

Ataxia of integration.

Mental illness called schizophrenia, schizophrenia, or schizophrenia in other countries.

Lise looked at her doctor as if she couldn’t believe she had such a serious illness. However, she let out a small sigh as if she was fed up with the doctor, and then she explained again.

“And this is already the 5th time I have said this. Mr. Saigo has now suffered from consolidation and amnestic syndrome. So, no matter how much I explain, at some point he forgets again…”

“Memory loss, huh? But…”

“Yes. Your memory must be clear. The amnesia Mr. Saigo suffers from is progressive amnesia, so it is difficult for him to remember new information. You seem to be able to recall past memories well… Whoa. This is true…”

“Prophetic planet, amnesia…”

The doctor once again wrote something on the chart he was holding in his hand. He then glanced at the nurse.

Receiving the doctor’s signal, the nurse handed a note to the doctor, who received it, opened it slightly, and continued.

“This is a very nasty situation. To put it simply, Mr. Saigo’s memories of the past are distorted.”

“Yes? Distortion?”

“The distortion was plausible, so at first we also diagnosed Saigo with Delusional Disorder. However, as time went on, hallucinations and auditory hallucinations and the degree of delusion gradually became unrealistic. Let’s look at this.”

The doctor unfolded part of the notebook.

“I went out today. As soon as I left, the sun greeted me, but I did not receive it. The words of the sun are mixed with cursing, making my blood boilBecause it can harden the brain. As I walk to the evidence, sweat flows from my body. It is the work of ants with poisonous substances that have been incited by the sun. I didn’t do anything because the metal in the dirt sent my actions to the doctor. God has followed me behind me, but the inaudible footsteps seem to be sitting on top of my head and taking care of the doctor for me. God kept a watchful eye on the arrival of the nurse, but the nurse is always trying to brainwash me with an injection. God laughs and hates being drugged. The nurse who comes at dawn has a devil disguised as a nurse, but there is a small chip hidden in the syringe. When hit, it can control my body and make my brain move at will. I quickly escaped the sun and went to the shade of a tree to watch the ants, and the ants relayed my actions to the doctor. I have no choice but to stop going out and go back. Because the doctor is watching me write this down on a wiretap. The doctor doesn’t love me, but he’s better than the nurse. 』

“Eh, what is this?”

What caught RiSe’s eyes were the letters written on one side. Surprisingly, the note was written in Risse’s handwriting, but the contents were incoherent and full of incomprehensible phrases, to the point that anyone looking at it could tell that it was written by a mentally ill patient.

Lise looked at her doctor with her surprised face, and he closed her notebook when he saw her face turned blue.

“This is Rise’s diary. Let’s see.”

On the cover of the notebook the doctor showed me, the word 『Diary』 Was written in Rise’s handwriting. And at the bottom of the cover is 『Saigo Rise. Never steal 』 Was written.

And next to the warning phrase, there was also a very small text 『Excluding doctors』.

“Is this, is this my diary?”

“That’s right.”

The doctor passed the diary to the nurse.

“I’m sure you’re aware of the situation, so I’ll finish the explanation. Saigo-san is currently suffering from ataxia. As you can see in that diary, I can see symptoms of unrealistic delusions.”

“No way…”

“But the problem is, I can’t see the problem in Saigo-san’s brain.”

“Yes?”

“Usually, ataxia patients tend to have increased dopamine, but Mr. Risse was fine. Not only that, but the frontal lobe, cerebral cortex, basal ganglia, lateral ventricle, and third ventricle… Everything was normal. In addition, memory loss is also the same. The hippocampus and diencephalon were all normal. What does this mean…”

The doctor paused for a moment and then said.

“…That means that neither medicine nor electroshock therapy will work.”

It’s really difficult, right?

The doctor said so.

However, Rise could not properly respond to the doctor’s words. Because his head was so confused with information he had never imagined.

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It seems to be spinning round and round.

The shock turned his brain white as if it had been bleached, and he could not think properly as if he had stopped.

But the doctor didn’t really care what kind of condition Lise was in. He didn’t want to know much.

No, he pulled information out of his mouth that he never wanted to know.

“Obviously, it’s normal if the symptoms appear to affect the brain… So we thought for a long time about what to do, then we went to a competent counselor and got advice. Then we heard from him a treatment method that seemed to be effective for Mr. Saigo.”

Said the doctor.

“Now Saigo-san is Trauma, So they said it was highly likely that he was self-suggesting in order to escape from psychological trauma. That is, they brainwashed themselves. So traditional. Is it so. Rather than electroshock therapy and drugs traditionally used in our hospital, we decided that deprogramming would be more effective in naturally freeing ourselves from brainwashing and allowing us to perceive reality, and we will use that method to heal Saigo.”

“Three, brainwashed?”

“That’s right. Mr. Saigo created an imaginary being called ‘God’ in order to escape from the shocking reality, and he was restrained, fanatical, and blindly confident. Then, centered on that virtual being, he distorted the past and erased his memories. Changed.”

The doctor continued talking and looked straight into Rise’s eyes.

“Mr. Saigo, most of the reality you remember now is different from reality.”

“That, there’s no way…”

“Saigo, please trust me. Please trust me, the medical staff at our hospital. We will spare no effort for Saigo’s full recovery. We will definitely cure the disease.”

“No…”

“The process of deprogramming can be painful and difficult, but I will never let Saigo suffer alone. Let’s break the brainwashing together, suffer together, and heal together. I will never give up on Saigo-san. .”

“No! I’m not crazy!”

“Whoa… Let’s start. Get ready.”

As the doctor spoke, the nurse who had been standing still behind her approached Rise. She subdued Rise with unbelievable strength from her fragile appearance, put her straightjacket on her, and bound her to the bed.

In the middle of her, her Lisse screamed at her and tried to resist her, but her nurse easily subdued her as if she had several arms and put her in a straitjacket. Her body was tightly bound, leaving her immobilized.

“Free this! Free it!”

“This is an attempt to prevent self-harm or acts of violence.”

“What are you doing! Let it go! Let it go!”

Rise, who had suddenly been tied up, twisted her body, feeling her sense of crisis and fear, but her tight restraints didn’t even shake her bed properly, let alone escape. The doctor watched her lie still until she calmed down.

Soon, when she was tired of her selfishness and gasping for breath, she finally opened her mouth.

“First, let’s start with the family. Mr. Saigo, how are your family relationships?”

“Huh… Release this…”

“It can’t be.”

“Free me…!”

“If you cooperate with the treatment, you can be released soon.”

“Huh… Black…”

RiSe shed her tears, wondering what was so sad about it.

But she soon realized that she had accepted reality, and with a sobbing voice, she answered the doctor’s question.

“My father and I…We are two like this.

“Kenji Saigo, is that right?”

“Yes… Black…”