The Crucifixion Cross

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By the time he finished washing and changing his clothes, it was already a quarter past seven.

The morning sun in early spring is neither too cold nor too hot, with a soft warmth of spring.

Sprinkled on the body, it seems that the whole body is soaked in warm spring water.

Both of them chose to dress casually today, and the main colors are light colors. Walking together, it feels like a couple's outfit.

There seemed to be a light rain last night, and the air in the morning felt a little more humid. The sun fell into the puddles by the street, reflecting a clear light——

"It's not a bad morning in early spring, is it?"

With a refreshing style—of course not the "refreshing style" of a certain street hero—Su Fei, who was dressed as a handsome guy, looked back at Sakura and said with a smile.

"……what?"

Sakura raised her head in a daze, obviously not thinking about it.

It was only at this time that Su Fei realized that the girl's eye circles revealed a little bit of dark black.

"Didn't you sleep last night?"

"It's not that I didn't sleep well, it's just that I didn't sleep." Sakura shook her head, her voice a little astringent, "I tossed and turned in bed all night, but I couldn't fall asleep anyway."

"No wonder you came to see me so early today... Although I can't sleep with you, it's a good choice to have someone to accompany you through this most difficult time, right?"

"Worst time?"

"It's like waiting for the game server to receive rewards and go to the newly opened card pool to draw cards... If you get it, you are the winner in life, and if you don't get it, you are the Loser among Losers," Su Fei shrugged, "Although I am doing game planning and operation myself, and the card pool probability and card draw mechanism are all controlled by me, but every time I see a tweet from a player crying because of a shipwreck, I can't help but click on it Like-how, am I bad?"

Seeing the mischievous smile on Su Fei's face, Sakura didn't know what expression to use for herself, because she had never been in contact with this field at all.

However, the careful girl could detect something different from Su Fei's performance——

Hua Ling’s words: Report the results: two rounds and ten consecutive rounds led to Skadi, Fukudai New Saseiin, four rounds and ten consecutive rounds of New Valkyrie + Brunhilde, I feel good about myself.

...I actually forgot to write the title when I posted it yesterday, embarrassing.

Chapter 120 Seven. Girls Talk

Sakura couldn't hold back in the end—

"I always feel that you are a little different from before."

"Different? What's different?"

"Attitude, temperament..." Sakura frowned slightly, she didn't know how to describe that feeling, she just felt an inexplicable sense of déjà vu, "It's not the feeling of 'changing a person', but more... ..."

Just when Sakura was struggling to die, Su Fei smiled and said:

"You mean to say that the same changes happened to me as Sirin, don't you?"

"Yes! That's it!" Sakura's eyes lit up, and she finally knew where the inexplicable sense of déjà vu came from - isn't the current Su Fei the same as Sirin after saying "re-becoming her real self"! ?

Of course, this is not to say that Su Fei has completely copied Xilin's complicated and tortuous mental journey and personality changes, it just gives people the same feeling.

Sirin's experience is so complicated that even the Japanese writers who like to do it the most don't like to write it very much, because it is thankless, and it is very, very easy to write characters. Only those who love to make characters in black and white The scriptwriters of the Celestial Dynasty who jumped back and forth in between have a special liking for this kind of role.

"Su Fei, what are you..."

"It's just that I mustered up the courage to get to know myself again." Su Fei stopped walking, "I don't know what's going on with Xilin, and I don't know if my situation is of reference value to you, but... Sakura , sometimes, 'letting go' is actually more important than 'holding'."

"……what?"

"It means to advise you not to get too deep," Su Fei sighed, "When it's time to let go, you should let go. It's not a bad thing to live more freely... If you really can't let go, just give yourself a little courage , to face the self hidden in my heart."

Su Fei's words almost perfectly corresponded to the situation of Xilin and himself.

Sirin chose to let go—that is, to accept all the past and present Sirin, which is also the true meaning of the phrase "re-becoming the true self", and Su Fei finally mustered up the courage in the sky where he was alone , admitted that weak self.

So, what about Sakura?

Su Fei's EQ may not be very high, otherwise he would not have understood why Sakura has become so strange until now, but he still chooses to help Sakura as much as he can.

However, Sakura just shook her head:

"It's not that easy, Su Fei, your method won't work, it's not something you can face with courage."

Sakura's refusal instantly reminded Su Fei of a classic dialogue:

Tuanzi: Why do you keep silent?Some things, if you don't say it, who knows!

Snow Girl: Don’t you too?Always say secret things...

Great teacher: If you don't say it, you won't understand... But, even if you say it, you won't understand some things, right?

——When Su Fei saw this episode in the animation for the first time, he thought it was amazing, but when he came back to his senses, he was embarrassed, because this episode almost fully interpreted the classic Japanese school style pure style hypocrisy .

To put it bluntly, it is a question of "whether you want to say it or not". Why do you have to take the blame for pretending to be sophisticated when acting so complicated?

Su Fei felt that the current Sakura was caught in this vicious circle, between 'speaking' and 'not speaking' and 'you won't understand if you say it, so just don't say it, but if you don't say it, no one will understand'. Hesitating among the three painful options.

Fortunately, Ying didn't go to high school, and she wasn't abused that deeply, so she finally chose to "talk", but the object was not Su Fei but Xilin.

The sword witch girl seemed to believe that she was repeating Xilin's past experience, as for Su Fei?

Sorry, He know nothing——

Since Ying believes that only Xilin can solve her doubts, Su Fei can only do her best to help Ying. For example, during the period before Xilin wakes up, try to make her live as comfortable as possible. In front of the mobile phone, he is struggling to update the game server card pool, and he has to calculate whether he can afford steamed buns in case the ship sinks, etc., making himself extremely uncomfortable.

So, Su Fei finally brought Sakura to Ganaku.

His job today would have been to complete Siren's final test, which could be easy or tedious.

Su Fei chose the former without the slightest hesitation, given yesterday's distraction.

His heart was washed clean and bright by this blue and clean sky, what about Sakura?

With this kind of expectation, Su Fei stepped on the pedal and went straight to the sky——

It is a pity that people are different after all, and what works for Su Fei does not work for Sakura at all.

Su Fei was completely moved by the blue and clear sky, even when she saw it for the second time, she still admired it from the bottom of her heart, but Sakura was not moved - she was more interested in the pure touch of nature than The most striking thing is Siren's amazing destructive power in actual combat.

So, it's not that Su Fei doesn't work hard, it's that Sakura can't help her...

Combat test + lunch + lunch break, I finally finished the game maintenance for a few hours, and finally waited until the time to enter the card pool, but...

"Su Fei, don't go in."

Saying so, Sakura turned around and was about to close the door.

"Wait, wait!? I don't even have the qualifications to watch?!"

"Rita said it's called 'Girls Talk'—since it's 'Girls', of course there's no room for boys to participate."

Ying used practical actions to tell Su Fei what it means to apply what he has learned, and this is also the reason why Su Fei never knew anything about Rita's mind-washing for Ying several times without saying a word.

Girls Talk, a rough guy like Su Fei should retreat.

"Okay, come on."

Su Fei shook her head, turned around and left without delay.

The folding fan door connecting the outside world and the laboratory was also tightly closed after he left.

At the same time, the operation of the Honkai suppression necklace also slowly stopped, and Kiyana's personality retreated to the second line, replaced by the Queen of Honkai——

"……you again?"

After waking up from a deep sleep, Sirin saw the tangled Sakura on her face as soon as she opened her eyes. She didn't go around and asked directly:

"Where's Su Fei? Where did that guy go?"

Sakura took a deep breath and slowly replied:

"Su Fei left first."

"Leave?" Sirin frowned and said dissatisfiedly: "I'm waiting to study his genetic factors and the adaptability of the holy blood. Why did he leave?"

"Because I have something to ask Miss Sirin—"

Sakura said slowly.

She closed her eyes, cheered herself up silently in her heart, and then walked towards Sirin's desk with heavy steps.

The eyes of the two met in mid-air, the orange eyes were full of doubts, and the light purple eyes revealed tension and bewilderment:

"Miss Sirin...how does she view her other self?"

Hua Ling’s words: After reading the last chapter of Erbeng, I feel stable, because the two most important settings, Sirin’s disappointment with God and the relationship between Sirin and Cecilia, can be matched. As for the other... …

All I can say is that as long as you don't expect anything from MHY's writers, you won't be disappointed.

For more than a year, anyone who is not blind can see that the screenwriters of MHY are of a high level. The word "forcibly" has been said over and over again, so let it be, instead of wasting precious time On the second collapse, it is better to read a visual novel together.

Chapter 120 Eight. Girls Talk

Straight to the point, straight to the point, without dragging the water - although Sakura is not the daughter of a samurai family, this awe-inspiring and decisive style is quite a bit like theirs.

However, Sirin's reaction was beyond Sakura's expectations.

I saw her gently pushing the flat mirror on the bridge of her nose to increase the intellectual breath, and said lightly:

"Although I don't know who you learned about me from, I think my experience should not be of any reference value to you."

The current Sirin is no longer the Sirin who just woke up from Kiyana's body. Not only has she developed a hobby of cross-dressing, but her temper is much better than before.

In other words, a few months ago, Sirin's reaction was likely to raise her eyebrows, followed by a space transfer and throwing Sakura to the Sahara Desert, allowing her to experience why the sun is so round and so hot.

The current Sirin is different, she was able to calmly tell Sakura that she was not the "best solution" she was looking for... I can only say that Kiyana—that is, Sirin's "good personality" The impact on her was far greater than Sirin's own imagination.

"How do you know if you don't tell me?"

Sakura bit her lip, she didn't realize that she was repeating the conversation she had with Su Fei not long ago, and Xilin just shook her head slightly:

"Don't think about it too much, a qualified person who has eroded, I will become what I am now because the 'God' wants to use me to destroy human beings, and I am afraid of what happened to the Herrscher of Reason. So I simply put my original personality It is only integrated with the personality of the Lawer. In other words, the problems I experienced are neither psychological nor spiritual, but personality. It only spread to the psychological and spiritual levels later, but in essence, We have nothing in common at all.”

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because you don't have a second personality at all—whether it is the second personality extended from 'you' itself, or the personality of the Herrscher of Corruption, because Su Fei has already solved this problem for you."

Sirin sighed:

"Isn't there a normal person around that guy Su Fei? Either the smart ones will die, or the stupid ones will die, and you, of course, are the latter—since that guy Su Fei has helped you solve the problem of Herrscher's personality. problem, then you will naturally not be troubled by any 'other self', unless the 'other self' you are talking about is not in the sense of personality, but in the sense of character."

Sirin's clarity is obviously because she has been absorbing all kinds of knowledge from the Herrscher Gem of Law these days.

She is like a sponge, constantly enriching herself, but she also avoids the tragic ending of expanding like a balloon until it explodes.

This statement is also the most acceptable answer after absorbing countless psychological knowledge-those obscure and proprietary words are really not suitable for daily conversations, only those who like to show off from the encyclopedia Only third-rate writers and criminals pretending to be X will do this.

"Personality meaning and... character meaning...?"

Sakura stared blankly at Sirin.

"It's good to understand it literally-the 'other self' in the sense of personality is like me. Except for me, almost all qualified people who are selected as the Herrscher's container will face a similar situation, and you ..."

"Am I the same!?"

"Didn't you listen to me at all just now?" Sirin frowned, "Didn't I say that? Su Fei has already solved this problem for you, once and for all—I probably heard him talk about some of your experiences in the Eightfold Illusionland The matter, the fluctuation of the Houkai energy in you also proves one point - the personality of the Herrscher of Corrosion has been sealed by him, and it is no problem for you to understand it as 'dead', so your so-called 'other self', only It may be that you have a psychological disagreement with yourself."

"psychology……"

Sakura repeated the word blankly.

Before today, Sakura always felt that she was deeply troubled by the personality of the eroding Herrscher—although she had personally experienced everything in the Eightfold Illusion, she was no better than Su Fei and the Qi Ling girl who knew everything, even though she also felt that Su Fei Fei had already helped him solve all the problems, but how should he explain the abnormality on his body "after that"?

The first culprit Sakura finds is Rita, and the second is the Herrscher of Corrosion.

She stubbornly believed that the reason why she became so strange must be due to Rita's preaching and the personality of the Herrscher of Corrosion!

Sakura doesn't have a deep understanding of the Houkai Neng, but she can feel that the power hidden in her body has shown a great affection for Su Fei's existence, so she is concerned about the "Honkai Neng's influence" She firmly believed in the existence of another self who was born under her - if not, why did she become so "strange" when facing Su Fei?

She firmly believed in her own judgment, so she insisted on treating Sirin as the 'knife' that could cut off all the mess, but when things came to an end, Sirin actually told her that she was just thinking too much! ?

Does this mean that...

Before the thought that had been suppressed in her heart came to mind, Sakura stood up from her seat with a trembling voice:

"This is impossible?! There must still be a Herrscher personality in my body! Even if she is gone, there must be something affecting me!"

"You think too much," Sirin shook her head. "If it were someone else, I guess I would have the same judgment as you. For example, the personality of the Herrscher is not completely dead, but unfortunately, the executioner of the 'death penalty' It's Karen Kaslana, and the weapon she uses is the almost completely liberated Judah's Oath—even in my heyday, I have no hope of escaping from the zeroth rated power of the Judah's Oath, which erodes , not to mention."