The Crucifixion Cross

After recovering herself, Sirin, who regained her composure, was still able to make a more objective assessment of the strengths of all parties, such as the Moonlight Throne Tianke Collapse, Fu Huashangxian's boundless mana, and she was barely a comrade-in-arms The same is true of lawyers.

Although in terms of record, the Herrscher of Corrosion is indeed unrivaled, and it can even be said that she directly led to the demise of human civilization in the first era-if she hadn't wiped out human beings to only six figures, what would have happened in the end? Whether the Herrscher can survive the crowd tactics of Chasing Flame Moth is another matter.

In the face of a thousand-fold manpower gap, any impossibility may turn into possibility——

However, compared with that exaggerated record, the combat effectiveness of the Herrscher of Corrosion is still too good.

Not to mention anything else, a Herrscher of Flame can instantly kill her by [-] blocks, and Sirin has personally experienced the power of the zeroth rated power of Judas' Oath, so she can assert that the Herrscher of Corrosion is dead There is no scum left.

In other words...

All of Sakura's problems are actually her own.

Hua Ling’s words: It’s a shame that I paid 358+30, and I finally graduated Ziyuan’s three stars... It’s a pity that I sold all the purple sun materials for the star stone before the version update. Even if the crystals and dog food are enough, the weapons and stigmata are also enough I can't level up, sorry.

The ultimate zone will open tomorrow, and I don’t know what ghosts and ghosts there will be. Honglian also failed to relegation yesterday, and today the re-examination copy was played by personnel, and Sigurd was not drawn out, and the second Xiaoen was crooked... ...I've been in too much misery this time!

Chapter 120 Nine. Girls Talk

Without the influence of Herrscher's consciousness, and without the so-called second personality born under the influence of Houkai, all the problems in Sakura's heart were born by herself——

When Sirin pointed out this fact mercilessly, a corner of Sakura's heart collapsed.

She took a step back involuntarily, her staggering steps almost knocked down the chair behind her, but Sakura didn't realize it at all.

"This is impossible... this is impossible! There must be something wrong!"

"Are you doubting my judgment?" Sirin raised one of her snow-white and slender legs, and said dissatisfiedly, "Do you question me as the Second Herrscher and master of psychology?"

Although she has 'practical' experience as a psychiatrist, Sirin's knowledge reserve is undoubtedly the highest.

Although the time in 1955 was a bit embarrassing, this solid foundation brought almost unlimited possibilities to Xilin in terms of knowledge. Otherwise, Xilin would not be able to assert that with Su Fei's IQ, it was absolutely impossible to crack the password she set. locked.

It's not that Su Fei is not smart enough, but that Xilin's knowledge reserve is too exaggerated.

This is the same as the old pedants who have been studying rote all their lives. Their practical ability may be very urgent, but if it is a contest in the field of pure knowledge, there are really few who can defeat them.

From a certain point of view, this can also be regarded as a qualitative change caused by a quantitative change.

The reason why Xilin insisted on only coming out for one hour every day was that apart from the agreement with Su Fei and preventing the infection from deepening, another reason was that she had to spend a lot of time and experience to absorb and digest this huge amount of knowledge.

In the 21st century, technology is power, and knowledge is the cornerstone of technology. Sirin feels that she has no problem walking this way.

In order to achieve the goal of "arming oneself with knowledge and defeating the enemy with technology", Sirin absorbed a lot of knowledge in bioengineering, physics and chemistry, and other aspects of knowledge—such as cosmetology, psychology, and linguistics— —I have also digested a lot, and in the true sense, I have achieved 'surging in the ocean of knowledge'.

Sirin's most confident thing about her now is no longer the power of hell. A mountain is higher than a mountain. Isn't she in the six-core mode also beaten up by Fu Hua like a younger brother?

Not only was it seconded, but it was also twice, the kind that has no power to fight back!

Now that Sakura is questioning her judgment in front of her, Sirin is naturally unhappy.

You don't slap someone in the face when you hit someone, and you don't expose your shortcomings when you swear at someone. Do you understand, little girl!

Of course, Sakura definitely doesn't understand, her mind is full of the "secrets" that Sirin explained in a nutshell.

"Give up struggling and face the reality." Sirin rested her chin, turning the pages of the book at hand, and said lazily: "There is no second personality and Herrscher consciousness at all, all your feelings come from yourself .”

"Feelings...?!" Sakura suddenly raised her head, "You know what I'm thinking?!"

"Girls' feelings are always spring~" Xilin sneered softly, with a bit of inexplicable meaning, "It's natural for that idiot Su Fei to not notice it. I'm afraid he didn't think about it at all, did he? In fact, it's a little Just turn your head around and you will know, what else can make a girl of your age so troubled?"

She looked at the dumbfounded Sakura, and softly snorted:

"Family, study, career, personal relationship - you don't get along with the first two, and your career is supported by Su Fei, so naturally you don't need to worry about it as an 'ancient man', so the only thing left is feelings. .”

"Sirene, you..."

"It's unbelievable? Because my guess is so accurate?" Sirin curled her lips, her brows seem to have regained a bit of the dignity of the 'queen' period, "what's so surprising? It's just a reasonable inference, even' You can't even say reasoning - all your thoughts have already been written on your face!"

Facing Xilin's unceremonious words like a knife, Sakura's reaction was very stupid and cute-she actually covered her face with her hands, and immediately crouched down with her head in her arms! ?

For a moment, even Xilin was stunned by Sakura for a moment - what is going on with this silly child?

She didn't have this kind of personality, did she?

Recalling the Sakura in Kiana's impression, Sirin's expression gradually became weird.

She seems to have a deeper understanding of why Sakura is unwilling to accept that fact, and even invented something as nonsense as a "second personality"——

From a high-cold girl to a silly girl in love, this transformation is indeed a bit abrupt. If you are not mentally prepared before, it is indeed difficult to accept it for a while.

What's more, compared with ordinary high-cold girls, Sakura had a "taboo" relationship before...

The problem suddenly became complicated, but Sirin smiled with great interest.

When she gets along with Su Fei, she is always deflated in every possible way, so that Xilin sometimes wonders whether "deflation" has become her inherent attribute, otherwise how can she explain her fate that seems to be at a disadvantage at all times?

However, at this moment, Sirin seized the opportunity of 'reversal'!

Yes, you, Bai Yu Su Fei, are powerful, and you don't need to spend money on all kinds of bug-level abilities, but so what?

I can't deal with you, can't I also deal with your woman?

Ignoring the slight sourness and bitterness in her heart, Sirin sneered, adjusted her posture, and looked down at Sakura, who was almost crushed by her words just now, and almost fell to the ground with a more arrogant attitude:

"You must be trying very hard to convince yourself, right? Convince yourself that these feelings are not your own, but brought about by the so-called 'second personality' - Yae Sakura will always be Yae Sakura, the one who loves you deeply Karen Kaslana’s Yae Sakura, as for Bai Yu Su Fei? That’s just a passer-by who gave you some novel experiences in your life—you always felt that way before today, right?”

Sirin's voice was neither too heavy nor too frivolous, but slowly, revealing the truth bit by bit.

Her voice was like a sharp knife, tearing Sakura's psychological defenses to shreds, and she placed in front of her the fact that Sakura always wanted to ignore and forget:

"However, in fact? In fact, there is no so-called second personality at all, and the impact of Houkai on you is only limited to your body—indeed, your body will feel 'comfortable' because of the contact with Su Fei." , but what really turned you into the embarrassing state you are now is not as simple as a mere physical abnormality, right?"

There was a playfulness in Sirin's eyes:

"——The problem is your 'heart'! It's not your body or your personality that betrayed you, but your 'heart' betrayed the feelings you have always insisted on."

She looked at the silent Sakura, and dropped the general's chess pieces lightly and heavily:

"I'm right, girl in love...Yae Sakura?"

花零的话：不管你是谁，只要你吹01我们就是朋友！01这真的是一集更比Zio47.5集强啊！剩下的1.5集分别是Zio II的一集和49集的后半集，嗯！

Chapter 130. Maybe because of the unknown dream, the wandering people chase the phantom

The chess piece that Sirin dropped at the end shattered the last self-deception in Sakura's heart.

She ruthlessly tore off the only fig leaf left in Sakura's hand, exposing the fact she was least willing to admit to herself——

"Admit it honestly, Sakura, you just fell in love with Su Fei."

While Xilin was talking, she also complained secretly in her heart that her temper was much better than before.

If it were Sirin during the second Honkai period, she might not even be able to reason with Ying. How could she play the role of a psychiatrist and a confidant big sister like she is now?

Although her dress today does have the feeling of a female doctor's uniform, seduction, but it's just 'dress' and 'feeling'. Sirin's dressing up like this is purely out of her interest, and to get along with silly The distinction between the white and sweet girl Kiyana does not mean that she is really going to Mishima's infirmary to report.

Sirin's job is to prepare the 'seeds' as soon as possible. As for why she calmed down and came to serve as Sakura's psychological counselor...

In addition to venting the resentment of being "bullied" by Su Fei on "Su Fei's woman", more, probably "unaccustomed"?

In Sirin’s view, Sakura is already happy enough—her life experience is indeed sympathetic, but after more than 500 years, she has been resurrected once, so she can at least “smile to face the cloudy sky” 'Smile for tomorrow' right?

As far as the misery is concerned, Xilin has never been afraid of anyone, but no matter how miserable it is, she still survives with strength, but what about Ying?

But it's just because of a mere relationship problem, and he actually made himself so ashamed...

I can't get used to it, I really can't get used to it.

This kind of mentality is the same as that of a young entrepreneur who has managed to survive a little bit after getting used to hard times, and WSC, who didn’t know his fortune until after graduating from university, has a headache because he doesn’t know how to live in the future.

Xilin really wanted to scold Yingqi, but she finally took back those sharp words.

Sighing faintly, Sirin looked at Sakura whose eyes were gradually losing its brilliance, and said helplessly:

"I really don't know why you make yourself so uncomfortable. Isn't it normal for men to love women?"

"Normal...no...how can this be normal?"

Sakura's voice was erratic like smoke, filled with a strong sense of emptiness:

"How could I fall in love with Su Fei? I like it, obviously..."

"That little girl named Karen Kaslana?" Sirin interrupted Sakura directly, "I probably know something about her, and I know the relationship between you——she was your first love, Right?"

"……Eh?!"

Sakura perfectly expressed her doubts with her expression—how did you know?

Sirin snorted softly in her heart, and said to her heart that you think I want to know those things?Wasn't it forced by Qiyana, a dead girl!

Sometimes it's really not a good thing to be too curious, especially when you have a super doting boyfriend...

"She is your first love, so what?" Sirin continued directly: "So you have to remember her for the rest of your life, and even if she dies, you won't accept a new relationship?"

"……this is not……"

Isn't it natural? ——Sakura wanted to say this, but Sirin interrupted her words unceremoniously:

"Leaving aside the concept of love in the 21st century, even 500 years ago, remarriage was not uncommon, right? What's more, there is no ethical bondage between you and Karen, and your relationship is far from deep To the point where I am willing to be single for a dead person for the rest of my life.”

Sirin's words fell lightly, but Sakura's reaction was particularly intense.

"Carlen and I...how can you say that?!"

"Is there something wrong with what I said?" Sirin asked back, "Think about it carefully, Sakura, is the relationship between you and Kallen really love?"

Sakura's pupils instantly shrank into needle eyes——

"what?!"

"The primacy effect, the cocktail effect, the Mach belt phenomenon..." Sirin shook her head, "There are so many love psychology that can explain your situation that I don't even bother to mention them one by one. What you think of as 'love' means In the end, it is just an 'illusion' caused by the environment. To put it in a more fashionable way, it is at the wrong time, in the wrong place, met the wrong person, and did the wrong thing."

She looked at Sakura who was frowning tightly, and continued:

"To be honest, I don't think that the relationship between you and Karen was the love you thought. The time you spent together was too short. Compared with the status of 'lover', Karen's status in your heart is more like It is the last resort - what you love is not Kallen Kaslana, but the 'hope' she brings you."

Sirin sighed softly:

"Think about it differently. No matter who was in your environment at the time, they would probably devote all their emotions to Kallen, right? Because she is already your last hope. I can understand your choice at the time, but Also please think carefully, is that feeling really 'love'?

"Perhaps the story between you and Su Fei is completely pieced together by various accidents and accidents, which seems unconvincing, but it's not the case with Kallen?

"To put it bluntly, your understanding of Kallen may not be as good as Su Fei's, right?

"Do you know how old Kallen was?

"Do you know what Karen usually likes to eat the most?

"Do you know Kallen's dressing style?

"Do you know the personalities and identities of Kallen's friends and family?

"Do you know what kind of environment Karen has lived in since she was a child and what she has experienced?

"Do you know what angle and strength Kallen likes to kiss when kissing, and how long it usually lasts?

"No, you don't know, you don't know anything about Kallen's past and present, you just regard her as the last straw!

"What you fell in love with was just an idol named 'Love' that you fabricated!

"What you need is not a lover at all, but a 'target' who can express all the emotions in your heart!"

She shook her head and relaxed her tone again:

"In the novel that Su Fei recommended to me, there is a sentence that I like very much: Maybe because of not knowing dreams, wandering people chase phantoms... Think about it carefully, the two of us are indeed quite similar, we have both experienced the period of confusion in life , and because of this confusion, I set myself a target—"

Sirin looked at the bewildered Sakura seriously, and paused word by word:

"You pinned your 'love' on Kallen, and I gave my 'hate' to all human beings."

Hua Ling's words: The sentence in the title is actually from "Infinite Residents", but the revised version by SM Jiangnan is more in line with the meaning of the text, so I still use it.

By the way, I just remembered that this chapter was almost finished. It turned out that I had written similar content as early as Wang Jiang’s time. No wonder the first 500 words of the card took me more than an hour, and the last 1500 words were like a miracle. Done in less than 10 minutes...

Epilogue. Thoughts from 5000 years ago

What Sakura loves is not Kallen, but the phantom of love she fabricated.

What she needs has never been a beautiful or tortuous love, but the act of 'falling in love with someone' itself.

The so-called 'love for love's sake' is exactly that.