Conan: After being rescued, I just want to die quickly

"Let me go."

"I've done everything successfully. What else do I dissatisfy you with? You said before that my life is the biggest butterfly effect on them."

"So I hid after saving people, and I even started to actively die later."

"How far are you going to push me!"

Qian Yuanxi only felt that it was difficult to breathe, he was so wronged.

He had hoped that someone could stand in front of him at this time, or give him a hug, so that he could rely on him.

But over time.

He doesn't want to have any tenderness, and he also avoids warmth. When he sees the sun, he trembles all over.

He is afraid of the light and has become a coward.

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"Let me go."

"I want to go home."

Chihara Nozomi's voice was choked with sobs, and his helpless appearance made the world consciousness shut up.

"I want to go home."

Qian Yuanxi said it again, he was emphasizing that he was telling the world consciousness.

He wants to go home, he doesn't want to be in this world anymore.

His task has been completed, and even if he wanted to drain his value, World Consciousness did so.

So why not let him go.

The world consciousness saw this, but he still didn't open his mouth, how could he open his mouth to say "You have forgotten the way home".

However, even if he didn't say anything, Chihara Nozomi spoke.

"But I forgot."

——The boy forgot his way home.

"I can't remember what my family looks like."

"I even forgot what my home looked like."

Qian Yuanxi knew why he would forget, he had experienced too many worlds, every time he had to fully integrate into it, otherwise he would be rejected by the world.

Even if his state is not right, there will be a world consciousness to help him recover forcibly, and then continue to throw him to the next world.

His memory of home gradually became blurred, so he didn't know when he died for the first time. At that time, he realized that he had become a child who really had no home.

——A warm family, a happy family.

—he forgot.

He even forgot the way home.

When Qian Yuanxi thought of this, he suddenly laughed, "Actually, even if I don't die, I don't know where to go."

"I have no family, no friends, or even a place to live in this world."

"Sometimes I'm even glad that I can kill people, but I clearly remember that I was a policeman when I went to save people for the first time."

"I stood under the cherry tree and took graduation photos with Jing Guang and Brother Ling. We vowed to be a good policeman together."

"I should be firm in my beliefs and the bottom line that I can't kill people, but what am I like now?"

Qian Yuanxi said to himself, this time he didn't talk to the world consciousness, he just comforted himself.

The world consciousness clearly saw how the boy whispered to comfort his own emotions.

——The boy lowered his eyebrows and lowered his voice. He hummed to himself so that he would not be afraid, and even touched the top of his head with his hands.

It was as if there was really someone beside the boy, coaxing him softly, telling him not to be afraid.

……

For the first time, the world consciousness felt that he was confused in various aspects. He felt that human emotions became stronger in him, and he also knew that his mistakes could not be made up for.

How to make up for the mistakes made by the gods, not to mention that he is not a god.

He could only watch the boy's every move helplessly, he didn't dare to speak out to dissuade him, he kept silent and stood by his side.

He also accompanied the young man and listened to the sound of emergency rescue outside. He clearly heard the doctors outside became happy, and they were talking happily.

"The stopped heart beats again."

"Successfully saved the person."

The world awareness once again set its sights on the self-comforting young man. At that moment, he thought he knew why the young man was always able to save himself from danger every time he was on the verge of death.

——Because he was comforting himself.

——The boy is already very proficient.

"Look, I know better than you how you can't die. As long as I comfort myself, I won't die."

【Why didn't you give up on yourself this time. 】

World consciousness asked.

Qian Yuanxi's tone was full of hesitation, "Gin said that Scotland and Bourbon are on their way here. If I die in a place they don't know, they will be sad."

【Xiaoxi, you...】

"They will definitely feel more guilty and cry."

"I don't want to see them cry, so I figured I'd still like to say goodbye to them if I could."

After Qian Yuanxi finished speaking, he raised his head, and then he slowly stood up from the corner, and he walked forward slowly.

"When they cry, there's nothing I can do."

"And I don't even want to see Scotland cry." As he said, Nozomi Chihara pinched the corner of her clothes with her fingers, "Jing Guang is very kind and gentle."

"So I can't face Jing Guang who is crying. I don't have much resistance when Jing Guang is crying with red eyes."

【Xiaoxi, Scotland hasn't fully remembered what he did to you. 】

The world consciousness spoke suddenly, and Qian Yuanxi was stunned by what he said, and he was at a loss for a while.

Until he smiled wryly.

He was hopeless, and he was no longer like himself from the bottom of his heart, and even the value of his existence was no longer himself.

"You know how I judge I'm out of my mind?"

Qian Yuanxi spoke again, but this question made the world consciousness feel strange.

But he answered anyway.

【Did Xiaoxi suddenly discover it after dying countless times? 】

"Not really."

"Every one of them has tortured me countless times. When I start over again, I feel more guilty for them than I hate them."

"I knew I was sick."

——Forced to enjoy the pain of death, the uncontrollable guilt and worry, even the trembling that cannot be stopped just by approaching.

"I have no cure, and I am terminally ill, so a person like me is worthless, I can still live in this world."

The boy had issued a death notice to himself countless times in his heart, and he would die sooner or later.

Instead of wasting time saving him at this time, it is better to reunite with his family and return to a happy life.

Chapter 024

Before Qian Yuanxi opened his eyes, he heard a violent quarrel outside, and he even heard the sound of fighting clearly.

During the period, it seemed to hit something and made a loud noise.

Chihara Nozomi moved his fingers, then he opened his eyes, then he shook his head, trying to suppress the discomfort of his body, he wanted to see who was around.

"Xiao Xi."

It's Scotland.

Chihara Nozomi's movements were stiff, his eyes didn't look carefully, and he even vaguely wanted to retract his gaze. His move was noticed by Scotland, who kept a safe distance.

He listened to the doctor's words, and he couldn't let Qian Yuanxi be stimulated again.

Scotland lowered his voice, his voice sounded like he had been crying for a long time, Chihara Nozomi didn't see Scotland's eyes.

But even so, Chihara Nozomi can imagine Scotland crying with red eyes.

"Xiao Xi, did Qin Jiu bully you?"

"Xiaoxi, don't be afraid, Gin won't come here again, there's bourbon outside, and I'm still here."

Scotland seemed to be coaxing a child. After he finished speaking, he looked up, and all he saw was Qian Yuanxi who turned his head and stared at him at some point.

"Jing Guang, you go back."

"I'm talking about going back... I mean going back to the police."

Qian Yuanxi was still telling everyone to leave, and the world consciousness did not interrupt again, he just watched the boy's persistent movements, and his eyes were extraordinarily serious.

When Zhu Fu Jingguang heard this, he was stunned, and then panicked: "Xiaoxi, I will not disturb Xiaoxi's life."

Qian Yuanxi was just silent, watching Zhu Fu Jingguang's actions, and then he sighed: "Jing Guang, your parents didn't die because of the murderer."

In a word, the ward fell silent.

It was so quiet that Zhu Fu Jingguang seemed to hear the sound of his own heart beating. He stared at Qianyuan Xi intently, but Qianyuan Xi struggled to sit up.

He raised his hand to pull out the infusion tube, only then did Zhu Fu Jingguang come back to his senses, and he hurried forward to stop Qian Yuanxi's movement and self-abuse behavior.

"Xiao Xi! What are you doing!"

"These things are useless to my body." Qian Yuanxi struggled, looking at Zhu Fu Jingguang with a bit more grievance.

When Zhu Fu Jingguang heard this, he thought of what the doctor said was powerless.

——"The patient's will to survive is not strong. If something happens again, there is nothing we can do."

Thinking of this, his throat felt dry, and then his hand touched Qian Yuanxi's bandaged wrist, and there was no good place for the two wrists.

Thinking of this, his heart was filled with bitterness, and he groped with his fingers, which made Qian Yuanxi feel itchy.

"Xiao Xi, I'm sorry."

Zhu Fu Jingguang apologized, but Qian Yuanxi was a little surprised. He wanted to say that he didn't need to apologize, but Zhu Fu Jingguang kept his head down.

"I can't ignore it. Those things in my mind are like a thorn, and he can't wear it off when he gets stuck there."

"I know that my approach will make Xiaoxi very painful, and Xiaoxi is also very afraid of my approaching. Although it is not as obvious as Gin, Xiaoxi's body will not deceive people."

"I do not know what to do."

Zhu Fu Jingguang almost cried out these few words, he lowered his head after speaking, waiting for Qian Yuanxi's verdict.

Seeing Zhu Fu Jingguang's breakdown, Qian Yuanxi pretended to be relaxed, trying to appease Zhu Fu Jingguang's emotions.

He is very good at it.

He put his hand on top of Zhu Fu Jingguang's head, then rubbed it childishly, "Really, Brother Jingguang, what are you doing?"

"I never blamed you. You don't need to take those things to yourself. It will make you very uncomfortable."

"But Xiaoxi, it's very painful."

"Are you in pain? Do you want a hug?" Qian Yuanxi wanted to hold Zhu Fu Jingguang in her arms as she spoke, but she just made a move.

Zhu Fu Jingguang pursed his lips and shook his head, then he raised his head.There was a bit more bitterness in the eyes: "I'm talking about Xiaoxi's pain."

"I'm not in a lot of pain, I just can't control myself, that's all."

Qian Yuanxi started to lie. He has done this kind of thing many times, and he summed up his experience.

Don't panic at this time, just lie calmly.

In a sentence, seven points are true and three points are false.