Honkai, the behind-the-scenes simulator

[In my case, it is impossible. 】

[At least, not yet. 】

[Obviously, I felt before that the power hidden in my heart seems to be gradually released. 】

[But now, why is it still so powerless? 】

[Could it be that what Teresa and the others can do, they can't do after all? 】

【Seele can realize that his current situation may be very dangerous. 】

[It may be that the Houkai beast here has not been cleaned up, or it may be that the Houkai that has subsided has broken out again. 】

[If it is for personal safety, it is wise to leave here quickly. 】

【But......】

[Can't go. 】

[Can't leave. 】

[She doesn't want to go through things like running away in embarrassment without leaving others behind. 】

[She can go to save others but turn around and leave this kind of thing, she doesn't want to experience it anymore. 】

[I don't want to see someone get hurt, someone die, someone suffer, someone cry. 】

[I am pursuing power with this thought in mind. 】

【If I escape here...】

【Doesn't that mean that these awareness and beliefs are nothing but empty talk? 】

【If I choose to run away here, then even if I can really awaken the power of consciousness, I am just a cowardly weak person, and I will always be. 】

[Seele takes a long breath. 】

【Beside my ears, there is the terrified cry of the child who was crushed under the beam. 】

【She knew that she couldn't move the beams away with her own strength, so she turned to clean up the wreckage of the buildings that were pressing on the beams. 】

【You can't save him. 】

[In a trance, Seele seemed to hear such a voice in his heart. 】

[You know, you have no strength, even if you want to save him in your heart, you can't do it at all. 】

【"No...I can save him, I can do it."】

【Seele told himself so in his heart, and at the same time stretched out his hand to vigorously push the top bricks connected by cement. 】

【The brick and stone bound by cement immediately rolled down to the ground following her movements. 】

【Your strength is too weak. With this strength, you can't save the person you want to save. 】

【"Although I don't have enough strength, I can move away the bricks and rubble piled up on this beam little by little, and then I can move that beam."】

[Seele continues to repeat the previous work. 】

【"Help me! Come and save me! My leg is gone!" The child who was crushed by the beam cried. 】

【"Don't be afraid, I'll rescue you right now." Seele turned his head, with a gentle smile on his face, and then continued to try to move all the wreckage of the building that was pressing on the beam. 】

【Even if you save her, so what?There will be more people dying where you can't see. 】

[Compared to that, the people you saved are meaningless at all. 】

【"No......"】

【Seele gritted his teeth slightly, and continued to exert force with his hands. 】

【"In any case, at least my actions can save the person in front of me now, isn't that enough?"】

【It was also in that experiment that among hundreds of people, only a few were lucky enough to survive.Others have access to great power, but only you do not. 】

【It's not fair. 】

[If you can also obtain that kind of power, then you can easily save the person in front of you at this time. 】

【If you can get the same power, then you can do better, better than them. 】

[Instead of being so powerless like now. 】

【You are jealous of them. 】

【"wrong......"】

[I don't know when, Seele's slender white fingers were stained with bright red blood. 】

【She didn't seem to realize it, she didn't care about the pain from her hand at all. 】

【"Everyone is working hard to do what they can do."】

【"No one of them will live up to the power in their hands, and their power is also a product of their own hearts."】

【"If you want to say that I can do better than them, then it is just a lie."】

【"Compared to these, the more important thing is..."】

【"Things I can do."】

[Obviously I survived the experiment with a very high mortality rate, so I should gain strength. 】

【Dr. Lu, why don't you want to help me and let me get that power?If he is willing to help me, he can do it... I won't be as powerless as I am now. 】

【"wrong......"】

【Seele subconsciously looks down at the camera hanging on his chest. 】

【"Dr. Lu has given us the same chance. Compared with those who died, I can already be called lucky."】

【"We...are not qualified to ask others to do things for themselves."】

【She raised her hand as if she wanted to touch the camera hanging on her chest, but when she saw the blood on her hand, she put it down again. 】

【"Friends, companions, opportunities to gain strength, a place to stay... I am very lucky to be able to gain these after losing all of me."】

【She was about to continue to say something when she was interrupted by a cry from her ear. 】

["Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo up!

【Seele froze for a moment, pursed his lips lightly, and then continued the rescue work. 】

[The child who escaped earlier should be his older brother or younger brother, right?Even his family members abandoned him, so why should I meddle in my own business here? 】

[I have no obligation to save others. Even if I succeed in saving him, he may not be grateful to me, but more likely to complain why I couldn't save him earlier. 】

【"However, I hope to save him, not because I want to get his gratitude."】

【Seele whispered, resisting the exhaustion and pain in his hands and continuing to work. 】

【"I just don't want to see someone get hurt in front of me, I don't want to see someone die in front of my eyes, that's all... that's all."】

[My current actions are nothing more than hypocrisy in the final analysis, seeking psychological comfort for myself. 】

[It seems that I am saving others, but in fact I just want to save my past self. I hope that I will not experience the powerlessness I once experienced again. 】

【"So, what's wrong? No matter what the reason for this thought is, I don't want to see anyone get hurt in front of me again, and I don't want to see anyone die in front of me again."】

【"I don't like to reproduce the pain I suffered in the past, no matter what!"】

【Seele felt the pain and numbness from his hands, panting tiredly, but the movements of his hands still didn't slow down in the slightest. 】

【"At least now, I am no longer the powerless little girl I used to be. Now I have something I can do. I can save the people I want to save!"】

【"And this is what I am now..."】

[The building wreckage piled up on the beams has been removed. 】

【She put all her strength on the heavy beam that was holding down the child, and this time she managed to shake the heavy wood a little bit. 】

【"...things you want to do."】

【Seele's dark blue eyes seemed to be flickering with some kind of extremely bright light. 】

[At a certain moment, she gradually felt that the heavy object that was unshakable to her before seemed to be slowly becoming lighter. 】

【but......】

[He seems to be dead. 】

【Seele suddenly realized something, his expression froze, and his hand movements stopped suddenly. 】

[The child who was crying for help before seemed to have lost his voice for a long time. 】

【She was silent, and moved her hand away from the beam that seemed to be easily shaken. 】

[In the previously dark blue eyes, the extraordinarily bright light flickering before is gradually dimming now. 】

【Seele pursed her lips, moved slowly, and walked to the side of the child who had completely quieted down. 】

【She stretched out her hand, as if she wanted to touch the child's body, but she subconsciously retracted her fingers before touching it. 】

[She noticed the strange purple-black veins on the child's body. 】

[This is a trace of being corroded by Houkai. 】

【"Well."】

【Seele raised his hand, tightly covered his forehead, and clenched his teeth. 】

【He is dead. 】

【I thought I could save him... But it turns out that I can't do it at all. 】

[If my strength can be stronger, will the outcome of the matter be different? 】

[I couldn't do it. 】

[If someone else is here instead of me, then there must be a different ending, right? 】

【"what......"】

【Seele covered his face with both hands, and let out a particularly labored panting sound. 】

[I thought I had become stronger. 】

[I myself think that I have come out of the weak past. 】

[I think that even if I cannot save everyone in the end, I can still save the people in front of me. 】

【I don't want to see any more tragedies. 】

【But, the reality in front of me is proving to me...】

【I can't at all. 】

【"Plop."】

【The girl's knee falls to the ground feebly. 】

[This kind of thing is actually... not a big deal, is it? 】

[Honkai...It is normal for someone to die. 】

[People will have things they can't do, and it is reasonable to have moments when they are full of hope but should be disappointed. 】

[The most important thing is, no matter what, you must cheer up and cheer up——]

[Seele tries to forcibly pull himself together and pull himself together. 】

【But she felt that her mind was in a mess, with countless miscellaneous thoughts constantly surging up. 】

【"Well--!"】

[She hugs her head in pain. 】

[The scenes that she thought she had walked out in the past kept reappearing in front of her. 】

【In this case, don't I still have nothing changed compared to the past? 】

[My self-righteous consciousness and will are nothing but jokes after all. 】

[Even if the words are nice, I still can't lie to myself. 】

[I'm still the...coward from the past. 】

【But, even so...】