A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

"Lin Xi, why did you come here, get in the car quickly."

Just when I was at a loss, there was a loud car horn behind me.Looking back, it was Mu Yuan who was not very familiar with him and whom he had met a few times.

"Why are you here?" I looked at Mu Yuan's head when the window was rolled down.Curiously, he looked up into the car, but didn't see the familiar figure.

I lowered my head in frustration, feeling a little uncomfortable, after all he was still avoiding me.

"I came out to help you find someone, no, I didn't find him, I found you first!" Mu Yuan laughed, his eyes dodged, as if he didn't want to have a direct confrontation with me.

Naturally, I don't believe his clumsy excuse. If I hadn't followed him all the way, how could I have found this place.Besides, here, there is not even a decent house.

I didn't snort, neither questioned nor objected to his answer.After all, in this wilderness, it is better to be found by someone than no one knows, and it is better to suffer the cold here alone.

I opened the door on the back seat and got into the car in a depressed mood. "Let's go."

"That's right." Mu Yuan responded with a smile, looked back at me, and then drove away.

I don't know much about Mu Yuan, the only thing that impressed me deeply about him was the way he talked eloquently in the Starry Sky Library.

He is a person who always gives people a very strange feeling. Sometimes, he looks evil, charming and perverted, and his personality is uncertain.

But sometimes, it's very pleasing to look at him, especially when facing An Jinnian, he looks like a carefree old lady.

And that's what I'm curious about him.

"Did Xu Yan find it?" The warm air was turned on inside the car, and the temperature was suitable, much warmer than the temperature outside the car.

Mu Yuan shook his head, staring straight ahead at the detour ahead. "Don't worry, she will be fine. Now, the An and Shen families are looking for someone for you, and there will be news soon."

This section of the journey is not easy to walk, and the place is relatively remote.Probably because I have been paranoid about Xu Yan's disappearance, I ran here inadvertently. "Sorry to trouble you."

"Don't worry, feel free to come to me if you have anything to do in the future, there is nothing troublesome." Mu Yuan said straightforwardly.

I was still polite, "Thank you when it's time to thank you."

On the way back, I made seven turns and eight turns all the way.The road is not smooth, causing the car to bump.Afraid of shaking me unconscious, Mu Yuan deliberately lowered the speed of the car.

In order to make the time easier, I started to have nothing to say, "How long have you known Jinnian."

"It's been five years, we've known each other since the year he went abroad." Mu Yuan replied sincerely. "To be honest, I didn't think much of you before. But now, I'm more optimistic about you."

His words implied deep meaning, and I was in a fog when I heard them. "What's the meaning."

Mu Yuan sighed, "I don't want to talk too much about you, anyway, you should be more considerate of Jin Nian, it's not easy for him."

Sure enough, it was the same as what I had guessed, "Tell me, is Jin Nian hiding something from me?" I asked softly, hiding the turmoil in my heart.

"Well, it's not that I won't tell you, you can ask him yourself if you have anything. If I tell you, he will have to pick me up..."

"Sure enough, something is hiding from me." I muttered to myself.

"I assure you, Jinnian is doing it for your own good, so don't worry too much." Mu Yuan said solemnly, "And for all these years, he has loved you only from beginning to end. You must believe in the relationship between the two of you." Feelings."

The look in my eyes lit up, "Really."

"Really, I can 100% prove this point. Moreover, he has paid a lot for you." Mu Yuan's voice gradually weakened, and there was a bit of sadness in his voice, "He has had a very bad life over the years. "

My heart ached for no reason, I frowned and asked, "Can you tell me why he left that year."

Why leave without saying goodbye, leave me so easily, and leave all the pain to me.

In the past, I always thought that I was the only one suffering.Until Mu Yuan said just now that he has had a very bad life for so many years.Only then did I realize that it was the two of us who were living in pain, torturing each other for so many years.That also shows that he has been hiding some things from me since five years ago, and he has been hiding them thoroughly.

For Mu Yuan, I don't have any hope for him.I know that, as An Jinnian's friend and brother, he will not betray him just because of a few words from me.

But with the affirmation of his words, I also firmly believe that An Jinnian's departure back then was due to difficulties.

"This..." Mu Yuan hesitated to speak, and looked back at me in embarrassment, "You should ask him yourself, or you can wait, anyway, one day you will know the truth."

"Really?" But I didn't want to wait a day.If there is really any difficulty, I would rather bear it with him than to torture each other and miss each other as it is now.

"Yeah, anyway, the truth will come out one day, and you probably won't have to wait too long that day." Mu Yuan's expression darkened, "There will always be a result between you."

I looked out of the car melancholy, "But Mu Yuan, do you know? I would rather he tell me everything and bear it together with him, than I want him to bear everything by himself. In a person's life, the long-term Long or short, I just hope that in our lifetimes, we can cherish every minute and every second we spend together."

"It is said that we writers are a particularly hypocritical creature, but it is not true. We just dragged the obsession in the book into the real world, maintained the perfect love concept, and convinced ourselves with the point of view that we only love one person in our life. Then I fell into it. Maybe in today's society, beautiful love is too fairy tale, but An Jinnian is the beginning of a fairy tale to me. If I can't be with him in this life, then I will die alone... ..." I was so absorbed in this long speech that I fell into my thoughts.

yes!I will die alone, if I can't stay with the one I love for the rest of my life, then what else in this life is worth my nostalgia.In my life, after all, I only love one person.

"If Jinnian listened to what you said, he must have another thought."

"I wish he'd heard it."

"Hehe, don't worry, maybe one day he will know what you want." Mu Yuan touched the mobile phone placed on the workbench, and said inexplicably.

I smiled wryly and pursed my lips, "So what if he knows, he will push me out and give it to different people."

"You don't have to be sad, he's doing it for your own good." Mu Yuan persuaded, "Besides, you still have a long way to go. If you take a long-term view, there will always be a way out."

"Really? But this ending is not what I want."

"I figured it out. It turns out that both of you are stubborn, and you don't let the other go. In the end, you both pushed yourself to a desperate situation."

"I hope so. Maybe he will confess to me then."

Before you know it, the car has arrived in the urban area.

Mu Yuan manipulated the steering wheel and asked, "Should I take you home, or..."

"Is there anything about Xu Yan?"

"Not yet, I'll call you if I do."

"Okay, then send me back first."

"it is good."

In the room, it was quiet, but after going out for a few hours, when I came back, I felt that things were different.Xu Yan still hasn't come back, her bedroom door is still wide open, and the furnishings in the living room are still the same as when I went out.

After walking all the way, I didn't realize until I got home that my legs and feet were aching.Then he assumed a comfortable posture, leaned tiredly on the sofa, closed his eyes and meditated.

There are too many things happening recently.So much so that before I could regain my senses, I was caught off guard again.

It has been a day and a night since Xu Yan disappeared.I was so anxious that I no longer had the idea of ​​dozing off.

The chaotic picture in my mind reminds me all the time that Xu Yan is missing and has not been found until now.

In the evening, I called An Jinnian and Shen Ke again, but the answer was that their whereabouts were still unknown.

Yu Sheng was afraid that I would do something stupid when I was anxious and worried, so he came here and told me.

He couldn't leave the set because of the start of the filming of the new play. After coming over, he only said a few words to me, and then left in a hurry.

At night, I lay on the sofa, hugging the pillows on the sofa, afraid to fall asleep, for fear that Xu Yan would not find me when she came back in the middle of the night, and would be worried.
I turned on the lights in the living room and balcony one by one, and it became the most eye-catching scenery in the community.

Only then did I realize that without Xu Yan by my side, my world was so empty and lonely, and I was at a loss what to do.

The darkness around me was like an invisible net, tightening towards me bit by bit.

In order to break the eerie silence, I turned on the TV and turned the volume to the maximum.Then, amidst the loud noises in the room, I found a little sense of security that belonged to me.

Maybe it's because the TV's sound is too loud, and the penetrating sound of the wall is too strong.It didn't take long before people from the left and the right came to knock on the door and complained to the property owner that I was disturbing the people.

The property was pushed to the door of Xu Yan's house by a lot of landlords, who conveyed to me the meaning of the landlords several times in a tactful tone.I go in one ear and out the other, enjoying the occasional visits from the landlords to find fault.

It was a long and difficult late night. While waiting for Xu Yan's news, my heart never calmed down, but the only thing I could do was to divert my attention and make myself nervous. Tensioned emotions can be relaxed.

In the middle of the night, there was still no news from Xu Yan, I immediately lost all patience, and started walking back and forth in the room restlessly, grabbing the pillows on the sofa angrily, and throwing them everywhere.

Emotional out of control, I did not expect.

There is only one voice left in my mind, I must find Xu Yan, and nothing will happen to her.

After staying up until midnight, I finally collapsed unavoidably, squatting alone in the corner behind the living room door, crying bitterly.The suppressed emotions in the bottom of my heart also flowed out with tears.

The heart-piercing cries quickly aroused the dissatisfaction of the landlords.

The constant knocking on the door hit my eardrums, forcing me to panic and feel helpless.