A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

When An Jin was here, I had already cried so much that I squatted behind the door and refused to open it no matter what.

With gentle words, he dismissed all the landlords who came to ask for an explanation, and after repeatedly apologizing, he called the property owner, took a spare key and opened the door.

"Why are you squatting here and not going back to your room to rest?" After the door was opened, his tone of reproach and helplessness came from him.

I looked up, with tears in my eyes, looking at his figure blurred by my tears, and lost my mind for a moment. "Why are you here..." I choked up from crying, and my voice was even more twitching, which was ugly.

He stretched out his hand to support me, his eyes were raised, and Gujing Wubo's face showed a trace of distress, "I called someone to check on your situation, and the person who reported it said that your side is noisy and there is a lot of movement. I'm worried that you will come out. What's the matter, come and see."

I pouted aggrievedly, and said in my hoarse crying voice, "Didn't you say you wanted to draw a line with me? Why are you still here?"

He lowered his head, "Yes, we have drawn a clear line. The reason why you help me now is because of the old feelings."

"Really? That's it." I raised my red and swollen eyes from crying, and glanced at him with a gaze that was still indistinct. "Then you are really righteous."

With his support, I sat on the sofa, and the consciousness in my mind became clearer.Perhaps because of An Jinnian's presence, he was no longer so afraid of the loneliness of the room.

"It's midnight, why don't you go back to your room and rest first," An Jinnian suggested.

I shook my head, "Xu Yan hasn't found it yet, so I don't worry."

"Don't worry, I'll be on guard here, and I'll call you as soon as I have news." He sat down diagonally across from me, the shadow of his bangs on his forehead covered half of his face under the light, and let me I can't read the deep thought on his face.

"No, I'm very sorry for bothering Mr. An to come over in the middle of the night, and I dare not work any more." I leaned on a corner of the sofa, wrapped my hands around my legs, buried my head between my arms, and fell into deep self-blame.

Look, I have such ability. In front of An Jinnian, I am weak and boneless, vulnerable to a single blow.

The tears seemed more like they didn't want money, they fell one by one, and soon, a lot of clothes were wet from crying.But I buried all these anomalies in my arms, he couldn't see it, he didn't know it, only his shoulders twitched from time to time.

I also thought about throwing myself into his arms and crying bitterly, but I didn't want him to see me in a panic again.

The previous embarrassment did not bring back his distress, so now that he is in embarrassment, there is nothing worth using.

Since he wants to hide, I will cooperate with him and play the roles that we each need to play.

Then, in this play of true feelings, each was out. "Lin Xi, you don't have to do this." After a long time, he murmured as if he had seen through my disguise.

I buried my head and wiped my eyes vigorously on my knees before raising my head to look at him.

His vision was still blurred, and he still couldn't see his perfectly contoured face.

Under the light, he is quiet and peaceful, like a statue carefully carved by people, the beauty is indistinct, like a dream.

After seeing my appearance, he paused for a moment, "Xu Yan will be fine..." His words seemed to be comforting, but also seemed to be just telling me.

I still looked up at him, staring intently, "How do you know she's okay, what if something happens to her!"

"You trust me, you won't."

"Believe you, An Jinnian, what do you want me to believe in you? Is it your feelings for me, or your inseparable feeling of being good about yourself." His words inexplicably annoyed me.The nameless anger in my heart also burned in an instant. "Or do you think that everyone will leave without saying goodbye..." The words suddenly got stuck in his throat and he couldn't speak.

Such a picture is not what I want. In fact, I just want to talk to him more, so that he will not be so cold to me.

However, as soon as the words came out of my mouth, the taste changed, and it went beyond my heart.

An Jinnian stood up suddenly, his face pale, as if he was trying to hide something.

He turned his back on me, raised his hands to cover his face and coughed lightly twice, his breathing was disordered, showing a trace of unusualness.

Under the rage, I didn't have the mood to care about these details at all. Watching him turn around suddenly, the anger in my heart found an outlet to vent.The voice also quietly became louder in this quiet living room, "Why, I dare not face it anymore. You have come here confidently for so many years, but now you can't stand my provocation with these few words?"

He coughed a few more times, his voice was low and weak, as if he had been soaked in cotton, "No, Lin Xi, I have never felt guilty about you."

Don't feel guilty?
I was so choked by his words that I no longer had the courage to refute.If I don't feel guilty, then my persistence and recklessness have become a joke.

At least I used to hold his guilt, and hoped for his change of heart.

But love is often the most incomprehensible thing, just like when it comes, it is silent, and when it leaves, there are thunder and lightning, like a violent storm.

"Let's go." I softened my voice, not wanting him to see my embarrassment again.

Even though I told Mu Yuan so much about me and An Jinnian during the day, once I got in touch with him, the facts would be beyond my control.

From the beginning to the end, I couldn't bear it. His indifference and ruthlessness towards me, even if it was a disguise, I couldn't bear it.

"Okay." He responded and ran away.

The brisk and loud sound of the leather shoes landing gradually faded away as the living room door opened and closed.

I closed my eyes, my heart was pierced like a knife, and I let the silence of the room overwhelm me.

The figure of An Jinnian walking out is still lingering in my mind, as if the me just now was just a dream.In the dream, we broke up unhappy and ended in tragedy.

This is how I spent the rest of the night in my own trance.Because of staying up all night, the eyes that were red and swollen from crying were particularly eye-catching.

As a result of a sleepless night, apart from the thick dark circles under the eyes, only a dull head remained.

At eight o'clock in the morning, I was about to call Shen Ke with my mobile phone to ask about the search results.

But the mobile phone was heavy in his hand, his fingers touched the screen, and he pressed the dial key, but he didn't dial the number for a long time. 
The confusion of consciousness, sometimes good and sometimes bad, I clearly remembered the action of pressing down, but the moment my fingers touched the number, I lost consciousness and fell asleep for a moment.

After repeating this several times, I finally couldn't resist, and fell asleep on the sofa with my head tilted.

When I woke up completely, it was already noon, and the light that poured into the living room through the balcony shone on my body, making me feel warm.

In his hand, he was still clutching the mobile phone that he planned to call Shen Ke when he was going to sleep.I checked the time, it was twelve o'clock at noon.

I just woke up, and I sat up from the sofa in fright, and dialed Shen Ke's phone very quickly.

I really didn't expect that I would fall asleep exhausted because I stayed up until dawn, so I missed the business, and I couldn't help blaming myself a little more in my heart.

"Hello, Lin Xi."

"Shen Ke, did Xu Yan find it?" As soon as the call was connected, I blurted out, the anxiety in my heart was more serious than yesterday.

Shen Ke said vaguely, "Don't look for her, she has already gone home."

"Go home, what do you mean?" I didn't understand, I couldn't understand what he meant.There was obviously no one in Xu Yan's bedroom, the bedroom door was still wide open, and there was no one in the living room, so how could it be said that she had gone home.

"She..." Shen Ke stammered, hesitant to speak.

I was anxious, "Oh! What happened to her, you should tell me quickly."

"I don't know how to tell you, you'd better watch the news or watch TV."

"What's going on." I was completely stunned, and I didn't understand what Shen Ke meant by watching the news or watching TV.

"Let's take a look first." After Shen Ke finished speaking, he hung up the phone. Obviously, he didn't know how to explain what was happening to Xu Yan.

I had no choice but to switch to the news interface with my mobile phone, and then turn on the TV to watch in both directions.

The first thing that catches the eye is the eye-catching red headline on the screen of the mobile phone, "Miss Xu's family who has been silent for many years in Jiangzhou has finally surfaced." Yes, and a clear photo.

I opened my eyes wide and looked at the person in the photo in disbelief. It was Xu Yan who had been missing for two days.

In the photo, she smiled sweetly, and the jeweled face exuded on her delicate melon seed face was completely different from the usual Xu Yan.

Like that, she is full of grace and luxury, like a lotus emerging from water, and she is so beautiful.

I'm used to Xu Yan's usual domineering, overbearing and unreasonable behavior.Now she suddenly gave birth to a strange feeling in my heart.

Our friendship has been with each other for seven years, from tit for tat at the beginning to being inseparable later.From ignoring each other at the beginning, to sympathizing with each other later.

Those are all testimonies of our friendship, but now someone suddenly told me that the Xu Yan I knew was just an illusion she had disguised for so many years.

What a ridiculous deception that must have been. It turned out that our seven-year friendship was no match for the defense in her heart.

The Xu family, the largest Xu family jewelry group in Jiangzhou, one of the four major families, also has the surname Xu, so I never expected it.The person who stayed by my side for seven years, the friend of seven years, turned out to be the famous Xu family's eldest lady.

That Miss Xu family who never showed up in front of the media and was always mysterious.Same as An Jinnian's identity as Young Master An, they are actually the closest people to me.

It can be seen what a ridiculous joke this is. The person I love the most, after being lost for five years, suddenly returns in another way, standing at a place less than an inch away from me, but out of reach, facing me. The world announced his status as aloof.

Now, the friends who have stayed by my side for many years, the people who dragged me out of the abyss when I was down.Returning with glory as the young lady of the Xu family.

But I was still acting like a fool, worried about her safety, crying until I collapsed.

But what about her!The phone was turned off, without even an explanation, and in a place I didn't know, she returned as the eldest lady of the Xu family.Standing at the place closest to me, speaking the words farthest from me in the posture of a superior person.

I smiled wryly, burst into tears, and the spirit that I finally regained was all scarred at this moment.

I still can't let go of the fact that the two people closest to me set up such a big plan for me, but I still foolishly believed it.