Lingering to the Bone: The President's Way of Chasing His Wife

During the following period of time, nothing bad happened to Zhang Yichen and his family.

Everyone thought that in the next period of time, everyone could live a life of their own, but who knew that gradually more and more troublesome things appeared at home, and they gradually became overwhelmed and didn't know what to do. What kind of method do you use to deal with the troubles at home, watching the house in a mess, but you can't do anything, even if you want to, you can't help, you can only look at the house by yourself, and move towards yourself completely. Go in the direction you don't want to see.Could it be that the answer I want most is to let my family members live a happy and happy life, even if my family members have brought too much harm to me, but all that has already passed, why do I want to live again? It's too difficult for me to be preoccupied and hold on to the past.

"Mom and Dad, for all the things in the past, I will not ask now, who is right and who is wrong, and I will not care about the right and wrong of those things in the past. In my eyes, as long as everyone is happy and happy , It is enough for us to go through the most difficult period of time, that may be the saddest period of our life for us, but we have already experienced so many storms, why bother to pursue What kind of life did we live before? All we want is to be happy, right?

I just watched the life we ​​wanted the most turned into the life we ​​hated the most. I have become accustomed to this, and there is no change in that feeling. I really hate it, and I have no way to accept it. I live in my world, and I have no way to make all this as if it never happened. If it is possible, I hope to give me the most straightforward feeling, so that I can forget all the unhappiness, all Unhappiness allows me to live the life I want most. "

Even if his own children don't tell him, Xia Jing still understands in his heart that it used to be a kind of pain forever, no matter how much time has passed, no matter whether we are living together now, that kind of harm will not be caused by anyone leaving , and will not be forgotten because of the passing of time, it has left a deep imprint in the depths of his soul.

In fact, he himself didn't know when and where he became like this. The original self could consider the overall situation and give up everything he cared about for the overall situation, but when that day really came, I myself Still timid and shrunk back from myself, or chose to give up on myself, the things that should be guarded and cherished the most, and the best happy times that belonged to me, and chose to adjust to the rough and difficult, hard to forget difficulties the road.

"Yichen, in fact, I have asked myself repeatedly, if time gives me another chance, what kind of choice will I make, whether I will still follow the same path as before, maybe That is a kind of harm to myself. I also understand that the harm I caused to you will never be forgotten in this life. He has left deep marks in your soul, and there is no way to erase those marks Yes, I don't know what kind of method I should use to get along with you and communicate with you. We used to be the best people, we were the closest relatives, but now we are not even as good as strangers.

Even if they are strangers, two people will still greet each other when they see each other, and he will still smile silently, but now we, it is so difficult for us to give each other a smile, I gave you a smile, but I But I can never get a little bit of joy from you to me. In your eyes, I will never be a qualified mother. I know the mistakes I have made, and I can't forget them and let you let them go , after all, he has brought you deep pressure and hurt, how I wish all this can stay like this forever.

I used to be different from what I am now. I used to be much better than now. Now I am even afraid of myself. Do you know that when I saw your wife in the hospital looking crazy, I Empathize with me, I had the same difficult time during that time, although I was not half crazy, but the decision in my heart was exactly the same as his, I can understand the despair and pain in his heart, even the fear of losing, but I I have never cherished what I once had. I just abandoned all the things I should have the most. I used the way I was least willing to forgive to hurt those who I loved and wanted to protect the most. .

In your eyes, I am not a qualified mother, I am not even a qualified daughter-in-law, because I abandoned my father, abandoned my children, and abandoned my happy family. The peaceful family has become a broken look. I have caused everyone in the family to suffer pain that will never be forgotten in a lifetime. I want to make it as if it never happened, even if it is just a dream. For me, I will be much happier, and my heart is not as guilty as it is now. I took your father and left this house. Do you know that I have regretted it for so many years, and I have been in my heart all the time over the years Deeply blaming myself for my unfeeling, I feel guilty all the time for the little mistakes I have made. I made my family pay attention to all the pain, but I lived happily outside. I don’t understand the original how did i do it

How I've let everyone in my family down on me and how I've let everyone down in my family on me.

I'm really scared now. I don't know whether everything I do is right or wrong. The mistakes I have made, I will never be able to make up for them. I know that I can only use this way in my life. To make it, I can only use this way to get myself to the way I am now in my whole life. I hope that time will give me another chance, so that I can go back to decades ago, so that I will not go on the road I am today. , so that I could make the choice I should have made at that time, the person I should protect the most, stay by their side forever, and never leave them forever, even if there is hurt deep in their heart, I am willing to heal them. not betrayal"